Lifeless
A thrown away toy in a garage
A dusty record in a dark store
The infinite blackness within
An empty jug lying on the drought-struck land.
Really don't know how to describe what or how I'm feeling. Have you ever feel so drained in life, that you don't have anything to look forward to? Deprived of energy, dreams, hopes and left with despair and absolute loneliness by your side.
This is how I feel.. today.. right now.. Loss? perhaps it's seeking me again. Fine with it.. I've given up...
Monday, January 29, 2007
Sunday, January 21, 2007
De one with Board-games
It just have to drizzle abit to end the day
Boardgames.. it's something that's familiar to everybody. It seems board-games have developed over the century.. from the traditional board-games like chess and othello, followed by the emergence of the dominating Monopoly, Risk till the current Game of Life and even more interesting, Roleplay-fantasy game. Like technology, it's never ending for the production of board-games.
Let's see, what's factors might have account for why board-games rule a moment in time? Well, firstly, I guess it's technology. In the past when technology wasn't adequate in advancement for the birth of electronic games like Nintendo and Xbox, board-games was the best any kid could get. It beared so much an influence that the majority adults and elders are still playing today.
Secondly, I supposed it is due to the characteristics of board-games. In view of the residual proportion of people who didn't like LAN games; access to internet; and uninterested in competitive outdoor activities, board games is an alternative since it fulfils the choice for an indoor, less strenuous, inexpensive, simple and passing-time form of enjoyment. To illustrate, imagine the economical advantage of playing chess over tea, to playing hours of internet games?
Thirdly, perhaps board-games had the capacity to accommodate a considerable group of people. Take for example, the game of Monopoly, it allows up to a maximum of 8 players. As compared to an Xbox which has a limit of 4 players. As such, board-games becames the indeed game as a solution for the fun of more participants!
As expected, some people might argue that board-games ain't as exciting than an immediate and responsive Xbox 360 games. Well, it points down to preference. Personally, in relation to the second pointer above, I feel there's a special form of enjoyment you derived from playing a board-game. Excitement can be felt when you're facing bankruptcy when you experience cash flow problem (state where your cash out-flow through paying rent to your opponents, outweighs your cash in-flow from collection of rent when your opponents land on your territories) while playing "Hotels".
In addition, I always have this primal and "retro" feel whenever I play board-games. It's similar as using a hand-sharpen pencil when you've been using mechanical pencil all along. It certainly is reminiscing!
Monopoly, Scrabble and Fei Ji Qi were my old time favourites. I recall my late-mummy will play on late nights as family get-together event. Well.. it's undeniable that board-games provides the chance and time for bonding moments.
I shall conclude today's entry with one last point. Board-game was one of primary way from which a young taste sense of victory and achievement upon winning... more easily. Hehe.
Board-games are definately timelessness..especially in the memories of our childhood days.
Boardgames.. it's something that's familiar to everybody. It seems board-games have developed over the century.. from the traditional board-games like chess and othello, followed by the emergence of the dominating Monopoly, Risk till the current Game of Life and even more interesting, Roleplay-fantasy game. Like technology, it's never ending for the production of board-games.
Let's see, what's factors might have account for why board-games rule a moment in time? Well, firstly, I guess it's technology. In the past when technology wasn't adequate in advancement for the birth of electronic games like Nintendo and Xbox, board-games was the best any kid could get. It beared so much an influence that the majority adults and elders are still playing today.
Secondly, I supposed it is due to the characteristics of board-games. In view of the residual proportion of people who didn't like LAN games; access to internet; and uninterested in competitive outdoor activities, board games is an alternative since it fulfils the choice for an indoor, less strenuous, inexpensive, simple and passing-time form of enjoyment. To illustrate, imagine the economical advantage of playing chess over tea, to playing hours of internet games?
Thirdly, perhaps board-games had the capacity to accommodate a considerable group of people. Take for example, the game of Monopoly, it allows up to a maximum of 8 players. As compared to an Xbox which has a limit of 4 players. As such, board-games becames the indeed game as a solution for the fun of more participants!
As expected, some people might argue that board-games ain't as exciting than an immediate and responsive Xbox 360 games. Well, it points down to preference. Personally, in relation to the second pointer above, I feel there's a special form of enjoyment you derived from playing a board-game. Excitement can be felt when you're facing bankruptcy when you experience cash flow problem (state where your cash out-flow through paying rent to your opponents, outweighs your cash in-flow from collection of rent when your opponents land on your territories) while playing "Hotels".
In addition, I always have this primal and "retro" feel whenever I play board-games. It's similar as using a hand-sharpen pencil when you've been using mechanical pencil all along. It certainly is reminiscing!
Monopoly, Scrabble and Fei Ji Qi were my old time favourites. I recall my late-mummy will play on late nights as family get-together event. Well.. it's undeniable that board-games provides the chance and time for bonding moments.
I shall conclude today's entry with one last point. Board-game was one of primary way from which a young taste sense of victory and achievement upon winning... more easily. Hehe.
Board-games are definately timelessness..especially in the memories of our childhood days.
Saturday, January 20, 2007
De one with Friends In Life
Raining all of a sudden
Yesterday, I took a quick browse at the horoscope section when reading the newspaper. Under my star sign Leo, it mentioned that love will progress in the right direction. Hmm.. I should cross my fingers this time.. lunch and dinner... hmm.. hoping the spark will rise into a desirable eternal flame.
Ok.. that's not the main issue. Today's topic dawn upon me when I cried twice over a movie which a special person lent me. Sigh. Well... don't bother asking which movie it was. That's not the spotlight today. Hehe... Today.. I'm going to talk about Friends.
I was born an extremely shy guy. Well, thank goodness I'm improving but somehow, I'm still shy towards certain people now. Ermm.. anyway, I had very limited social skills. End up, I grew up independently, having the mindset that friends ain't important. Henceforth, I only made selected friends.
I didn't have specific primary school friends (refer to Education Saga Ep3). During secondary school, Alan was most worth mentioning, followed by Yuyan and Zarina. Later in JC, I made less but closer and lasting friends whom I keep in contact with currently: Tribal Gang, Shu Qing and Shelby. Even such, I kept alot to myself. And it was further supported when I relied heavily on my first relationship towards the end of JC 1. Unknowingly, it developed into an ego.
