Sunny day
Today Marcoeconomics lecture was postponed to Friday..looks like it's gonna be a tough long day on Friday! I went jogging in the morning.
First thing first which surprised me was Sweet calling me to tell me that Sweet's taking the day off. I was atonished but recovered happy that we're finally meeting each other once again!
We spent some quality time at my house before enjoying a buffet lunch at Sakae J8. Sweet was down with flu, thereby everything became unsatisfying tasty for Sweet. Well.. we did manage to get our STUDENT RATE for the buffet..that was something to be glad about!
We then proceed to Yishun for a movie. Monster House. Pretty disappointing Pixel Production. Sweet find that it's lame. I couldn't agree more. Well.. but it's the accompany which made it worthwhile. One funny thing happened today in the cinema. You see, both of us requested for a seat in the back row. "T" was the last row. Apparantly when we got our seating tickets, we realised a family sat mistakenably in our seats. So we choose to sit on the other stall of sits. It was pretty nerve-griping. Even when the show started, everytime we see audiences making their way up near our row, we get so uptight and alert whether we might be just siting in their seats. Hehe!
We then went to Westmall for Sweet's collection of Sweet's newly made spectacles. Rather nice but I thought the side frames were too thick and that the shape of the specs made Sweet's face more "V". Sweet kept complaining the lenses were too thick when I thought it doesn't really matter and it can't be helped. Just needs some getting used to. Omg.
I was yearning for dim sum snacks.. Sweet suggested we went to Meiya to eat. We only got to know that their dim sum serving timing was over after having queued a long time for our turn. No choice, we end up eating full-meal dinner: Hor Fun with egg, prawns and leek, Black pepper "dear" meat (since they didn't have Ostrich meat as stated in their menu), 'Healthy' vegatable (spinach, Japanese green peas, mushroom and tomato), Sweet's lovely soup boiled with chicken, mushroom and bamboo pines.. to pamper our thrist, we had Crysanthenum tea. Nice!
We walk walk around Westmall after a $36+ dinner.. Sweet got a pair of slippers. Then we balay kampong.
It's a really enjoyable day after so long since we've met up to spend some quality lover time together. I feel so blissed and happier.
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Monday, September 04, 2006
De one with Rain
Getting better-day
It just gets better. Sweet and I are back to our loving days. Although we haven't met for nearing 2 weeks.. our sms conversation is getting better and enhanced with sweetness. Oooh.. boy.. I'm floating head over heels.
Well.. I spend sometime watching my newly bought Jap anime Bleach! It's was so excitingly addictive that ah-ma, Mama, Jimson and I finished viewing the entire 5-dics Volume One.
Hehe.. well..i'm getting used to viewing it in Madarin language. Pretty cool.. until the 2nd last episode, talking about Ichigo Kurosaki's past of losing his beloved mother during a rainning night on June 17. How he blames himself for being the cause of his mother's death.. somehow.. it kinda relates to me..
Anyway, I manged to completed 2/3 of my macroeconomics. However, gotta work abit on my accountancy. Currently, I'm still stuck at Chapter 2. It's pretty messy because I've to study and extract my own notes from my saturated textbook. Not to worry, thank goodness, everything's under control. A disappointing thing was I wasn't very confident with whatever I've studied even though I've put in alot of effort and hardwork. Hmm.. perhaps I need to be more focus bah..
To exercise off whatever fatty food I've ate yesterday, I decided to go jogging. Sigh..not much result but well.. I got caught in the rain. It's really SHIOK! It definately brings back alot of memories..good and bad.. well.. it's a great nostalgic feeling to be in the puring rain...
I recalled I started loving being in the rain during secondary school life because we used to practise "formation" rain or shine at our school field. For the sake of clinching a Gold award and the "Best display band of the year" award, we practised every recess during morning and afternoon since the school operates on two shifts. Upper secondary in the morning. Lower secondary in the afternoon. I recalled when it's raining heavily, our "botak" field would become muddy. Thus, we will take off our white canvas shoes and march with our bare feets and rolled up long school pants. No doubt the squashy feeling of marching in the mud, occassional slip and fall, the splattering of liquid mud, our uniforms drenched in the downpour were all uncomfortable and "dirty".. the "heart and soul" unity of the band and our pride overcomed against these odds. It was simply a memorable moment in the rain.
As many lovers would agree, walking in the rain with our loved ones is one of the most romantic events in our life. It's the chance to cuddle close with our love one under the same small umbrella. It's the chance to show how much you care for your partner that you want him or her to be sheltered from the rain. It's about the fun in running through the rain in seek of shelter if you forget to bring your umbrella.
Romantic was one thing. Being in the rain alone, waiting for a love that will never come back, is really sad. I recalled once I went to my ex's house only to be disappionted that my ex didn't wish to see me. I end up walking to the nearest busstop, in the pouring cold rain with a tearing heart. Undeniably, it felt terribly miserable and desolated.
Regarding rainy days.. people would agree that it's the best weather to laze in bed. For army recruits means "CAT 1"!! No activities, slack in Bunk!! Others are demoralised as the rain distrupt their wonderful plans. For me, last year, when my late mummy was called home by God, it was also raining.. Only difference I wasn't under the rain. Nevertheless, the rainy weather marked a different significance in my life. It occurred to me then that perhaps Heaven's weeping for her death bah..
Strange thing..whenever i feel sad.. it will start to rain.
Recently, amazingly, everytime Sweet suggest going for prayers at the temple. It will rain. Hehe...
Certainly, everyone has their own prespective, personal interpretation and unforgettable moments with being in the rain or during a rainy day. For me.. it means a great deal of my past and present.. Sigh. Sounds so crappy..hehe.. Omg I'm running out on how to do my conclusion..hehe Sumimasen (Sorry in Jap)
It just gets better. Sweet and I are back to our loving days. Although we haven't met for nearing 2 weeks.. our sms conversation is getting better and enhanced with sweetness. Oooh.. boy.. I'm floating head over heels.
Well.. I spend sometime watching my newly bought Jap anime Bleach! It's was so excitingly addictive that ah-ma, Mama, Jimson and I finished viewing the entire 5-dics Volume One.
Hehe.. well..i'm getting used to viewing it in Madarin language. Pretty cool.. until the 2nd last episode, talking about Ichigo Kurosaki's past of losing his beloved mother during a rainning night on June 17. How he blames himself for being the cause of his mother's death.. somehow.. it kinda relates to me..
Anyway, I manged to completed 2/3 of my macroeconomics. However, gotta work abit on my accountancy. Currently, I'm still stuck at Chapter 2. It's pretty messy because I've to study and extract my own notes from my saturated textbook. Not to worry, thank goodness, everything's under control. A disappointing thing was I wasn't very confident with whatever I've studied even though I've put in alot of effort and hardwork. Hmm.. perhaps I need to be more focus bah..
To exercise off whatever fatty food I've ate yesterday, I decided to go jogging. Sigh..not much result but well.. I got caught in the rain. It's really SHIOK! It definately brings back alot of memories..good and bad.. well.. it's a great nostalgic feeling to be in the puring rain...
I recalled I started loving being in the rain during secondary school life because we used to practise "formation" rain or shine at our school field. For the sake of clinching a Gold award and the "Best display band of the year" award, we practised every recess during morning and afternoon since the school operates on two shifts. Upper secondary in the morning. Lower secondary in the afternoon. I recalled when it's raining heavily, our "botak" field would become muddy. Thus, we will take off our white canvas shoes and march with our bare feets and rolled up long school pants. No doubt the squashy feeling of marching in the mud, occassional slip and fall, the splattering of liquid mud, our uniforms drenched in the downpour were all uncomfortable and "dirty".. the "heart and soul" unity of the band and our pride overcomed against these odds. It was simply a memorable moment in the rain.
As many lovers would agree, walking in the rain with our loved ones is one of the most romantic events in our life. It's the chance to cuddle close with our love one under the same small umbrella. It's the chance to show how much you care for your partner that you want him or her to be sheltered from the rain. It's about the fun in running through the rain in seek of shelter if you forget to bring your umbrella.
Romantic was one thing. Being in the rain alone, waiting for a love that will never come back, is really sad. I recalled once I went to my ex's house only to be disappionted that my ex didn't wish to see me. I end up walking to the nearest busstop, in the pouring cold rain with a tearing heart. Undeniably, it felt terribly miserable and desolated.
Regarding rainy days.. people would agree that it's the best weather to laze in bed. For army recruits means "CAT 1"!! No activities, slack in Bunk!! Others are demoralised as the rain distrupt their wonderful plans. For me, last year, when my late mummy was called home by God, it was also raining.. Only difference I wasn't under the rain. Nevertheless, the rainy weather marked a different significance in my life. It occurred to me then that perhaps Heaven's weeping for her death bah..
