Emolings
I can't help thinking. Are all these doings of God or fate? That's meant to test me?
If it is, how much more do i have to endure through till I'm able to pass?
Because, i'm really tired...
Happiness are like sparks which rise out of nowhere. It catches my attention and make me glow with joy, amazed by it's beauty and abruptness. Yet, before i manage to retain the warmth, it fades and dissappear into nothing.
Saturday, July 08, 2006
De one with bad temper
Clear skies
It's Saturday. Weekend, however, i was expected to stay at home all day. My aunt (mama) wend M'sia with uncle. Left ah-ma, Jimson and me at home. Sigh. My cousin, Jasmine went out and daddy was MIA. So only me, the abled-person had to be around.
There's a moment when Jasmine called home. Ah ma woke me up just ot pick up that stupid call. Omg. I was kinda super pissed. I dislike people to talk, irritate me with question within 10 mins after i'm awake. Omg. I sat down, turn on the com.. calmed down. And realised I really have a foul temper. Guessed i inherited this quick-temper from my mother bah. But luckily, it's "compensated" with my nature for beign not-petty and ability to resolve my temper very fast.
Since i was "hibernating" in-house all day. I managed to rush my korean drama. Only watched up till the 2nd last episode, b'coz gotta watch the ending with mama. Hmm.. Yin Xiu went MIA and worked at an unfamiliar mini-mart in Seoul. Seeking revenge for his parents who committed suicide due to company bankruptcy, Zheng Wen Tai executed his plan to cause the director Jiang and the family to lose their share holdings in the company. Causing Director and Jiang Xuan Yu to lose their positions in the Global.
Despite facing pressing issues from Xiu Zhen's parents to rush their engagment, a father suffering from stroke as a result of Wen Tai's conspiracy and constant bad mouthing about Yin Xiu from the mother, Xuan Yu kept searching for Yin Xiu's whereabouts. When both of them finally met, Yin Xiu lied to convince Xuan Yu that all she had done was to cheat he's wealth. Only then, the lost Xuan Yu, agreed to get engaged to Xiu Zhen. While Wen Tai start his open courting efforts towards Yin Xiu.
Xuan Yu got into a fight with some drunkard passer-by, resulting him to recover his lost-memories. He finally saw the necklace which was common between him and Yin Xiu, on the engagement day. Xuan Yu, rushed to Dreaming Forest (the place where he used to live in the year of his lost-memory) and reconcile with Yin Xiu.
The lover birds went back to Seoul for Xuan Yu to set up a new firm to win back his share-holdings in Global company and get back at Wen Tai. He developed a new product: Soft flooring, under the strike of guiness from Yin Xiu.
:: I weeped lah... on the scene where Xuan Yu and Yin Xui clear their doubts and reconcile in front of the tree-house letter-box. Xuan Yu learning and appreciating Yin Xiu's hidden sufferings. It was really very touching. Sigh. I was always suffering in silence. I did so much too..for all my exes. Why my fairytale all turned out to be tragedies?
Sigh.. Don't care liao. I wanna be happier from now onwards!
It's Saturday. Weekend, however, i was expected to stay at home all day. My aunt (mama) wend M'sia with uncle. Left ah-ma, Jimson and me at home. Sigh. My cousin, Jasmine went out and daddy was MIA. So only me, the abled-person had to be around.
There's a moment when Jasmine called home. Ah ma woke me up just ot pick up that stupid call. Omg. I was kinda super pissed. I dislike people to talk, irritate me with question within 10 mins after i'm awake. Omg. I sat down, turn on the com.. calmed down. And realised I really have a foul temper. Guessed i inherited this quick-temper from my mother bah. But luckily, it's "compensated" with my nature for beign not-petty and ability to resolve my temper very fast.
Since i was "hibernating" in-house all day. I managed to rush my korean drama. Only watched up till the 2nd last episode, b'coz gotta watch the ending with mama. Hmm.. Yin Xiu went MIA and worked at an unfamiliar mini-mart in Seoul. Seeking revenge for his parents who committed suicide due to company bankruptcy, Zheng Wen Tai executed his plan to cause the director Jiang and the family to lose their share holdings in the company. Causing Director and Jiang Xuan Yu to lose their positions in the Global.
Despite facing pressing issues from Xiu Zhen's parents to rush their engagment, a father suffering from stroke as a result of Wen Tai's conspiracy and constant bad mouthing about Yin Xiu from the mother, Xuan Yu kept searching for Yin Xiu's whereabouts. When both of them finally met, Yin Xiu lied to convince Xuan Yu that all she had done was to cheat he's wealth. Only then, the lost Xuan Yu, agreed to get engaged to Xiu Zhen. While Wen Tai start his open courting efforts towards Yin Xiu.
Xuan Yu got into a fight with some drunkard passer-by, resulting him to recover his lost-memories. He finally saw the necklace which was common between him and Yin Xiu, on the engagement day. Xuan Yu, rushed to Dreaming Forest (the place where he used to live in the year of his lost-memory) and reconcile with Yin Xiu.