This ego of living in a world without friends' concern was crumpled towards the end of JC when my life faced an disastrous torture: A break-up. I remember I was completely lost. Couldn't do anything. Hence, it directly affected my A levels and NS enlistment eventually. THANKFULLY, a friend helped me out of my sh*t just a month before I went to Tekong. It was then that I finally realised "a friend in need, is a friend indeed".
This idiom was proven even more truthful during (enhanced) BMT and SISPEC. Most mentionable were my buddy, Wei Jie (my BMT buddy who cared and have alwasy encouraged me) and my SISPEC mates like Kenneth (currently a sign-on in ADF) and Yin Kang (my most close SISPEC mate).
Later, in ASC (Artillery Specialist Course) where I had Mohan, Bo Jun, Jonathan Chua, Ting Lin and 23SA where all the specialists were very nice to me, especially Chin Yu, Guo Xian and my endearing bunkmates (not forgetting my commander 2SG Eddy).
Currently, Zhen Ze, Guang Hui and Andrew in SIM.
Of course, I didn't learn only from my education and NS liability meetings with people. Besides, I learnt alot from my personal human interactions too. Untimately, I sorta got enlightened most from my unsuccessful love relationships. Here's the catch : "Love doesn't last, necessarily. Friendship does, as compared to love."
Indeed, I learnt alot from dating -A-. Friends does matter. Now back to why I cried when watching the show mentioned earlier. The scene where the heartbroken guy was comforted by his friends, each in their own ways, reminded me of how my friends were always there to support me when I was down...
- Yuyan, Clara and Mohan helped me deal with my post relationship difficulties during secondary school, post JC and army respectively. (My bros and friends like Andrew Lau helped me too).
- Alan who went through thick and thin during our strenuous band practices for the entire 4 years.
- Kia Hui, my closest secondary 3 and 4 classmate.
- Shu Qing who encouraged and helped me out of distress with courting this girl I liked in JC.
- Loo Wan, my good friend in JC.
- Guo Xian who look out for me and each other during my first oversea training in Thailand.
- Chin Yu and Mohan familiarised me with places in town and go out watching movies often.
All these moments made me flushed with tears whenever I think of the significant effort, accompany, care all these great friends have showered upon me. Fortunately, I rarely had disputes with the selected friends I've made. Even so they were mere foolish egoism.
The next thing to bring up is the question of whether there were moments when one feels withdrawn from his/her peers. I did. Sometimes, it occur to me whether I shouldn't borther my friends with my troubles when they already had their own. Such event especially when you feel really desperate and there was no one in sight or within reach.
Well, I always console myself in this way. Perhaps God is testing me. In which I should learn to be independent and sort things out myself rather than complaining or easing our hearts full to others. Maybe you could try them.
All in all, the dearest friend I've ever made till date, is an irreplaceable friend named Clara. I guess we understand alot about each other since we share the same temper and the way we feel about things. Oops. Too long liao. To conclude, I feel friends are essential in our lives. I guess, no man's really an island on its own. Simply because humans are emotional creatures and we can't contain all of our feelings inside ourselves. It is even so in the case of overcoming difficulties in life (the story about classic tale of the five fingers on our hand).
Yesterday, I took a quick browse at the horoscope section when reading the newspaper. Under my star sign Leo, it mentioned that love will progress in the right direction. Hmm.. I should cross my fingers this time.. lunch and dinner... hmm.. hoping the spark will rise into a desirable eternal flame.
Ok.. that's not the main issue. Today's topic dawn upon me when I cried twice over a movie which a special person lent me. Sigh. Well... don't bother asking which movie it was. That's not the spotlight today. Hehe... Today.. I'm going to talk about Friends.
I was born an extremely shy guy. Well, thank goodness I'm improving but somehow, I'm still shy towards certain people now. Ermm.. anyway, I had very limited social skills. End up, I grew up independently, having the mindset that friends ain't important. Henceforth, I only made selected friends.
I didn't have specific primary school friends (refer to Education Saga Ep3). During secondary school, Alan was most worth mentioning, followed by Yuyan and Zarina. Later in JC, I made less but closer and lasting friends whom I keep in contact with currently: Tribal Gang, Shu Qing and Shelby. Even such, I kept alot to myself. And it was further supported when I relied heavily on my first relationship towards the end of JC 1. Unknowingly, it developed into an ego.
This ego of living in a world without friends' concern was crumpled towards the end of JC when my life faced an disastrous torture: A break-up. I remember I was completely lost. Couldn't do anything. Hence, it directly affected my A levels and NS enlistment eventually. THANKFULLY, a friend helped me out of my sh*t just a month before I went to Tekong. It was then that I finally realised "a friend in need, is a friend indeed".
This idiom was proven even more truthful during (enhanced) BMT and SISPEC. Most mentionable were my buddy, Wei Jie (my BMT buddy who cared and have alwasy encouraged me) and my SISPEC mates like Kenneth (currently a sign-on in ADF) and Yin Kang (my most close SISPEC mate).
Later, in ASC (Artillery Specialist Course) where I had Mohan, Bo Jun, Jonathan Chua, Ting Lin and 23SA where all the specialists were very nice to me, especially Chin Yu, Guo Xian and my endearing bunkmates (not forgetting my commander 2SG Eddy).
Currently, Zhen Ze, Guang Hui and Andrew in SIM.
Of course, I didn't learn only from my education and NS liability meetings with people. Besides, I learnt alot from my personal human interactions too. Untimately, I sorta got enlightened most from my unsuccessful love relationships. Here's the catch : "Love doesn't last, necessarily. Friendship does, as compared to love."
Indeed, I learnt alot from dating -A-. Friends does matter. Now back to why I cried when watching the show mentioned earlier. The scene where the heartbroken guy was comforted by his friends, each in their own ways, reminded me of how my friends were always there to support me when I was down...
- Yuyan, Clara and Mohan helped me deal with my post relationship difficulties during secondary school, post JC and army respectively. (My bros and friends like Andrew Lau helped me too).
- Alan who went through thick and thin during our strenuous band practices for the entire 4 years.
- Kia Hui, my closest secondary 3 and 4 classmate.
- Shu Qing who encouraged and helped me out of distress with courting this girl I liked in JC.
- Loo Wan, my good friend in JC.
- Guo Xian who look out for me and each other during my first oversea training in Thailand.
- Chin Yu and Mohan familiarised me with places in town and go out watching movies often.
