A plant deprived of water
Downhearted: [adj.] in low spirits
* blue, dejected, depressed, despondent, dispirited, gloomy, glum, miserable, sad,
unhappy.
Disclaimer: I'm voicing out only. After which I would forget about what's been troubling me...
Somehow or rather, I feel you've started to give up. Yes, you did confess and keep telling how much you have affects for me. However, i just feel something's wrong which bothers me because I care too much for this relationship.
1: It's like my preseence beside you doesn't matter anymore. Like what occured at MPH.
:: It's really different from the previous whenever I just disappear from you for a few seconds, you will get so worried until your heart nearly skipped. Even for normal friends, as a manner of social politeness, we will look for our companions and be around them. To me, it's an act of mutual respect. In between lovers, a form of affectionate concern and the message of "I wanna be with you always because you're so indispensible to me".
2: You said you're tired of all these "games" in a relationship and your "Do as you want" attitude which followed.
:: Firstly, from that, I keep feeling one message you're implying. You're getting tired of this relationship. So much so that you only recongise the comparision between me and your previous encounters with your exes. It's like all these are discrediting all that you've said that i matter so much to you. It's causing me to be so loss.
3: Your attitude have really changed alot to less loving. You even asked me to re-consider whether you're the right person for me.
:: This only tell me you are implying for a "letting go" situation. It really affects me so much I didn't manage to sleep but weep the whole night. You keep saying certain stages have to be changed while we move on. However, I feel it's like mathematics or simple language. You need to substain the fundermentals as you progess to higher levels.
4: You said you're like this. You have different ways of showing your affections.
:: I do appreciate you trying hard. Especially the ways you express your passions verbally and intiative ways. However, recently I'm lossing the trance of actions from you. It's like even I leave a gap between us, you won't close it up like how you always do. Sigh. You are beginning to make it obvious that I'm not special enough to make you change and compromise for me, your bf.
I do admit, I'm imperfect. One of which is my inability to express myself out and make alot of noise like an empty vessel. I have tried depicting and illustrating my genuine love for you by torlerating, be sensitive and in my bolding actions and buying things for you to make you happy. I just need you to be back the same old sweet, funny and loving Sweet.. it'd really habours assurance, above everything, to make feel secure and on-going for this love that both of us share.
Please don' bring everything up to me. Neither should you misinterpret whatever I typed here to discredit whatever you've done. For example, when I said "more secure", it doesn't mean previously I still do not feel secure. I just want to feel more comfortably secured.
Full-stop.
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
De one with a Dull Tuesday
Moody Day
Today I really feel very moody, I feel as if i'm drenched in despire. Nothing uplifting. Nothing evident of happiness. Woke up early as 0715am. Planned to go for a light jog. Unfortunately, I was really down emotionally and low spirited. So much so I forego the jog and did a compensation set of 50 bench-press, 50 sit-ups and a few half-squats.
For the entire day, I didn't know what I was doing. Everything seems so slow, meaningless and senseless to a certain extent. It resulted in me dressing shabby today. Wore a white Ripcurl Tee-shirt, a greyish blue OP boardshorts, dark chocolate brown Quiksilver slippers and a black folder to school.
Marketing lecture almost made me slept today. Talking a whole chuck on "Product", substantiated with video clip about VolksWagen cars.
My heart sunk when Sweet wasn't really free to meet me today. Well.. perhaps I'm still affected by what occurred yesterday night.
Sigh. I spent money at Thompson Plaza. Bought four folders for my modules' notes: Green for ACCT2060, Grey for MKTG1199, Orange for ECON1016, Blue for ISYS2059. Sigh. After purchase then I start to realise it's kinda childish for such a differentiation of colours for my folders when I'm a unistudent. But sigh..whatever... My environment puts me off today..really sick of those ugly people (with their inconsiderate actions and behaviour) around me.
Went home, planned to have bread (Ham and cheese bun and some CHOCOLATE twists which I bought from Four seasons bakery) for lunch over movie: The wild. However, halfway I lost my interest and went to label my folders. Next thing I knew, I dozed off.
I woke up after 2hrs of slumber before sorting out the different notes into the various folders. Went for a short 3.3 km run at Bishan Park. Really sian...very sian.. sian..sian..
Today I really feel very moody, I feel as if i'm drenched in despire. Nothing uplifting. Nothing evident of happiness. Woke up early as 0715am. Planned to go for a light jog. Unfortunately, I was really down emotionally and low spirited. So much so I forego the jog and did a compensation set of 50 bench-press, 50 sit-ups and a few half-squats.
For the entire day, I didn't know what I was doing. Everything seems so slow, meaningless and senseless to a certain extent. It resulted in me dressing shabby today. Wore a white Ripcurl Tee-shirt, a greyish blue OP boardshorts, dark chocolate brown Quiksilver slippers and a black folder to school.
Marketing lecture almost made me slept today. Talking a whole chuck on "Product", substantiated with video clip about VolksWagen cars.
My heart sunk when Sweet wasn't really free to meet me today. Well.. perhaps I'm still affected by what occurred yesterday night.
Sigh. I spent money at Thompson Plaza. Bought four folders for my modules' notes: Green for ACCT2060, Grey for MKTG1199, Orange for ECON1016, Blue for ISYS2059. Sigh. After purchase then I start to realise it's kinda childish for such a differentiation of colours for my folders when I'm a unistudent. But sigh..whatever... My environment puts me off today..really sick of those ugly people (with their inconsiderate actions and behaviour) around me.
Went home, planned to have bread (Ham and cheese bun and some CHOCOLATE twists which I bought from Four seasons bakery) for lunch over movie: The wild. However, halfway I lost my interest and went to label my folders. Next thing I knew, I dozed off.
I woke up after 2hrs of slumber before sorting out the different notes into the various folders. Went for a short 3.3 km run at Bishan Park. Really sian...very sian.. sian..sian..
Monday, August 21, 2006
De one with My 21st Birthday!
Sunny hot
Today's 21 August 2005. It marks an extremely special day as I've turned 21, the legal age. And to most of us, a very important day in our entire life.
Although the actual day occurs 12 past midnight. Yesterday night, greetings have already came in via MSN and sms (from Clara, who messaged me twice. Once in the night and once in the morning).
Yesterday evening, Sweet came down to AMK. After which we went to Toa Payoh to dine at SAKURA buffet. Paid $52 bucks for it lah! Of course we ate alot: Sushi, Shark fin's soup (not really "up-to-expectation"), Mushroom soup ("yummy"!), Seafood paper-steamboat (which Sweet thought wasn't heated enough), vegetable salad, sashimu, Tepanyaki Beef (which Sweet find it too hard) and Tepanyaki Fish (which I find it too soft), Unagi (taste abit raw) and chicken satay, fried nuggets, fried "pregnant fish", Tempura, Oyster, Mussels, Chicken Sausage, chicken Siew Mai (delicious!), Thai Chili tofu, steam fish wrap, steam cod fish. And end with dessert: Lime Cheese cake, NY cheese cake, Chocolate mousse, ice-cream..and fruits.
The food wasn't really appealing to me. But it's an experience since Sweet introduced me there. After that, Sweet and I walked around, patronising stores to entertain ourselves. Sweet got a polo Tee from Baleno, a toothbrush (for my house) and learnt about negative ions- producing "salt crystals" and all kinds of medications we've never seen before at a chinese medical store.
We went home shortly and have a wonderful night together.
When the time stuck 12 mid-night, Sweet was so lovely to be the very first person to wish me Happy 21st Birthday on the official day! (of course, I'll never forget those who wished me the night before). It was really very sweet of Sweet. The next best thing which occur on this wonderful occassion was to open my eyes in the morning and the first person I saw was Sweet with a morning kiss. My heart was overjoyed with blessed happiness. It soared when the both of us had a shower together! *face burning*
We went to have a light breakfast at the coffeeshop opposite my house. Then the both of us lover birds set off for Changi Airport (Sweet kept joking exaggeratingly along our way there, about us having to catch a flight to Australia) to eat lunch at Swensons. Sweet had Chicken thighs while I had my favourite Fish and Chips as our main course. It was accompanied by a full set meal which included a mousse cake for dessert and complimentary warm lipton tea. Of course, the highlight of the meal was the delightful Firehouse Birthday ice-cream!! I even dared Sweet to sing me a birthday song aloud. End up, Sweet only sang it softly...well.. it was smittening nonetheless! Love you, Sweet! And thanks for giving me your opinion at the perfume and cosmetic store where I got my 2nd bottle of CK summer One.
Bloated, we decided to stroll around the Budget Terminal. It was nothing but very plain terminal like any train station. You had to take a free bus shutter to and frown from Terminal 1.
After which we got bored of Airport, we took a long and drowsing bus 63 trip to Orchard. Stopped at the busstop in front of Park Mall and took a walk down to Cathay to catch "An American Huanting" at 1630hrs. Having 40 mins to spare, we went to Plaza Singapura to waste our time there.
American Huanting was a hard-to-understand movie. However, the effects were horrifying and heart-gasping. It was about this girl, Betsy, who was raped by her father, John, whom the family and he himself thought they were huanted by a ghost due to a curse put by a lady. Apparantly, the ghost was actually Betsy herself. What was the basic cause for the spirit Betsy to appear wasn't clear for us to depict. However Sweet opinioned that the spirit huanted Betsy so as to prevent any chance for the cruel father to continue his despicable act on the daughter. In the end, everything turned normal after John died under the hands of his wife, who got enlightened of the truth. The story started and ended with the modern surviving Betsy, whose daughter was also huanted by the same ghost.
We had our third indulgence at Mac Pherson's hawker again. Had Sweet's favourite Nong Hiam, fried Hokkien prawn mee and pieces of fried carrot cake. Fattening and acne-causing but well...both of us just love eating with each other around.
Our day ended, spare the negligible momentary friction, with a loving birthday French kiss from Sweet.
:: To all my friends, thank you very much for taking the effort to remember my birthday and sent me a sincere sms. I'm really grateful to you all. Pardon me if I didn't take the same effort to message you guys earlier on your special days.
:: To Jeffers, "lao da" for your meaningful present. I really love it alot!
:: To Clara, my closest friend. Thank you for your unexpectedly beautiful Chip and Dale puzzle. You've always spent money on my birthday present even though you have financial limits. For that, I'm really grateful. Thanks for the new nickname you bestowed me! Thanks for being around me and all your support, attention and most of all, our friendship!
:: To Chin Yu, thank you for calling me just to wish me a very happy birthday! Thanks for keeping in touch with me always. I'll remember you for life.
:: To Sweet, you're one of the special someone in this whole wide world whom i'm thankful for your time and efforts to make me enjoy my day so romantically and joyous. I love you. Muacks.
:: To my family, I really appreciate inexpressionably gratefully to all you folks have done for me. I love you all with all my heart.
:: To my late-mother. Mummy, whenever you are, you're always alive in my heart. I think of you from time to time. You, I must thank for without you, there will not be Jason today. Thank you so much Mummy. I guess you'll be so proud of me, having grown up. I really miss you. The family too.
Today's 21 August 2005. It marks an extremely special day as I've turned 21, the legal age. And to most of us, a very important day in our entire life.
Although the actual day occurs 12 past midnight. Yesterday night, greetings have already came in via MSN and sms (from Clara, who messaged me twice. Once in the night and once in the morning).
Yesterday evening, Sweet came down to AMK. After which we went to Toa Payoh to dine at SAKURA buffet. Paid $52 bucks for it lah! Of course we ate alot: Sushi, Shark fin's soup (not really "up-to-expectation"), Mushroom soup ("yummy"!), Seafood paper-steamboat (which Sweet thought wasn't heated enough), vegetable salad, sashimu, Tepanyaki Beef (which Sweet find it too hard) and Tepanyaki Fish (which I find it too soft), Unagi (taste abit raw) and chicken satay, fried nuggets, fried "pregnant fish", Tempura, Oyster, Mussels, Chicken Sausage, chicken Siew Mai (delicious!), Thai Chili tofu, steam fish wrap, steam cod fish. And end with dessert: Lime Cheese cake, NY cheese cake, Chocolate mousse, ice-cream..and fruits.
The food wasn't really appealing to me. But it's an experience since Sweet introduced me there. After that, Sweet and I walked around, patronising stores to entertain ourselves. Sweet got a polo Tee from Baleno, a toothbrush (for my house) and learnt about negative ions- producing "salt crystals" and all kinds of medications we've never seen before at a chinese medical store.
We went home shortly and have a wonderful night together.
When the time stuck 12 mid-night, Sweet was so lovely to be the very first person to wish me Happy 21st Birthday on the official day! (of course, I'll never forget those who wished me the night before). It was really very sweet of Sweet. The next best thing which occur on this wonderful occassion was to open my eyes in the morning and the first person I saw was Sweet with a morning kiss. My heart was overjoyed with blessed happiness. It soared when the both of us had a shower together! *face burning*
We went to have a light breakfast at the coffeeshop opposite my house. Then the both of us lover birds set off for Changi Airport (Sweet kept joking exaggeratingly along our way there, about us having to catch a flight to Australia) to eat lunch at Swensons. Sweet had Chicken thighs while I had my favourite Fish and Chips as our main course. It was accompanied by a full set meal which included a mousse cake for dessert and complimentary warm lipton tea. Of course, the highlight of the meal was the delightful Firehouse Birthday ice-cream!! I even dared Sweet to sing me a birthday song aloud. End up, Sweet only sang it softly...well.. it was smittening nonetheless! Love you, Sweet! And thanks for giving me your opinion at the perfume and cosmetic store where I got my 2nd bottle of CK summer One.
