Two weeks ago, I received my results for my fourth semester. I failed. Worse was when I came home after out-pro from my in-camp training. It was Friday evening when the discouraging news dawn before me, right before my eyes when the screen flashed my results.
Well, perhaps lately, alot of devastating incidents occurring around me, which had immuned me both mentally and emotionally. Trust me, I've met worst prior this. Of course, immunity doesn't literally mean I have become unfeeling. And I wouldn't deny, I was upset. However, the first reaction was to type and email my appeal, with frail hopes and wish of "the final struggle" to the course administrator, for a change of results. Unfortunately, the revert, which came a week plus later, confirmed my intuitions of its un-success.
Although I have suffered the ever-coming downs, I've learnt to become strong and picked myself up to move on with life. My colleagues were encouraging. Including my manager who kept telling me not to be discouraged and that I could make it. Well.. I believe my mummy
(if she was still by my side), she'd have very much said the same.
Sorry to all my readers, but I guess later my blogs depicted most of my depressing moments. Well, I tend to conceal my melancholy feelings and pour them out in words in here. I'm a writting/drawing person ba.
Work's getting busier. Ironic as it may sound, I failed my corporate accounting but I just completed doing consolidation for foreign companies, it's grandson and son. And subsequently, the son and father (who's a local company). Next week, I'll be doing audit for one of our "premium" clients, FeiYue. Heard it's a prominent charitable bodies in Singapore. I'm just looking forward to face this new challenge..well.erm.. alone.
Recently, I've been neglecting my honey. Usually after work, I'll take cab home just to be back home early to accompany my granny. She has been lonely since the depart of my younger brother. And my Aunt, Mama, usually went home earlier just to avoid the nagging of my granny.
I'm trying to be optimistic. So.. today I shall talk about happy moments in my life..
Remembered those days when my family brought us to Switzerland and Gold Coast, Australia. It was a half-yearly family affair. Remember fond memories of being abroad, take photos with my younger brother and hearing my mummy who was always complaining about my "selfish" father who was always indirectly neglecting us in pursuit of his eagerness over sight-seeing. Undesirable but paradoxically, the overwhelming joy of vacation impression-ed joyful chapter in my young-boy, care-free days.
Another happiest moment in my life was when I was in secondary school. My studies were reasonably good, CCA commitment presented me with abundance of honor from achievements in winning at outdoor band coms, experiencing the unimaginable such as performing along Orchard Rd during Chingay 1999/under the pressure of a full-house National Stadium. My parents would always turn up for every band com. The school canteen sellers adore me. Gosh, everything fell in place so nicely, fulfilling all aspect. Simply splendid!
Birthdays! Haven't been celebrating now but DON'T CHA just love it when you get presents, cut birthday cakes and entitle yourself to ONCE-A-YEAR chance to wish for something (although it may not always be fulfilled..hehe). Nonetheless, it's MY day. Not to forget, the amazing feeling of realising how long have you been living on the universe! Awwwesome~
The good old JC days. All in debt to the presence of unforgettable friends and glory of being sectional leader hor! Truly must disclose the everlasting laughter and intense feeling of belonging during this two years of copper period! Keke.. lemme get a munch of humble pie.
Alvin Tan. Knowing Alvin as a friend, was as if adding streak of rainbow to spice up my life. Appreciating and doing things which I'd never though I would do, his accompany realised how important friends were to me and delivered more than meets the eye on things we could do with friends like treating dinner, late night KTV, the non-stop actions... His life truly packed with continuous activities and I always felt so small, realising how little my life was. Truly admire and envy his vibrant life which I got involved in for a couple of months!
Well.. time waits for no one - the phrase I used to read on the cover of my full-scape paper-pad when I was still in primary school. Not until recent age when its meaning reveal clear to my understanding. Overtime, people you met and happenings encountered evolved around you. People couldn't explain why this phenomena, unintentionally excuse by saying "that's just part and puzzle of life". No offence. Undoubtedly, it's convincingly true in a sense.