All these moments made me flushed with tears whenever I think of the significant effort, accompany, care all these great friends have showered upon me. Fortunately, I rarely had disputes with the selected friends I've made. Even so they were mere foolish egoism.
The next thing to bring up is the question of whether there were moments when one feels withdrawn from his/her peers. I did. Sometimes, it occur to me whether I shouldn't borther my friends with my troubles when they already had their own. Such event especially when you feel really desperate and there was no one in sight or within reach.
Well, I always console myself in this way. Perhaps God is testing me. In which I should learn to be independent and sort things out myself rather than complaining or easing our hearts full to others. Maybe you could try them.
All in all, the dearest friend I've ever made till date, is an irreplaceable friend named Clara. I guess we understand alot about each other since we share the same temper and the way we feel about things. Oops. Too long liao. To conclude, I feel friends are essential in our lives. I guess, no man's really an island on its own. Simply because humans are emotional creatures and we can't contain all of our feelings inside ourselves. It is even so in the case of overcoming difficulties in life (the story about classic tale of the five fingers on our hand).
Sunday, January 14, 2007
De one with Obsessed Again
Raining
Today's a colourful day though it rained in the afternoon. Thank goodness, the rain cleared a morning for me to proceed with my intended run. Managed an heart-lifting 8km run until I met a demoralising runner who overtook me during my last 200 metres along the road. Apparently, I was speechless when I saw the T-shirt which he was wearing, saying 42.142km on the back.
After which, I went back for some weights lifting before preparing for campus. Yup. I didn't type wrongly. Had to travel back to school for an intended Statistics lecture since it was taught by the Australian lecturer from RMIT. Well.. before that, it's mentionable I spent abit of time, deciding which jeans was appropriate to match the black Levis T-shirt I was wearing. Hehe. Thank God, this "distress" didn't cause me to be late for school.
Statistics lecture was pretty boring. Most of the time, ashamed, I didn't know what was going on. Well.. hopefully I'll be able to grasp the content as soon as possible before I plunge deeper into more doubts.
Apprantly I misjudged the time lecture was going to end. Thought the lecturer had only abit to cover. Presumed an early dismissal, I brought forward my meeting time with Mohan. Sigh. To my dismay, it didn't work. Ended up, I was pretty estrangled with choices. Spent a considerable amount of time working out the best route and transportation I ought to take, in clause of arriving the destination punctually. Ha!
My final decision? Took a cab down from school to town. En route, the taxi driver was pleading a favour. He's a single parent of two children who were primary 3 and 4. Sadly, both of them were in need of chinese tutors to help them with their poorly-faired subject. Well, the busy taxi driver was troubled with methods in which he could acquire the tutors since he had to work to earn enough. Well.. perhaps it was out of pity, I volunteered to do him a favour to do a registration with an online tuition agency. Hmm.. hope it will do him abit of help.
Mohan and I had dinner (the only meal I had for the entire day) at a place where we've not visited for awhile. It was the Mos Burger outlet near Centrepoint. It's certainly nostalgic. Recall we used to visit there only during times I wanted to complain how ugly I feel for the day. Omg.
After which, we spent our time at the Heeren before catching the movie The Queen at Cineleisure, Mohan's preferred cinema complex. The show turned out to be rather dialogue requiring, in order for understandability of what's going on. Despite this, it was pretty enjoyable. Not forgetting, both of us agreed there was something particular about the music in the movie . Personally, I felt it resembled those old comedies music while Mohan described it as sleezy.
It's based on the British Monachies. It spotlights the Queen of England, who faced tremenduous challenges in time of her legacy. Especially, her involvement and befallen expectations of her during the incident of Princess Diana's death in summer of 1997. The Prime Minister was featured too.
Having done with the movie, I consulted Mohan's help in helping me understand certain issues which I wasn't familiar in my current law text. We spent a rather delightful time chat over coffee too.
Almost unexplainably, an obsession for study has developed. I'm overwhelmed by a sudden thirst for further comprehension, determined appreciation and deeper knowledge. It's been very long since I've been like this again... Sigh. I'm beginning to fall in love with this law module...
Today's a colourful day though it rained in the afternoon. Thank goodness, the rain cleared a morning for me to proceed with my intended run. Managed an heart-lifting 8km run until I met a demoralising runner who overtook me during my last 200 metres along the road. Apparently, I was speechless when I saw the T-shirt which he was wearing, saying 42.142km on the back.
After which, I went back for some weights lifting before preparing for campus. Yup. I didn't type wrongly. Had to travel back to school for an intended Statistics lecture since it was taught by the Australian lecturer from RMIT. Well.. before that, it's mentionable I spent abit of time, deciding which jeans was appropriate to match the black Levis T-shirt I was wearing. Hehe. Thank God, this "distress" didn't cause me to be late for school.
Statistics lecture was pretty boring. Most of the time, ashamed, I didn't know what was going on. Well.. hopefully I'll be able to grasp the content as soon as possible before I plunge deeper into more doubts.
Apprantly I misjudged the time lecture was going to end. Thought the lecturer had only abit to cover. Presumed an early dismissal, I brought forward my meeting time with Mohan. Sigh. To my dismay, it didn't work. Ended up, I was pretty estrangled with choices. Spent a considerable amount of time working out the best route and transportation I ought to take, in clause of arriving the destination punctually. Ha!
My final decision? Took a cab down from school to town. En route, the taxi driver was pleading a favour. He's a single parent of two children who were primary 3 and 4. Sadly, both of them were in need of chinese tutors to help them with their poorly-faired subject. Well, the busy taxi driver was troubled with methods in which he could acquire the tutors since he had to work to earn enough. Well.. perhaps it was out of pity, I volunteered to do him a favour to do a registration with an online tuition agency. Hmm.. hope it will do him abit of help.
Mohan and I had dinner (the only meal I had for the entire day) at a place where we've not visited for awhile. It was the Mos Burger outlet near Centrepoint. It's certainly nostalgic. Recall we used to visit there only during times I wanted to complain how ugly I feel for the day. Omg.
After which, we spent our time at the Heeren before catching the movie The Queen at Cineleisure, Mohan's preferred cinema complex. The show turned out to be rather dialogue requiring, in order for understandability of what's going on. Despite this, it was pretty enjoyable. Not forgetting, both of us agreed there was something particular about the music in the movie . Personally, I felt it resembled those old comedies music while Mohan described it as sleezy.