Bloated, we decided to stroll around the Budget Terminal. It was nothing but very plain terminal like any train station. You had to take a free bus shutter to and frown from Terminal 1.
After which we got bored of Airport, we took a long and drowsing bus 63 trip to Orchard. Stopped at the busstop in front of Park Mall and took a walk down to Cathay to catch "An American Huanting" at 1630hrs. Having 40 mins to spare, we went to Plaza Singapura to waste our time there.
American Huanting was a hard-to-understand movie. However, the effects were horrifying and heart-gasping. It was about this girl, Betsy, who was raped by her father, John, whom the family and he himself thought they were huanted by a ghost due to a curse put by a lady. Apparantly, the ghost was actually Betsy herself. What was the basic cause for the spirit Betsy to appear wasn't clear for us to depict. However Sweet opinioned that the spirit huanted Betsy so as to prevent any chance for the cruel father to continue his despicable act on the daughter. In the end, everything turned normal after John died under the hands of his wife, who got enlightened of the truth. The story started and ended with the modern surviving Betsy, whose daughter was also huanted by the same ghost.
We had our third indulgence at Mac Pherson's hawker again. Had Sweet's favourite Nong Hiam, fried Hokkien prawn mee and pieces of fried carrot cake. Fattening and acne-causing but well...both of us just love eating with each other around.
Our day ended, spare the negligible momentary friction, with a loving birthday French kiss from Sweet.
:: To all my friends, thank you very much for taking the effort to remember my birthday and sent me a sincere sms. I'm really grateful to you all. Pardon me if I didn't take the same effort to message you guys earlier on your special days.
:: To Jeffers, "lao da" for your meaningful present. I really love it alot!
:: To Clara, my closest friend. Thank you for your unexpectedly beautiful Chip and Dale puzzle. You've always spent money on my birthday present even though you have financial limits. For that, I'm really grateful. Thanks for the new nickname you bestowed me! Thanks for being around me and all your support, attention and most of all, our friendship!
:: To Chin Yu, thank you for calling me just to wish me a very happy birthday! Thanks for keeping in touch with me always. I'll remember you for life.
:: To Sweet, you're one of the special someone in this whole wide world whom i'm thankful for your time and efforts to make me enjoy my day so romantically and joyous. I love you. Muacks.
:: To my family, I really appreciate inexpressionably gratefully to all you folks have done for me. I love you all with all my heart.
:: To my late-mother. Mummy, whenever you are, you're always alive in my heart. I think of you from time to time. You, I must thank for without you, there will not be Jason today. Thank you so much Mummy. I guess you'll be so proud of me, having grown up. I really miss you. The family too.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
De one with Unforgettable Certainties
Windy; falling leaves
A very long time ago, I listened to Love stories by 93.3FM. There was a phrase which imprinted deeply in my mind...
" There's no event that's unforgettable...
only unforgettable feelings..."
The night before, I was fretting, struggling with my attempt at a Problem 5.7 of my accounting textbook. I got my first taste of the bitterness of Accountancy when the left side (Assets) and right side (Liabilities + Equity) of my worksheet just couldn't balance. Wasted 4 sheets of fullscape papers.. then I thought how wonderful if my late-mummy was still alive. She would have known how to teach me since she was an accountant. Of course, this selfishness wasn't what matters more... since I knew I'll have my way to get through this.
Rather, my rememberance of her unpressence triggered a stir of intense feeling... a pure yet harsh longing for her to be around.. I miss her.. the bitter unforgettable certainty that she's not longer around. It hurts inside-out. Very brutally heart-shattering. Causes every pores of my skin to become overly freezing with fear. Fear of facing up to the certainty that a loved one is gone forever. Fear of facing up to the fact that these held back tears are gonna fall again...
Yesterday, when I returned back from my outing with fellow specs. Ah-ma told me that she woke up around mid-night last night and recognised the sight of the side-view of a lady with short-curled hair. My beloved late-mummy was sitting in the living room's coffee table, facing the television.
Of course, I was shakened by ah-ma's account. Is it because it was a pity I didn't manage to see wat ah-ma saw? Or because I miss her so dearly? Of course, I didn't cry on the instant. I hardly cry in front of others. However, my heart was flooded with soaring tears.
:: Mummy, I hope you're coping well and peaceful in wherever you are now in your better after-life.
*sobs* =' )
A very long time ago, I listened to Love stories by 93.3FM. There was a phrase which imprinted deeply in my mind...
" There's no event that's unforgettable...
only unforgettable feelings..."
The night before, I was fretting, struggling with my attempt at a Problem 5.7 of my accounting textbook. I got my first taste of the bitterness of Accountancy when the left side (Assets) and right side (Liabilities + Equity) of my worksheet just couldn't balance. Wasted 4 sheets of fullscape papers.. then I thought how wonderful if my late-mummy was still alive. She would have known how to teach me since she was an accountant. Of course, this selfishness wasn't what matters more... since I knew I'll have my way to get through this.
Rather, my rememberance of her unpressence triggered a stir of intense feeling... a pure yet harsh longing for her to be around.. I miss her.. the bitter unforgettable certainty that she's not longer around. It hurts inside-out. Very brutally heart-shattering. Causes every pores of my skin to become overly freezing with fear. Fear of facing up to the certainty that a loved one is gone forever. Fear of facing up to the fact that these held back tears are gonna fall again...
Yesterday, when I returned back from my outing with fellow specs. Ah-ma told me that she woke up around mid-night last night and recognised the sight of the side-view of a lady with short-curled hair. My beloved late-mummy was sitting in the living room's coffee table, facing the television.
Of course, I was shakened by ah-ma's account. Is it because it was a pity I didn't manage to see wat ah-ma saw? Or because I miss her so dearly? Of course, I didn't cry on the instant. I hardly cry in front of others. However, my heart was flooded with soaring tears.
:: Mummy, I hope you're coping well and peaceful in wherever you are now in your better after-life.
*sobs* =' )
De one with Mohan
CHRONICLES Of CHUM
Weekend during my army stint, always reminded me of Mohan. Mohan Gopalan, is one of my closest friend (other than Chin Yu) during my time at 23SA. Before that, we've already knew each other from ASC since both of us were from the same detachment.
I believe both of us were started our friendship solely because we were both the same type of people, who perfers to share within a small companionship rather than the opposite. I remembered I saw him before in SISPEC, Foxtrot company when we were both literally suffering under the instructors of our detestable OC, WO Oh Cheng Kah, as both of us were struggling with our SOC. (damn xiong!)
Hehe.. miraculously, both of us graduated from SISPEC (perserverance and garang-iness ok.. :D) and made it into the same vocation. Recalled our frist time going out was we booked out and met up at Thompson Plaza to have late-night coffee at Starbucks. (He was the person who introduced me to Starbucks). Our friendship developed from then ever since. Met up and started going out every now and then. Example, going out during our nights out. Even after being posted to 23sA, we went out for shopping, eat, movies more often.
Mohan and I share the same interest. During shopping, we would look at books, music. Mohan provided me the companionship to booast my confident to try things I've never done before like shopping. It's always better to walk into a shop to look around when a friend is with you, offering you suggestions and feedback whenever you can't decide.
We're very simple person. Whenever anyone of us asked if each other is free, immediately, we just agreed the time and venue on the spot, almost instantaneously! As time passes, we grew to become more understanding, in terms of our fashion taste, each other's characters as if we were old friends even though our friendship was merely a few months old.
It was because of him that I volunteered to join to represent the battalion for cross country run. End up, he didn't run, omg. Though, I always pursuade him to try his best, especially Army Half-Marathon.
Both of us love to argue. Since both of us are from different batteries, we like to voice our individual opinions, sharing each other's experience and frustration in army. It was in the milst of this that he taught me to stop being a push-over and being able to voice my views instead of following people by the nose. Why? Simply because Mohan is a lawyer-to-be. He's a former RI and RJC student. He's really one of the super few RI people who I feel comfortable being with. Though he comes from a wealthy family where both his parents are lawyers and his elder brother too, he's humble and independent.
One funny thing is we are very open in our chat topics. I can make racist jokes and he doesn't feel offended. When I'm down, he will always support me (like Chin Yu does). He's knowledgable.. perfect person to go to when ever I face language or knowledge difficulties or inadequacy.
We're very good friends indeed.
Weekend during my army stint, always reminded me of Mohan. Mohan Gopalan, is one of my closest friend (other than Chin Yu) during my time at 23SA. Before that, we've already knew each other from ASC since both of us were from the same detachment.
I believe both of us were started our friendship solely because we were both the same type of people, who perfers to share within a small companionship rather than the opposite. I remembered I saw him before in SISPEC, Foxtrot company when we were both literally suffering under the instructors of our detestable OC, WO Oh Cheng Kah, as both of us were struggling with our SOC. (damn xiong!)
Hehe.. miraculously, both of us graduated from SISPEC (perserverance and garang-iness ok.. :D) and made it into the same vocation. Recalled our frist time going out was we booked out and met up at Thompson Plaza to have late-night coffee at Starbucks. (He was the person who introduced me to Starbucks). Our friendship developed from then ever since. Met up and started going out every now and then. Example, going out during our nights out. Even after being posted to 23sA, we went out for shopping, eat, movies more often.
Mohan and I share the same interest. During shopping, we would look at books, music. Mohan provided me the companionship to booast my confident to try things I've never done before like shopping. It's always better to walk into a shop to look around when a friend is with you, offering you suggestions and feedback whenever you can't decide.
We're very simple person. Whenever anyone of us asked if each other is free, immediately, we just agreed the time and venue on the spot, almost instantaneously! As time passes, we grew to become more understanding, in terms of our fashion taste, each other's characters as if we were old friends even though our friendship was merely a few months old.
It was because of him that I volunteered to join to represent the battalion for cross country run. End up, he didn't run, omg. Though, I always pursuade him to try his best, especially Army Half-Marathon.
Both of us love to argue. Since both of us are from different batteries, we like to voice our individual opinions, sharing each other's experience and frustration in army. It was in the milst of this that he taught me to stop being a push-over and being able to voice my views instead of following people by the nose. Why? Simply because Mohan is a lawyer-to-be. He's a former RI and RJC student. He's really one of the super few RI people who I feel comfortable being with. Though he comes from a wealthy family where both his parents are lawyers and his elder brother too, he's humble and independent.
One funny thing is we are very open in our chat topics. I can make racist jokes and he doesn't feel offended. When I'm down, he will always support me (like Chin Yu does). He's knowledgable.. perfect person to go to when ever I face language or knowledge difficulties or inadequacy.
We're very good friends indeed.
Saturday, August 19, 2006
De one with Halfway thru Weekend
Little drizzle, hot Sun
Phew..another week just passed by again. Before I know it, i've already became a 3 month old uni-student~
Today I met my fellow specs, Zhen Ze, Eric, Bojun, Jonathan and Sek Yeong. Although I was late, we had an enjoyable session at K-box in Parazzi Centre (somewhere near Cathay cinema). Omg. I was so bad in my vocals today. Couldn't get my tunes right. What an embarassing.
Bojun had Japanese-language class, so he left early before we ended our entertainment at 2+pm and headed towards Plaza Singapura to walk around. We called Jeffers to join us. While waiting, Eric left for home. The remaining walked towards Far East to meet Jeffers. Heeding suggestion from Jonathan, we had the "nice" chicken rice on level 4. Jeffers came to join us in time. We had a chatty conversation over dinner.
After which Jonathan and Sek Yeong left. Thus, Jeffers and me accompanied Zhen Ze who wanted to shop for scandals. In the end, he got a pair from Wisma's Beattle Bug. Nice!
Jeffers passed me a birthday present he got for me. It was a frame with a photo of our bunkmates, taken in NZ ex.Thunderwarrior in the beginning of the year! (Thank you alot Jeffers!) And I've got a new long-awaited Braun Buffel hard leather wallet!! Can you believe it, Sweet's favourite brand was Braun Buffel (YEAH!!). But she now pocess my favourite brand, Pierre Cardin. What a lovely part of each other in our belongings!
Talking about Sweet whom I miss terribly. It feels like my heart nearly got breathless. We haven't met each other for 2 days liao. Yesterday was because I had to meet Mohan and later, supposedly supper with Clara. Unexpectedly, Clara had to rest due to some post blood-donation condition. So we end up cancelling the supper. Today, Sweet had to do some job to teach. In between, messaged Clara today. Glad to hear that she has recovered.
Friday...