Strange thing..whenever i feel sad.. it will start to rain.
Recently, amazingly, everytime Sweet suggest going for prayers at the temple. It will rain. Hehe...
Certainly, everyone has their own prespective, personal interpretation and unforgettable moments with being in the rain or during a rainy day. For me.. it means a great deal of my past and present.. Sigh. Sounds so crappy..hehe.. Omg I'm running out on how to do my conclusion..hehe Sumimasen (Sorry in Jap)
Sunday, September 03, 2006
De one wiith Breaded pork-chop
Hot day
Early morning, I went jogging. Tried a different route from the norm. Clocked a distance of 4km. Before going back and waited till 1230pm when Jasmine finally wanted to move her butt to advance for our swimming.
We took bus 88 then bus 410 since Jasmine's too lazy to walk a distance which I normally would. Plus, the hot weather makes it even more insane and undesirable to walk to the Bishan Swimming Complex. By the time I reached the pool, Jasmine wanted to have a smoke break. So I proceeded in only to discover that all of the sun-bathing benches were occupied. Sigh.
I left my stuff on the side benches and dump myself into the pool which was relaxingly cool. Swam a couple of 50m laps before I managed to spot a few available benches. End product? I got darker. Yippee! Of course, after having sun-bathed for 1 hour.
We left the complx at 3pm. After which both of us proceeded to Junction 8 as I wanted to get an old Wilber Pan's album, in search of one of Sweet's liked song, titled "Bu De Bu Ai".. I've heard this song before during the last time I went KTV session with Zhen Ze and fellow specs. It's a nice enjoyable song. Although it's supposed to be a rather sad song.
In vain, I end up with the new series of Bleach animations. Well.. not being arrogant but whenever I am sure that a certain popular anime which is only available for illegal download, will one day be sold on the shelves. Just as I'd predicted for Final Fantasy IV: Advent Children. Bleach is out too. One thing about this anime which was rather disappointing was that it's only available in Chinese and Japanese dialogue. No English subtitles, which makes it difficult if I want to watch with Japanese dialogue. Sigh. Jasmine bought other vcds like Silent Hill, a ghost show and The Whole Ten Yards.
We shopped today. Jasmine got me two new pair of T-shirts from Slumping Ape. While she got herself two pairs of earrings. We went to do some grocery shopping at NTUC before we headed home.
Mama cooked my favourite Breaded pork-chop or "bah pah" (in hokkien). It's marinated pork meat cut into big thin slices. Then dipped in egg before coating it with crumps of grinded biscuits. It's my favourite home-cooked Western dish ever since young. I recall I'll be hardworking in preparing the biscuit crumps and the "coating" preparation when I was still a young boy. Err.. I'm still young now..Hehe... Should have said I was younger back then.
It's oftenly accompanied with fried french fries. Mmmmh.. dinner was scumptous tonight! Besides, it's been quite a while since I last ate Breaded pork chop..due to my increasing complexion and weight consciousness. Oops!~
*face red red*
Early morning, I went jogging. Tried a different route from the norm. Clocked a distance of 4km. Before going back and waited till 1230pm when Jasmine finally wanted to move her butt to advance for our swimming.
We took bus 88 then bus 410 since Jasmine's too lazy to walk a distance which I normally would. Plus, the hot weather makes it even more insane and undesirable to walk to the Bishan Swimming Complex. By the time I reached the pool, Jasmine wanted to have a smoke break. So I proceeded in only to discover that all of the sun-bathing benches were occupied. Sigh.
I left my stuff on the side benches and dump myself into the pool which was relaxingly cool. Swam a couple of 50m laps before I managed to spot a few available benches. End product? I got darker. Yippee! Of course, after having sun-bathed for 1 hour.
We left the complx at 3pm. After which both of us proceeded to Junction 8 as I wanted to get an old Wilber Pan's album, in search of one of Sweet's liked song, titled "Bu De Bu Ai".. I've heard this song before during the last time I went KTV session with Zhen Ze and fellow specs. It's a nice enjoyable song. Although it's supposed to be a rather sad song.
In vain, I end up with the new series of Bleach animations. Well.. not being arrogant but whenever I am sure that a certain popular anime which is only available for illegal download, will one day be sold on the shelves. Just as I'd predicted for Final Fantasy IV: Advent Children. Bleach is out too. One thing about this anime which was rather disappointing was that it's only available in Chinese and Japanese dialogue. No English subtitles, which makes it difficult if I want to watch with Japanese dialogue. Sigh. Jasmine bought other vcds like Silent Hill, a ghost show and The Whole Ten Yards.
We shopped today. Jasmine got me two new pair of T-shirts from Slumping Ape. While she got herself two pairs of earrings. We went to do some grocery shopping at NTUC before we headed home.
Mama cooked my favourite Breaded pork-chop or "bah pah" (in hokkien). It's marinated pork meat cut into big thin slices. Then dipped in egg before coating it with crumps of grinded biscuits. It's my favourite home-cooked Western dish ever since young. I recall I'll be hardworking in preparing the biscuit crumps and the "coating" preparation when I was still a young boy. Err.. I'm still young now..Hehe... Should have said I was younger back then.
It's oftenly accompanied with fried french fries. Mmmmh.. dinner was scumptous tonight! Besides, it's been quite a while since I last ate Breaded pork chop..due to my increasing complexion and weight consciousness. Oops!~
*face red red*
Saturday, September 02, 2006
De one with Sweet~less Saturday
Warm Saturday
Yesterday night didn't managed to get to converse with Sweet over the phone. Sigh. Today also didn't meet up nor message much as Sweet's busy with work. That's why it's a "Sweet~less" Saturday.
Early morning woke up rather late. Well.. kinda disappointing Sweet didn't leave any morning messages. I figured maybe Sweet's too busy to sms me bah. Anyway, went jogging which wasn't really conducive.
Came back and showered. Ate the shaved ham I bought from NTUC yesterday afternoon. After that, I set off for my facial appointment with Anna, at Relax de Beauty. Hmmm... when I reached there at 1pm, Anna asked me to wait for a couple of minutes as she's still serving her previous client. Well, I set at the work desk as the two guests' seats were occupied by the Anna's client's husband and child. Which I thought was really lovely... the way they communicate when the wife asked the husband to help her with her dress' zip. Of course, I was just listening..not looking!
Facial was more painful today as Anna had troubles with the stubborn blackheads on my nose. She only figured out that she should have used a smaller extractor rather than the bigger one, only towards the end of the treatment period. Sigh. However, today was different. Instead of doing the mask first, Anna got her colleague, "Nanny" to help me do the cooling and UV zapping first. Which I thought was more relevant to cure the post-treatment soreness on my face. Heh. Nanny always like to tease me. She always ask question whether I have a girlfriend since she found me goodlooking. Err.. she said so..not me. Towards the end, Nanny made a joke about how clean and smooth my nose is. That if an ant was to crawl on my nose, it will slip off. Hehe...
Flattering but well, it's just customs and trades of a customer provider.
Funny thing was Anna and Nanny were discussing in beginning of my facial whether I was in some hairstyling acedemy. Simply because they found my hair was always styled nicely. Anna's PR (Public Relation) is really good. She gave me time allowance to make my hair since it was wrapped up in a towel during facial.
Today, facial was cheaper that the previous. It cost me $63. $45 for facial. $18 for a medium bottle of pimple cream. Weeee!
After that, I bought one of my liked pastry from Polar. It was the hotdog crust. I bought some tuna puffs and an apple strandel (my liking too). Didn't shop much, just walked home after that.
Nothing much today except I finally started my progress on preparing for my mid-semester exams, which is luanching in less than two weeks' time. I have planned strategically. Will be able to make it with disciplined exacution.
Yesterday night didn't managed to get to converse with Sweet over the phone. Sigh. Today also didn't meet up nor message much as Sweet's busy with work. That's why it's a "Sweet~less" Saturday.
Early morning woke up rather late. Well.. kinda disappointing Sweet didn't leave any morning messages. I figured maybe Sweet's too busy to sms me bah. Anyway, went jogging which wasn't really conducive.
Came back and showered. Ate the shaved ham I bought from NTUC yesterday afternoon. After that, I set off for my facial appointment with Anna, at Relax de Beauty. Hmmm... when I reached there at 1pm, Anna asked me to wait for a couple of minutes as she's still serving her previous client. Well, I set at the work desk as the two guests' seats were occupied by the Anna's client's husband and child. Which I thought was really lovely... the way they communicate when the wife asked the husband to help her with her dress' zip. Of course, I was just listening..not looking!