It's based on the British Monachies. It spotlights the Queen of England, who faced tremenduous challenges in time of her legacy. Especially, her involvement and befallen expectations of her during the incident of Princess Diana's death in summer of 1997. The Prime Minister was featured too.
Having done with the movie, I consulted Mohan's help in helping me understand certain issues which I wasn't familiar in my current law text. We spent a rather delightful time chat over coffee too.
Almost unexplainably, an obsession for study has developed. I'm overwhelmed by a sudden thirst for further comprehension, determined appreciation and deeper knowledge. It's been very long since I've been like this again... Sigh. I'm beginning to fall in love with this law module...
Thursday, January 11, 2007
De one with Education Saga (Ep2)
Episode 2:
Welcome back to the second continunm part of Jason's education Saga. Yesterday, we had an exclusive insight on first 2 years of Jason's education. Well, guess what, we have Jason back here with us again. Yes.. and we're going to follow up from where we left our readers in the last article.
Now, Jason, you bought up Attending Art class, as one of the two significant event during your initial stage in education years. Now.. what was the other event you'd like to tell us about?
Well.. ever since my kindergarden teachers discovered that I was very fast in piecing puzzles. They decided to prompt my parents and have them agreed to having me compete for puzzle-piecing in the annual sports day.
I remembered I got so nervous on the day, pyschologically stressed, I felt nausea and stomachache (all thansk to the butterflies in my tummy). In the end, I still made it!
To best I recalled, the competition was that I had to run to the front and back to fetch the puzzles and after which fix them together. Thankfully, I emerged first! Hehe!
That's admirable! Guess that's a first taste of victory for a young boy back then?
Yup.. It was!
*Heartedly laugh* Now Jason, were there special occassions in which you developed yourself in?
In fact, there is. I was involved in a dance item. I think that was something we had to do towards the end of our nursary education. I remembered putting on make-up, wore a Baju-kurong (Malay's traditional costume for males) and performed, getting the rythm with two half-coconuts shelves. It was really an eye-opening experience!
We supposed your family took photos as rememberance?
Ya. They did! Talking about photo-taking. It was unforgettable when I shot a photo in which I wore the graduation robe, resembling those wored by fresh-graduates with the "squarish wisdom hat". Haha.
How did you feel back then?
Nothing much though. Didn't know what was the thing about anyway.
Jason, so who fetches you to and fro the community centre?
Oh.. my granny does. She will bring me to nursary centre with an umbrella and a hankerchief to wipe my perspiration. She fetches me in the evening. After that, we'll never fail to visit this shop house which smelled strongly of coffee powder! Obviously, it was the place my granny makes coffee-powder because she makes coffee everyday for home. I love the place because my granny will buy me a bottle of Yakult! Yummy!
Apparantly, my granny did bring me to school, everyday through till Primary school, rain or shine. She's a great woman in my life.
Aww... she definately dotes on you alot... And with that, we've come to the end of this episode. Stay tune for the next!
Welcome back to the second continunm part of Jason's education Saga. Yesterday, we had an exclusive insight on first 2 years of Jason's education. Well, guess what, we have Jason back here with us again. Yes.. and we're going to follow up from where we left our readers in the last article.
Now, Jason, you bought up Attending Art class, as one of the two significant event during your initial stage in education years. Now.. what was the other event you'd like to tell us about?
Well.. ever since my kindergarden teachers discovered that I was very fast in piecing puzzles. They decided to prompt my parents and have them agreed to having me compete for puzzle-piecing in the annual sports day.
I remembered I got so nervous on the day, pyschologically stressed, I felt nausea and stomachache (all thansk to the butterflies in my tummy). In the end, I still made it!
To best I recalled, the competition was that I had to run to the front and back to fetch the puzzles and after which fix them together. Thankfully, I emerged first! Hehe!
That's admirable! Guess that's a first taste of victory for a young boy back then?
Yup.. It was!
*Heartedly laugh* Now Jason, were there special occassions in which you developed yourself in?
In fact, there is. I was involved in a dance item. I think that was something we had to do towards the end of our nursary education. I remembered putting on make-up, wore a Baju-kurong (Malay's traditional costume for males) and performed, getting the rythm with two half-coconuts shelves. It was really an eye-opening experience!
We supposed your family took photos as rememberance?
Ya. They did! Talking about photo-taking. It was unforgettable when I shot a photo in which I wore the graduation robe, resembling those wored by fresh-graduates with the "squarish wisdom hat". Haha.
How did you feel back then?
Nothing much though. Didn't know what was the thing about anyway.
Jason, so who fetches you to and fro the community centre?
Oh.. my granny does. She will bring me to nursary centre with an umbrella and a hankerchief to wipe my perspiration. She fetches me in the evening. After that, we'll never fail to visit this shop house which smelled strongly of coffee powder! Obviously, it was the place my granny makes coffee-powder because she makes coffee everyday for home. I love the place because my granny will buy me a bottle of Yakult! Yummy!
Apparantly, my granny did bring me to school, everyday through till Primary school, rain or shine. She's a great woman in my life.
Aww... she definately dotes on you alot... And with that, we've come to the end of this episode. Stay tune for the next!
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
De one with Education Saga (Ep1)
This will be a continual saga broken into a few parts. In which spotlights my installments from my entire years of education!
Oki, mind your saliva and popping-out eyes. I thought, why not having it constructed in a different style. Firstly, since it'd be pretty boring to have it in long essay format like previous'. Secondly, it's another way for my creativity to come into play in here. In view of this point, it's argued we have seen this in magazines and media. Well... the story bears 100% originality as it's about me ley. Hehe.
Episode 1:
That's a very interesting way of expressing in your introduction. So Jason, perhaps tell us when would you consider the start of your "education saga"?
To my impression, the idea of "10 years of education" would snap into the minds of majority people. Unfortunately, I guess what's worth mentioning will have to start from my Kindergarden. Which I felt is the start of the entire saga =)
*Laughter* Ok.. well, where did you received your nursary education then?
Well, to as far I as I recall, I was 4-5 years old when nursary education was enforceable. Surprising but it's true, I attended 2 different kindergarden.
Wuao.. two kindergardens? Now..why is that so?