We had our very first lecture with our local accounting lecturer. He started the lesson with an impact opening. Emphasising that he is not here to teach but educate us. A little background info about Lecture Daniel. He's a civil engineer convert Accountant. Besides his CPA, he has MBA too. The funny reason he gave why he didn't achieve a doctorine degree, was that his brain isn't burnt or bonkers. Haha. He describes himself as a very radical accountant (hmm..a man of character). He doesn't like conducting lectures with useless and meaningless Powerpoint slides. Instead, he likes educating on whiteboard. He's lectures are fun (to rebuke the commonly thought that Accountancy's boring) and informally conducted. He loves us to respond "yes" to him. It makes him feels very appreciated. Overall, he's really a very down-to-earth and easily likeable educator. I feel so blessed that I have adaptable and educating-friendly lecturers! What a new pleasant learning experience which I think I'll not get at other local universities!
Nope, I'm not saying this because I'm tasting sour-grapes. I really mean it. I've experienced t myself.
Phew..another week just passed by again. Before I know it, i've already became a 3 month old uni-student~
Today I met my fellow specs, Zhen Ze, Eric, Bojun, Jonathan and Sek Yeong. Although I was late, we had an enjoyable session at K-box in Parazzi Centre (somewhere near Cathay cinema). Omg. I was so bad in my vocals today. Couldn't get my tunes right. What an embarassing.
Bojun had Japanese-language class, so he left early before we ended our entertainment at 2+pm and headed towards Plaza Singapura to walk around. We called Jeffers to join us. While waiting, Eric left for home. The remaining walked towards Far East to meet Jeffers. Heeding suggestion from Jonathan, we had the "nice" chicken rice on level 4. Jeffers came to join us in time. We had a chatty conversation over dinner.
After which Jonathan and Sek Yeong left. Thus, Jeffers and me accompanied Zhen Ze who wanted to shop for scandals. In the end, he got a pair from Wisma's Beattle Bug. Nice!
Jeffers passed me a birthday present he got for me. It was a frame with a photo of our bunkmates, taken in NZ ex.Thunderwarrior in the beginning of the year! (Thank you alot Jeffers!) And I've got a new long-awaited Braun Buffel hard leather wallet!! Can you believe it, Sweet's favourite brand was Braun Buffel (YEAH!!). But she now pocess my favourite brand, Pierre Cardin. What a lovely part of each other in our belongings!
Talking about Sweet whom I miss terribly. It feels like my heart nearly got breathless. We haven't met each other for 2 days liao. Yesterday was because I had to meet Mohan and later, supposedly supper with Clara. Unexpectedly, Clara had to rest due to some post blood-donation condition. So we end up cancelling the supper. Today, Sweet had to do some job to teach. In between, messaged Clara today. Glad to hear that she has recovered.
Friday...
We had our very first lecture with our local accounting lecturer. He started the lesson with an impact opening. Emphasising that he is not here to teach but educate us. A little background info about Lecture Daniel. He's a civil engineer convert Accountant. Besides his CPA, he has MBA too. The funny reason he gave why he didn't achieve a doctorine degree, was that his brain isn't burnt or bonkers. Haha. He describes himself as a very radical accountant (hmm..a man of character). He doesn't like conducting lectures with useless and meaningless Powerpoint slides. Instead, he likes educating on whiteboard. He's lectures are fun (to rebuke the commonly thought that Accountancy's boring) and informally conducted. He loves us to respond "yes" to him. It makes him feels very appreciated. Overall, he's really a very down-to-earth and easily likeable educator. I feel so blessed that I have adaptable and educating-friendly lecturers! What a new pleasant learning experience which I think I'll not get at other local universities!
Nope, I'm not saying this because I'm tasting sour-grapes. I really mean it. I've experienced t myself.
De one with Art
ASPIRATION
From a very young age, my mummy have sent me to the nearby community centre for art class since art (basis drawing and coloring) appealled more to me to music (piano). Why? By right piano should be interesting and "investable". Unfortunately, i'm a very introvert and shy boy. I always didn't dare to be sent for piano lessons, thinking that lessons were always conducted in large classes.
I remembered during art class, there was this senior who always drew different things from us. He draws manga drawing and the teacher was lenient and encouraging towards him. Sigh. Well, used to be inquistive why he was in the same class as us. To a small extent, I was a little envious and jealous over him.
Anyway, I was was doing fine with my art lessons until one which let me had a taste of disappointment. It was a drawing and painting of frogs! You see my drawing was good. However, my undried paint smeared and everything turned out dripping down like a "blood flowing-down effect" when I held it up before the paint dried up. It was disastrous! The teacher gave me a very low grade for that. Omg! Ever since then, I started to hate using paint.
I recalled in my childhood days, my older cousin, Jasmine used to cry when she fret over her art homework. I remember there was this Chinese New Year project where she had to draw a picture of a Rooster since it was that Zodiac animal for the year. She cried pitifully because she just couldn't get the drawing right. My relatives asked me to help. Until then, she stopped crying. Haha.
My drawing craze had evolved alot over the years. I remember I love seeing things and drawing them ("mimicking-drawing") I used to draw my favourite childhood characters from Street Fighters. After which when I grew older, I was crazy over X-men. I recalled drawing every character, cut out their outline and play them like 2-D figurines. Hehe..silly right?
One amazing thing about then was I had the ability to memorise images in my mind. After which I would draw them out on paper. For example, I was watching an X-men episode where Phoenix was introduced. After the show, I drew a new character, the Phoenix, to be added to my new character collection.
Teachers used to love me for my art works. So much so that they always pin my art works up around in school. During primary school years, I was pushed for art competition (where I draw Beauty and the Beast with memory and lost because the other elder competitors were too strong)*embarrased* and inter-school mirror competition. In addition, my primary 5 form-teacher even asked me to design a logo for our out-camp. My most favourite thing to draw was MRT and orchids!
Closer at home, once, I draw a picture of the Eight Beauties of the World. It was divided into eight segments. In each, I draw character. My mummy love it so much, she pin it onto her table in office. I supposed she wanted to appreciate her son's art and show off to her colleagues bah!
Secondary school was much more happening. It was a major transformation as I had to start colouring with pastels and wet-paint, instead of colour-pencils which I was more comfortable with. Also, started learn and develop interest in drawing still-live and portraits. I recalled my classmate always exclaimed about how relaxed I was during our art examination. I used to do "Jay Chou's pose in Initial D", resting my head on one arm and drawing with the other. Secondary 2, there was this China guy who came to join the competition between me and another guy, Eugene Fu, who was very good in art too. End up, in a particular exam, the China guy, Zheng Peng, got first in class. Me second and Eugene, third. Sigh~
I realised too, that eggs and apples were the hardest to draw in still-live drawings.
Secondary 3 was fun. My home economics assignment to design a T-shirt was being show-cased in the Economics Room. My technical project, a toy train handcrafted out of wood, was displayed too! My literature teacher, Miss Tan was appreciative towards my talent for art. I recalled there was this project on Romeo and Juliet, with referrence to our text, I managed to draw Friar Lawrence with "PAINT" on computer with my right hand on the mouse. Since I was left handed, everyone were amazed! A1 for Art all the way! Those were the glory years for me.
I never stopped drawing art even after I got streamed to Science class during Secondary 3 and 4. Now and then I'll still draw. Started designing art ever since. I discovered the ability to resource around with what I see, improvise and integrating everything into designing. I was crazy over designing my name, Jason, so much during then! oops.
Ever since, I've grown more interested in other drawing technics like integrating calligraphic skills into multi-coloured design, stain glass drawings, mosaic and recently, impressionist drawing and experimenting colour-scheme of different cultures and nationalities.
Pictures really tells a million words. It is also a way for me to express myself.
It was until recently, I gave up Art due to -A-. It was a willing yet painful stupid decision. Well... hopefully I'll have the courage to pick up that pencil to draw again..
From a very young age, my mummy have sent me to the nearby community centre for art class since art (basis drawing and coloring) appealled more to me to music (piano). Why? By right piano should be interesting and "investable". Unfortunately, i'm a very introvert and shy boy. I always didn't dare to be sent for piano lessons, thinking that lessons were always conducted in large classes.
I remembered during art class, there was this senior who always drew different things from us. He draws manga drawing and the teacher was lenient and encouraging towards him. Sigh. Well, used to be inquistive why he was in the same class as us. To a small extent, I was a little envious and jealous over him.
Anyway, I was was doing fine with my art lessons until one which let me had a taste of disappointment. It was a drawing and painting of frogs! You see my drawing was good. However, my undried paint smeared and everything turned out dripping down like a "blood flowing-down effect" when I held it up before the paint dried up. It was disastrous! The teacher gave me a very low grade for that. Omg! Ever since then, I started to hate using paint.
I recalled in my childhood days, my older cousin, Jasmine used to cry when she fret over her art homework. I remember there was this Chinese New Year project where she had to draw a picture of a Rooster since it was that Zodiac animal for the year. She cried pitifully because she just couldn't get the drawing right. My relatives asked me to help. Until then, she stopped crying. Haha.
My drawing craze had evolved alot over the years. I remember I love seeing things and drawing them ("mimicking-drawing") I used to draw my favourite childhood characters from Street Fighters. After which when I grew older, I was crazy over X-men. I recalled drawing every character, cut out their outline and play them like 2-D figurines. Hehe..silly right?
One amazing thing about then was I had the ability to memorise images in my mind. After which I would draw them out on paper. For example, I was watching an X-men episode where Phoenix was introduced. After the show, I drew a new character, the Phoenix, to be added to my new character collection.
Teachers used to love me for my art works. So much so that they always pin my art works up around in school. During primary school years, I was pushed for art competition (where I draw Beauty and the Beast with memory and lost because the other elder competitors were too strong)*embarrased* and inter-school mirror competition. In addition, my primary 5 form-teacher even asked me to design a logo for our out-camp. My most favourite thing to draw was MRT and orchids!
Closer at home, once, I draw a picture of the Eight Beauties of the World. It was divided into eight segments. In each, I draw character. My mummy love it so much, she pin it onto her table in office. I supposed she wanted to appreciate her son's art and show off to her colleagues bah!
Secondary school was much more happening. It was a major transformation as I had to start colouring with pastels and wet-paint, instead of colour-pencils which I was more comfortable with. Also, started learn and develop interest in drawing still-live and portraits. I recalled my classmate always exclaimed about how relaxed I was during our art examination. I used to do "Jay Chou's pose in Initial D", resting my head on one arm and drawing with the other. Secondary 2, there was this China guy who came to join the competition between me and another guy, Eugene Fu, who was very good in art too. End up, in a particular exam, the China guy, Zheng Peng, got first in class. Me second and Eugene, third. Sigh~
I realised too, that eggs and apples were the hardest to draw in still-live drawings.
Secondary 3 was fun. My home economics assignment to design a T-shirt was being show-cased in the Economics Room. My technical project, a toy train handcrafted out of wood, was displayed too! My literature teacher, Miss Tan was appreciative towards my talent for art. I recalled there was this project on Romeo and Juliet, with referrence to our text, I managed to draw Friar Lawrence with "PAINT" on computer with my right hand on the mouse. Since I was left handed, everyone were amazed! A1 for Art all the way! Those were the glory years for me.
I never stopped drawing art even after I got streamed to Science class during Secondary 3 and 4. Now and then I'll still draw. Started designing art ever since. I discovered the ability to resource around with what I see, improvise and integrating everything into designing. I was crazy over designing my name, Jason, so much during then! oops.
Ever since, I've grown more interested in other drawing technics like integrating calligraphic skills into multi-coloured design, stain glass drawings, mosaic and recently, impressionist drawing and experimenting colour-scheme of different cultures and nationalities.
Pictures really tells a million words. It is also a way for me to express myself.
It was until recently, I gave up Art due to -A-. It was a willing yet painful stupid decision. Well... hopefully I'll have the courage to pick up that pencil to draw again..
Friday, August 18, 2006
De one with The Other Side [Emolings]
Under light in shadows
Everytime I go for jogging recently, I feel disappointed and abit frustrated because I discover that I'm losing my stamina.
Why? I believe it's because my body is gainning mass due to my obligation to eat as Sweet wants me to. Sweet thinks I should eat regularly to grow and substain my lifestyle. However, I beg to be different at times. Especially, or should i say only when I go jogging and be conscious about my inability to perform.
I start to ponder am I really prepared to give up what I've worked so hard to achieve in the past 6 years.
However, what's undeniable is that I know my body. I've always worked in an unique way. And I know I will never gain back my running ability if I continue to indulge myself to my current diet.
Sweet suggest that it's all pyschological. Although I understand this however that thinking only works for the norm. I'm different. I'm able to run even if i didn't eat a day..or when i'm shagged after guard-duty the day before.
Sweet suggests the "to have energy, you must eat" theory. I feel this kinda diet is for people who want to gain muscle. You eat, because you need the carbohydrates and protein to gain mass so that your muscles can develop out of those mass. So that the muscle grows bigger overtime. Yes, my current diet will definately benefit if I'm working out.
However, running is another thing. No doubt it needs energy but it's one which requires way less the amount of carbohydrates you need for body-building. My body has experience superior condition before. And it's true, my past diet works best for me.
Sigh. Here's the dilemma. Presently, I think and i'm very sure, relationship is the more important and prioritised in my life. Life stages changes. I supposed my running talent is over and it's time to work on my relationship and adopt a less athletic kinda life.
But... come to think about it..it's my fault.. perhaps it's because i'm getting lazy..and eating alot, growing fat.. What a foolish person I am..
*bang my head against the wall*
Everytime I go for jogging recently, I feel disappointed and abit frustrated because I discover that I'm losing my stamina.