Facial was more painful today as Anna had troubles with the stubborn blackheads on my nose. She only figured out that she should have used a smaller extractor rather than the bigger one, only towards the end of the treatment period. Sigh. However, today was different. Instead of doing the mask first, Anna got her colleague, "Nanny" to help me do the cooling and UV zapping first. Which I thought was more relevant to cure the post-treatment soreness on my face. Heh. Nanny always like to tease me. She always ask question whether I have a girlfriend since she found me goodlooking. Err.. she said so..not me. Towards the end, Nanny made a joke about how clean and smooth my nose is. That if an ant was to crawl on my nose, it will slip off. Hehe...
Flattering but well, it's just customs and trades of a customer provider.
Funny thing was Anna and Nanny were discussing in beginning of my facial whether I was in some hairstyling acedemy. Simply because they found my hair was always styled nicely. Anna's PR (Public Relation) is really good. She gave me time allowance to make my hair since it was wrapped up in a towel during facial.
Today, facial was cheaper that the previous. It cost me $63. $45 for facial. $18 for a medium bottle of pimple cream. Weeee!
After that, I bought one of my liked pastry from Polar. It was the hotdog crust. I bought some tuna puffs and an apple strandel (my liking too). Didn't shop much, just walked home after that.
Nothing much today except I finally started my progress on preparing for my mid-semester exams, which is luanching in less than two weeks' time. I have planned strategically. Will be able to make it with disciplined exacution.
Friday, September 01, 2006
De one with The Dorm
Sunny then windy
Today I arrived at campus super early today. End up, waited at the SIM busstop for Zhen Ze and Guan Hui to reached, 5 mins before 10am. When we went into the lecture hall, which was freezing at the place I was sitting, the lecturer just started lesson even though it was a quarter past 10. Reason was because he was experiencing technical fault early when he initiate to start at 10:02am.
Well, the lecturer was unsatisfied with students strolling in as late as 10:30am. He shown his displeasure by stopping his lecture, get the audience' attention, held up and look at his watch everytime late students were still strolling into the lecture hall. He mentioned something quite funny. The reason he gave for having the priviledge to feel unhappy was simply because today was "Teachers' Day". Hehe..
Today I lost my concentration through the 2nd half of the lecture. I really didn't comprehen whatever he was explaining about the components, namely Income sub-components and Expenses sub-components, were in relationship with Income Statements. Omg. To recall I'm going to be an accountant. Right now I'm facing difficulties in this. Arhh! Stress!
It was even more stressful when the lecturer break down our mid-term exam topics and method of study. More stress!!!
After school I was decided whether I wanted to meet Clara for lunch. Apparantly when I messaged her, she was with the girls. Well.. I was drained physically and mentally, so I decided to go home.
On my way home, I decided to get to Junction 8 to get my favourite hunger-filling sandwiches from Sweets Secret bakery. I got Oyster Mee suah for Ah-ma and a few snacks from Old Chang Ki for everyone. After that, I messaged Sweet, who called back to say Sweet misses me.
Savouring my sandwich, I watched my all-time favourite The Incredibles. After that, the Dorm, the Thai movie. It was supposedly to be scary however, it turned out to be more of a heart-warming movie. It's about this 7th grade boy who was sent to a boarded school away from home, by his father. Having mistaken that the father sent him away because he witnessed the father's scandalous affair with the maid Peng, he refused to pick up calls from the father in school. Ton, the boy, felt very desolated as all his friends love to play jokes on him as he was new. Ton then discovered a friend, Vatien, who was the ghost of the boy who drowned in the old pool outside the Dorm. Ton tried to saved and free Vatien from having to undergo the repeated drowning every ghost who died of an accident, have to experience until they get reincarnated.
Halfway through the show, I paused to help mama (my aunt) to bring Jimson down to send him off in a cab for his weekly accupunctual therapy at Toa Payoh. Nevertheless, "the Dorm" was a story of an extraordinary friendship; forgivence between a guilty father and his son; and the motherly-love between the headmistress and her students. Nice.
Well, after which I made my 2nd attempt at trying to solved the difficult ISYS 2059's assignment on excel. Just couldn't figure out the appropriate Sintax or computing command-formula to get the data that's required. Sigh.
Overall, not so bad a day. I wasn't late at school. Sweet called me to say "I miss you too". It's contenting enough. That moment just made my heart feel lightened as if a worry was allevated.
Today I arrived at campus super early today. End up, waited at the SIM busstop for Zhen Ze and Guan Hui to reached, 5 mins before 10am. When we went into the lecture hall, which was freezing at the place I was sitting, the lecturer just started lesson even though it was a quarter past 10. Reason was because he was experiencing technical fault early when he initiate to start at 10:02am.
Well, the lecturer was unsatisfied with students strolling in as late as 10:30am. He shown his displeasure by stopping his lecture, get the audience' attention, held up and look at his watch everytime late students were still strolling into the lecture hall. He mentioned something quite funny. The reason he gave for having the priviledge to feel unhappy was simply because today was "Teachers' Day". Hehe..
Today I lost my concentration through the 2nd half of the lecture. I really didn't comprehen whatever he was explaining about the components, namely Income sub-components and Expenses sub-components, were in relationship with Income Statements. Omg. To recall I'm going to be an accountant. Right now I'm facing difficulties in this. Arhh! Stress!
It was even more stressful when the lecturer break down our mid-term exam topics and method of study. More stress!!!
After school I was decided whether I wanted to meet Clara for lunch. Apparantly when I messaged her, she was with the girls. Well.. I was drained physically and mentally, so I decided to go home.
On my way home, I decided to get to Junction 8 to get my favourite hunger-filling sandwiches from Sweets Secret bakery. I got Oyster Mee suah for Ah-ma and a few snacks from Old Chang Ki for everyone. After that, I messaged Sweet, who called back to say Sweet misses me.
Savouring my sandwich, I watched my all-time favourite The Incredibles. After that, the Dorm, the Thai movie. It was supposedly to be scary however, it turned out to be more of a heart-warming movie. It's about this 7th grade boy who was sent to a boarded school away from home, by his father. Having mistaken that the father sent him away because he witnessed the father's scandalous affair with the maid Peng, he refused to pick up calls from the father in school. Ton, the boy, felt very desolated as all his friends love to play jokes on him as he was new. Ton then discovered a friend, Vatien, who was the ghost of the boy who drowned in the old pool outside the Dorm. Ton tried to saved and free Vatien from having to undergo the repeated drowning every ghost who died of an accident, have to experience until they get reincarnated.
Halfway through the show, I paused to help mama (my aunt) to bring Jimson down to send him off in a cab for his weekly accupunctual therapy at Toa Payoh. Nevertheless, "the Dorm" was a story of an extraordinary friendship; forgivence between a guilty father and his son; and the motherly-love between the headmistress and her students. Nice.
Well, after which I made my 2nd attempt at trying to solved the difficult ISYS 2059's assignment on excel. Just couldn't figure out the appropriate Sintax or computing command-formula to get the data that's required. Sigh.
Overall, not so bad a day. I wasn't late at school. Sweet called me to say "I miss you too". It's contenting enough. That moment just made my heart feel lightened as if a worry was allevated.
Thursday, August 31, 2006
De one with Cartoons & Pixel production
Heaven's weeping
From young, I've always got the idea that as human ages, they tend to be detached from stuff like cartoons which are usually deemed, by social norms, to be more suitable for kids.
Apparantly, it's evident to be less likey. It's as suggested by our movies categorisation. Cartoons are for the general public!
Was that a crappy intro? Hehe I can't be bothered. It's my blog anyway. hehe.. Just kidding. No offence.
Continuing.. from a very young age subjected to "Americanisation", Disney's production used to appeal alot to me. I loved Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs. I enjoyed it so much I watched the movie on Laser Disc, repeatedly every week. It was the different and interesting personalities of the Seven Dwarfs which attracted me. And of course, I've learnt about "the happily ever after" ending to every story there was. Hehe. There were other productions like Beauty and the Beast, Aladdin and Bambi (my mummy's favourite show). I've always watched to watch Pinnocio, Peter Pan and Lady and the Trump. Unfortunately, I only read about their stories. Didn't get to see the animated movies until later age. Another of my big time favourite was 101 Dalmatians!!
I used to watch other cartoons like Care Bears, Banana Man, Conman (my favourite primary school hero!) and the educational Magic schoolbus. Not forgetting Tom and Jerry, a famous part of every child's life!
Warner Bro's production was robbing my share of liking for cartoons around the same time too. Bugs Bunny and gang was interesting. I bet everyone would agree that "Tweety bird and Slyvester cat" was the most popular! I used to feel bad for the silly Slyvester. And simply love the overly adorable Tweenty bird. However as I've grown up, I start to find that Tweety bird's body improportioned. Hehe.. I mean it's wings are too small to aviate it's oversized head. Oops. No offence to any Tweety bird "die-hard" fans.