The first one I went to was PAP's kindergarden. Bet alot fo us recognised the white, blue and red logo and it was always located on the first storey of housing blocks back then? Apparantly, I was pretty "sticky" to my family members, especially my ah-ma (Hokkien: Granny). I cried like hell when everytime I didn't see anyone familiar. Guess I cried to much before the adults had no choice but to let me rest a period to become more independent before transfering me to another Kindergarden at a nearby community centre.
So desuka. (Japanese: I see) I believe the next thing readers would wanna know is how or what was your official nursary education like. Maybe you'd like to tell us more about this..
ya..
I remember my nursary ed at the community centre was better. I was still constant reliant on the sight and accompany of my ah-ma. Unknowingly, perhaps I was tricked and eventually, I was able to survive the days I was in nursary school.
..What was the duration spent at the nursary CC everyday?
Hmmm... it's from noon till early evening. Like 12:00pm till 6:00pm..
Please continue.. Yes, do carry on..
Generally, everyday we go to school and learnt basics like reading from big charts with pictures, nursary rythms, writing, foundational mathematics, colouring, simplified art work and go for outdoor activities. Most of sure are ball games, puzzle, skipping and playing with hulla-hoop. Omg!
Oh! I remember there will be a tea-break. That's when we'll each expect a cup of hot milo. There's one unforgettable occassion when I had a friend, I think he's name was Mathew or Daniel. He was celebrating his birthday and party during our tea-break. I don't know why I suddenly thought and miss my ah-ma, I started crying and screaming "I want ah-ma.. I want ah-ma". Thinking back, I think it was embarassing because my outburst spoiled the poor guy's birthday since there were others who cried along. You know, kids! Oops.
Omg! Really?
Ya. *blushing*
*Laughter commotion*
Oki.. well, Boys are deemed "noti-boy".. Any instances of misbehaviour from your personal experience back then?
Ooh..yes. Pretty embarrassing! I remember there was one evening, I befriended these two boys who dared each other to draw on the plastic and metal school chairs with the crayons we got as a birthday party gift. Omg. In the end, the teacher caught us. We had our crayons confiscated and each had a ruler beating on our palms. Now that I remember, one of them was my supposedly good friend, Yuan Zhao. He wore spects and came from a family of gangsters.
Another was during K2 when me and this girl, Yao Yun, whom everybody teased was my girlfriend since we go together very well..
Sorry. But I can't help asking how did this special girl looked like?
Erm.. cute? big sparkling eyes? nah.. I can't remember.. but she was adorable nevertheless.
She used to live in the block just opposite mine.
*Grinning* ok.. you were saying?
*shy smiling* During one of our free play-time. The both of us used a string and tied it around another friend (the son of a warehouse shop). Perhaps we were re-enacting what we saw on the television drama most probably. The teacher warned us and notified our guardians. Haha.
That's pretty bad. Next, mind telling some interesting events which took place?
There's two worth mentioning about. One was I got enrolled into an art class. In which I mentioned in my previous blog. Ref: De one with Art.
Well well.. it seems like it's about time we wrap up for the day. Want to know what's another interesting event Jason took part? And more, what Jason does after kindergarden hours, before actually going home? Stay tune for the next installment...
Oki, mind your saliva and popping-out eyes. I thought, why not having it constructed in a different style. Firstly, since it'd be pretty boring to have it in long essay format like previous'. Secondly, it's another way for my creativity to come into play in here. In view of this point, it's argued we have seen this in magazines and media. Well... the story bears 100% originality as it's about me ley. Hehe.
Episode 1:
That's a very interesting way of expressing in your introduction. So Jason, perhaps tell us when would you consider the start of your "education saga"?
To my impression, the idea of "10 years of education" would snap into the minds of majority people. Unfortunately, I guess what's worth mentioning will have to start from my Kindergarden. Which I felt is the start of the entire saga =)
*Laughter* Ok.. well, where did you received your nursary education then?
Well, to as far I as I recall, I was 4-5 years old when nursary education was enforceable. Surprising but it's true, I attended 2 different kindergarden.
Wuao.. two kindergardens? Now..why is that so?
The first one I went to was PAP's kindergarden. Bet alot fo us recognised the white, blue and red logo and it was always located on the first storey of housing blocks back then? Apparantly, I was pretty "sticky" to my family members, especially my ah-ma (Hokkien: Granny). I cried like hell when everytime I didn't see anyone familiar. Guess I cried to much before the adults had no choice but to let me rest a period to become more independent before transfering me to another Kindergarden at a nearby community centre.
So desuka. (Japanese: I see) I believe the next thing readers would wanna know is how or what was your official nursary education like. Maybe you'd like to tell us more about this..
ya..
I remember my nursary ed at the community centre was better. I was still constant reliant on the sight and accompany of my ah-ma. Unknowingly, perhaps I was tricked and eventually, I was able to survive the days I was in nursary school.
..What was the duration spent at the nursary CC everyday?
Hmmm... it's from noon till early evening. Like 12:00pm till 6:00pm..
Please continue.. Yes, do carry on..
Generally, everyday we go to school and learnt basics like reading from big charts with pictures, nursary rythms, writing, foundational mathematics, colouring, simplified art work and go for outdoor activities. Most of sure are ball games, puzzle, skipping and playing with hulla-hoop. Omg!
Oh! I remember there will be a tea-break. That's when we'll each expect a cup of hot milo. There's one unforgettable occassion when I had a friend, I think he's name was Mathew or Daniel. He was celebrating his birthday and party during our tea-break. I don't know why I suddenly thought and miss my ah-ma, I started crying and screaming "I want ah-ma.. I want ah-ma". Thinking back, I think it was embarassing because my outburst spoiled the poor guy's birthday since there were others who cried along. You know, kids! Oops.
Omg! Really?
Ya. *blushing*
*Laughter commotion*
Oki.. well, Boys are deemed "noti-boy".. Any instances of misbehaviour from your personal experience back then?
Ooh..yes. Pretty embarrassing! I remember there was one evening, I befriended these two boys who dared each other to draw on the plastic and metal school chairs with the crayons we got as a birthday party gift. Omg. In the end, the teacher caught us. We had our crayons confiscated and each had a ruler beating on our palms. Now that I remember, one of them was my supposedly good friend, Yuan Zhao. He wore spects and came from a family of gangsters.
Another was during K2 when me and this girl, Yao Yun, whom everybody teased was my girlfriend since we go together very well..
Sorry. But I can't help asking how did this special girl looked like?