Why? I believe it's because my body is gainning mass due to my obligation to eat as Sweet wants me to. Sweet thinks I should eat regularly to grow and substain my lifestyle. However, I beg to be different at times. Especially, or should i say only when I go jogging and be conscious about my inability to perform.
I start to ponder am I really prepared to give up what I've worked so hard to achieve in the past 6 years.
However, what's undeniable is that I know my body. I've always worked in an unique way. And I know I will never gain back my running ability if I continue to indulge myself to my current diet.
Sweet suggest that it's all pyschological. Although I understand this however that thinking only works for the norm. I'm different. I'm able to run even if i didn't eat a day..or when i'm shagged after guard-duty the day before.
Sweet suggests the "to have energy, you must eat" theory. I feel this kinda diet is for people who want to gain muscle. You eat, because you need the carbohydrates and protein to gain mass so that your muscles can develop out of those mass. So that the muscle grows bigger overtime. Yes, my current diet will definately benefit if I'm working out.
However, running is another thing. No doubt it needs energy but it's one which requires way less the amount of carbohydrates you need for body-building. My body has experience superior condition before. And it's true, my past diet works best for me.
Sigh. Here's the dilemma. Presently, I think and i'm very sure, relationship is the more important and prioritised in my life. Life stages changes. I supposed my running talent is over and it's time to work on my relationship and adopt a less athletic kinda life.
But... come to think about it..it's my fault.. perhaps it's because i'm getting lazy..and eating alot, growing fat.. What a foolish person I am..
*bang my head against the wall*
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
De one with A Short One
Calm skies
Today morning I went for a 5km run. After which I prepared for school. Spend some time deciding what to wear. End up, wore an attire which I thought was abit "mismatched".
Macroeconomics took a big 360 degrees turn. Our local lecture, Mr Saminathan, made the lecture interesting and good with his informal and hilarious way of conducting the lesson. None of us fell alseep!
Left campus and took the first bus I saw, Bus 61. Intended to journey down Westmall to buy Sweet Vitamin C (with B-Complex) since Sweet looked kinda disappointed not being able to get it yesterday coz Sweet had financial difficulty.
However, I got down at Bukit Batok and took Bus 852 down Mac Ritchie. Transferred to Bus 165. Got down to OUB then to Thompson Plaza to deposit money from my birthday.
Met Sweet at AMK. IT was really very nice of Sweet to travel down. Ate bah chor mee at hawker. Got a pair of Parker Pen (meant for me from Sweet, as my birthday present. Muacks) and my birthday card for Alan (my good friend cum band-mate from secondary school years).
Got David Tao's lastest album (nice).
Sweet and I went to patron the pasah malum. Brought lots of food like Goreng Pisang, fermented dofu, Shark Fin's soup, Takopachi. I bought fishballs back home for Jasmine since she was yearning for some. We sat at a void deck to feast. What a day to grow fat!
Day ended when I send Sweet to the busstop like usual. Could see that Sweet was really tried from work. Heart aches abit.
Sweet even mention Sweet ate alot and grew to become more compassionate and benevolent even since Sweet knew me. Muacks.
Today morning I went for a 5km run. After which I prepared for school. Spend some time deciding what to wear. End up, wore an attire which I thought was abit "mismatched".
Macroeconomics took a big 360 degrees turn. Our local lecture, Mr Saminathan, made the lecture interesting and good with his informal and hilarious way of conducting the lesson. None of us fell alseep!
Left campus and took the first bus I saw, Bus 61. Intended to journey down Westmall to buy Sweet Vitamin C (with B-Complex) since Sweet looked kinda disappointed not being able to get it yesterday coz Sweet had financial difficulty.
However, I got down at Bukit Batok and took Bus 852 down Mac Ritchie. Transferred to Bus 165. Got down to OUB then to Thompson Plaza to deposit money from my birthday.
Met Sweet at AMK. IT was really very nice of Sweet to travel down. Ate bah chor mee at hawker. Got a pair of Parker Pen (meant for me from Sweet, as my birthday present. Muacks) and my birthday card for Alan (my good friend cum band-mate from secondary school years).
Got David Tao's lastest album (nice).
Sweet and I went to patron the pasah malum. Brought lots of food like Goreng Pisang, fermented dofu, Shark Fin's soup, Takopachi. I bought fishballs back home for Jasmine since she was yearning for some. We sat at a void deck to feast. What a day to grow fat!
Day ended when I send Sweet to the busstop like usual. Could see that Sweet was really tried from work. Heart aches abit.
Sweet even mention Sweet ate alot and grew to become more compassionate and benevolent even since Sweet knew me. Muacks.
De one with 32th day
Afternoon showers
Early morning, I had a delightful marketing lectures. Something unique occurred in lecture today. The lecturer finished her lesson for the day early. In view of this, she asked for a tutorial lesson in a discussion form. She gave us around 10 minutes of discussion. After which, she explained the way of how she was going to conduct the dicussion: "This is how I'll do it. I'll walk around and stop in front of you. And I'm gonna pass the mic to you. And I'll not leave until you've speaked something." Everybody was like so tensed up!
Heng heng, never kana me! phew! But this Bryan guy got the mic and he kinda talked too much in answering the question. Sigh. The lecturer made it a "bryan's benchmark". Initially, most of us (relieved not being choosen) were thankful to him for answering the question. However, when the lecturer took his answering style as a benchmark, all of us flown. I even heard people sitting behind me, commenting wanting to bash him up. Hehehe!
After marketing lecture I had to stay for a short dicussion with my assignment group. Just for nailing down on the specific product which our project's gonna be based on. We brainstormed..and finally decided on doing "Qoo" beverage. Cool. Now we've gotta do research before proceeding on.
During break time during half way through lecture, it was already rainning. Why? Perhaps it's as what Sweet had said. Everytime Sweet wanted to pray at a temple. It will always rain. I joked with Sweet, telling Sweet that Sweet must be a "hor sin" (it means rain-god or house-fly in hokkien). Apparantly Sweet must be a rain-god, causing rain just because of Sweet's praying at a temple. Anyway, too much diversion. I rushed through the rain, to the busstop. Waited for awhile till bus 61 came. By the time I alighted from the bus, my newly bought white Giodano berms was stained with dirt spluttered from the damp ground.
I went up to Sweet's house for awhile. While I waited for Sweet to get ready. At the same time, allowing more duration in hope that the rain would crease or reduce. We then set off for Bugis. Along the way, we stopped at Meridien Hotel to grab a bite from Old Chang Kee. We had hot curry puff in what-I-thought to be a cold day. What's nice was Sweet paid for it.
We prayed at Guan Yin Miao at Si ma lu. Then jalan at the OG nearby. Due to being unable to buy a decent Skinwear underwear, we decided to head towards Parco, I bought Sweet to Wet and Surf to get a new pair of brown Billabong slippers. I managed to get my underwear from Seiyu. We walked through other places like OP (which was rather disappointed we couldn't buy the slippers which i had an eye for upon seeing it) and the Edge for simple window shopping.
Having got tired of the place, we strolled down towards Raffles City. In between, we took a Strawberry sundae, Fries and fish dippers' break at Mac. In vain, we decided to mrt down to Lavender. Had a mistakenably unfinished claypot chicken rice. All thanks to Sweet! Hehe..ordered a $8 claypot rice instead of what we should have ordered: $4's.
Anyway, Sweet wanted to get Green tea, so we went to Golden Mile Complex's Thai Supermarket. Lovely. We then took a cab down Mustafa, just to get my 21st Century Anti-Acne tablets. Don't really know how or what it works...well..just feeding to try. Hehe. I was grateful and really proud of Sweet, for being so knowledgeable and street-smart. Indeed an informed economic consumer! hehehe Love you Sweet!
Early morning, I had a delightful marketing lectures. Something unique occurred in lecture today. The lecturer finished her lesson for the day early. In view of this, she asked for a tutorial lesson in a discussion form. She gave us around 10 minutes of discussion. After which, she explained the way of how she was going to conduct the dicussion: "This is how I'll do it. I'll walk around and stop in front of you. And I'm gonna pass the mic to you. And I'll not leave until you've speaked something." Everybody was like so tensed up!
Heng heng, never kana me! phew! But this Bryan guy got the mic and he kinda talked too much in answering the question. Sigh. The lecturer made it a "bryan's benchmark". Initially, most of us (relieved not being choosen) were thankful to him for answering the question. However, when the lecturer took his answering style as a benchmark, all of us flown. I even heard people sitting behind me, commenting wanting to bash him up. Hehehe!
After marketing lecture I had to stay for a short dicussion with my assignment group. Just for nailing down on the specific product which our project's gonna be based on. We brainstormed..and finally decided on doing "Qoo" beverage. Cool. Now we've gotta do research before proceeding on.
During break time during half way through lecture, it was already rainning. Why? Perhaps it's as what Sweet had said. Everytime Sweet wanted to pray at a temple. It will always rain. I joked with Sweet, telling Sweet that Sweet must be a "hor sin" (it means rain-god or house-fly in hokkien). Apparantly Sweet must be a rain-god, causing rain just because of Sweet's praying at a temple. Anyway, too much diversion. I rushed through the rain, to the busstop. Waited for awhile till bus 61 came. By the time I alighted from the bus, my newly bought white Giodano berms was stained with dirt spluttered from the damp ground.
I went up to Sweet's house for awhile. While I waited for Sweet to get ready. At the same time, allowing more duration in hope that the rain would crease or reduce. We then set off for Bugis. Along the way, we stopped at Meridien Hotel to grab a bite from Old Chang Kee. We had hot curry puff in what-I-thought to be a cold day. What's nice was Sweet paid for it.
We prayed at Guan Yin Miao at Si ma lu. Then jalan at the OG nearby. Due to being unable to buy a decent Skinwear underwear, we decided to head towards Parco, I bought Sweet to Wet and Surf to get a new pair of brown Billabong slippers. I managed to get my underwear from Seiyu. We walked through other places like OP (which was rather disappointed we couldn't buy the slippers which i had an eye for upon seeing it) and the Edge for simple window shopping.
Having got tired of the place, we strolled down towards Raffles City. In between, we took a Strawberry sundae, Fries and fish dippers' break at Mac. In vain, we decided to mrt down to Lavender. Had a mistakenably unfinished claypot chicken rice. All thanks to Sweet! Hehe..ordered a $8 claypot rice instead of what we should have ordered: $4's.
Anyway, Sweet wanted to get Green tea, so we went to Golden Mile Complex's Thai Supermarket. Lovely. We then took a cab down Mustafa, just to get my 21st Century Anti-Acne tablets. Don't really know how or what it works...well..just feeding to try. Hehe. I was grateful and really proud of Sweet, for being so knowledgeable and street-smart. Indeed an informed economic consumer! hehehe Love you Sweet!
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
De one with Je t`aime [Emolings]
"A water pipe with occassional air bubbles stoppages"
Although attached for a month, somehow at times, I feel I still have a distance between you and me, Sweet.. Sweet get irritated because it's hard to make out what happen to me when I become blur or totally lost in a trance sometimes. Or I'll just simply lose myself in a "world of my own".
I'd love to tell you why, Sweet. However, I really don't know how to provide a satisfying answer. I mean, it's a habit like whaat everyones else have in themselves. Of course, not as weird and eccentric like mine.
Perhaps the appropriate reason is because I feel fatigue, I'll just let loose of my focus or concentration. A personal Hiatus. I do have a reason how i come about to have developed this habit. It's because I've faced absolute loneliness before during my secondary school days. That's why sometimes I can just wait for time to pass, staring blankly and lose myself.
I know I'm bounded by finacial limit. However, when i'm with Sweet. I just can't control myself, I just wanna provide for you.. be loving to you, giving you anything you desire. It's maybe a good way to compensate my inability to make you happy with my words or facial expressions.
I'm really striving alot to make conversation with you. Be more expressive. Yes, if i'm so comfortable with you, I should be able to talk like nobody's business. However, i'm sorry i'm really not that kinda overly-chatty person. Even when I'm with close friend like Clara or Chin Yu or even Mohan, I don't keep talking to them every now and then. Especially towards the last part of us (me with my close friends) going out, we hardly chat because both of us are tired and exhausted of topics to talk about.
I want to tell you everything I feel. However, there are times certain things I phrase it in a different way, bearing in mind to be sensitive. I really care too much for my partners' and friends' feelings. I don't wish to say things to offend or demoralise them. With you, I feel even more responsible over my words because of all people, I don't wish to hurt you in any way...
Nowadays, I really don't know why but I realised two changes in me. I'd like to specify first, it's not because of you who have caused this.
I've discovered firstly, I'm very offensive in my speech. I keep using the wrong expression phrases or words or incorrect statements. Secondly, I tend to lose my "stamina" for a conversation pretty fast. Sigh. I am really frustrated at myself for having these "disabilities"!
Well, inevitably, I'm worried that one day you'll just reach your limit of patience and start embarking on a new, better journey. I'm not habouring negative thoughts again. I just feel so. Don't I have the right to have freedom in how I feel? Sigh. It also strictly doesn't mean that all your assurance are disregarded. I appreciate it alot. But as what -A- told me before. Nobody is able to predict what will happen tomorrow or in the future.