Another Warner Bro's production was the old series of "Batman". Well..it didn't interest me until the era when Marvel superheros like "Spiderman" and "X-men" were introduced into the later years of my childhood.
Cartoons have evolved over the years with advanced technology. Increasing 2D cartoons are more elaborated and detailed. Some even incorporated 3D effects which is becoming more relevant and evident in current cartoon movies like Mulan (relates to my curiosity for China history), Hercules (relates to my interest for Greece mythology) and Prince of Eygpt (relates to my liking for the epic show "10 commandments"). Of course, there are many more... Not forgetting Lilo and Sitch. In the 21st Century, cartoons were also combined with live shootings, For example Space Jam, a film with a perfect mix of less artificial cartoons characters and live actors. All the wonders of Blue and Green screen-effect!
Another thing I've realised from the cartoons evolution is that cartoons were not longer just protraying western characters. It is increasingly emobodying different stories depicting a diversed range of cultures and nationalities. Well, except the old production of Aladdin which shows Indian characters. Even the accents are accurated in the English language the characters of individual nationalities are spoken. I used to find it particularly true for Mulan, spare the Mushu character. It really provide me with something which is new and interesting. Something in the manner of speech and art which I can relate to.
Well.. I would highlight that cartoon movies are not appealing enough to the older generations. That's partly the reason why Pixel productions exist! Cartoons were shown with computer effects, offering characters in 3D effects. Well, my favourite Pixel production is which? (make a guess lah.....)
It's the Incedibles. I love this show so much I bought the DVD and watched it repeatedly. I think till date, I've watched the show at least 20 over times. Hehe..
The movie starts with an unexpected interview with the different Supers. It talks about how Mr Incredibles was doing superbly fine with his acts for the community until everything turned into chaos. To deal with the increasing lawsuits and complaints about the Supers in community, the Government had no choice but introduce the "relocation" programme for the Supers to live as normal human beings with their identities undercovered.
After 15 years, Bob Parr (previously Robert Parr aka Mr Incredible) and his wife lived normal lives with their three kids, Violet (who can turn invisible), Dash (with supersonic movement ability) and Jack-jack in the Suburbs. Now he's a clock-punching insurance claims adjuster fighting boredom and a bulging waistline.
Itching to get back into action, Bob gets his chance when a mysterious communication summons him to a remote island for a top-secret assignment. Not knowing this was all conspired by Sydron, a demoralised and dejected fan of Mr Incredible, Bob got his family involved in the challenging fight against Sydron's evil plot to injure the community and his revenge on Mr Incredible.
In the end, the Parrs defeated the dangerous robot (Sydron's evil weapon) with the help from Frozone (Bob's buddy). These Supers gain appreciation from the public once again.
I love Jack jack the most because he's simply unresistably cute. Oops. I've always love babies.
Well.. Toy Story was another film which I loved. My younger brother loves it too! It really brings back fond memories of how we used to play with toys. What most of us didn't realise was we tend to neglect our childhood "toy companions". It's really a sad thing for toys. The true meaning of toys was clearly defined in Toy Story: Every toy is to bring joy to children, to provide them fun and happy memories through their childhood period. It's really touching!
Pixel movies are increasingly taking the world like storm. Recently, Over the Hedge, Antz Bully, The Barnyard and Monster House are fine examples of how producers provide audiences with amazement, moral values through personifications of characters which only cartoons are able to appeal not only to the kids (the forever patrons) and the older generations too!
From young, I've always got the idea that as human ages, they tend to be detached from stuff like cartoons which are usually deemed, by social norms, to be more suitable for kids.
Apparantly, it's evident to be less likey. It's as suggested by our movies categorisation. Cartoons are for the general public!
Was that a crappy intro? Hehe I can't be bothered. It's my blog anyway. hehe.. Just kidding. No offence.
Continuing.. from a very young age subjected to "Americanisation", Disney's production used to appeal alot to me. I loved Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs. I enjoyed it so much I watched the movie on Laser Disc, repeatedly every week. It was the different and interesting personalities of the Seven Dwarfs which attracted me. And of course, I've learnt about "the happily ever after" ending to every story there was. Hehe. There were other productions like Beauty and the Beast, Aladdin and Bambi (my mummy's favourite show). I've always watched to watch Pinnocio, Peter Pan and Lady and the Trump. Unfortunately, I only read about their stories. Didn't get to see the animated movies until later age. Another of my big time favourite was 101 Dalmatians!!
I used to watch other cartoons like Care Bears, Banana Man, Conman (my favourite primary school hero!) and the educational Magic schoolbus. Not forgetting Tom and Jerry, a famous part of every child's life!
Warner Bro's production was robbing my share of liking for cartoons around the same time too. Bugs Bunny and gang was interesting. I bet everyone would agree that "Tweety bird and Slyvester cat" was the most popular! I used to feel bad for the silly Slyvester. And simply love the overly adorable Tweenty bird. However as I've grown up, I start to find that Tweety bird's body improportioned. Hehe.. I mean it's wings are too small to aviate it's oversized head. Oops. No offence to any Tweety bird "die-hard" fans.
Another Warner Bro's production was the old series of "Batman". Well..it didn't interest me until the era when Marvel superheros like "Spiderman" and "X-men" were introduced into the later years of my childhood.
Cartoons have evolved over the years with advanced technology. Increasing 2D cartoons are more elaborated and detailed. Some even incorporated 3D effects which is becoming more relevant and evident in current cartoon movies like Mulan (relates to my curiosity for China history), Hercules (relates to my interest for Greece mythology) and Prince of Eygpt (relates to my liking for the epic show "10 commandments"). Of course, there are many more... Not forgetting Lilo and Sitch. In the 21st Century, cartoons were also combined with live shootings, For example Space Jam, a film with a perfect mix of less artificial cartoons characters and live actors. All the wonders of Blue and Green screen-effect!
Another thing I've realised from the cartoons evolution is that cartoons were not longer just protraying western characters. It is increasingly emobodying different stories depicting a diversed range of cultures and nationalities. Well, except the old production of Aladdin which shows Indian characters. Even the accents are accurated in the English language the characters of individual nationalities are spoken. I used to find it particularly true for Mulan, spare the Mushu character. It really provide me with something which is new and interesting. Something in the manner of speech and art which I can relate to.
Well.. I would highlight that cartoon movies are not appealing enough to the older generations. That's partly the reason why Pixel productions exist! Cartoons were shown with computer effects, offering characters in 3D effects. Well, my favourite Pixel production is which? (make a guess lah.....)
It's the Incedibles. I love this show so much I bought the DVD and watched it repeatedly. I think till date, I've watched the show at least 20 over times. Hehe..
The movie starts with an unexpected interview with the different Supers. It talks about how Mr Incredibles was doing superbly fine with his acts for the community until everything turned into chaos. To deal with the increasing lawsuits and complaints about the Supers in community, the Government had no choice but introduce the "relocation" programme for the Supers to live as normal human beings with their identities undercovered.
After 15 years, Bob Parr (previously Robert Parr aka Mr Incredible) and his wife lived normal lives with their three kids, Violet (who can turn invisible), Dash (with supersonic movement ability) and Jack-jack in the Suburbs. Now he's a clock-punching insurance claims adjuster fighting boredom and a bulging waistline.
Itching to get back into action, Bob gets his chance when a mysterious communication summons him to a remote island for a top-secret assignment. Not knowing this was all conspired by Sydron, a demoralised and dejected fan of Mr Incredible, Bob got his family involved in the challenging fight against Sydron's evil plot to injure the community and his revenge on Mr Incredible.
In the end, the Parrs defeated the dangerous robot (Sydron's evil weapon) with the help from Frozone (Bob's buddy). These Supers gain appreciation from the public once again.
I love Jack jack the most because he's simply unresistably cute. Oops. I've always love babies.
Well.. Toy Story was another film which I loved. My younger brother loves it too! It really brings back fond memories of how we used to play with toys. What most of us didn't realise was we tend to neglect our childhood "toy companions". It's really a sad thing for toys. The true meaning of toys was clearly defined in Toy Story: Every toy is to bring joy to children, to provide them fun and happy memories through their childhood period. It's really touching!
Pixel movies are increasingly taking the world like storm. Recently, Over the Hedge, Antz Bully, The Barnyard and Monster House are fine examples of how producers provide audiences with amazement, moral values through personifications of characters which only cartoons are able to appeal not only to the kids (the forever patrons) and the older generations too!
De one with My Worst Biz Computing lesson
Must have been "Crying-competition" in Heaven
Early morning it was already rainning like nobody's business. Omg. Early morning left house after eating an extremely spicy tuna curry puff (which I bought from Bukit Batok yesterday). Till 400 metres outside then it occured to me that Ive forgotten to bring my thumb-drive for my ISYS 2059: Biz Computing lesson. Sigh. No choice, had to walk back home to get it, through the long sheltered walk-way.
