Humble in Pride
I didn't take anything from you. Talk about Karma, I think I've paid and experienced whatever devastation you've never faced nor been through before.
I loved a person who cheat me of 5k. And I faced the grief of losing two family members.
At least you have a mother to run to. When you feel troubled, you have a home with all family members full-house, to return too.
No. I didn't take anything from you.
Humans never learn. But I've learnt. This time... it's really over.
No more downpour in my heart. It's sunny from now onwards.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
De one with Friday the 13th
Drizzle and sunshine
Today is Friday the 13th. To many, they always believe it to be an unlucky day. Presumingly, Robinson Crusude's friend Friday, died on this day. Anyway.. this isn't my area of superstition.
I dressed all black today. Nope. Not because it's Friday the 13th. However, an all black attire because I went to visit my mummy again. It occurred to me that I've not visited mummy last month. Sigh. Perhaps God's punishing me for being too caught up in my relationship (which was really a waste and disastrous). Looking back, time really pass by very rapidly. Yesterday marked the 15 month since mummy left.
Differ form the norm, I bought 2 stalks of roses instead of 3. It symbolises "Miss you". In my heart, I was really lost. It feel so empty even since someone who filled and emptied it completely recently. Not even a single bit left because my rage burnt and evaporated every drop of it.
On my way from Thompson Plaza to Mandai Coloumnarium, there was a downpour. I was crying in my heart as the realising loneliness kept sipping in boundlessly. Unexplainably, when I arrived throught the gates of the destination, the rain faded and the skies turned cloudy.
The place was pretty crowded compared to the previous afternoons I've been there. Anyway, I spent some quality time with mummy. Updating her every single bit about my life, the family and all that was bad.
Managed to restored peace in me. In addition to what happened to me in the morning when I went jogging after only 4 hours of sleep last night. For once ever since the breakup, memories flashback of the sweet-time I had with Sweet, I didn't feel abit of remorse or missing. Instead, I felt appreciative and smiled at the rememberance of us.
Friday the 13th wasn't a bad day for me after all. I left Mandai. It didn't rain until I reached the busstop. What's with luck on me? ;)
Somebody said a couple of things which nearly ruined my day. However, this day was just too good and real smooth for me. Another plus upgrade was I was matured enough to think and not get so easily affected by what others say.
Till today, I realised... I didn't love Sweet a single bit. Silly that I only managed to realised it today. They say, "the person who hurt you most is the person is the one you loved most". I just don't think I loved Sweet that much as I've thought myself to be.
I went to library for a short period for studying. Sigh. Cost is really tough. Plus my eyes were tired from the lack of sleep last night. I decided to leave for Orchard earlier to met Mohan.
Arrival at Orchard MRT, I was infested with the surveyers while I wait for Mohan. We walked to Cineleisure to buy our movie tickets. Meantime, we dined at Paragon's Thai Express. Upon hearing from me that 4:30 was out, we went to three different places as Mohan wanted to get the show on dvd. Only to find it at our last stop at Sembawang Music Store just before we went up for our movie.
After a pretty long time, I finally stick back to having popcorns for movie. Lucky again? For the first time in all the times I've watched movie at Cine, we have our movie threatre on the 9th storey!
We watched this heartwarming movie: Little Miss Sunshine (though I wanted to watch WTC initially but I changed my mind and accomodate Mohan as I was in the mood for a happy movie). The movie was rather good. Heart delighting. It was about the things good and bad which occured during a family's trip to this beauty pageant, the young daughter, Olive was participating.
The movie portrays the ambitions and dissapointment of family. Olive's dream to win in the Little Miss Sunshine yet she's pretty obese since she loved ice-cream. There was Mr Hoover who got con into a business, selling a book based on his enthusiastic model differentiating winners and losers. There was Mrs Hoover, coping with her stress as good wife, mother and sister. There was Uncle Frank who was a homosexual and the 3rd scholar in the states, attempted suicide because he got sacked by his job at uni due to a scandal with a student. And Granpa who died due to overdosage of drugs. Lastly, there was Dwine, the eldest son who strived so much to become a pilot yet disabled with color blindness.
The family been through alot. From dealing with a spolit clutch minibus, Grandpa's death and finally, the hilarious amirable support of the whole family to Olive who wasn't getting the support from the crowd with her striptease dance.
All in all, there was a contrast in the show which left a very deep impression in me. Frank was at a petrol station, buying porn for Granpa Hoover. He met the student he was in love with. The student saw Frank's purchase and withdraw from Frank. Haha.. usually, a normal friend who sees you will a GAY porn will withdraw and run off from you. In this movie, it was the opposite.
After movie, we came across this new store : Super surf..something Surf. We went in. As I was browsing the slippers. This lovely female assistant ask me how old we (Mohan and me) were. When I replied we were 21, she was astonised. Told me we look alot younger. Haha.
The both of us decided to chill out at the only Starbucks we've never been to at the old Singtel Building. Unexpectedly, it was crowded. So we patronised the one at Wheelock Place. Mohan said there was this guy who staring at us. Earlier as we walked along Orcahrd Road, Mohan said a guy was staring at me. When Mohan was trying his clothes at NUM vintage store, the male assistant keep taking glances at me. Omg. Am I becoming a male-magnet? Haha.
