Jogging freshen me up in the morning! The sun-beamed warm air against my cheeks, and feeling lighter and regenerated as I perspire. Today, I'm unquestionably born for the sun.
Hmm, wondered where did the rain go to? Well, most probably my improved mood is responsible (it rains everytime I'm sad). My revision finally shed some light. At least now, i'm more confident of where am I heading with all the studying. Ermm.. there are still rooms for improvement. Two more days to exams fever, would deny I'm responding to the growing pressure.
Lately, there has been a trend of funerals around the neighbourhood. Part of the recruiment drive during the economic crisis or what?
Witnessed one "sending" ceremony (for sending the departed to the crementorium or burial grounds) on my way back from the market after getting breakfast. Not affected personally la. I just... empathised with the parties involved. It must have been painful.
I don't know why, I was reminded of people who don't feel anything to this. Maybe they are just plain ignorant. Not cursing or being outright biased here alright. A teasing thought surfaced in my mind: I just can't wait to "survey/sight" how they would react when they experience the same man. Nope nope! not cursing la. Just being mischievous for abit.
I had to monitor my doggie so that she will eat her dinner. I swear she's damn hard to please.. Just dinner and you need accompany so that you'll feed?
It occurred to me, if a dog needs accompany, what more a human being?
Not degrading or comparing myself to a dog, but the truth is, I need human interraction too. In this aspect, I expect and demand alot. Honestly speaking, this is so with my friends. I didn't want to be like this but i just can't help being such a perfectionist. ( I can be a spoiled brat too but hey, it's interchangeable). The important thing is knowing clearly what I want to see, do or hear, I could go overboard when I'm overwhelmed or determined. Tell you~ I might just deviate from my reserved self to become very outspoken in times like this. Of course, there's always damage control to follow up, having admitted my bad. Post-reflection event.
If you're wondering I think too much. Truth is, I don't. You barely see any white hair on my head! Oh well, is that a disadvantaged of being a himbo and not using too much of the brain huh? Haha.
Ok, let's not divert. Recently, there's one such incident. A spur of a moment which involved some friendly attachment which end turning unreasonable.. with a friend. Subsequently, an apology was sent. However, our friendship remained stagnant. My attempts to bring back the friendly conversations were met with hostility, a bit of sarcasm (?)
I know being nice to others and treasuring them doesn't warrant similar responses. (Obviously, my favourite Newton's third law of motion doesn't apply effectively as a life philosophy here). This is why I let go. Give up trying and move on with others. My "guy-genes" recommended me not to care.
Sendiment is commendable but it also damages ourselves if we hold too much faith in them. This is not pessimism. It's my obiter dictum.
"The heart shall take the back-seat and throne the brain's prevalence." No point in bothering ourselves with whom who doesn't geniunely treasure you as a friend. You can't force them too.
Not awarding myself with a consolation, but come on, it's the other party's loss anyway.
I don't like to express myself outfront because i always end up saying the wrong things. Most of the time, the outcome becomes an offense. Also, it's not sincere anymore if I employed my wits to manoveur my way to make someone understand. Moreover, we don't have time to communicate. Then you ask me, why am I blogging all these here? Well.. I like to blog and forget all about it after the "publish post" button is clicked. Perhaps, it's entertainment the next time I read about it when I'm bored.
Man, I feel so much radiant-ier. The best evidence? Get down with my debut in my previous blog man! Yup, sunshine is back! Ay-bah!
Hmm, wondered where did the rain go to? Well, most probably my improved mood is responsible (it rains everytime I'm sad). My revision finally shed some light. At least now, i'm more confident of where am I heading with all the studying. Ermm.. there are still rooms for improvement. Two more days to exams fever, would deny I'm responding to the growing pressure.
Lately, there has been a trend of funerals around the neighbourhood. Part of the recruiment drive during the economic crisis or what?
Witnessed one "sending" ceremony (for sending the departed to the crementorium or burial grounds) on my way back from the market after getting breakfast. Not affected personally la. I just... empathised with the parties involved. It must have been painful.
I don't know why, I was reminded of people who don't feel anything to this. Maybe they are just plain ignorant. Not cursing or being outright biased here alright. A teasing thought surfaced in my mind: I just can't wait to "survey/sight" how they would react when they experience the same man. Nope nope! not cursing la. Just being mischievous for abit.
I had to monitor my doggie so that she will eat her dinner. I swear she's damn hard to please.. Just dinner and you need accompany so that you'll feed?
It occurred to me, if a dog needs accompany, what more a human being?
Not degrading or comparing myself to a dog, but the truth is, I need human interraction too. In this aspect, I expect and demand alot. Honestly speaking, this is so with my friends. I didn't want to be like this but i just can't help being such a perfectionist. ( I can be a spoiled brat too but hey, it's interchangeable). The important thing is knowing clearly what I want to see, do or hear, I could go overboard when I'm overwhelmed or determined. Tell you~ I might just deviate from my reserved self to become very outspoken in times like this. Of course, there's always damage control to follow up, having admitted my bad. Post-reflection event.
If you're wondering I think too much. Truth is, I don't. You barely see any white hair on my head! Oh well, is that a disadvantaged of being a himbo and not using too much of the brain huh? Haha.
Ok, let's not divert. Recently, there's one such incident. A spur of a moment which involved some friendly attachment which end turning unreasonable.. with a friend. Subsequently, an apology was sent. However, our friendship remained stagnant. My attempts to bring back the friendly conversations were met with hostility, a bit of sarcasm (?)
I know being nice to others and treasuring them doesn't warrant similar responses. (Obviously, my favourite Newton's third law of motion doesn't apply effectively as a life philosophy here). This is why I let go. Give up trying and move on with others. My "guy-genes" recommended me not to care.
Sendiment is commendable but it also damages ourselves if we hold too much faith in them. This is not pessimism. It's my obiter dictum.
"The heart shall take the back-seat and throne the brain's prevalence." No point in bothering ourselves with whom who doesn't geniunely treasure you as a friend. You can't force them too.
Not awarding myself with a consolation, but come on, it's the other party's loss anyway.
I don't like to express myself outfront because i always end up saying the wrong things. Most of the time, the outcome becomes an offense. Also, it's not sincere anymore if I employed my wits to manoveur my way to make someone understand. Moreover, we don't have time to communicate. Then you ask me, why am I blogging all these here? Well.. I like to blog and forget all about it after the "publish post" button is clicked. Perhaps, it's entertainment the next time I read about it when I'm bored.
Man, I feel so much radiant-ier. The best evidence? Get down with my debut in my previous blog man! Yup, sunshine is back! Ay-bah!
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