Transportation traffic got me on my nerves today. By the time I reached the busstop from which I usually take bus 74, I missed a single deck bus. Stranded at the busstop for the next 20 mins, my long awaited bus finally came. To my disappointment, it was a single decker bus which was already boarded with passengers, packed like sardines! Omg! It's so sucky, when you waited so long just for a bus during peak hour and the transport turn out to be a SINGLE DECKER! Of course, no choice, gotta wait for the next one. Fortunately, the next one came within 5 mins' time. It was a non-conditioned double decker.
In the bus, something interesting occurred. I shared the same seat with a girl (another uni-student) who possessed the same Samsung E900 mobile phone as me! And what's more coincident was both of us used the same message alert tone. Omg! What are the odds of such event? Ha! Perhaps this was to compensate for me arriving late at campus. Sigh.
Thank goodness I wasn't the last to arrive. There were others who were late. Well..the lecturer Dr Lawrence Sim wasn't particular about this. My luck abit.. that the lecture just started when I arrived.
I always believe everything in life is related to Newton's 3rd Law of matters, in which everything has an action and equal and opposite reaction force. Well.. so was luck in class today.
The computer unit's mouse was faulty today. You must be wondering why I didn't just change to other available unit right? Sadly, the whole lab was filled with full attendence. Omg! Throughout, it was really testing my patience with an un-responsive mouse. Sigh. It was something faulty with the roller. Can you imagine how inconvinent it is to use a roller-mouse instead of an optical mouse? sigh. I was extremely slow in my Excel worksheet today. This really earned my worst Business computing lesson. Towards the end of the lesson, I was really demoralised with the fact that my productivity is restrained with an inadequate, ineffective learning equipment.
The rain continued after lesson. Totally ruined the idea of going swimming with Zhen Ze. I intended not to have lunch today. However, Zhen Ze and Guan Hui wanted to eat. I was also feeling bad for rejecting them most of the time. So I went. We left campus for lunch at Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Thanks to the poly students having holidays now, the canteen was greatly less crowded than usual. I tried Ee-mee with diced chicken on hotplate. The serving was more worth than it's cost price of $2.80. The noodles was really too much. End up, I ate only 1/4 of the noodles, all the vegetables and part of the "sunny-side up" egg. To complement the meal with a healthier choice, I drank fresh and soothing watermelon juice.
Over lunch, Guan Hui was reprimanfing me for spoiling his appetite yesterday evening at Westmall before I met Sweet. You see, Zhen Ze and him went to the food court upstairs to order snacks from the "dim sum" store. Guan Hui had fried carrot cake. He offered me but I refused. Erm.. he got very bothered when I told him my reason for rejection, that the food was deep fried and full of oil. On his way back, he was so affected by what I've said, that he gave up eating his remaining curry puff which was supposedly delicious. Hehe. He left and went back to campus, where his mother's car was waiting for him. Zhen Ze and I left and proceed to NP's busstop shortly after.
I discovered that bus 52 was another choice to bring me home. What it didn't occur to me was the downpour became obvious when I was along Lornie Road. Omg. I end up wasting more money having to drop at the busstop where bus 133 was available. What a long route to enable me to alight where I can walk a sheltered walkway home.
Went for a nap after which I decided to send Sweet a few MMS of myself. I recalled Sweet used to ask me for self-pic for "cheering the day" purposes. Well.. now.. I'm doing it just to revived those nostalgic sweet moments. I guessed most relationships are like this bah.. feelings and lovely things you do with your love, fade overtime due to increasing diverting of commitment to other aspects in life. For me, I still hold alot of my initial efforts and dedication to my relationship. It's just a form of loyalty. Hehe, perhaps I'm suitable to be in a customer provider service-line? Perhaps not. It's just another part of Sweet that's incorporated into my life.
As much as I want, as much as what I can only hope for.. I know I can't demand an equal or equivalent measure of affections from Sweet. I went jogging today. In the milst of me cooling down as I was dissipating vapourised water vapour, I suddenly remember of my flawed thinking. That I'm too sensitive sometimes. I start to feel incompetent and overwhelmed with insecurity. Subconsciously, I would drown into a complexity of thoughts. Wondering if Sweet is really busy... or substituting time with me for other rival (omg!)... or Sweet's tired of me?
Of course, it takes personal will power to fetch my logic and rationality awake. That I shouldn't doubt Sweet. Alot of times like these, I dare not tell Sweet. Why, not that I've not tried. Unfortunately, I was afraid how Sweet would feel and the aftermath impact on our relationship.
Reason for not telling Sweet:
[1] Sweet will become stress and unhappy that I've been thinking so much
[2] Sweet might just be demoralised or unappreciated with my distrust in what Sweet reasoned
[3] Sweet get agitated when I mention Sweet having a 3rd party between us
[4] Sweet's smses have always emphasised that Sweet's never tired of me
Back at granny's place, I've just received my SIM membership cum student card from my daddy who brought it over from house. Nothing special. Just a card to indicate I'm an uniSIM student. Gosh, tomorrow I've to make a trip down to Transitlink counter for application of a student concession card.
:: Sweet, I miss you lots. It's gonna be tough not being able to see you more oftenly for the next few week.
Early morning it was already rainning like nobody's business. Omg. Early morning left house after eating an extremely spicy tuna curry puff (which I bought from Bukit Batok yesterday). Till 400 metres outside then it occured to me that Ive forgotten to bring my thumb-drive for my ISYS 2059: Biz Computing lesson. Sigh. No choice, had to walk back home to get it, through the long sheltered walk-way.
Transportation traffic got me on my nerves today. By the time I reached the busstop from which I usually take bus 74, I missed a single deck bus. Stranded at the busstop for the next 20 mins, my long awaited bus finally came. To my disappointment, it was a single decker bus which was already boarded with passengers, packed like sardines! Omg! It's so sucky, when you waited so long just for a bus during peak hour and the transport turn out to be a SINGLE DECKER! Of course, no choice, gotta wait for the next one. Fortunately, the next one came within 5 mins' time. It was a non-conditioned double decker.
In the bus, something interesting occurred. I shared the same seat with a girl (another uni-student) who possessed the same Samsung E900 mobile phone as me! And what's more coincident was both of us used the same message alert tone. Omg! What are the odds of such event? Ha! Perhaps this was to compensate for me arriving late at campus. Sigh.
Thank goodness I wasn't the last to arrive. There were others who were late. Well..the lecturer Dr Lawrence Sim wasn't particular about this. My luck abit.. that the lecture just started when I arrived.
I always believe everything in life is related to Newton's 3rd Law of matters, in which everything has an action and equal and opposite reaction force. Well.. so was luck in class today.
The computer unit's mouse was faulty today. You must be wondering why I didn't just change to other available unit right? Sadly, the whole lab was filled with full attendence. Omg! Throughout, it was really testing my patience with an un-responsive mouse. Sigh. It was something faulty with the roller. Can you imagine how inconvinent it is to use a roller-mouse instead of an optical mouse? sigh. I was extremely slow in my Excel worksheet today. This really earned my worst Business computing lesson. Towards the end of the lesson, I was really demoralised with the fact that my productivity is restrained with an inadequate, ineffective learning equipment.
The rain continued after lesson. Totally ruined the idea of going swimming with Zhen Ze. I intended not to have lunch today. However, Zhen Ze and Guan Hui wanted to eat. I was also feeling bad for rejecting them most of the time. So I went. We left campus for lunch at Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Thanks to the poly students having holidays now, the canteen was greatly less crowded than usual. I tried Ee-mee with diced chicken on hotplate. The serving was more worth than it's cost price of $2.80. The noodles was really too much. End up, I ate only 1/4 of the noodles, all the vegetables and part of the "sunny-side up" egg. To complement the meal with a healthier choice, I drank fresh and soothing watermelon juice.
Over lunch, Guan Hui was reprimanfing me for spoiling his appetite yesterday evening at Westmall before I met Sweet. You see, Zhen Ze and him went to the food court upstairs to order snacks from the "dim sum" store. Guan Hui had fried carrot cake. He offered me but I refused. Erm.. he got very bothered when I told him my reason for rejection, that the food was deep fried and full of oil. On his way back, he was so affected by what I've said, that he gave up eating his remaining curry puff which was supposedly delicious. Hehe. He left and went back to campus, where his mother's car was waiting for him. Zhen Ze and I left and proceed to NP's busstop shortly after.
I discovered that bus 52 was another choice to bring me home. What it didn't occur to me was the downpour became obvious when I was along Lornie Road. Omg. I end up wasting more money having to drop at the busstop where bus 133 was available. What a long route to enable me to alight where I can walk a sheltered walkway home.
