De one with Me being "mang zang"

Sun kissed, hot day

Haven't been blogging the past few days because I've been so busy. Been doing research for my MKTG 1199 assignment. Just had a formal long discussion yesterday. Well... it started very fine. Except mere digression now and then. Err.. the good discussion turned into a big commotion nearing the end. I guessed we were the only group making the most noise in the quiet corridor outside the LTs.

Met Sweet for I think a couple of consecutive days. I don't really know why but I've been overly-sensitive and mang zang (being fussy, agitated and annoyed easily in hokkien) nowadays. Every nitty gritty I've been over-reacting towards it. Of course, Sweet doesn't know how to react to my foul attitute and unstable temper. End up, we'll always land ourselves into sulky faces. Omg.

Sometimes, I'll take a deep breath and try to reconcile. However, Sweet just doesn't know how to respond. Our commotion didn't get resolved. Hehe. Sometimes, I will lose myself into my thoughts again. (Without, keeping quiet because Sweet will scold me) I thought, am I really good for Sweet.. or how long are we going to be together until Sweet just can't tolerate or worst, Sweet saying "I really think you're not my cup of tea anymore". BUT! I calm down and recall what Sweet have told me before. About advising me not to think too much and being pessimistic.

Seriously if anyone were to ask me whether I'll give up? I really won't. I can't. And I will never let go. This relationship with Sweet. As I've told Sweet, I really want this to be the last relationship in my entire life.

What should I do? well.. I wanna stop thinking so much. Just love Sweet and make life.. our lives happiest in the whole world. I do.

Oki.. enough of "everytime relationship". Let me talk about..UNIVERSITY!!

It's already over a month at SIM. Well, finally adapting to the studies. However, one problem exist is.. ask me whether I've done any understanding of whatever module I'm currently studying? I will cover my face in my hands and say I really have no clue. Omg. I met Clara yesterday night to pass her her advanced 21st Birthday present (which was a Winne the Pooh 900+puzzle. Took 3 continuous nights to rush it) and sms her recently about this. She suggest I should know my priorities and not regret... letting my miserable Jc results to repeat itself. Not forgetting, what Sweet said.. never to let what happened during my JC years to occur again too.

:: Thank you very much Clara and Sweet. And Chin Yu, who encouraged me not to give up when I told him I wasn't sure of my choice with accountancy.

Other than that, I've been mixing good with Zhen Ze and Guan Hui (a joker). Really feel abit bad, everytime after school I'll have to meet Sweet. As a result, unable to fulfil them jio-ing me for lunch. Oops!

As for my running? As much as I've been feeling pretty frustrated with it.. and giving up, saying I should move on for my relationship. I'm doing quite fine. Just needs some adjustments. Take running as a form of distress bah~

Well well.. I'm kinda excited.. Jay Chou's new album's releasing soon in September. Sigh. Gotta wait for it. Much of what I've heard, Jay's singing a song with Fei YuQing. Omg. Hmm... let's see.. looking much forwrd to it!

:: Ey! Everyone must go buy it when it's release on the shelves ah!

Before I end, I really think perhaps my short-fused temper might have been due to the warming weather. Think I need to consume more liang teh!!