De one with National Day

Hot, hot, hot!

Everyone gets very excite over NDP. Previously, people will queue overnight at National Stadium, desperately hopeful of getting their NDP tickets and of course, a "fong fu" goodie bag.. for others, to be a part of the grand celebration!

However, times have changed, so does administration and organisation changes. For example, to address the disappointment of people who spent overnight end up getting not even one ticket. The idea of balloting for NDP through AXS, was introduced. They said.. in this way, it allows every Singaporean to get a chance in lifetime to be able to participate in NDP. Yes, it does solve the trouble of preventing vain efforts and disappointment of people who queued overnight. However, seriously I think the idea about creating a fair-play is not really that effective bah. Oops. Maybe it hasn't been happening to me and people I've known.

Anyway, what doesn't change is the anticipation of the most spectacular Fireworks display. As all of us would know, it's only during NDP that Singaporeans get to see beautiful fireworks locally. It's really romantic. Imagine watching it with your loved one, along the river-side walkway. Keeping quiet, just enjoying the amazing sight of fireworks display. More than ever, enjoying the accompany of your lover. Ooo... simply overly passionately romantic.

Other than that, I guess what most people won't wanna miss will be the respectful Marching Contigent formation. Parade, definately isn't what most public get to see. Especially if one is not even involved in NS. What most people don't really realise is the actual pain of having to stand at "serdiya" (attention) position for such a long time. Omg. Personally, I experienced this during my SYF while we wait for our results. Sigh. The pain is having to stand at attention, "stomach in, chest out", "chin up".. and not being able to figid as the beads of prespiration tickle down your nose-bridge and eye corner. Hehe.. You fear that if you move, you might ruin the uniformed formation and worst, draw someone's attention and get criticised.

Well.. I guess every Singaporean have had their chance of being not just the majority role of being an audience but also, a performer in NDP sometime in their life. For me, I remembered I was in Secondary 2 when my military band combined with Deyi band to perform an pre-parade item. It was a great deal. We started practising months before the actual parade. Still recall the days of long-hour practice under the hot sun, rain and drizzle, at Khatib Camp. Haha.. I been to my camp, even before I've enlisted and got posted there after SISPEC. What an unexpected coincidence!

Well, I don't really like performing at National Stadium. Mainly because of the undesirable echos you get, disrupting your ability to get which is the correct original music. It really demands you to concentrate and be alert enough to recognise which is the true music from the abyss of tempo-varied sounds.

Everything have a good and bad part. Now I shall share a down-side. I recalled during NDP during my jc1. Since my parents were off to watch NDP live. I was at home. I had a quarrel with my 1st ex until we were on the verge of break up. Silly enough, I got overly depressed, I love my 1st ex so much, i attempted suicide. Shameful but I lost my rationality and popped 20 Anti-fast panadols pills with E-30 Alcohol. The next morning, I didn't die. However, I got really into a worse condition of vomitting continuously and suffered from severe dehydration. I recalled my parents sent me to visit the neighbourhood clinic. The doctor asked me why. I was thinking, I should tell him what I consumed in order for him to prescribed the right medication for me. I remembered I just act blur when he asked why I did such a foolish thing.

What really hurt me and shattered my heart was... my ex didn't care much.
*sob*

Nah.. I shouldn't cry. Well.. it's just one of those really foolish and stupid things I do in the past.

Well well, I guess that's enough. It's National Day! HAPPY NATIONAL DAY to all (especially Sweet, the one who matters most to me now) and Singapore!