Went for a nap after which I decided to send Sweet a few MMS of myself. I recalled Sweet used to ask me for self-pic for "cheering the day" purposes. Well.. now.. I'm doing it just to revived those nostalgic sweet moments. I guessed most relationships are like this bah.. feelings and lovely things you do with your love, fade overtime due to increasing diverting of commitment to other aspects in life. For me, I still hold alot of my initial efforts and dedication to my relationship. It's just a form of loyalty. Hehe, perhaps I'm suitable to be in a customer provider service-line? Perhaps not. It's just another part of Sweet that's incorporated into my life.
As much as I want, as much as what I can only hope for.. I know I can't demand an equal or equivalent measure of affections from Sweet. I went jogging today. In the milst of me cooling down as I was dissipating vapourised water vapour, I suddenly remember of my flawed thinking. That I'm too sensitive sometimes. I start to feel incompetent and overwhelmed with insecurity. Subconsciously, I would drown into a complexity of thoughts. Wondering if Sweet is really busy... or substituting time with me for other rival (omg!)... or Sweet's tired of me?
Of course, it takes personal will power to fetch my logic and rationality awake. That I shouldn't doubt Sweet. Alot of times like these, I dare not tell Sweet. Why, not that I've not tried. Unfortunately, I was afraid how Sweet would feel and the aftermath impact on our relationship.
Reason for not telling Sweet:
[1] Sweet will become stress and unhappy that I've been thinking so much
[2] Sweet might just be demoralised or unappreciated with my distrust in what Sweet reasoned
[3] Sweet get agitated when I mention Sweet having a 3rd party between us
[4] Sweet's smses have always emphasised that Sweet's never tired of me
Back at granny's place, I've just received my SIM membership cum student card from my daddy who brought it over from house. Nothing special. Just a card to indicate I'm an uniSIM student. Gosh, tomorrow I've to make a trip down to Transitlink counter for application of a student concession card.
:: Sweet, I miss you lots. It's gonna be tough not being able to see you more oftenly for the next few week.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
De one with Bettering
Rainny day
Today was a better day after all the "storms" and depression. I went jogging in the morning around 9+am. Well..partly because I wept the whole night for someone who hurt me alot.
Well..as a result of me unable to stand my blown-up long and thick hair. I went down to the neighbourhood salon after a quick shower. I've been to this salon for many years. It became a part of my life. From baby time, my granny would bring me to this Chinese barber. The shop owner happened to be the father of the current hairdressers in the salon I frequent. When I reached the age of 5-6 years old, the barber closed. Left with no choice, I had to visit the salon which was just next door. My aunt and granny always recognised the shop with a nick-name "Do-Re-Mi"..Haha.. honestly, I'm really puzzled why is it called this name. Old people and their names for everything! But it's fun and an easy-to-remember funatics. They charged me $7 when I was young. As I've grown older or during subsequent New Year, they increase the price. However, till date, they only charged me $10. Which is much cheap compared to those Salons there are. Yipee ai!
Another interesting thing was that I've always mixed up the two sisters. There was one who was much slim who looked younger. I always mistake her for being the younger sister. Turned out, she is supposed to be the elder sister. Hehe.. Everyone says the elder sister is more skilled in hairdressing. I couldn't agree more. Under her skills, I've always get nice personalised hairstyle. Well.. the younger sister's skill isn't very bad. The good thing about her is she always produce the hairstyle which you instruct her. End produce you'll get whatever you want. So.. hehe I feel more comfortable being fussy with my instructions.I
Anyway, I've got a nice Jap hairstyle today. The younger sister was the one cutting my hair. Sweet said my hairstlye was NICE.. feel so good today.
Macroeconomics lecture was fun as usual. Dr. Saminathan cracked a job about how we should asked for pay which is able to cover our capability and inflation impact. Haha! What a joke while teaching us about inflation, Philips curve, Unemployment and appropriate policies. I managed to understand whatever he was teaching. It's really gratifying as a student.
It was raining when I waited to meet Sweet around the house area. The rain didn't matter. It was really romantic. Sweet and I shared the umbrella Sweet brought, walking together, cuddled close in the rain. We went to this neighbourhood hairdresser which Sweet always been to and what Sweet considered "high class". Omg. Well, Sweet's hairdresser Iris (whom I guessed is a Malaysian) gave Sweet a slightly new hairstyle. Well, although I couldn't derived any lesson but..both of us had haircut today. It's just so loving.
We had dinner at the nearby coffee shop. Sweet asked me whether I had anything I found suitable to my taste. Actually, I was more concerned because Sweet missed the chance of eating the Bah Choy Mee some time back, so I insisted on eating anything even though the food didn't appeal to me. Well.. it's a nice dinner. I wanted to try Qoo (since I was affected by my marketing assignment on Qoo), omg. However, I bought two cans of drinks (Qoo and less sweetening Green tea) since Sweet didn't like sweet beverage. Despite Sweet wanted to share a drink with me initially. I bought a few curry puffs back for my family for breakfast tomorrow morning. And also, a mushroom chicken puff for Sweet. Muacks.
It's a Bettering day today. Spare the moment Sweet and I nearly fell over the verge of breaking up when I was waiting an hour for my haircut. Yet, I still feel unsettled as though fearing to tip the scale again. I really hope Sweet will change the undesirable attitude and whatever stigma. I don't want to be a sad soul again. Well, let's hope for the better. Every dark cloud has a silver lining!
"A little fall of rain, can hardly hurt me now. You're here..that's all I need to know."
- Injuried Eponine to Marius
Today was a better day after all the "storms" and depression. I went jogging in the morning around 9+am. Well..partly because I wept the whole night for someone who hurt me alot.
Well..as a result of me unable to stand my blown-up long and thick hair. I went down to the neighbourhood salon after a quick shower. I've been to this salon for many years. It became a part of my life. From baby time, my granny would bring me to this Chinese barber. The shop owner happened to be the father of the current hairdressers in the salon I frequent. When I reached the age of 5-6 years old, the barber closed. Left with no choice, I had to visit the salon which was just next door. My aunt and granny always recognised the shop with a nick-name "Do-Re-Mi"..Haha.. honestly, I'm really puzzled why is it called this name. Old people and their names for everything! But it's fun and an easy-to-remember funatics. They charged me $7 when I was young. As I've grown older or during subsequent New Year, they increase the price. However, till date, they only charged me $10. Which is much cheap compared to those Salons there are. Yipee ai!
Another interesting thing was that I've always mixed up the two sisters. There was one who was much slim who looked younger. I always mistake her for being the younger sister. Turned out, she is supposed to be the elder sister. Hehe.. Everyone says the elder sister is more skilled in hairdressing. I couldn't agree more. Under her skills, I've always get nice personalised hairstyle. Well.. the younger sister's skill isn't very bad. The good thing about her is she always produce the hairstyle which you instruct her. End produce you'll get whatever you want. So.. hehe I feel more comfortable being fussy with my instructions.I
Anyway, I've got a nice Jap hairstyle today. The younger sister was the one cutting my hair. Sweet said my hairstlye was NICE.. feel so good today.
Macroeconomics lecture was fun as usual. Dr. Saminathan cracked a job about how we should asked for pay which is able to cover our capability and inflation impact. Haha! What a joke while teaching us about inflation, Philips curve, Unemployment and appropriate policies. I managed to understand whatever he was teaching. It's really gratifying as a student.
It was raining when I waited to meet Sweet around the house area. The rain didn't matter. It was really romantic. Sweet and I shared the umbrella Sweet brought, walking together, cuddled close in the rain. We went to this neighbourhood hairdresser which Sweet always been to and what Sweet considered "high class". Omg. Well, Sweet's hairdresser Iris (whom I guessed is a Malaysian) gave Sweet a slightly new hairstyle. Well, although I couldn't derived any lesson but..both of us had haircut today. It's just so loving.
We had dinner at the nearby coffee shop. Sweet asked me whether I had anything I found suitable to my taste. Actually, I was more concerned because Sweet missed the chance of eating the Bah Choy Mee some time back, so I insisted on eating anything even though the food didn't appeal to me. Well.. it's a nice dinner. I wanted to try Qoo (since I was affected by my marketing assignment on Qoo), omg. However, I bought two cans of drinks (Qoo and less sweetening Green tea) since Sweet didn't like sweet beverage. Despite Sweet wanted to share a drink with me initially. I bought a few curry puffs back for my family for breakfast tomorrow morning. And also, a mushroom chicken puff for Sweet. Muacks.
It's a Bettering day today. Spare the moment Sweet and I nearly fell over the verge of breaking up when I was waiting an hour for my haircut. Yet, I still feel unsettled as though fearing to tip the scale again. I really hope Sweet will change the undesirable attitude and whatever stigma. I don't want to be a sad soul again. Well, let's hope for the better. Every dark cloud has a silver lining!