In addition, I'm not saying I'm not going to follow what I've agreed with you, Sweet. I'll treasure my present with you and improve so that the relationship will continue.
This is another thing which demoralises me. I need my lover to be supportive and really pocess me. When I'm trying my best to make things back to the way they were, reconcile or when I do something wrong in your opinion, please don't "hack-care" me. Assure me of your constant attention, agreement, appreciation and compromise. I'll feel right in what I do.
Sometimes, I do feel jealous when I see you messaging your friends.. my doubts will never be cleared unless you tell me. Sigh. Perhaps I'm pocessive? or I'm really too afraid of getting hurt?
Anyway, I'll still respect your privacy if that's the way you define "transparency" until. I mean, I trust you because I love you dearly. However, I just don't want to be in a situation where you start getting to know another person and keep me in the dark. But then again, I wanna emphasise that I trust you still.
Hmm.. that's all for now... before I end, I still love you as much. The above won't affect my feelings for you. Cross thy heart.
Although attached for a month, somehow at times, I feel I still have a distance between you and me, Sweet.. Sweet get irritated because it's hard to make out what happen to me when I become blur or totally lost in a trance sometimes. Or I'll just simply lose myself in a "world of my own".
I'd love to tell you why, Sweet. However, I really don't know how to provide a satisfying answer. I mean, it's a habit like whaat everyones else have in themselves. Of course, not as weird and eccentric like mine.
Perhaps the appropriate reason is because I feel fatigue, I'll just let loose of my focus or concentration. A personal Hiatus. I do have a reason how i come about to have developed this habit. It's because I've faced absolute loneliness before during my secondary school days. That's why sometimes I can just wait for time to pass, staring blankly and lose myself.
I know I'm bounded by finacial limit. However, when i'm with Sweet. I just can't control myself, I just wanna provide for you.. be loving to you, giving you anything you desire. It's maybe a good way to compensate my inability to make you happy with my words or facial expressions.
I'm really striving alot to make conversation with you. Be more expressive. Yes, if i'm so comfortable with you, I should be able to talk like nobody's business. However, i'm sorry i'm really not that kinda overly-chatty person. Even when I'm with close friend like Clara or Chin Yu or even Mohan, I don't keep talking to them every now and then. Especially towards the last part of us (me with my close friends) going out, we hardly chat because both of us are tired and exhausted of topics to talk about.
I want to tell you everything I feel. However, there are times certain things I phrase it in a different way, bearing in mind to be sensitive. I really care too much for my partners' and friends' feelings. I don't wish to say things to offend or demoralise them. With you, I feel even more responsible over my words because of all people, I don't wish to hurt you in any way...
Nowadays, I really don't know why but I realised two changes in me. I'd like to specify first, it's not because of you who have caused this.
I've discovered firstly, I'm very offensive in my speech. I keep using the wrong expression phrases or words or incorrect statements. Secondly, I tend to lose my "stamina" for a conversation pretty fast. Sigh. I am really frustrated at myself for having these "disabilities"!
Well, inevitably, I'm worried that one day you'll just reach your limit of patience and start embarking on a new, better journey. I'm not habouring negative thoughts again. I just feel so. Don't I have the right to have freedom in how I feel? Sigh. It also strictly doesn't mean that all your assurance are disregarded. I appreciate it alot. But as what -A- told me before. Nobody is able to predict what will happen tomorrow or in the future.
In addition, I'm not saying I'm not going to follow what I've agreed with you, Sweet. I'll treasure my present with you and improve so that the relationship will continue.
This is another thing which demoralises me. I need my lover to be supportive and really pocess me. When I'm trying my best to make things back to the way they were, reconcile or when I do something wrong in your opinion, please don't "hack-care" me. Assure me of your constant attention, agreement, appreciation and compromise. I'll feel right in what I do.
Sometimes, I do feel jealous when I see you messaging your friends.. my doubts will never be cleared unless you tell me. Sigh. Perhaps I'm pocessive? or I'm really too afraid of getting hurt?
Anyway, I'll still respect your privacy if that's the way you define "transparency" until. I mean, I trust you because I love you dearly. However, I just don't want to be in a situation where you start getting to know another person and keep me in the dark. But then again, I wanna emphasise that I trust you still.
Hmm.. that's all for now... before I end, I still love you as much. The above won't affect my feelings for you. Cross thy heart.
Monday, August 14, 2006
De one with Our first Monthiversary
Sunny
Today marks an memoriable day. A day too special to be unforgettable. It's the one-month anniversary between me and Sweet!
Sweet took a half-day off today. So earlier I went to Mandai Columbarium to pay my visit to mummy (i really misses her alot). Something I've been doing on a monthly basis, revolving around the 13th. By the time I took bus 138 then subsequently, bus 13. Sweet was arriving in a cab. Sweet was so nice to buy me You Mian from the new eating outlet around my house area. Although Sweet called me earlier to ask me to go straight home to rest and wait for Sweet's arrival. I decided to go opposite to get Sweet's favour Waffle with Kaya from Prima Deli cakeshop. Thankfully, I managed to give a surprise to Sweet upon Sweet's done with buying the noodles.
We went back to have lunch as we watch channel 5 on tv. Then we enjoyed some private, loving time together. Until it was a quarter before 5pm did we leave from AMK central to change the white Gold ring ah-ma got for me for my birthday present, which was too small. Changed from size 15-16 after a short moment of confusion between the male assistant who make it so complicated because he measured my white gold ring and my couple ring to determine the size of my finger.
Sweet and I dined at Siam Kitchen at Suntec. Had a filling buffet. Even though Sweet wasn't fully satisfied with a few dishes. We ate our fill at our anniversay dinner. After which we patronise Giodano. Just simply amazed by their white-collection. We end up buying our first common clothing which was a pair of white casual berms. At first, I was worried that the white and thin fabric might enable a translucent reveal of the color of our undergarment. After trying, I realised it's not that visible. It's opaque actually. Thankfully!
We spent alot despite the both of us supposedly to be broke. Hehe. Earlier Sweet every bought a $33 key cum coin pouch. It was really a nice one.
I really appreciate Sweet coming down all the way because I wasn't travelling on concession. Overjoyed we spent some genuine loving time together. Cheers! Here's to our very first one month of relationship towards eternity! =D
Today marks an memoriable day. A day too special to be unforgettable. It's the one-month anniversary between me and Sweet!
Sweet took a half-day off today. So earlier I went to Mandai Columbarium to pay my visit to mummy (i really misses her alot). Something I've been doing on a monthly basis, revolving around the 13th. By the time I took bus 138 then subsequently, bus 13. Sweet was arriving in a cab. Sweet was so nice to buy me You Mian from the new eating outlet around my house area. Although Sweet called me earlier to ask me to go straight home to rest and wait for Sweet's arrival. I decided to go opposite to get Sweet's favour Waffle with Kaya from Prima Deli cakeshop. Thankfully, I managed to give a surprise to Sweet upon Sweet's done with buying the noodles.
We went back to have lunch as we watch channel 5 on tv. Then we enjoyed some private, loving time together. Until it was a quarter before 5pm did we leave from AMK central to change the white Gold ring ah-ma got for me for my birthday present, which was too small. Changed from size 15-16 after a short moment of confusion between the male assistant who make it so complicated because he measured my white gold ring and my couple ring to determine the size of my finger.
Sweet and I dined at Siam Kitchen at Suntec. Had a filling buffet. Even though Sweet wasn't fully satisfied with a few dishes. We ate our fill at our anniversay dinner. After which we patronise Giodano. Just simply amazed by their white-collection. We end up buying our first common clothing which was a pair of white casual berms. At first, I was worried that the white and thin fabric might enable a translucent reveal of the color of our undergarment. After trying, I realised it's not that visible. It's opaque actually. Thankfully!
We spent alot despite the both of us supposedly to be broke. Hehe. Earlier Sweet every bought a $33 key cum coin pouch. It was really a nice one.
I really appreciate Sweet coming down all the way because I wasn't travelling on concession. Overjoyed we spent some genuine loving time together. Cheers! Here's to our very first one month of relationship towards eternity! =D
Sunday, August 13, 2006
De one with Sapping Sunday
Slow Sunday
Today Sweet had to work over time. It's Sunday but Sweet still works for the benefit of getting more incentives for work. Thus, we could only meet up with each other during late afternoon.
Since so, I went jogging to cover a distance of about 4km in the morning, after having watched two episodes of Naturo Volume 11. Sigh. Just when it reaches the exciting part, the volume's finished. Sigh. Gotta wait until the next episode from Volume 12. As usual, I didn't have much stamina to run. Think me stamina and endurance are deteriorating.
Well, meet Sweet at the house area. After which we set off to Orchard to dine at Sakae Sushi at Wheelock Place. It was a $51 dinner lor. Boy we sure ate alot! Bloated, we walked to Heeren to shop at HMV, and the trendy shops upstairs. That was when Sweet started to feel I didn't talk much. Reason me being quiet was because I was concerned over Sweet, who told me Sweet was tired from work and waking up early. So I didn't want to engage Sweet into any conversation. Then I suggested going NUM but Sweet didn't wanna go in, so I changed my mind. What I replied when Sweet asked me why, about I'm able to come again with Chin Yu, made Sweet thrown temper at me again. Sweet was jealous, thinking why I enjoy shopping with Chin Yu. And always being gloomy when I shop with Sweet. And Sweet kept emphasing that because of Sweet's financial constrains, it made me shopping trip disappointing.
We had a short quarrelling. Sweet just walked off towards cineleisure. I really didn't know how to coax the situation. I lost my temper and suffered from a mere migraine instantaneously. We cooled down abit before going up Takashimaya and me guiding Sweet through how I shop usually.
We had an understanding chat in the library. That was when I realise the reason why Sweet never mention much about going for shopping much. It's because of finacial problems. Sweet's like me, we like to buy things everytime we see something we like. However when we shop but find it unaffordable, we feel depressed. I understand this. We had a chill-out and kissed each other to reconcile.
Sweet did a very loving thing: Brought a package of my favourite Famous Amos cookies for me. To my surprise, Sweet recognise my favourite Macadamia and Choc Chips cookies without me ever telling before. I was super touched by Sweet's sweet act. My heart really melt...
We spent an amount of time at Body Shop. In which I purchased a Lavender Body deodorant (to help Sweet relax due to quick-temper and stress), one Energising deodorant and Teatree mask for myself. Sweet, on the other hand, bought a facial wash, body scrub (which I choose the flavor for Sweet) and also renewed the membership. Spare the moment of embarrassment when Sweet presented an expired card initially. Omg.
I sent Sweet home. Sweet sent me and waited for my bus at the busstop. So loving...
I sense Sweet's starting to give up during this afternoon's quarrel. I can't help feeling in times like this, I ever question myself till when will I put up with this quick temper of Sweet's until I reached my limit. However, everytime I think of giving up, I just can't. Because my heart has already been so deeply love with Sweet. Parting with Sweet is like depriving myself of water, suffocating myself of air and I know life will crumple again.
Sweet, I really want you to know this, I will never leave you. Sigh.. my heart is sounding this devotion in banshee. Will you ever know of this?
Saturday, August 12, 2006
De one with Sweet & Steamboat celebration
Sunny day
Today, I did a very bad thing. I conveniently skipped my lecture and went to meet Sweet to swim cum sun-tan at Bukit Batok Swimming Complex. As what Sweet said, the place was indeed peaceful. In my opinion, it's likely due to the big area in which the benches are spreaded apart from one another, allowing for larger personal space. Sigh. End up, Sweet got tanner than me. Before showering, I wanted to swim longer at the medium pool. "Thank you and muacks" #1: Sweet was so lovingly patient, waited in the pool edge for me.
After that, we took a bus down to Westmall where we had a sumptuous meal at Malim (oops, can't recall what's the English name). We ordered standard and familiar dim sum: Xiu mai, Xiao long bao, Ling long bao glutinous rice, Fried carrot cake. Being adventurous, we tried other dishes like Fried Beancurd skin with You Tiao (You Tiao reminds me of Chin Yu, cause there was a moment I used this nickname on him, for pure teasing), Fried Prawn Fritters, Crumple Prok Bun and Pey Dan Congee. Last but not least, an anticipating Red bean pancake which turned out to be disappointing. Omg. "Thank you and muacks" #2: Sweet was adapting my eating habit of adding pepper with congee (when Sweet normally like congee with chili only).
"Thank you and muacks" #3: Sweet treat me. Not forgetting, we had a fun moment, serving each other tea. hehe. The food taste good. Especially the sample of spicy and sour cabbage. Plus the CUTLERIES (Sweet kept laughing when I said it wrongly as Utensilies) and eating plate were all different and varied in shapes.
After that, I said I wanna eat Mr Softee and Sweet brought me to the neighbourhood's 7-Elevens. I love Mr Softee alot! Ever since young, I used to go to a market place with my granny in the morning over every weekend. Without fail, she will buy me Mr Softee. Because I hate walking and the ice-cream was to cool me down and coax me into walking. Hehe. Pretty spolit kid right?
