De one with My Worst Biz Computing lesson

Must have been "Crying-competition" in Heaven

Early morning it was already rainning like nobody's business. Omg. Early morning left house after eating an extremely spicy tuna curry puff (which I bought from Bukit Batok yesterday). Till 400 metres outside then it occured to me that Ive forgotten to bring my thumb-drive for my ISYS 2059: Biz Computing lesson. Sigh. No choice, had to walk back home to get it, through the long sheltered walk-way.

Transportation traffic got me on my nerves today. By the time I reached the busstop from which I usually take bus 74, I missed a single deck bus. Stranded at the busstop for the next 20 mins, my long awaited bus finally came. To my disappointment, it was a single decker bus which was already boarded with passengers, packed like sardines! Omg! It's so sucky, when you waited so long just for a bus during peak hour and the transport turn out to be a SINGLE DECKER! Of course, no choice, gotta wait for the next one. Fortunately, the next one came within 5 mins' time. It was a non-conditioned double decker.

In the bus, something interesting occurred. I shared the same seat with a girl (another uni-student) who possessed the same Samsung E900 mobile phone as me! And what's more coincident was both of us used the same message alert tone. Omg! What are the odds of such event? Ha! Perhaps this was to compensate for me arriving late at campus. Sigh.

Thank goodness I wasn't the last to arrive. There were others who were late. Well..the lecturer Dr Lawrence Sim wasn't particular about this. My luck abit.. that the lecture just started when I arrived.

I always believe everything in life is related to Newton's 3rd Law of matters, in which everything has an action and equal and opposite reaction force. Well.. so was luck in class today.
The computer unit's mouse was faulty today. You must be wondering why I didn't just change to other available unit right? Sadly, the whole lab was filled with full attendence. Omg! Throughout, it was really testing my patience with an un-responsive mouse. Sigh. It was something faulty with the roller. Can you imagine how inconvinent it is to use a roller-mouse instead of an optical mouse? sigh. I was extremely slow in my Excel worksheet today. This really earned my worst Business computing lesson. Towards the end of the lesson, I was really demoralised with the fact that my productivity is restrained with an inadequate, ineffective learning equipment.

The rain continued after lesson. Totally ruined the idea of going swimming with Zhen Ze. I intended not to have lunch today. However, Zhen Ze and Guan Hui wanted to eat. I was also feeling bad for rejecting them most of the time. So I went. We left campus for lunch at Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Thanks to the poly students having holidays now, the canteen was greatly less crowded than usual. I tried Ee-mee with diced chicken on hotplate. The serving was more worth than it's cost price of $2.80. The noodles was really too much. End up, I ate only 1/4 of the noodles, all the vegetables and part of the "sunny-side up" egg. To complement the meal with a healthier choice, I drank fresh and soothing watermelon juice.

Over lunch, Guan Hui was reprimanfing me for spoiling his appetite yesterday evening at Westmall before I met Sweet. You see, Zhen Ze and him went to the food court upstairs to order snacks from the "dim sum" store. Guan Hui had fried carrot cake. He offered me but I refused. Erm.. he got very bothered when I told him my reason for rejection, that the food was deep fried and full of oil. On his way back, he was so affected by what I've said, that he gave up eating his remaining curry puff which was supposedly delicious. Hehe. He left and went back to campus, where his mother's car was waiting for him. Zhen Ze and I left and proceed to NP's busstop shortly after.

I discovered that bus 52 was another choice to bring me home. What it didn't occur to me was the downpour became obvious when I was along Lornie Road. Omg. I end up wasting more money having to drop at the busstop where bus 133 was available. What a long route to enable me to alight where I can walk a sheltered walkway home.

Went for a nap after which I decided to send Sweet a few MMS of myself. I recalled Sweet used to ask me for self-pic for "cheering the day" purposes. Well.. now.. I'm doing it just to revived those nostalgic sweet moments. I guessed most relationships are like this bah.. feelings and lovely things you do with your love, fade overtime due to increasing diverting of commitment to other aspects in life. For me, I still hold alot of my initial efforts and dedication to my relationship. It's just a form of loyalty. Hehe, perhaps I'm suitable to be in a customer provider service-line? Perhaps not. It's just another part of Sweet that's incorporated into my life.

As much as I want, as much as what I can only hope for.. I know I can't demand an equal or equivalent measure of affections from Sweet. I went jogging today. In the milst of me cooling down as I was dissipating vapourised water vapour, I suddenly remember of my flawed thinking. That I'm too sensitive sometimes. I start to feel incompetent and overwhelmed with insecurity. Subconsciously, I would drown into a complexity of thoughts. Wondering if Sweet is really busy... or substituting time with me for other rival (omg!)... or Sweet's tired of me?

Of course, it takes personal will power to fetch my logic and rationality awake. That I shouldn't doubt Sweet. Alot of times like these, I dare not tell Sweet. Why, not that I've not tried. Unfortunately, I was afraid how Sweet would feel and the aftermath impact on our relationship.

Reason for not telling Sweet:
[1] Sweet will become stress and unhappy that I've been thinking so much
[2] Sweet might just be demoralised or unappreciated with my distrust in what Sweet reasoned
[3] Sweet get agitated when I mention Sweet having a 3rd party between us
[4] Sweet's smses have always emphasised that Sweet's never tired of me

Back at granny's place, I've just received my SIM membership cum student card from my daddy who brought it over from house. Nothing special. Just a card to indicate I'm an uniSIM student. Gosh, tomorrow I've to make a trip down to Transitlink counter for application of a student concession card.

:: Sweet, I miss you lots. It's gonna be tough not being able to see you more oftenly for the next few week.