Que sara sara, whatever will be, will be... I very much believe things would turn out better for me. So I've decided to continue "optimis-ing" while the clock is ticking!
Well, perhaps lately, alot of devastating incidents occurring around me, which had immuned me both mentally and emotionally. Trust me, I've met worst prior this. Of course, immunity doesn't literally mean I have become unfeeling. And I wouldn't deny, I was upset. However, the first reaction was to type and email my appeal, with frail hopes and wish of "the final struggle" to the course administrator, for a change of results. Unfortunately, the revert, which came a week plus later, confirmed my intuitions of its un-success.
Although I have suffered the ever-coming downs, I've learnt to become strong and picked myself up to move on with life. My colleagues were encouraging. Including my manager who kept telling me not to be discouraged and that I could make it. Well.. I believe my mummy
(if she was still by my side), she'd have very much said the same.
Sorry to all my readers, but I guess later my blogs depicted most of my depressing moments. Well, I tend to conceal my melancholy feelings and pour them out in words in here. I'm a writting/drawing person ba.
Work's getting busier. Ironic as it may sound, I failed my corporate accounting but I just completed doing consolidation for foreign companies, it's grandson and son. And subsequently, the son and father (who's a local company). Next week, I'll be doing audit for one of our "premium" clients, FeiYue. Heard it's a prominent charitable bodies in Singapore. I'm just looking forward to face this new challenge..well.erm.. alone.
Recently, I've been neglecting my honey. Usually after work, I'll take cab home just to be back home early to accompany my granny. She has been lonely since the depart of my younger brother. And my Aunt, Mama, usually went home earlier just to avoid the nagging of my granny.
I'm trying to be optimistic. So.. today I shall talk about happy moments in my life..
Remembered those days when my family brought us to Switzerland and Gold Coast, Australia. It was a half-yearly family affair. Remember fond memories of being abroad, take photos with my younger brother and hearing my mummy who was always complaining about my "selfish" father who was always indirectly neglecting us in pursuit of his eagerness over sight-seeing. Undesirable but paradoxically, the overwhelming joy of vacation impression-ed joyful chapter in my young-boy, care-free days.
Another happiest moment in my life was when I was in secondary school. My studies were reasonably good, CCA commitment presented me with abundance of honor from achievements in winning at outdoor band coms, experiencing the unimaginable such as performing along Orchard Rd during Chingay 1999/under the pressure of a full-house National Stadium. My parents would always turn up for every band com. The school canteen sellers adore me. Gosh, everything fell in place so nicely, fulfilling all aspect. Simply splendid!
Birthdays! Haven't been celebrating now but DON'T CHA just love it when you get presents, cut birthday cakes and entitle yourself to ONCE-A-YEAR chance to wish for something (although it may not always be fulfilled..hehe). Nonetheless, it's MY day. Not to forget, the amazing feeling of realising how long have you been living on the universe! Awwwesome~
The good old JC days. All in debt to the presence of unforgettable friends and glory of being sectional leader hor! Truly must disclose the everlasting laughter and intense feeling of belonging during this two years of copper period! Keke.. lemme get a munch of humble pie.
Alvin Tan. Knowing Alvin as a friend, was as if adding streak of rainbow to spice up my life. Appreciating and doing things which I'd never though I would do, his accompany realised how important friends were to me and delivered more than meets the eye on things we could do with friends like treating dinner, late night KTV, the non-stop actions... His life truly packed with continuous activities and I always felt so small, realising how little my life was. Truly admire and envy his vibrant life which I got involved in for a couple of months!
Well.. time waits for no one - the phrase I used to read on the cover of my full-scape paper-pad when I was still in primary school. Not until recent age when its meaning reveal clear to my understanding. Overtime, people you met and happenings encountered evolved around you. People couldn't explain why this phenomena, unintentionally excuse by saying "that's just part and puzzle of life". No offence. Undoubtedly, it's convincingly true in a sense.
Que sara sara, whatever will be, will be... I very much believe things would turn out better for me. So I've decided to continue "optimis-ing" while the clock is ticking!