Sweet could sense I didn't wanna go back so early. So Sweet brought me to this Church of St Mary of the Angels, wanting me to meet someone.. who turned out to be the malaysian pastor there, Friar John. erm.. well, it's a highly modernised church with cool design and simple yet stylish architectured building. It's patron-Saint was St Francis of Assisi. A saint who loved nature and ever-kind to animals. That's part of what determine the simple design of the Church. Hehe.. Sweet asked me to close my eyes and guided me up to a columbrium. At the end of this stagment was Stain glass picture which caught my liking. It depicts the three scenes, namely the Baptise of Christ, St Anthony and St Francis Union of Hands and Lady Mary's visit from Saint Gabriel. I enjoyed depicting the whole picture and implications by Sweet and Friar John. Art never fails to tell a million words.
Back at home, Mama and Jasmine prepared steamboat celebration for an advanced 21st Birthday gala for me. When I just got home, ah-ma presented me with the presents they bought for me. It was a really beautiful and expensive white gold Ring and a bracelet! Super nice!! I adore and appreciate it alot!
Thanks everyone for everything. Love my family! and definately, I'll never forget my late-mummy. I think you will be happy for me in wherever you are. I feel it in my heart. Forever...
Today, I did a very bad thing. I conveniently skipped my lecture and went to meet Sweet to swim cum sun-tan at Bukit Batok Swimming Complex. As what Sweet said, the place was indeed peaceful. In my opinion, it's likely due to the big area in which the benches are spreaded apart from one another, allowing for larger personal space. Sigh. End up, Sweet got tanner than me. Before showering, I wanted to swim longer at the medium pool. "Thank you and muacks" #1: Sweet was so lovingly patient, waited in the pool edge for me.
After that, we took a bus down to Westmall where we had a sumptuous meal at Malim (oops, can't recall what's the English name). We ordered standard and familiar dim sum: Xiu mai, Xiao long bao, Ling long bao glutinous rice, Fried carrot cake. Being adventurous, we tried other dishes like Fried Beancurd skin with You Tiao (You Tiao reminds me of Chin Yu, cause there was a moment I used this nickname on him, for pure teasing), Fried Prawn Fritters, Crumple Prok Bun and Pey Dan Congee. Last but not least, an anticipating Red bean pancake which turned out to be disappointing. Omg. "Thank you and muacks" #2: Sweet was adapting my eating habit of adding pepper with congee (when Sweet normally like congee with chili only).
"Thank you and muacks" #3: Sweet treat me. Not forgetting, we had a fun moment, serving each other tea. hehe. The food taste good. Especially the sample of spicy and sour cabbage. Plus the CUTLERIES (Sweet kept laughing when I said it wrongly as Utensilies) and eating plate were all different and varied in shapes.
After that, I said I wanna eat Mr Softee and Sweet brought me to the neighbourhood's 7-Elevens. I love Mr Softee alot! Ever since young, I used to go to a market place with my granny in the morning over every weekend. Without fail, she will buy me Mr Softee. Because I hate walking and the ice-cream was to cool me down and coax me into walking. Hehe. Pretty spolit kid right?
Sweet could sense I didn't wanna go back so early. So Sweet brought me to this Church of St Mary of the Angels, wanting me to meet someone.. who turned out to be the malaysian pastor there, Friar John. erm.. well, it's a highly modernised church with cool design and simple yet stylish architectured building. It's patron-Saint was St Francis of Assisi. A saint who loved nature and ever-kind to animals. That's part of what determine the simple design of the Church. Hehe.. Sweet asked me to close my eyes and guided me up to a columbrium. At the end of this stagment was Stain glass picture which caught my liking. It depicts the three scenes, namely the Baptise of Christ, St Anthony and St Francis Union of Hands and Lady Mary's visit from Saint Gabriel. I enjoyed depicting the whole picture and implications by Sweet and Friar John. Art never fails to tell a million words.
Back at home, Mama and Jasmine prepared steamboat celebration for an advanced 21st Birthday gala for me. When I just got home, ah-ma presented me with the presents they bought for me. It was a really beautiful and expensive white gold Ring and a bracelet! Super nice!! I adore and appreciate it alot!
Thanks everyone for everything. Love my family! and definately, I'll never forget my late-mummy. I think you will be happy for me in wherever you are. I feel it in my heart. Forever...
Friday, August 11, 2006
De one with Special movie
Cloudy
Early morning around 5am, I message Sweet my apologise for yesterday. I even attempt to make things better, sending Sweet a 20 sms-long message to Sweet, telling Sweet about nearly all the things I've realised, known and learnt about Sweet. From our first date, till stuff Sweet loves and Sweet's personal nitty gritty. It's to prove my sincerity and integrity as a bf. Show how much Sweet matters and have integrated significance into my life...
Today Business computing lecture was more interesting! The part about how "bytes" comes about. And the fascinating "base 2" and admirable fact about how the computer reads hexadecimals to produce "texts". It's really amazing how the computer hardware works. Simply complicated and brilliant!
After lecture when to meet Clara at Chinese Garden mrt. Sigh. On my bus ride from school. I boarded a rather crowded bus 52 at SIM busstop. Apparantly, not long after, I realised there was this available green seat. Upon the stopping of the bus at a busstop, I was about to take off my sling bag, preparing to seat when I saw two old ladies coming up. Abit of embarassment upon realising why people left the green seats empty. I was so paiseh. I sling back my bag again. Omg.
Upon reaching Clementi. There was this "barrier" of crowd taking their own sweet time to walk to the control station. Omg. I saw on the electronic train-arrival board, the train to Boon Lay was like arriving in 1 mins' time. I made my way through the annoyingly slow crowd, rushed up the flight of steps and managed to board the departing train before the doors closed behind me a couple of seconds later. Phew!!
We finally made our way to Jurong East Swimming Complex. Hehe.. my very first time there. After all that have been only described to me by the friends. It's really big. And more expensive than other complexes (50 cents more!) Then, the very 2nd embarrassing thing occur. I mistaken the changing room for boys as men's. Omg. I happily vocal out my bid goodbye to Clara so openly. Omg. It was a really embarrassing moment! We were both laughing like lunatics!
We swam at the competition pool, before going to the "round-about". It's actually a circle lane which has currents to propel you, best if you sit in a rented floats. We waited quite awhile for the most awaited man-made"sea waves". Nothing fun at the beginning. But one thing we observed was once the sea tides started, the pool start to draw alot of users to it. People were screaming and exclaiming. Some at the edges, trying to grab to the wall to climb stupidly, with aid of the tide. Others just sit on floats and get toppled by the tides and struggle to get back on again (Lame~). There are specially two persons. Me and Clara. Hehe, standing in th middle and trying to seek our share of fun. So I started to imitate the sound effects. I did a very silly funny action of going up and down with the tides and sound out "wuuuuuaooooooo". So lame but it made Clara laughing till her teeth nearly dropped! HAHA! I even act like i'm drowning, screaming like those little girls were, and the "escaping act" like we were chased by an approaching shark. Really lunatic!
After which I stayed with Clara till her boyfriend Shawn, came over to find her. I left and took a train to Bukit Batok. From there, I took bus 852 back. On the way, my eyes were irritated with the pool's chlorine, I fell asleep on the bus. It wasn't until Sweet called me the 2nd time to wake me up.
Sweet and I had dinner at Sumo AMK in the evening. Both of us order Udon. Kinda disappointing. Well.. thank god we had Nachos and "mixed nuts" to compensate our unsatisfied taste-buds! We sat all the way to the end of the cinema where both of us could have our private space. It was abit eerie in the beginning because we feel so alienated from the majority crowd, who were sitting in the middle cache. Fortunately, it didn't take long before we get used to and comfortable with our seatings. Sweet and I have a really "great" experience, watching "The AntZ Bully".
The Antz Bully is generally an animated movie, depicting the story about a young boy named Marcus who was always bullied by this neighbourhood bully, bigger in size and more popular than him. As a result, he starts to venge his angry on the ants which were having their nest in his front yard. Under the potion of a Wizard Ant, Marcus became as miniture as an ant. He realises and appreciates the value and situations of the ants, vulnerable to attacks by Warps and humans. In the end, Marcus tries to save his ant-friends and the colony of insects which were in distress with the Exterminator hired by Marcus himself right from the beginning of the story.
It was a rather enjoyable movie. Being with Sweet made it more worthwhile. hehe. But Sweet mentioned something which is true. The movie isn't just pure entertainment but bears the underlying morale. To teach us to value the lives of living things even to a tiny creature like an ant.
I feel there's alot more than that. Sweet agrees too. Antz Bully is also about learning the importance of true loyal friendship and team-ship. Both of us are seeing more things in common. I am really happy for us!!!
Early morning around 5am, I message Sweet my apologise for yesterday. I even attempt to make things better, sending Sweet a 20 sms-long message to Sweet, telling Sweet about nearly all the things I've realised, known and learnt about Sweet. From our first date, till stuff Sweet loves and Sweet's personal nitty gritty. It's to prove my sincerity and integrity as a bf. Show how much Sweet matters and have integrated significance into my life...
Today Business computing lecture was more interesting! The part about how "bytes" comes about. And the fascinating "base 2" and admirable fact about how the computer reads hexadecimals to produce "texts". It's really amazing how the computer hardware works. Simply complicated and brilliant!
After lecture when to meet Clara at Chinese Garden mrt. Sigh. On my bus ride from school. I boarded a rather crowded bus 52 at SIM busstop. Apparantly, not long after, I realised there was this available green seat. Upon the stopping of the bus at a busstop, I was about to take off my sling bag, preparing to seat when I saw two old ladies coming up. Abit of embarassment upon realising why people left the green seats empty. I was so paiseh. I sling back my bag again. Omg.
Upon reaching Clementi. There was this "barrier" of crowd taking their own sweet time to walk to the control station. Omg. I saw on the electronic train-arrival board, the train to Boon Lay was like arriving in 1 mins' time. I made my way through the annoyingly slow crowd, rushed up the flight of steps and managed to board the departing train before the doors closed behind me a couple of seconds later. Phew!!
We finally made our way to Jurong East Swimming Complex. Hehe.. my very first time there. After all that have been only described to me by the friends. It's really big. And more expensive than other complexes (50 cents more!) Then, the very 2nd embarrassing thing occur. I mistaken the changing room for boys as men's. Omg. I happily vocal out my bid goodbye to Clara so openly. Omg. It was a really embarrassing moment! We were both laughing like lunatics!
We swam at the competition pool, before going to the "round-about". It's actually a circle lane which has currents to propel you, best if you sit in a rented floats. We waited quite awhile for the most awaited man-made"sea waves". Nothing fun at the beginning. But one thing we observed was once the sea tides started, the pool start to draw alot of users to it. People were screaming and exclaiming. Some at the edges, trying to grab to the wall to climb stupidly, with aid of the tide. Others just sit on floats and get toppled by the tides and struggle to get back on again (Lame~). There are specially two persons. Me and Clara. Hehe, standing in th middle and trying to seek our share of fun. So I started to imitate the sound effects. I did a very silly funny action of going up and down with the tides and sound out "wuuuuuaooooooo". So lame but it made Clara laughing till her teeth nearly dropped! HAHA! I even act like i'm drowning, screaming like those little girls were, and the "escaping act" like we were chased by an approaching shark. Really lunatic!
After which I stayed with Clara till her boyfriend Shawn, came over to find her. I left and took a train to Bukit Batok. From there, I took bus 852 back. On the way, my eyes were irritated with the pool's chlorine, I fell asleep on the bus. It wasn't until Sweet called me the 2nd time to wake me up.
Sweet and I had dinner at Sumo AMK in the evening. Both of us order Udon. Kinda disappointing. Well.. thank god we had Nachos and "mixed nuts" to compensate our unsatisfied taste-buds! We sat all the way to the end of the cinema where both of us could have our private space. It was abit eerie in the beginning because we feel so alienated from the majority crowd, who were sitting in the middle cache. Fortunately, it didn't take long before we get used to and comfortable with our seatings. Sweet and I have a really "great" experience, watching "The AntZ Bully".
The Antz Bully is generally an animated movie, depicting the story about a young boy named Marcus who was always bullied by this neighbourhood bully, bigger in size and more popular than him. As a result, he starts to venge his angry on the ants which were having their nest in his front yard. Under the potion of a Wizard Ant, Marcus became as miniture as an ant. He realises and appreciates the value and situations of the ants, vulnerable to attacks by Warps and humans. In the end, Marcus tries to save his ant-friends and the colony of insects which were in distress with the Exterminator hired by Marcus himself right from the beginning of the story.
It was a rather enjoyable movie. Being with Sweet made it more worthwhile. hehe. But Sweet mentioned something which is true. The movie isn't just pure entertainment but bears the underlying morale. To teach us to value the lives of living things even to a tiny creature like an ant.
I feel there's alot more than that. Sweet agrees too. Antz Bully is also about learning the importance of true loyal friendship and team-ship. Both of us are seeing more things in common. I am really happy for us!!!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
De one with Nearly-disaster
Winds in Hot sun
Today was a really slow day. Met Sweet for dinner today. Travelled all the way to Westmall to have dinner. However, the valuable 2 hrs meeting end up turning into a disaster. I was being really worried. Sweet just keeps misinterpreting. Me on the other hand, being un-understandable, eccentric and negative. Thus, pissing Sweet off.