"A little fall of rain, can hardly hurt me now. You're here..that's all I need to know."
- Injuried Eponine to Marius
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
De one with "I've had it all" [Emolings]
Blogging this with tears flowing profusely
I really want to say a big Sorry to everyone I've caused any offences or hurt. Be it verbally. Or depiction through my actions. And if there is, any physical offences which I hardly ever did.
You know what it feels to be hated? I have. I was so obessed, ignorant and shamelessly incorrigable that I just didn't want to give up. Up to an point of no return, the saturation point where I lost my rationality completely. I can even pester you, annoying you with my idiotic in-comprehensiveness and exhausting you of all your patience and humanity. Making you lost your basic kindness, benevolence and converting all to hatre.
I've lived 21 years and 2 relationship. Many will think "What the fark".... "you're just still young and inexperience and ignorant". I dare my guts and touch my heart, I've been through alot and experienced alot. Dreadful lots.
I've been through absolute loneliness, from which I've learnt self survival. I've faced the extreme grief of having lost the closest person in my heart who was also the greatest person who conceived me into this world at the age of 19 when I was millions of miles apart from her. I've faced being emotionally and pyschologically hurt and insulted yet getting more hurt brutally repeatedly, due to my obstinate determination of not giving up. I've been through failures. Sharing the similar pain with people who fought so hard. I've been cheated a large sum of money. I've been slapped before by my ex. I've experience what's ultimate shame. Of course, there are more...
You know what's being submissive? It's depicted in my actions. You know what's paranoid and worrisome? It's rushing through out my mind.
Fark. I just don't understand. Why am I such a failure? I've tried to improve but the end product is still so demoralising, depressing and disappointing... Why is it I've been weathered through so much emotional distress yet every relationship I still give my best shot at it? Why do I have so much compassion to give?
I really wonder why is my life really so tough now?.. Is it because I'm can only be a friend... not cut out to be a boyfriend? Why am I in this world at first? Is it due to me having to pay from all the karma which i'm in-debt to from my previous life?
Why torture me like this? I'm really exhausted... I'm completely lost... my faith and will...
Can someone really embrace me or comfort me? I really feel bullied and completely souless. As if I'm forever in debt to treat everyone superior than me, like how those Jewish slaves were.
Haiz..this icy mix of shame, regret, heartlessness is suffocating me. I feel so worthless, deperate and uselessly helpless. All I can express is tears that never seemed to dry.
:: I love you Sweet... simply, plain sweet loving. Art thou knowst how thy feel? ='(
I really want to say a big Sorry to everyone I've caused any offences or hurt. Be it verbally. Or depiction through my actions. And if there is, any physical offences which I hardly ever did.
You know what it feels to be hated? I have. I was so obessed, ignorant and shamelessly incorrigable that I just didn't want to give up. Up to an point of no return, the saturation point where I lost my rationality completely. I can even pester you, annoying you with my idiotic in-comprehensiveness and exhausting you of all your patience and humanity. Making you lost your basic kindness, benevolence and converting all to hatre.
I've lived 21 years and 2 relationship. Many will think "What the fark".... "you're just still young and inexperience and ignorant". I dare my guts and touch my heart, I've been through alot and experienced alot. Dreadful lots.
I've been through absolute loneliness, from which I've learnt self survival. I've faced the extreme grief of having lost the closest person in my heart who was also the greatest person who conceived me into this world at the age of 19 when I was millions of miles apart from her. I've faced being emotionally and pyschologically hurt and insulted yet getting more hurt brutally repeatedly, due to my obstinate determination of not giving up. I've been through failures. Sharing the similar pain with people who fought so hard. I've been cheated a large sum of money. I've been slapped before by my ex. I've experience what's ultimate shame. Of course, there are more...
You know what's being submissive? It's depicted in my actions. You know what's paranoid and worrisome? It's rushing through out my mind.
Fark. I just don't understand. Why am I such a failure? I've tried to improve but the end product is still so demoralising, depressing and disappointing... Why is it I've been weathered through so much emotional distress yet every relationship I still give my best shot at it? Why do I have so much compassion to give?
I really wonder why is my life really so tough now?.. Is it because I'm can only be a friend... not cut out to be a boyfriend? Why am I in this world at first? Is it due to me having to pay from all the karma which i'm in-debt to from my previous life?
Why torture me like this? I'm really exhausted... I'm completely lost... my faith and will...
Can someone really embrace me or comfort me? I really feel bullied and completely souless. As if I'm forever in debt to treat everyone superior than me, like how those Jewish slaves were.
Haiz..this icy mix of shame, regret, heartlessness is suffocating me. I feel so worthless, deperate and uselessly helpless. All I can express is tears that never seemed to dry.
:: I love you Sweet... simply, plain sweet loving. Art thou knowst how thy feel? ='(
De one with Depressing day
Chocolate-eating day
Today's really been a sick, tired and depressing day. My sore throat have developed into a distressing dry throat. That kind which comes together with flu. Sigh. Feeling feverish ever since the day before and running nose. Very uncomfortable throughtout.
Early morning already indicated a day to cry about. Sweet and I had a "message war" about how we hold different views on a frill relationship. I really don't know whatever Sweet said, it's as though Sweet doesn't realise my love. It's like Sweet's not willing to commit. To me, I really don't know what's hell wrong with me. Feeling insulted, I stood firm, indirectly forcing Sweet to adopt my way of love-expression as I'm too used to people submitting to me. I regretted how I reacted. And really dejected why I would even think in a way that Sweet's disregarding. I was regretful over certain unreasonable things out of stubborness.
I was late for school this morning since I was overly concerned replying Sweet on sms. On my way in a cab. I was messaging Clara about what happen. Sigh. She provided some console like asking me to give Sweet sometime to be alone. I was feeling blue all the way.
Everything slowed down even more after arriving at campus. It was then I totally calmed down. I messaged Sweet again and explained that all the extreme stuff I've mentioned before, are just figures of speech and metophors. I was really gloomy and distracted in campus the whole day. During lecture, Guan Hui and Zhen Ze attempted to converse to me. I was unresponsive. I gave the excuse that I was sick (which I was lah) but subconsciously, I was waiting for Sweet's reply..an acknowledgement or reconcile.
It didn't take until after lecture ends around 1pm did Sweet call me. I was in the midst of my marketing project discussion. I didn't contribute much today to the SWOT analysis and marketing reviews. My whole body was heating up as though glowing with fire and my head was spinning.
Collected my RMIT Student card today. When Zhen Ze helped acquire if our Uni-student EZ card would be issued. Disappointingly, SIM doesn't provide. Sigh.
Around 2+pm, we wrapped up our discussion. Zhen Ze and Guan Hui pacify me to lunch with them at campus' canteen. Zhen Ze had Western Fish set. Guan Hui (who was on budget) ate cha Siew rice. None of the food appealled to me. Thus, I ate half a red apple and Kiwi. It was pretty expensive. $2+. Sigh. Zhen Ze played his recorded version of Jay Chou's lastest song Qian Li Zhi Wai. It didn't sound nice at all. Sigh. What a disappointment to add on to my glummer.
After that, we went to the Student's lounge since Zhen Ze wanted to look at the book sales advertisements. posted up by students. In view of our coming examinations, we decided that we really needed to refer to our textbooks. Thus, I got really broke after having spent $44 plus on my Marketing Principles text. I'm really broke. Sigh...
I made my way to AMK central to collect my altered ring from Lee Hwa. Exchanged my old antique grey POSB atm card for the lastest blue GO! POSB card. It's kinda cool that it encompasses a Mastercard function. However, disadvantage is that the cardholder is unable to use it for online credit card transactions. Omg. The colour and shortcoming of the card makes me feel blue...
Sweet wasn't responsive. Of course, all the way home, I kept thinking why do I care so much. What's the point of me being so overly-sensitive and self-depressing. My mind really went bonkers, considering whether is it because Sweet is communicating with someone new, thus neglecting me.
*knock head* *slap face*
Omg. What am I thinking!
Anyway, I'm really depress today..when I got home, I sat down to take a breath, pause my life and reflect why am I being like the way I am today..
Perhaps I'm expecting too much. Thereby greater disappointment, greater self-blaming and thus more derived sadness? Perhaps I'm not meant to have a relationship because the problem lies with me. I'll never make a good boyfriend. The fact that I'm unable to make others happy except misery, is so self-demoralising...
For that moment.. nothing. Just pure blank except solitary depression and a pinch of loneliness.
"How then am I able to stop worrying and thinking so much.."
Really felt close to weeping it out.
Today's really been a sick, tired and depressing day. My sore throat have developed into a distressing dry throat. That kind which comes together with flu. Sigh. Feeling feverish ever since the day before and running nose. Very uncomfortable throughtout.