Erm.. cute? big sparkling eyes? nah.. I can't remember.. but she was adorable nevertheless.
She used to live in the block just opposite mine.
*Grinning* ok.. you were saying?
*shy smiling* During one of our free play-time. The both of us used a string and tied it around another friend (the son of a warehouse shop). Perhaps we were re-enacting what we saw on the television drama most probably. The teacher warned us and notified our guardians. Haha.
That's pretty bad. Next, mind telling some interesting events which took place?
There's two worth mentioning about. One was I got enrolled into an art class. In which I mentioned in my previous blog. Ref: De one with Art.
Well well.. it seems like it's about time we wrap up for the day. Want to know what's another interesting event Jason took part? And more, what Jason does after kindergarden hours, before actually going home? Stay tune for the next installment...
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
De one with Cane
Day of raining
Alot of us will recall one of the most considerably feared object which is the cane. It seemed inseparable and integrated into our life, even as one ages. Unexplainably, the cane was often associated as a universal tool (especially in Asian countries) to enforce the consequence for having committed wrong. I remember being canned back when I was five years old for misbehaving. Besides, there are corporal punishment for adults who committed even more grave mistakes or civil wrongs like molesting.
I doubt it's possible for anyone to obliterate the unforgettable experience of the harsh and excruciating pain inflicted by this mean tool. Before even having mentioned about the beating, the tensed moment of waiting, and nerve-racking sound of the whipping cane as it "slices" the air before it actually lands on our body, are considerably disturbing! Omg! Ouch!!
Recalling my childhood days, only figured out after I've grown, why did my parents have to used the cane? Firstly, I used to think naively, that it's because canning was out of sadism. Unbelievably, it's truth for some unfortunate children. Secondly, as I've mentioned earlier, the thin stick is the idea tool for enforcing the dean consequences of having done wrong. Most importantly, I felt the cane was merely a representative of an adult's authority. It's similar to the sword of a Knight, the cross pendent of a Catholic, or even the pace-stick of a Warrant officer. It's so powerful for some obedient children, that it revokes any act of mischief.
For me? hmmm.. effective only a number of times. I used to get canned pretty often as much as I'd remembered. You must be wondering for what reasons. Well.. it's because I refused to do work when I'm told; misbehaved. My family mentioned that I only knew how to stand rooted to the spot and get canned without retaliating or escaping. There was one incident in particular that my mummy stripped me bare and canned me, pushed me out of the house because I refused to do my homework. The stripping part was because my mummy commanded to return everything which she paid for. Of course, she was under tonnes of anger and frustration back then.
The remedy? My doting granny or big-aunt will prevent what's more than necessary beating and sayang, wipe off my gallons of tears. Otherwise, I'll go to a little space beside my cupboard, hide my little head underneath the pillow casing and have a conference, mere silly "talk" with imaginative friends. Hehehe. Of course, I don't have mental disorder.
Then again, is it the post-canning sored marks? The tears? Or unrepairable emotional scars inflicted unto tender hearts? Or is it the realisation to repent? or worst, the feeling of hatre born from our rebellious nature?
Personally, I feel that it's undeniable that all of the above does come to play everytime we're canned. Perhaps younger, tears were not as significant since it will just flow profusely everytime we suffer. Not even those left-over marks bother as it might burn but gradually, it subsides. Geting used to it doesn't really have any lasting effect.
There were occassions whereby I did cursed and swear abit. (Oh, did I forget to mention I cursed and scold bad language when I was very young and everytime I'm furious about something? Oops). There were trances of hatre. However, it were mere childish thoughts for the moment which didn't last more than a day. Hehe.
And what about realisation to repent? Well.. here's the second part associated with the cane. Generally, I doubt some people will deny that the deemed outcome of canning was to cause the punishee (Jason language: Person receiving the punishment) to realise his/her mistakes and repent. Of course, not everyone does. Yet, it does remind me as I mature and deters me from committing the same mistakes again.
One illustrating example would be my Daddy's canning. When he got really angry, he will whack me anyhow, anywhere, as many times and as hard. It was really unbearably terror. Certainly, I've neer tried pissing him off again. Omg.
Do I like the cane? I hate it. I detest it extremely. Likewise for you I guess...
Alot of us will recall one of the most considerably feared object which is the cane. It seemed inseparable and integrated into our life, even as one ages. Unexplainably, the cane was often associated as a universal tool (especially in Asian countries) to enforce the consequence for having committed wrong. I remember being canned back when I was five years old for misbehaving. Besides, there are corporal punishment for adults who committed even more grave mistakes or civil wrongs like molesting.
I doubt it's possible for anyone to obliterate the unforgettable experience of the harsh and excruciating pain inflicted by this mean tool. Before even having mentioned about the beating, the tensed moment of waiting, and nerve-racking sound of the whipping cane as it "slices" the air before it actually lands on our body, are considerably disturbing! Omg! Ouch!!
Recalling my childhood days, only figured out after I've grown, why did my parents have to used the cane? Firstly, I used to think naively, that it's because canning was out of sadism. Unbelievably, it's truth for some unfortunate children. Secondly, as I've mentioned earlier, the thin stick is the idea tool for enforcing the dean consequences of having done wrong. Most importantly, I felt the cane was merely a representative of an adult's authority. It's similar to the sword of a Knight, the cross pendent of a Catholic, or even the pace-stick of a Warrant officer. It's so powerful for some obedient children, that it revokes any act of mischief.
For me? hmmm.. effective only a number of times. I used to get canned pretty often as much as I'd remembered. You must be wondering for what reasons. Well.. it's because I refused to do work when I'm told; misbehaved. My family mentioned that I only knew how to stand rooted to the spot and get canned without retaliating or escaping. There was one incident in particular that my mummy stripped me bare and canned me, pushed me out of the house because I refused to do my homework. The stripping part was because my mummy commanded to return everything which she paid for. Of course, she was under tonnes of anger and frustration back then.
The remedy? My doting granny or big-aunt will prevent what's more than necessary beating and sayang, wipe off my gallons of tears. Otherwise, I'll go to a little space beside my cupboard, hide my little head underneath the pillow casing and have a conference, mere silly "talk" with imaginative friends. Hehehe. Of course, I don't have mental disorder.
Then again, is it the post-canning sored marks? The tears? Or unrepairable emotional scars inflicted unto tender hearts? Or is it the realisation to repent? or worst, the feeling of hatre born from our rebellious nature?
