De one with The One

Thoughts and wordings

Everybody talks, yearns and desires their very own "the one". It could be a thing, a wedding ring, a dream job position, a school to attend...most commonly, "the one" often refers to a soul-mate.

I couldn't help but be half-amused and half-embarrassed having recalled my confessions to my exes. As far as I recalled I told and was being told we're "the one", often tagged with either the "last" (the last one) or "and only" (the one and only). The way that it sounds clinche which makes my cheeks glow. Now that I relived the moment these words came out of my mouth, it reset my heart, mind and soul to reconsider the depth and genuine of the words.

While I can't justify how true my exes meant those words were, I could well make a close guess. I supposed "no" because they were cases of the ex. If you'd care to ask further whether I meant what I said a decade ago, *lowers my chin for awhile and lift up again*, am afraid I have to say "no, I didn't".

"Why?" you might probe further. Having considered the ugly endings or the blatant unwind of events, hidden secrets each of us were hiding from one another (be it to save ourselves, protect the other party, the fate of fates), my answers jolly well converge on "I couldn't have meant what I said". What was true might be for the moment the words were formed, like a carat ring essential to close the deal, elevates our confessions to a level more convincing with our partners.

What's past and present can be dealt with. The ultimate wary lies within what the future beholds. Age yields experience and experiences in turn affect our perspectives, behavior and the way we react eventually. It seemed more is required of us to "fall for another person" after who, what, where and when you've encountered, lest to say it's twice as difficult to get head-over-heels over someone. Do I have to comment further how painfully demanding it is to tell someone "you're the one" largely because you can't be certain what would be the outcome inspite of knowing how weighty these words are.

Or not... we could be stalking time.. living pretentious relationship filled with lies and other unhealthy situations which puts all of us committing similar mistakes to utter shame. Shows how much integrity and maturity we sinners lack. The fact that we are grown ups and still unable to carry meaning to your vocal-expressions. Gosh, we ought to be careful about what we say.

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