The lover birds went back to Seoul for Xuan Yu to set up a new firm to win back his share-holdings in Global company and get back at Wen Tai. He developed a new product: Soft flooring, under the strike of guiness from Yin Xiu.
:: I weeped lah... on the scene where Xuan Yu and Yin Xui clear their doubts and reconcile in front of the tree-house letter-box. Xuan Yu learning and appreciating Yin Xiu's hidden sufferings. It was really very touching. Sigh. I was always suffering in silence. I did so much too..for all my exes. Why my fairytale all turned out to be tragedies?
Sigh.. Don't care liao. I wanna be happier from now onwards!
De one with "Emolings"
Emolings
The day before, I met good-friend-to-be Vance, Andrew, Jeffrey and Winson for dinner. Vance talked to me on our way through Marina Square. He advised me to blog all my miserable feelings.
So.. I've decided to come up with Emolings.
Don't understand what it means right?
Do let me explain some Jason mathematics here.
Emotions (mind) + Feelings (heart) = Emolings.
To further express how i was feeling when i blogged the entry for that day, I've differentiated with colours.
It's true about what some people might say. When a son finds a woman he loves. The part of his heart, which was formally reserved for the mother, will be replaced by the girlfriend. Why suddenly talk about this?
Well, I was watching korean drama, Save the Last Dance for Me. The story progress: Yin Xiu worked at Global, the company which her former fiance, Ji Yi (now Xuan Yu) is working. With the help of Assistant director, her good friend and colleague. Yin Xiu's endurance against all odds and countless bullies by her female colleagues, was finally paid off. Xuan Yu, who initially tried very hard to dislike Yin Xiu upon realising he's growing affection for her, despite him having yet to recover his past year's memory. Just a week before Xuan Yu and his childhood lover, Xiu Zhen's engagement, Xuan Yu brought up a break up. Unable to let go of her love, Xiu Zhen resort to extreme measures to keep Xuan Yu by her side. Sadly, Xuan Yu's father, had a negiotiation with Yin Xiu. Offering her more money to request her to leave their son. Despite similar failed attempts made by Xuan Yu's mom previously. Yin Xiu, after seeing and understand that their love will cause Xuan Yu his future and everyone else to be unhappy, finally agreed to give up her relationship.
Oki..enough. There's this part, when the mom was talking to Yin Xiu, about asking her to leave Xuan Yu. Xuan Yu rushed to the scene an reprimanded his mom over his gf. Sigh. This made me recall.. I chose to spend the last night before i left for Thailand for fatep. End up, missing the very last chance to see my mummy ever again.
Yesterday night, I was really down. I agree fully to what Vance had consoled me when i was heartbroken for months. Most of the time, the person you like may not be interested in you. I was really crying aloud in my heart. I started to question my agony again. Is it really true that i'm not good enough for anybody.. to be able to sitr their hearts for me?
The day before, I met good-friend-to-be Vance, Andrew, Jeffrey and Winson for dinner. Vance talked to me on our way through Marina Square. He advised me to blog all my miserable feelings.
So.. I've decided to come up with Emolings.
Don't understand what it means right?
Do let me explain some Jason mathematics here.
Emotions (mind) + Feelings (heart) = Emolings.
To further express how i was feeling when i blogged the entry for that day, I've differentiated with colours.
It's true about what some people might say. When a son finds a woman he loves. The part of his heart, which was formally reserved for the mother, will be replaced by the girlfriend. Why suddenly talk about this?
Well, I was watching korean drama, Save the Last Dance for Me. The story progress: Yin Xiu worked at Global, the company which her former fiance, Ji Yi (now Xuan Yu) is working. With the help of Assistant director, her good friend and colleague. Yin Xiu's endurance against all odds and countless bullies by her female colleagues, was finally paid off. Xuan Yu, who initially tried very hard to dislike Yin Xiu upon realising he's growing affection for her, despite him having yet to recover his past year's memory. Just a week before Xuan Yu and his childhood lover, Xiu Zhen's engagement, Xuan Yu brought up a break up. Unable to let go of her love, Xiu Zhen resort to extreme measures to keep Xuan Yu by her side. Sadly, Xuan Yu's father, had a negiotiation with Yin Xiu. Offering her more money to request her to leave their son. Despite similar failed attempts made by Xuan Yu's mom previously. Yin Xiu, after seeing and understand that their love will cause Xuan Yu his future and everyone else to be unhappy, finally agreed to give up her relationship.
Oki..enough. There's this part, when the mom was talking to Yin Xiu, about asking her to leave Xuan Yu. Xuan Yu rushed to the scene an reprimanded his mom over his gf. Sigh. This made me recall.. I chose to spend the last night before i left for Thailand for fatep. End up, missing the very last chance to see my mummy ever again.
Yesterday night, I was really down. I agree fully to what Vance had consoled me when i was heartbroken for months. Most of the time, the person you like may not be interested in you. I was really crying aloud in my heart. I started to question my agony again. Is it really true that i'm not good enough for anybody.. to be able to sitr their hearts for me?
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