Most of the time, I feel very caught up of what's best to be done. It leads to a disappointing outcome. Sweet advised me not to be stressed. If i don't change myself considerably, how to fulfill all that's required or demanded of me as a bf? If I'd just be myself, I'll be all quiet and introvert. I really feel very strangled. I'm striving my best but most the time, the odds are too overwhelming.
Everytime this undesirable and unexpected situation or outcome arises, I try my best to coax Sweet, try to make things back the loving way as before but sometimes, I just feel so lost.. no answers pops in my mind... as though all my determination and comfort skills are drained out. Sometimes, I really feel like a slave-of-love to Sweet. But seeing Sweet, being with Sweet just melts me down, telling me it's all worthwhile.
I treasure this relationship alot. Rather, my full willingness and unconditional have proven myself to make me love this person wholehearted. Definately, this is not enough or helpful because i'm unable to make Sweet feel this way. There are still events and adversities which I can't control. However, I still pledge my love, cross thy heart..and gurantee I'll ensure something thou have thy love for eternal.
I must mention too.. I'm really apologetic.. I get too stressed easily..like what Sweet said, it only prevents me from performing. And I'm too pessismistic. Resulting in causing Sweet to feel insecure. How foolish I am. Well..i must change.. just give me time please?
Today was a really slow day. Met Sweet for dinner today. Travelled all the way to Westmall to have dinner. However, the valuable 2 hrs meeting end up turning into a disaster. I was being really worried. Sweet just keeps misinterpreting. Me on the other hand, being un-understandable, eccentric and negative. Thus, pissing Sweet off.
Most of the time, I feel very caught up of what's best to be done. It leads to a disappointing outcome. Sweet advised me not to be stressed. If i don't change myself considerably, how to fulfill all that's required or demanded of me as a bf? If I'd just be myself, I'll be all quiet and introvert. I really feel very strangled. I'm striving my best but most the time, the odds are too overwhelming.
Everytime this undesirable and unexpected situation or outcome arises, I try my best to coax Sweet, try to make things back the loving way as before but sometimes, I just feel so lost.. no answers pops in my mind... as though all my determination and comfort skills are drained out. Sometimes, I really feel like a slave-of-love to Sweet. But seeing Sweet, being with Sweet just melts me down, telling me it's all worthwhile.
I treasure this relationship alot. Rather, my full willingness and unconditional have proven myself to make me love this person wholehearted. Definately, this is not enough or helpful because i'm unable to make Sweet feel this way. There are still events and adversities which I can't control. However, I still pledge my love, cross thy heart..and gurantee I'll ensure something thou have thy love for eternal.
I must mention too.. I'm really apologetic.. I get too stressed easily..like what Sweet said, it only prevents me from performing. And I'm too pessismistic. Resulting in causing Sweet to feel insecure. How foolish I am. Well..i must change.. just give me time please?
De one with Relationship
Windy and sunny
After a 3hr lecture at campus and I was on the bus which takes me home. I suddenly come to realise more about what Vance told me before. That couples should do things which benefits the relationship, rather than for their individual selves.
Sweet was messaging me, proposing to make some changes in Sweet's life. Well, my natural reaction was being to feel inferior. That if Sweet underwent the changes, Sweet would become more attractive and that Sweet might just realise one day that I'm not good enough and might end up leaving me. That arouses my inferiority. Of course, I think about it. Partly, it's because I wanna stop all these "break-up" prophecy which is a form of pessismism (gets Sweet on the nerves). So I replied Sweet: "well, if it doesn't change much of you then go ahead".
In less than a minute after I replied, it occur to me to review what I've sent.
I did what I do best, focus, listen and think in an unprejudice, open-mind way. I came to realise I was being very selfish. And unsupportive towards Sweet. Simply because I'm afraid of losing Sweet, i've created a sort of restriction which might made Sweet happier and being able to achieve something.
I sent another message to Sweet : "nah, if it doesn't jeopardise anything, i should and i will support you in whatever you wish to do". In hope that it's strong enough to encourage Sweet. I did this because I want the greater good for the relationship which we share. Being supportive and encouraging are little ways to maintain a relationship. So it will last forever.
It's about putting aside what we want for ourselves or how and what we decided for our partners to be, and considering the benefits for the relationship itself which will eventually, most of the time, make both parties happy.
Of course, this is not the only way to make a successful relationship. There are other factors like compromises and sacrifices to make a wonderful relationship. Even though, definately this has a percentage which MAY contribute to a long-term lovely relationship. (Omg! Why are I writing in academic style!?! It's my blog! It's supposed to be MY PERSPECTIVE!) hehe
After a 3hr lecture at campus and I was on the bus which takes me home. I suddenly come to realise more about what Vance told me before. That couples should do things which benefits the relationship, rather than for their individual selves.
Sweet was messaging me, proposing to make some changes in Sweet's life. Well, my natural reaction was being to feel inferior. That if Sweet underwent the changes, Sweet would become more attractive and that Sweet might just realise one day that I'm not good enough and might end up leaving me. That arouses my inferiority. Of course, I think about it. Partly, it's because I wanna stop all these "break-up" prophecy which is a form of pessismism (gets Sweet on the nerves). So I replied Sweet: "well, if it doesn't change much of you then go ahead".
In less than a minute after I replied, it occur to me to review what I've sent.
I did what I do best, focus, listen and think in an unprejudice, open-mind way. I came to realise I was being very selfish. And unsupportive towards Sweet. Simply because I'm afraid of losing Sweet, i've created a sort of restriction which might made Sweet happier and being able to achieve something.
I sent another message to Sweet : "nah, if it doesn't jeopardise anything, i should and i will support you in whatever you wish to do". In hope that it's strong enough to encourage Sweet. I did this because I want the greater good for the relationship which we share. Being supportive and encouraging are little ways to maintain a relationship. So it will last forever.
It's about putting aside what we want for ourselves or how and what we decided for our partners to be, and considering the benefits for the relationship itself which will eventually, most of the time, make both parties happy.
Of course, this is not the only way to make a successful relationship. There are other factors like compromises and sacrifices to make a wonderful relationship. Even though, definately this has a percentage which MAY contribute to a long-term lovely relationship. (Omg! Why are I writing in academic style!?! It's my blog! It's supposed to be MY PERSPECTIVE!) hehe
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
De one with Eau de Toilettes
Hot, hot, hot!
My very first encounter with Cologne or Eau de Toilettes, was after I've smell the nice smell coming from my primary 5 form teacher, Mr Chew. He will come into class, smelling the same as normal deodorant.
I don't really recall when I actually had my very first cologne. However luckily, I do remember the very first brand of cologne I got and where I got it from. My parents bought it for me at the duty free shop, on one of the trips back from Australia (our frequent vocation destination). Tommy Hilfiger's Tommy. My very first cologne. It has a very estatic peircing musky smell. It was the best and closest to the odour as the one in my first impression of colognes. Although it made me sneeze initially, I put on where ever I go. Thankfully, I got used to it.
After this, I start to develop a liking for colognes. Started to buy more on future overseas vocation. I started to find out more about which kinda cologne I like through Kris-shop magazine (the first thing I read onboard the plane everytime). The next one I set my eyes on was the newly-introduced Hugo Boss' Dark Blue cologne. I like the concentrated sandalwood smell. Very man lor! I remembered I sprayed it on everytime I went. On one very unfortunate event. My younger brother, Jimson, was vomitting on the plane. He's clothing was stenched and smelly. My mummy was finding a solution. So I suggested using my Hugo cologne. Wah-la! It worked perfectly well!
My next target was Polo Ralph's Polo Sport. I still remember the advertisement on magazine. Showing a black basketballer. Erm.. well, it's not him that made me buy Polo Sport. Rather, it's the genuine soothing mild smell it has. Recently, I have got another product by Polo : Romance Silver. It always creates an impression of True romance in a classy atmosphere.
Since I keep applying Hugo and Tommy so commonly. I started to crave for one unique brand for special occassion. That was when I purchase Armani for he. Hehe.. It is a refreshing yet still retaining the essense of a musky smell. It's long-lasting. I love it alot. Till today I still apply it whenever I wear formal clothings to attend important functions or performance. Recently, I got Armani's Black code (oops. Haven't open yet).
The most memorable cologne I've used for entirely 2 years (which was the longest period which I've ever stick to a cologne) was Hugo Boss in Motion. I must admit, in Jc I was growing to become sporty, Motion really appeal alot to me. The packaging of Motion captured me alot. Advertisement of models running. It bears alot of something I wanted and was recognised to. Plus it has my favourite fruit: Orange smell. My daddy bought alot of bottles of it. I figured I used up around 6 bottles of it. Putting it on everytime I went to Jc. Omg. It even represented me. My bandmate and close friend, Shuqing, used to say everytime before I was nearby. The smell of my cologne gave my pressence away!
I love Hugo Boss during early 2000. As I think Hugo's strong and thus, very lasting. It was worth buying. Till date, I have got 6 different products. Namely Boss dark Blue, Boss in Motion (normal, silver-blue and Christmas edition), Soul (same taste as Chin Yu) and Energise (my closest substitude to CK Crave).
Next is CK products. I've always though CK's were very expensive. It wasn't until I got my very first attraction to CK Eternity. It was the best substitude to Armani he. Apparantly, hearsay that it's the best product ever by CK for Men. Well, my opinion differs. I prefer CK Crave. It's sporty appeal attracted me. Plus, it's stylish translucent packaging made me like it even better. It produces a very awakening fresh, sporty smell. Unfortunately, it's no longer in production. Sigh. Not to worry. I have Contradiction, Be (which my 2nd ex influenced me to get it) and recently, CK One and Eternity Summer edition. Both of the summer edition made me discover my liking for fruity-smelling cologne. Otherwise, I guess it's due to Sweet too.
I love mild smelling colognes nowadays. Despite possible disadvantage that such colognes ain't last long time period. That's when I favour Kenzo Air and L'eau Par. Kenzo Air gives me a very boyish appeal and it makes me very energise at all time. On the other hand, L'eau Par bears a fruitty smell. Lemon. Simply lovely.
Talking about fruitty smell. No other cologne can match DKNY's Be Delicious. It has an apple smell. Hmm... always creating a very strong "healthy in style" kinda impression.
Haha..sorry but i'm not going to carry on introducing all types of colognes. If not the cows would have come home. What am i talking?!? I have a collection of 26 different colognes. Other than those I've mention above. My collection includes Tommy True Star, Burberry's Touch & Weekend, FCUK him and Higer Energy by Dior (bought by my cousin all the way from the US during her attachment).
Omg. Look forward to buying more but well.. Jason's financial department depleting of resources. Hehe..
My very first encounter with Cologne or Eau de Toilettes, was after I've smell the nice smell coming from my primary 5 form teacher, Mr Chew. He will come into class, smelling the same as normal deodorant.
I don't really recall when I actually had my very first cologne. However luckily, I do remember the very first brand of cologne I got and where I got it from. My parents bought it for me at the duty free shop, on one of the trips back from Australia (our frequent vocation destination). Tommy Hilfiger's Tommy. My very first cologne. It has a very estatic peircing musky smell. It was the best and closest to the odour as the one in my first impression of colognes. Although it made me sneeze initially, I put on where ever I go. Thankfully, I got used to it.
After this, I start to develop a liking for colognes. Started to buy more on future overseas vocation. I started to find out more about which kinda cologne I like through Kris-shop magazine (the first thing I read onboard the plane everytime). The next one I set my eyes on was the newly-introduced Hugo Boss' Dark Blue cologne. I like the concentrated sandalwood smell. Very man lor! I remembered I sprayed it on everytime I went. On one very unfortunate event. My younger brother, Jimson, was vomitting on the plane. He's clothing was stenched and smelly. My mummy was finding a solution. So I suggested using my Hugo cologne. Wah-la! It worked perfectly well!
My next target was Polo Ralph's Polo Sport. I still remember the advertisement on magazine. Showing a black basketballer. Erm.. well, it's not him that made me buy Polo Sport. Rather, it's the genuine soothing mild smell it has. Recently, I have got another product by Polo : Romance Silver. It always creates an impression of True romance in a classy atmosphere.
Since I keep applying Hugo and Tommy so commonly. I started to crave for one unique brand for special occassion. That was when I purchase Armani for he. Hehe.. It is a refreshing yet still retaining the essense of a musky smell. It's long-lasting. I love it alot. Till today I still apply it whenever I wear formal clothings to attend important functions or performance. Recently, I got Armani's Black code (oops. Haven't open yet).
The most memorable cologne I've used for entirely 2 years (which was the longest period which I've ever stick to a cologne) was Hugo Boss in Motion. I must admit, in Jc I was growing to become sporty, Motion really appeal alot to me. The packaging of Motion captured me alot. Advertisement of models running. It bears alot of something I wanted and was recognised to. Plus it has my favourite fruit: Orange smell. My daddy bought alot of bottles of it. I figured I used up around 6 bottles of it. Putting it on everytime I went to Jc. Omg. It even represented me. My bandmate and close friend, Shuqing, used to say everytime before I was nearby. The smell of my cologne gave my pressence away!
