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Friday, October 03, 2008

De one with Lost

Global Warming

Morning routine was more or less the same as yesterday. Except it didn't drizzle. After an hour at the HR dept at ASC Barker, I rushed in a cab to a secretarial office located at Beach Centre, Seah Street for statutory audit.

Come to talk about it, it was the very very first time I threw tantrum onboard a cab. The cab driver wasn't concentrating.. he was like half-focus or not at all. I hate to flare up. I really do. But he's muddleheadness just pissed me off. Here are the attributing factors:

One, I asked him whether he knew Beach Centre is within walking distance from Bugis Parco, he keep mumbling repeatedly about taxis shouldn't stop by the main roadside. Kept showing me the newspaper article on that. Out of politeness, I acknowledged constantly everytime he did that referent gesture. I was receptive and told him that he could go ahead, charge through the ERP gantry so that he could alight me off at the taxi stand. He just went on and on about the same topic. I was thinking "can we move on?"

Two, I remember telling him very clearly and loudly that I want to change my destination to Bugis. Despite him reconfirming, he drove me straight to Seah Street. I was like.. ok, nevermind.

Three, he refused to stop even when we've arrived at Seah Street. It was a sideroad, stopping and alighting passengers shouldn't be a problem. There was a citycab ahead which alighted his passenger, mine didn't react even when I said I wish to mke payment. He drove through the entire stretch of the street and was approaching the main road, with the obvious implied intention to going out to.This was crazy. His folly action would land me further and further from my destination. Damn, I couldn't take it and exploded through raising my voice "Uncle, you could just now (when we were in the sidelane road. Now you're following this cab infront (to find the taxi stand when there's none to be foudn nearby) You could have just let me get off just now!"

Four, I swore I could have got off, however, he insist on making a three-point turn!!! In this narrow two lane road!!! OMG! Haiz. I have never flare up at a cab driver before! He had just expired my tolerance today.

The secretarial office is like like eveyr other. Nothing special. The moment I stepped in, the female personnel discontinued their chit chat and looked at me, all the way from my first step to the desk where the stuff I required are laid ready for me. I guess perhaps I was wearing a tie. when every other guys present there, didn't have one.

As much as I enjoy meeting people and visiting other places, I dislike staying for too long in a stranger's environment. It's normal for everyone else.. that lack of sense of belonging..

I bought lunch: Yoshinoya for Lincoln and myself. At the same time, I purchased my Biotherm facial product? What I got? Bought the ultra-rejuvenate eye serum, face-cleaser and this anti-ageing eye serum. When I told the sales girl (couldn't help looking at her masscare) my IC number, her reaction was exactly the same as the girl from Paragon. Both of them were taken aback and repeated "85.." in a disbelief manner. Just couldn't help wondering if it's a good or bad thing. Don't know if I look older or younger in comparison with the deciphered age from my IC number.

Went back to office. Somehow I felt distant. Everybody had little to talk to me. As though I was a stranger. Hai. Feeling detached. Lost...

Back at home, I was listening to 失落非主流 on youtube...好好聽 yet don't know why I started weeping. The song's a magic. It brings out all the inner frustrations and conjures all the particles of loneliness, failures, fatigue, discontent, inferiority.. bitterly accumulating in an ice berg clinching so tight to my heart until there's no room for release.

Sigh.. 27 days more to exams and I'm nowhere near starting. Still left with CCPL and UMP. Headache.

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