Friday the thirteen. Well... definately an enjoyable day. But tiring day... *wink*
Today is Friday the 13th. To many, they always believe it to be an unlucky day. Presumingly, Robinson Crusude's friend Friday, died on this day. Anyway.. this isn't my area of superstition.
I dressed all black today. Nope. Not because it's Friday the 13th. However, an all black attire because I went to visit my mummy again. It occurred to me that I've not visited mummy last month. Sigh. Perhaps God's punishing me for being too caught up in my relationship (which was really a waste and disastrous). Looking back, time really pass by very rapidly. Yesterday marked the 15 month since mummy left.
Differ form the norm, I bought 2 stalks of roses instead of 3. It symbolises "Miss you". In my heart, I was really lost. It feel so empty even since someone who filled and emptied it completely recently. Not even a single bit left because my rage burnt and evaporated every drop of it.
On my way from Thompson Plaza to Mandai Coloumnarium, there was a downpour. I was crying in my heart as the realising loneliness kept sipping in boundlessly. Unexplainably, when I arrived throught the gates of the destination, the rain faded and the skies turned cloudy.
The place was pretty crowded compared to the previous afternoons I've been there. Anyway, I spent some quality time with mummy. Updating her every single bit about my life, the family and all that was bad.
Managed to restored peace in me. In addition to what happened to me in the morning when I went jogging after only 4 hours of sleep last night. For once ever since the breakup, memories flashback of the sweet-time I had with Sweet, I didn't feel abit of remorse or missing. Instead, I felt appreciative and smiled at the rememberance of us.
Friday the 13th wasn't a bad day for me after all. I left Mandai. It didn't rain until I reached the busstop. What's with luck on me? ;)
Somebody said a couple of things which nearly ruined my day. However, this day was just too good and real smooth for me. Another plus upgrade was I was matured enough to think and not get so easily affected by what others say.
Till today, I realised... I didn't love Sweet a single bit. Silly that I only managed to realised it today. They say, "the person who hurt you most is the person is the one you loved most". I just don't think I loved Sweet that much as I've thought myself to be.
I went to library for a short period for studying. Sigh. Cost is really tough. Plus my eyes were tired from the lack of sleep last night. I decided to leave for Orchard earlier to met Mohan.
Arrival at Orchard MRT, I was infested with the surveyers while I wait for Mohan. We walked to Cineleisure to buy our movie tickets. Meantime, we dined at Paragon's Thai Express. Upon hearing from me that 4:30 was out, we went to three different places as Mohan wanted to get the show on dvd. Only to find it at our last stop at Sembawang Music Store just before we went up for our movie.
After a pretty long time, I finally stick back to having popcorns for movie. Lucky again? For the first time in all the times I've watched movie at Cine, we have our movie threatre on the 9th storey!
We watched this heartwarming movie: Little Miss Sunshine (though I wanted to watch WTC initially but I changed my mind and accomodate Mohan as I was in the mood for a happy movie). The movie was rather good. Heart delighting. It was about the things good and bad which occured during a family's trip to this beauty pageant, the young daughter, Olive was participating.
The movie portrays the ambitions and dissapointment of family. Olive's dream to win in the Little Miss Sunshine yet she's pretty obese since she loved ice-cream. There was Mr Hoover who got con into a business, selling a book based on his enthusiastic model differentiating winners and losers. There was Mrs Hoover, coping with her stress as good wife, mother and sister. There was Uncle Frank who was a homosexual and the 3rd scholar in the states, attempted suicide because he got sacked by his job at uni due to a scandal with a student. And Granpa who died due to overdosage of drugs. Lastly, there was Dwine, the eldest son who strived so much to become a pilot yet disabled with color blindness.
The family been through alot. From dealing with a spolit clutch minibus, Grandpa's death and finally, the hilarious amirable support of the whole family to Olive who wasn't getting the support from the crowd with her striptease dance.
All in all, there was a contrast in the show which left a very deep impression in me. Frank was at a petrol station, buying porn for Granpa Hoover. He met the student he was in love with. The student saw Frank's purchase and withdraw from Frank. Haha.. usually, a normal friend who sees you will a GAY porn will withdraw and run off from you. In this movie, it was the opposite.
After movie, we came across this new store : Super surf..something Surf. We went in. As I was browsing the slippers. This lovely female assistant ask me how old we (Mohan and me) were. When I replied we were 21, she was astonised. Told me we look alot younger. Haha.
The both of us decided to chill out at the only Starbucks we've never been to at the old Singtel Building. Unexpectedly, it was crowded. So we patronised the one at Wheelock Place. Mohan said there was this guy who staring at us. Earlier as we walked along Orcahrd Road, Mohan said a guy was staring at me. When Mohan was trying his clothes at NUM vintage store, the male assistant keep taking glances at me. Omg. Am I becoming a male-magnet? Haha.
Friday the thirteen. Well... definately an enjoyable day. But tiring day... *wink*
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