*Takes a deep breathe*
Guys, mdms, I can't help but to admit.. I'm facing quarter-life crisis. If I were to pen down my feelings figuratively, I'm like a tattered flag that's blowing with whichever winds approached.
As true as perceived, all these chaotic emotions that I'm facing sucks. And it sux big time. Physically, I feel drained. It's continuous war-world in my head. Dragged myself to occasions and activities. There's so much I wished I could do but it just all seemed bleak.
Fair enough, I bet everyone is experiencing likewise. Then some crappy wise one would offer "philosophical words of wisdom": Everyone goes through the same thing or only the tough last.. Tell me about it.
A moment of desperation to understand my dreadful situation, a kind friend loaned me this book: Rules of Life. Therein lies a rule which says: Accept things for what they are. First impression formed will skew towards "live and let live". But deeper thoughts reveal it also means "It's ok to be not ok" (Teo, J, 2010).
Yes, I'm not ok. There's nothing I can do about it at the moment. Just driving aimlessly down this long stretched life road. I can see the crossroads ahead. Perhaps that might help me get through this. No faith, just sheer surrender and embracing truth as it is.
Wish me luck!
