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Tuesday, April 21, 2009

De one with Fallible J

Blindness blank

Seemed to have lost all work capability. It is apparent my meticulous and careful nature had desolated me. Someone criticized I was shrugging my responsibility, with bleak cold-bloodiness. I know, it's all evident in the work I produce. All because of utter annoyance. I just couldn't help myself amplifying the effects of such criticism.

Perhaps I was overwhelmed with so much to clear. And I only had one day. It was unfair. I wanted very much to console myself that my work was tendered punctual. Unfortunately it was delayed, neglected in favour of the others. These were simply out of my control.

I hate myself.. for being too tolerate and soft-spoken. Ya, go ahead and call me a wimp/total pushover. Moreover, I am unqualified. What a loser I've been all these while.

Maybe what's said from the beginning of my career was right. I shouldn't waste both my time and that of others. It spiraled in my mind as though eventing a ritual procession psychotically. Resembling voices around flame-engulfed campfire, raging a chaotic frenzy, threatening my sanity.

Guys don't cry. But I'm different. It didn't take very long on my way across the overhead bridge before I touched my eyes and felt the moist smeared on my fingers.

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