Personally, I feel that it's undeniable that all of the above does come to play everytime we're canned. Perhaps younger, tears were not as significant since it will just flow profusely everytime we suffer. Not even those left-over marks bother as it might burn but gradually, it subsides. Geting used to it doesn't really have any lasting effect.
There were occassions whereby I did cursed and swear abit. (Oh, did I forget to mention I cursed and scold bad language when I was very young and everytime I'm furious about something? Oops). There were trances of hatre. However, it were mere childish thoughts for the moment which didn't last more than a day. Hehe.
And what about realisation to repent? Well.. here's the second part associated with the cane. Generally, I doubt some people will deny that the deemed outcome of canning was to cause the punishee (Jason language: Person receiving the punishment) to realise his/her mistakes and repent. Of course, not everyone does. Yet, it does remind me as I mature and deters me from committing the same mistakes again.
One illustrating example would be my Daddy's canning. When he got really angry, he will whack me anyhow, anywhere, as many times and as hard. It was really unbearably terror. Certainly, I've neer tried pissing him off again. Omg.
Do I like the cane? I hate it. I detest it extremely. Likewise for you I guess...
Monday, January 08, 2007
De one with 1st Day in Gakko
Sunny
How's it? Well, let's see..opening schedule for the next 14 days ain't very good. Out of two weeks, I'm expected to return to campus for 11 days. Omg.. pack! pack! pack!
To begin gakko, the very first lecture we expected was an impressioned to be dry one. Commercial Law. What to say... first of all, let's talk about our lecturer from RMIT, Melbourne. He started the lecture with his three rules. Firstly, he wants all our mobile phones to be switched off. Secondly, he expect us to keep total silence. "Able to hear a pin drop". Sighz. Thirdly, when he speaks, he doesn't want others to speak at the same time unless the need or discussion.
Well, not that I'm obessessed with him but I guess these are every educator's "golden rules". Except I didn't really agree to the very first rule. Turn off? Just put your mobile phone to silent mode can liao ma. Oops.. looks like the disobedient genes are itching again!!
Nevertheless, I was trying to get the best of the lecture. Australians have the habit to mumble, dampen their diction just when they didn't realise their unfamiliar slang was abit imcomprehendable. Ha! After which, I realised something about him. This lecturer was rather "guai lan" (Hokkien: Intolerably displeasing). He will just talk and stop like a jerky bus showing symptoms of breaking down. Well, he wasn't breaking down. However, it's his time-wasting way of enforcing his third rule of lecture. What's more? He will just sit and gradually, his positions got more restless. Omg.
In addition, the lecturer spent 2 hours on explaining how Singapore Laws were originated from the COMMON LAW. For a moment, I wondered if this was a history or law lecture. Perhaps it was required in the syllabus. However, I was eagerly yearning to be taught the Laws itself.
Well. I came out of the lecture room knowing nuts about what he was trying to teach. Thank goodness my strained ears did manage to get some things he spoke for notes taking. Unfortunately, the people around me were getting bored and causing certain undesirable disturbance. It was revealed (well, Qing did warn me earlier) that Accountancy students are to expect alot of law related modules in their course of study. No wonder, Law always comes with accounting.
After lecture, Zhen Ze had to rush for his tuition. So we got our Price and Market notes from the admin office and went off. Initially, I wanted to get my Law text for some diligence learning. Sigh. I made a trip near Popular and turned back since it was already sardined with students. Aww.. hardly know if there's gonna be any available after today.
I wasn't feeling well. since yesterday. Running nose and feverish feeling. It didn't occur to me until it was getting unbearable that I decided to visit the clinic on a Sunday when most of the clinics closed. I ended myself waiting for almost one hour plus before I actually managed to consult the doctor. Sigh. Alot of people asked me what did the doctor said. Weird. The doctor didn't mentioned much. The only thing he asked was whether I'd prefer to have non-drowsiness causing medicine. Of course!
Otherwise, he spent most of the time answering my questions. Ha! I asked how long it will take to recover. (Since I hate being in a sick-mode). And do you know that drinking plenty of water after you're sick doesn't really helps you recover earlier. Ha! According to the doctor, it's just the same as vitamins. It only helps prevent but not heal.. Hmm.. so next time, change your advice when you're telling your ill-ed friends and family members such myths!
:: Lastly, I wanna say a special thanks to someone who have been keeping me accompany and cheer me with all those sweet sms-es. I can't forget you mentioning your new year's resolution. Erm.. not expecting much. Hopefully... it will be a better year for the both of us.
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The blogger hereby declare that he is not responsible for any disorder, damage or equivalent for any juvenile who challenge their integrity and discipline.
Two months of holiday just passed like a big gale. With an unsual bit of anxious anticipation this year, it's first day back in gakko (Japanese: school) in the blink of an eye!This blog entry contains some coarse language. If you're under the age of 21 years old, please proceed back to the main page, unless under strict parental guidance or supervision.
The blogger hereby declare that he is not responsible for any disorder, damage or equivalent for any juvenile who challenge their integrity and discipline.
How's it? Well, let's see..opening schedule for the next 14 days ain't very good. Out of two weeks, I'm expected to return to campus for 11 days. Omg.. pack! pack! pack!
To begin gakko, the very first lecture we expected was an impressioned to be dry one. Commercial Law. What to say... first of all, let's talk about our lecturer from RMIT, Melbourne. He started the lecture with his three rules. Firstly, he wants all our mobile phones to be switched off. Secondly, he expect us to keep total silence. "Able to hear a pin drop". Sighz. Thirdly, when he speaks, he doesn't want others to speak at the same time unless the need or discussion.
Well, not that I'm obessessed with him but I guess these are every educator's "golden rules". Except I didn't really agree to the very first rule. Turn off? Just put your mobile phone to silent mode can liao ma. Oops.. looks like the disobedient genes are itching again!!
Nevertheless, I was trying to get the best of the lecture. Australians have the habit to mumble, dampen their diction just when they didn't realise their unfamiliar slang was abit imcomprehendable. Ha! After which, I realised something about him. This lecturer was rather "guai lan" (Hokkien: Intolerably displeasing). He will just talk and stop like a jerky bus showing symptoms of breaking down. Well, he wasn't breaking down. However, it's his time-wasting way of enforcing his third rule of lecture. What's more? He will just sit and gradually, his positions got more restless. Omg.
