Does your tongue recall the aftermath effect of eating a chunk of wasabe by mistake? Or a split-second cut inflicted on the back of your arm before it bleeds and that sharp pain which follows after the shock has worn away? Yes, this is the feeling I'm experiencing.. with my job.
I've always thought determined perseverance would pave challenges. Turned out I was wrong. No doubt it's adventurous. But there are times it kills your brain cells due to "overwork-iness", it kinda get abit frustrating. Not to mention, I feel "heated-up" as if my internal body's burning in flames whenever I get stressed.
I thought I had it in control. Turns out as I do the audit report, anyalsis the previous year's audit report and taking reference to a few other audit reports, "choregraphing" (I'm good at this), it revealed alot of unnoticed mistake and dilemma's. And nope, I wouldn't allow the slightest mistake. And you know what kills me most. It is trying to figure out what the previous auditor has done, who had the advantage of having all the past history info, which is obviously unavailable and will not be asessible to us. Sigh. It'll definately be a piece of cake for them if they were doing the audit this year!
Man... And all of the sudden, there's so much assignments which I've completed and I had to send out the documents like the "finale" when client return us the signed documents. Oh god, help me. It's demoralising.
Not that I'm an eavesdropper but I overheard my boss' conversation with this SITC director (I did the audit for them last year). They were discussing (openly) about the course their children were attending. About SMU graduates are good and thus, rapidly employed. And I thought, where do my uni stand? Am I like in a university which stereotyped or perhaps, truly imply that I'm at the bottom of the heap? Does that mean that my uni-cert is worth anything less than others?
Self-pitying? Emo? I don't think so. It's an awkward moment of questioning myself as to who will I be and what my future employers are gonna think about me. Does employers judge you based on impression of previous education institutes you graduate from? Bimbos and himbos are superficial. I guess such employers are "even worse" than them.
Anyway, I've not been sleeping enough. The entire week I was pulling a black face at work, didn't take much lunch. Don't have time for that. Brought my work back to do through the night. It was alot tough than my preparation for exams.
Guess my weekends will be burnt. Audit spice. Incinerating me up with exhaustion. Sigh. This job's an arson, I tell you. Omg. Hehe
I watched Wall-E today. It was heart-warming, cute robots who didn't talk. Which explains why Pixel had to make them adorable, to appeal and fill those box-office. Well.. but it is interesting, the fact that the show's telling us to treasure Earth (like try not to have so much waste) and you'll become a blob of fats and forgot all about how to walk on your feets if everything had been automated. Haha. I couldn't agree more, it's very true!
There.. the only nicest thing that I did which made me happy. Back to slogger this weekend, next week and finish this damn, delayed job!
I've always thought determined perseverance would pave challenges. Turned out I was wrong. No doubt it's adventurous. But there are times it kills your brain cells due to "overwork-iness", it kinda get abit frustrating. Not to mention, I feel "heated-up" as if my internal body's burning in flames whenever I get stressed.
I thought I had it in control. Turns out as I do the audit report, anyalsis the previous year's audit report and taking reference to a few other audit reports, "choregraphing" (I'm good at this), it revealed alot of unnoticed mistake and dilemma's. And nope, I wouldn't allow the slightest mistake. And you know what kills me most. It is trying to figure out what the previous auditor has done, who had the advantage of having all the past history info, which is obviously unavailable and will not be asessible to us. Sigh. It'll definately be a piece of cake for them if they were doing the audit this year!
Man... And all of the sudden, there's so much assignments which I've completed and I had to send out the documents like the "finale" when client return us the signed documents. Oh god, help me. It's demoralising.
Not that I'm an eavesdropper but I overheard my boss' conversation with this SITC director (I did the audit for them last year). They were discussing (openly) about the course their children were attending. About SMU graduates are good and thus, rapidly employed. And I thought, where do my uni stand? Am I like in a university which stereotyped or perhaps, truly imply that I'm at the bottom of the heap? Does that mean that my uni-cert is worth anything less than others?
Self-pitying? Emo? I don't think so. It's an awkward moment of questioning myself as to who will I be and what my future employers are gonna think about me. Does employers judge you based on impression of previous education institutes you graduate from? Bimbos and himbos are superficial. I guess such employers are "even worse" than them.
Anyway, I've not been sleeping enough. The entire week I was pulling a black face at work, didn't take much lunch. Don't have time for that. Brought my work back to do through the night. It was alot tough than my preparation for exams.
Guess my weekends will be burnt. Audit spice. Incinerating me up with exhaustion. Sigh. This job's an arson, I tell you. Omg. Hehe
I watched Wall-E today. It was heart-warming, cute robots who didn't talk. Which explains why Pixel had to make them adorable, to appeal and fill those box-office. Well.. but it is interesting, the fact that the show's telling us to treasure Earth (like try not to have so much waste) and you'll become a blob of fats and forgot all about how to walk on your feets if everything had been automated. Haha. I couldn't agree more, it's very true!
There.. the only nicest thing that I did which made me happy. Back to slogger this weekend, next week and finish this damn, delayed job!
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