De one with Friends In Life

Raining all of a sudden

Yesterday, I took a quick browse at the horoscope section when reading the newspaper. Under my star sign Leo, it mentioned that love will progress in the right direction. Hmm.. I should cross my fingers this time.. lunch and dinner... hmm.. hoping the spark will rise into a desirable eternal flame.

Ok.. that's not the main issue. Today's topic dawn upon me when I cried twice over a movie which a special person lent me. Sigh. Well... don't bother asking which movie it was. That's not the spotlight today. Hehe... Today.. I'm going to talk about Friends.

I was born an extremely shy guy. Well, thank goodness I'm improving but somehow, I'm still shy towards certain people now. Ermm.. anyway, I had very limited social skills. End up, I grew up independently, having the mindset that friends ain't important. Henceforth, I only made selected friends.

I didn't have specific primary school friends (refer to Education Saga Ep3). During secondary school, Alan was most worth mentioning, followed by Yuyan and Zarina. Later in JC, I made less but closer and lasting friends whom I keep in contact with currently: Tribal Gang, Shu Qing and Shelby. Even such, I kept alot to myself. And it was further supported when I relied heavily on my first relationship towards the end of JC 1. Unknowingly, it developed into an ego.

This ego of living in a world without friends' concern was crumpled towards the end of JC when my life faced an disastrous torture: A break-up. I remember I was completely lost. Couldn't do anything. Hence, it directly affected my A levels and NS enlistment eventually. THANKFULLY, a friend helped me out of my sh*t just a month before I went to Tekong. It was then that I finally realised "a friend in need, is a friend indeed".

This idiom was proven even more truthful during (enhanced) BMT and SISPEC. Most mentionable were my buddy, Wei Jie (my BMT buddy who cared and have alwasy encouraged me) and my SISPEC mates like Kenneth (currently a sign-on in ADF) and Yin Kang (my most close SISPEC mate).

Later, in ASC (Artillery Specialist Course) where I had Mohan, Bo Jun, Jonathan Chua, Ting Lin and 23SA where all the specialists were very nice to me, especially Chin Yu, Guo Xian and my endearing bunkmates (not forgetting my commander 2SG Eddy).

Currently, Zhen Ze, Guang Hui and Andrew in SIM.

Of course, I didn't learn only from my education and NS liability meetings with people. Besides, I learnt alot from my personal human interactions too. Untimately, I sorta got enlightened most from my unsuccessful love relationships. Here's the catch : "Love doesn't last, necessarily. Friendship does, as compared to love."

Indeed, I learnt alot from dating -A-. Friends does matter. Now back to why I cried when watching the show mentioned earlier. The scene where the heartbroken guy was comforted by his friends, each in their own ways, reminded me of how my friends were always there to support me when I was down...

- Yuyan, Clara and Mohan helped me deal with my post relationship difficulties during secondary school, post JC and army respectively. (My bros and friends like Andrew Lau helped me too).
- Alan who went through thick and thin during our strenuous band practices for the entire 4 years.
- Kia Hui, my closest secondary 3 and 4 classmate.
- Shu Qing who encouraged and helped me out of distress with courting this girl I liked in JC.
- Loo Wan, my good friend in JC.
- Guo Xian who look out for me and each other during my first oversea training in Thailand.
- Chin Yu and Mohan familiarised me with places in town and go out watching movies often.

All these moments made me flushed with tears whenever I think of the significant effort, accompany, care all these great friends have showered upon me. Fortunately, I rarely had disputes with the selected friends I've made. Even so they were mere foolish egoism.

The next thing to bring up is the question of whether there were moments when one feels withdrawn from his/her peers. I did. Sometimes, it occur to me whether I shouldn't borther my friends with my troubles when they already had their own. Such event especially when you feel really desperate and there was no one in sight or within reach.

Well, I always console myself in this way. Perhaps God is testing me. In which I should learn to be independent and sort things out myself rather than complaining or easing our hearts full to others. Maybe you could try them.

All in all, the dearest friend I've ever made till date, is an irreplaceable friend named Clara. I guess we understand alot about each other since we share the same temper and the way we feel about things. Oops. Too long liao. To conclude, I feel friends are essential in our lives. I guess, no man's really an island on its own. Simply because humans are emotional creatures and we can't contain all of our feelings inside ourselves. It is even so in the case of overcoming difficulties in life (the story about classic tale of the five fingers on our hand).