I love Hugo Boss during early 2000. As I think Hugo's strong and thus, very lasting. It was worth buying. Till date, I have got 6 different products. Namely Boss dark Blue, Boss in Motion (normal, silver-blue and Christmas edition), Soul (same taste as Chin Yu) and Energise (my closest substitude to CK Crave).
Next is CK products. I've always though CK's were very expensive. It wasn't until I got my very first attraction to CK Eternity. It was the best substitude to Armani he. Apparantly, hearsay that it's the best product ever by CK for Men. Well, my opinion differs. I prefer CK Crave. It's sporty appeal attracted me. Plus, it's stylish translucent packaging made me like it even better. It produces a very awakening fresh, sporty smell. Unfortunately, it's no longer in production. Sigh. Not to worry. I have Contradiction, Be (which my 2nd ex influenced me to get it) and recently, CK One and Eternity Summer edition. Both of the summer edition made me discover my liking for fruity-smelling cologne. Otherwise, I guess it's due to Sweet too.
I love mild smelling colognes nowadays. Despite possible disadvantage that such colognes ain't last long time period. That's when I favour Kenzo Air and L'eau Par. Kenzo Air gives me a very boyish appeal and it makes me very energise at all time. On the other hand, L'eau Par bears a fruitty smell. Lemon. Simply lovely.
Talking about fruitty smell. No other cologne can match DKNY's Be Delicious. It has an apple smell. Hmm... always creating a very strong "healthy in style" kinda impression.
Haha..sorry but i'm not going to carry on introducing all types of colognes. If not the cows would have come home. What am i talking?!? I have a collection of 26 different colognes. Other than those I've mention above. My collection includes Tommy True Star, Burberry's Touch & Weekend, FCUK him and Higer Energy by Dior (bought by my cousin all the way from the US during her attachment).
Omg. Look forward to buying more but well.. Jason's financial department depleting of resources. Hehe..
De one with National Day
Hot, hot, hot!
Everyone gets very excite over NDP. Previously, people will queue overnight at National Stadium, desperately hopeful of getting their NDP tickets and of course, a "fong fu" goodie bag.. for others, to be a part of the grand celebration!
However, times have changed, so does administration and organisation changes. For example, to address the disappointment of people who spent overnight end up getting not even one ticket. The idea of balloting for NDP through AXS, was introduced. They said.. in this way, it allows every Singaporean to get a chance in lifetime to be able to participate in NDP. Yes, it does solve the trouble of preventing vain efforts and disappointment of people who queued overnight. However, seriously I think the idea about creating a fair-play is not really that effective bah. Oops. Maybe it hasn't been happening to me and people I've known.
Anyway, what doesn't change is the anticipation of the most spectacular Fireworks display. As all of us would know, it's only during NDP that Singaporeans get to see beautiful fireworks locally. It's really romantic. Imagine watching it with your loved one, along the river-side walkway. Keeping quiet, just enjoying the amazing sight of fireworks display. More than ever, enjoying the accompany of your lover. Ooo... simply overly passionately romantic.
Other than that, I guess what most people won't wanna miss will be the respectful Marching Contigent formation. Parade, definately isn't what most public get to see. Especially if one is not even involved in NS. What most people don't really realise is the actual pain of having to stand at "serdiya" (attention) position for such a long time. Omg. Personally, I experienced this during my SYF while we wait for our results. Sigh. The pain is having to stand at attention, "stomach in, chest out", "chin up".. and not being able to figid as the beads of prespiration tickle down your nose-bridge and eye corner. Hehe.. You fear that if you move, you might ruin the uniformed formation and worst, draw someone's attention and get criticised.
Well.. I guess every Singaporean have had their chance of being not just the majority role of being an audience but also, a performer in NDP sometime in their life. For me, I remembered I was in Secondary 2 when my military band combined with Deyi band to perform an pre-parade item. It was a great deal. We started practising months before the actual parade. Still recall the days of long-hour practice under the hot sun, rain and drizzle, at Khatib Camp. Haha.. I been to my camp, even before I've enlisted and got posted there after SISPEC. What an unexpected coincidence!
Well, I don't really like performing at National Stadium. Mainly because of the undesirable echos you get, disrupting your ability to get which is the correct original music. It really demands you to concentrate and be alert enough to recognise which is the true music from the abyss of tempo-varied sounds.
Everything have a good and bad part. Now I shall share a down-side. I recalled during NDP during my jc1. Since my parents were off to watch NDP live. I was at home. I had a quarrel with my 1st ex until we were on the verge of break up. Silly enough, I got overly depressed, I love my 1st ex so much, i attempted suicide. Shameful but I lost my rationality and popped 20 Anti-fast panadols pills with E-30 Alcohol. The next morning, I didn't die. However, I got really into a worse condition of vomitting continuously and suffered from severe dehydration. I recalled my parents sent me to visit the neighbourhood clinic. The doctor asked me why. I was thinking, I should tell him what I consumed in order for him to prescribed the right medication for me. I remembered I just act blur when he asked why I did such a foolish thing.
What really hurt me and shattered my heart was... my ex didn't care much.
*sob*
Nah.. I shouldn't cry. Well.. it's just one of those really foolish and stupid things I do in the past.
Well well, I guess that's enough. It's National Day! HAPPY NATIONAL DAY to all (especially Sweet, the one who matters most to me now) and Singapore!
Everyone gets very excite over NDP. Previously, people will queue overnight at National Stadium, desperately hopeful of getting their NDP tickets and of course, a "fong fu" goodie bag.. for others, to be a part of the grand celebration!
However, times have changed, so does administration and organisation changes. For example, to address the disappointment of people who spent overnight end up getting not even one ticket. The idea of balloting for NDP through AXS, was introduced. They said.. in this way, it allows every Singaporean to get a chance in lifetime to be able to participate in NDP. Yes, it does solve the trouble of preventing vain efforts and disappointment of people who queued overnight. However, seriously I think the idea about creating a fair-play is not really that effective bah. Oops. Maybe it hasn't been happening to me and people I've known.
Anyway, what doesn't change is the anticipation of the most spectacular Fireworks display. As all of us would know, it's only during NDP that Singaporeans get to see beautiful fireworks locally. It's really romantic. Imagine watching it with your loved one, along the river-side walkway. Keeping quiet, just enjoying the amazing sight of fireworks display. More than ever, enjoying the accompany of your lover. Ooo... simply overly passionately romantic.
Other than that, I guess what most people won't wanna miss will be the respectful Marching Contigent formation. Parade, definately isn't what most public get to see. Especially if one is not even involved in NS. What most people don't really realise is the actual pain of having to stand at "serdiya" (attention) position for such a long time. Omg. Personally, I experienced this during my SYF while we wait for our results. Sigh. The pain is having to stand at attention, "stomach in, chest out", "chin up".. and not being able to figid as the beads of prespiration tickle down your nose-bridge and eye corner. Hehe.. You fear that if you move, you might ruin the uniformed formation and worst, draw someone's attention and get criticised.
Well.. I guess every Singaporean have had their chance of being not just the majority role of being an audience but also, a performer in NDP sometime in their life. For me, I remembered I was in Secondary 2 when my military band combined with Deyi band to perform an pre-parade item. It was a great deal. We started practising months before the actual parade. Still recall the days of long-hour practice under the hot sun, rain and drizzle, at Khatib Camp. Haha.. I been to my camp, even before I've enlisted and got posted there after SISPEC. What an unexpected coincidence!
Well, I don't really like performing at National Stadium. Mainly because of the undesirable echos you get, disrupting your ability to get which is the correct original music. It really demands you to concentrate and be alert enough to recognise which is the true music from the abyss of tempo-varied sounds.
Everything have a good and bad part. Now I shall share a down-side. I recalled during NDP during my jc1. Since my parents were off to watch NDP live. I was at home. I had a quarrel with my 1st ex until we were on the verge of break up. Silly enough, I got overly depressed, I love my 1st ex so much, i attempted suicide. Shameful but I lost my rationality and popped 20 Anti-fast panadols pills with E-30 Alcohol. The next morning, I didn't die. However, I got really into a worse condition of vomitting continuously and suffered from severe dehydration. I recalled my parents sent me to visit the neighbourhood clinic. The doctor asked me why. I was thinking, I should tell him what I consumed in order for him to prescribed the right medication for me. I remembered I just act blur when he asked why I did such a foolish thing.
What really hurt me and shattered my heart was... my ex didn't care much.
*sob*
Nah.. I shouldn't cry. Well.. it's just one of those really foolish and stupid things I do in the past.
Well well, I guess that's enough. It's National Day! HAPPY NATIONAL DAY to all (especially Sweet, the one who matters most to me now) and Singapore!
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
De one with Love-r-ly
Bright Sunny day
Today is a reeeaally significant day! Sweet and I finally exchanged our vows and couple rings today! Initially, we planned to do this special ocassion on our Monthiversay next week. However, both of us lover-birds just couldn't wait! It was a really really extremely fun, informal way of doing it. Yet, we followed the normal procedure like those couples dawn their rings on a formal wedding.
I feel so blessed. With soaring joy, so much my heart was singing. Mind went floating. Oops! hehe
As i've told Sweet earlier, we stepped on another stage of relationship. Binding us closer, cementing our deep love. It's been very successful, from our very first kiss, first fun time till now. Both of us were really happy over today.
Oh, a continual for yesterday's blog. We did manage to have our engravement hiccup resovlved. All was Sweet's brilliant idea. In the end, everything was even made easier since we bummed into the same female assistant who served us yesterday at different brunch (which we went to).
What a fortunate event, we didn't have to pay for another ring.
We ate claypot dishes with rice at AMK ave 10 hawker this evening. Sweet ordered Asiam Fish while I ordered Sesame Flavoured Chicken. Hehe.. the fish was was stingray fish. Since the chicken were those chopped chicken which i find it pretty hard to eat. I drank most of the sauce. Ate a mouthful of fish of Sweet's. It's so delicious, we even wanted to try again sometime soon!
Not forgetting to mention, afternoon Sweet and I lunched at Gela`re. Had the famous large waffle with maple syrup and two scoops of ice-cream (Vanilla Chocolate and Raspberry). Mmmh.. Yummy!
Today morning was my first marketing lecture with our local lecturer, Patricia Chia. Abit of embarrassing moment. You see, early morning before the lecture started, we were collecting our fresh lecture notes. She was behind me, requesting for a copy. Out of pure goodwill, I gave her one. Unexpectedly, when she went through the lecture notes with the class, she realised hers was not-completed. Omg. Zhen Ze was making fun of me, reminding that I was the person who passed her the lecture notes. Omg. Oops.
Hehe, after lecture, when I board bus 61 to meet Sweet, there's this guy who board the bus from the same stop. However his EZ link card was missing. Sigh. I was thinking, why am i witnessing so many other people's unlucky happening.
What a jinx I felt in the beginning of the day. (Erm.. Hope my closest friend Clara is feeling better now). Thankfully, it changed for the way-better after I met Sweet! Perpetual "Love 4Eve". Cross thy heart.
Today is a reeeaally significant day! Sweet and I finally exchanged our vows and couple rings today! Initially, we planned to do this special ocassion on our Monthiversay next week. However, both of us lover-birds just couldn't wait! It was a really really extremely fun, informal way of doing it. Yet, we followed the normal procedure like those couples dawn their rings on a formal wedding.
I feel so blessed. With soaring joy, so much my heart was singing. Mind went floating. Oops! hehe
As i've told Sweet earlier, we stepped on another stage of relationship. Binding us closer, cementing our deep love. It's been very successful, from our very first kiss, first fun time till now. Both of us were really happy over today.
Oh, a continual for yesterday's blog. We did manage to have our engravement hiccup resovlved. All was Sweet's brilliant idea. In the end, everything was even made easier since we bummed into the same female assistant who served us yesterday at different brunch (which we went to).
What a fortunate event, we didn't have to pay for another ring.
We ate claypot dishes with rice at AMK ave 10 hawker this evening. Sweet ordered Asiam Fish while I ordered Sesame Flavoured Chicken. Hehe.. the fish was was stingray fish. Since the chicken were those chopped chicken which i find it pretty hard to eat. I drank most of the sauce. Ate a mouthful of fish of Sweet's. It's so delicious, we even wanted to try again sometime soon!
Not forgetting to mention, afternoon Sweet and I lunched at Gela`re. Had the famous large waffle with maple syrup and two scoops of ice-cream (Vanilla Chocolate and Raspberry). Mmmh.. Yummy!
Today morning was my first marketing lecture with our local lecturer, Patricia Chia. Abit of embarrassing moment. You see, early morning before the lecture started, we were collecting our fresh lecture notes. She was behind me, requesting for a copy. Out of pure goodwill, I gave her one. Unexpectedly, when she went through the lecture notes with the class, she realised hers was not-completed. Omg. Zhen Ze was making fun of me, reminding that I was the person who passed her the lecture notes. Omg. Oops.
Hehe, after lecture, when I board bus 61 to meet Sweet, there's this guy who board the bus from the same stop. However his EZ link card was missing. Sigh. I was thinking, why am i witnessing so many other people's unlucky happening.
What a jinx I felt in the beginning of the day. (Erm.. Hope my closest friend Clara is feeling better now). Thankfully, it changed for the way-better after I met Sweet! Perpetual "Love 4Eve". Cross thy heart.
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