In addition, the lecturer spent 2 hours on explaining how Singapore Laws were originated from the COMMON LAW. For a moment, I wondered if this was a history or law lecture. Perhaps it was required in the syllabus. However, I was eagerly yearning to be taught the Laws itself.
Well. I came out of the lecture room knowing nuts about what he was trying to teach. Thank goodness my strained ears did manage to get some things he spoke for notes taking. Unfortunately, the people around me were getting bored and causing certain undesirable disturbance. It was revealed (well, Qing did warn me earlier) that Accountancy students are to expect alot of law related modules in their course of study. No wonder, Law always comes with accounting.
After lecture, Zhen Ze had to rush for his tuition. So we got our Price and Market notes from the admin office and went off. Initially, I wanted to get my Law text for some diligence learning. Sigh. I made a trip near Popular and turned back since it was already sardined with students. Aww.. hardly know if there's gonna be any available after today.
I wasn't feeling well. since yesterday. Running nose and feverish feeling. It didn't occur to me until it was getting unbearable that I decided to visit the clinic on a Sunday when most of the clinics closed. I ended myself waiting for almost one hour plus before I actually managed to consult the doctor. Sigh. Alot of people asked me what did the doctor said. Weird. The doctor didn't mentioned much. The only thing he asked was whether I'd prefer to have non-drowsiness causing medicine. Of course!
Otherwise, he spent most of the time answering my questions. Ha! I asked how long it will take to recover. (Since I hate being in a sick-mode). And do you know that drinking plenty of water after you're sick doesn't really helps you recover earlier. Ha! According to the doctor, it's just the same as vitamins. It only helps prevent but not heal.. Hmm.. so next time, change your advice when you're telling your ill-ed friends and family members such myths!
:: Lastly, I wanna say a special thanks to someone who have been keeping me accompany and cheer me with all those sweet sms-es. I can't forget you mentioning your new year's resolution. Erm.. not expecting much. Hopefully... it will be a better year for the both of us.
Monday, January 01, 2007
De one with Goodbye 2006
Cool and windy
What did you do for the last day of year 2006? Most probably staying at home and sleep it over like any other day. Some are crowding at Esplanade audiencing the spectacular fireworks display. While others are standing outside Vivocity where Mediacorp was holding a countdown party.
I bid goodbye to 2006 overnight at Jeffer's house. It was also a get-together for my bunk of specialists. Only Zhen Ze, Eric and Joshua couldn't make it. It was enjoyable though abit tiring because we were awake the entire night till morning. Without any sleep, we drank Volka Ruby Red (a generous sharing from our lao da, Jeffers) with green tea and coca cola. Had a couple packages of chips (contributed by Kenneth), played endless card games and had a great laugh over it.
We even met (Sgt) Eddy in the middle of the night since the guy was just living a few blocks away from Jeffer's place. We were honoured to be the first of Charlie Specialists ever to visit (Sgt) Eddy's new flat. It was big and spacious. Neatly and humbling decorated too.
I got to learn a new card game called "Bridge". It's kinda out dated game. But hey! It's complicated.. most of the time I was merely playing clueless of what was important to notice. Haha! =p
Well well... before it stuck 12 midnight, we didn't really do a countdown. Ha! Then all of us were busy entertaining ourselves with our sms-flooded cell phones until I voiced that it was past 12:02 am and everybody greeted Happy New Year to each other. Omg.
Hmmm... You must be wondering how was 2006? Ponder no more, here's a quick flashback!!
Jan - Feb : Overseas training in New Zealand. It was fun!
Mar : Dating with an undesirable partner
Apr : ORD!! Hooray, Civilian again!
May : Cleared all my driving theory with Chin Yu
June : Travel to Melbourne alone
July : Vacation at BKK, Starting of course at SIM and got attached
Aug : 21st Birthday!
Oct : Break up. First uni examinations! Did pretty well!
Nov : My first Job interview. Crazy about Bleach Anime!
Dec : Relatively fabulous Xmas and release of Jay Chou's 2nd movie!!
Ha! There you have it! Looks like it's really been an eventful year!! Though there have been setbacks. I made some proud achievements! With that, I bid Goodbye to year 2006. Take this opportunity to wish for a better 2007~*
What did you do for the last day of year 2006? Most probably staying at home and sleep it over like any other day. Some are crowding at Esplanade audiencing the spectacular fireworks display. While others are standing outside Vivocity where Mediacorp was holding a countdown party.
I bid goodbye to 2006 overnight at Jeffer's house. It was also a get-together for my bunk of specialists. Only Zhen Ze, Eric and Joshua couldn't make it. It was enjoyable though abit tiring because we were awake the entire night till morning. Without any sleep, we drank Volka Ruby Red (a generous sharing from our lao da, Jeffers) with green tea and coca cola. Had a couple packages of chips (contributed by Kenneth), played endless card games and had a great laugh over it.
We even met (Sgt) Eddy in the middle of the night since the guy was just living a few blocks away from Jeffer's place. We were honoured to be the first of Charlie Specialists ever to visit (Sgt) Eddy's new flat. It was big and spacious. Neatly and humbling decorated too.
I got to learn a new card game called "Bridge". It's kinda out dated game. But hey! It's complicated.. most of the time I was merely playing clueless of what was important to notice. Haha! =p
Well well... before it stuck 12 midnight, we didn't really do a countdown. Ha! Then all of us were busy entertaining ourselves with our sms-flooded cell phones until I voiced that it was past 12:02 am and everybody greeted Happy New Year to each other. Omg.
Hmmm... You must be wondering how was 2006? Ponder no more, here's a quick flashback!!
Jan - Feb : Overseas training in New Zealand. It was fun!
Mar : Dating with an undesirable partner
Apr : ORD!! Hooray, Civilian again!
May : Cleared all my driving theory with Chin Yu
June : Travel to Melbourne alone
July : Vacation at BKK, Starting of course at SIM and got attached
Aug : 21st Birthday!
Oct : Break up. First uni examinations! Did pretty well!
Nov : My first Job interview. Crazy about Bleach Anime!
Dec : Relatively fabulous Xmas and release of Jay Chou's 2nd movie!!
Ha! There you have it! Looks like it's really been an eventful year!! Though there have been setbacks. I made some proud achievements! With that, I bid Goodbye to year 2006. Take this opportunity to wish for a better 2007~*
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