Early morning already indicated a day to cry about. Sweet and I had a "message war" about how we hold different views on a frill relationship. I really don't know whatever Sweet said, it's as though Sweet doesn't realise my love. It's like Sweet's not willing to commit. To me, I really don't know what's hell wrong with me. Feeling insulted, I stood firm, indirectly forcing Sweet to adopt my way of love-expression as I'm too used to people submitting to me. I regretted how I reacted. And really dejected why I would even think in a way that Sweet's disregarding. I was regretful over certain unreasonable things out of stubborness.
I was late for school this morning since I was overly concerned replying Sweet on sms. On my way in a cab. I was messaging Clara about what happen. Sigh. She provided some console like asking me to give Sweet sometime to be alone. I was feeling blue all the way.
Everything slowed down even more after arriving at campus. It was then I totally calmed down. I messaged Sweet again and explained that all the extreme stuff I've mentioned before, are just figures of speech and metophors. I was really gloomy and distracted in campus the whole day. During lecture, Guan Hui and Zhen Ze attempted to converse to me. I was unresponsive. I gave the excuse that I was sick (which I was lah) but subconsciously, I was waiting for Sweet's reply..an acknowledgement or reconcile.
It didn't take until after lecture ends around 1pm did Sweet call me. I was in the midst of my marketing project discussion. I didn't contribute much today to the SWOT analysis and marketing reviews. My whole body was heating up as though glowing with fire and my head was spinning.
Collected my RMIT Student card today. When Zhen Ze helped acquire if our Uni-student EZ card would be issued. Disappointingly, SIM doesn't provide. Sigh.
Around 2+pm, we wrapped up our discussion. Zhen Ze and Guan Hui pacify me to lunch with them at campus' canteen. Zhen Ze had Western Fish set. Guan Hui (who was on budget) ate cha Siew rice. None of the food appealled to me. Thus, I ate half a red apple and Kiwi. It was pretty expensive. $2+. Sigh. Zhen Ze played his recorded version of Jay Chou's lastest song Qian Li Zhi Wai. It didn't sound nice at all. Sigh. What a disappointment to add on to my glummer.
After that, we went to the Student's lounge since Zhen Ze wanted to look at the book sales advertisements. posted up by students. In view of our coming examinations, we decided that we really needed to refer to our textbooks. Thus, I got really broke after having spent $44 plus on my Marketing Principles text. I'm really broke. Sigh...
I made my way to AMK central to collect my altered ring from Lee Hwa. Exchanged my old antique grey POSB atm card for the lastest blue GO! POSB card. It's kinda cool that it encompasses a Mastercard function. However, disadvantage is that the cardholder is unable to use it for online credit card transactions. Omg. The colour and shortcoming of the card makes me feel blue...
Sweet wasn't responsive. Of course, all the way home, I kept thinking why do I care so much. What's the point of me being so overly-sensitive and self-depressing. My mind really went bonkers, considering whether is it because Sweet is communicating with someone new, thus neglecting me.
*knock head* *slap face*
Omg. What am I thinking!
Anyway, I'm really depress today..when I got home, I sat down to take a breath, pause my life and reflect why am I being like the way I am today..
Perhaps I'm expecting too much. Thereby greater disappointment, greater self-blaming and thus more derived sadness? Perhaps I'm not meant to have a relationship because the problem lies with me. I'll never make a good boyfriend. The fact that I'm unable to make others happy except misery, is so self-demoralising...
For that moment.. nothing. Just pure blank except solitary depression and a pinch of loneliness.
"How then am I able to stop worrying and thinking so much.."
Really felt close to weeping it out.
Monday, August 28, 2006
De one with X-men
Sore throat, warm Monday
I believe X-men is a name which many would be familiar with. It's one of the most popular science fiction stories, comics and cartoons in this century. Since 2002, three mega movies have been made on X-men, named X-men, X-men II: X men united and X-men III: The last Stand.
Personally, I love the movies despite others would might opinion to be different. I love seeing visual effects and personifications of the characters. The movies provide how these X-men characters and their mtant abilities look like when in real life. That's the visual reality which I believe many are looking forward to. Unfortunately, I wasn't too fascinated by the Phoenix depicted in X-men 3. Perhaps like many, I was kinda expecting more of the powers of Phoenix, as impressioned in comics and cartoons. In addition, the ending where Professor X, Jean Grey and Cyclops died, was rather tragic and undesirable.
I've loved X-men ever since the first encounter on TV. If I didn't remember incorrectly, it was when I was in Primary 5-6. I recalled watching X-men cartoon series on Channel 5, 1030am every Saturday. After which Power Rangers would follow. That was an incredible childhood past-time!
Else, it was shown every Thursday evening when the cartoon would be telecast. To as much as I've recalled. I didn't managed to watch the entire X-men in order. It was always here and there. However, I find it as interesting.
I love Jean Grey alot. Simply because I was super amazed by the telekinesis and telepathy abilities which she possess. Isn't it amazing you can control movement of things and minds of others all within your mind? It's silly..but desirable. Hehe. Later, when she displayed her powers of the Phoenix, I empathise with her frustation, fighting against the Phoenix. The cartoon also provided me with a new image of a Phoenix. As I used to think Phoenix is like what you see in the Chinese temples.. coloured in multi rainbow colors. Little did I imagine the mystical creature to be in burning flames.
I recalled as a child, my parents bought me alot of X-men figures. Out of which I just couldn't find Professor X. Anyway, there was this particular year on my birthday, my ah-ma bought me a Gambit figurine from the neighbourhood shop. I was extremely touched. Ever since then, I started to love Gambit. He's simply so cool with red glowing eyes, his "happy go lucky" type of style and his amazing power to charge objects with exploding potential energy.
Although I've grown older, my passion for X-men didn't ceased. I started to understand that mutants are real. And that X-men is relevant in real life as it can be explained through Physics. Especially Quantum physics, one of my favourite chapters in my entire years of study.
X-men provides for a timeless and ageless realm for imagination. It's every child's dream-come-true kinda craze with all those un-imaginable superpowers. It's a topic which guys conversed in nostalgia. There are lessons of undying love like that between Jean Grey and Scott Summers; humanity and responsibility. Despite it's sci-fictious, X-men still capture many hearts of all ages. It's a really fantastic marvel creation of a lifetime!
I believe X-men is a name which many would be familiar with. It's one of the most popular science fiction stories, comics and cartoons in this century. Since 2002, three mega movies have been made on X-men, named X-men, X-men II: X men united and X-men III: The last Stand.
Personally, I love the movies despite others would might opinion to be different. I love seeing visual effects and personifications of the characters. The movies provide how these X-men characters and their mtant abilities look like when in real life. That's the visual reality which I believe many are looking forward to. Unfortunately, I wasn't too fascinated by the Phoenix depicted in X-men 3. Perhaps like many, I was kinda expecting more of the powers of Phoenix, as impressioned in comics and cartoons. In addition, the ending where Professor X, Jean Grey and Cyclops died, was rather tragic and undesirable.
I've loved X-men ever since the first encounter on TV. If I didn't remember incorrectly, it was when I was in Primary 5-6. I recalled watching X-men cartoon series on Channel 5, 1030am every Saturday. After which Power Rangers would follow. That was an incredible childhood past-time!
Else, it was shown every Thursday evening when the cartoon would be telecast. To as much as I've recalled. I didn't managed to watch the entire X-men in order. It was always here and there. However, I find it as interesting.
I love Jean Grey alot. Simply because I was super amazed by the telekinesis and telepathy abilities which she possess. Isn't it amazing you can control movement of things and minds of others all within your mind? It's silly..but desirable. Hehe. Later, when she displayed her powers of the Phoenix, I empathise with her frustation, fighting against the Phoenix. The cartoon also provided me with a new image of a Phoenix. As I used to think Phoenix is like what you see in the Chinese temples.. coloured in multi rainbow colors. Little did I imagine the mystical creature to be in burning flames.
I recalled as a child, my parents bought me alot of X-men figures. Out of which I just couldn't find Professor X. Anyway, there was this particular year on my birthday, my ah-ma bought me a Gambit figurine from the neighbourhood shop. I was extremely touched. Ever since then, I started to love Gambit. He's simply so cool with red glowing eyes, his "happy go lucky" type of style and his amazing power to charge objects with exploding potential energy.
Although I've grown older, my passion for X-men didn't ceased. I started to understand that mutants are real. And that X-men is relevant in real life as it can be explained through Physics. Especially Quantum physics, one of my favourite chapters in my entire years of study.
X-men provides for a timeless and ageless realm for imagination. It's every child's dream-come-true kinda craze with all those un-imaginable superpowers. It's a topic which guys conversed in nostalgia. There are lessons of undying love like that between Jean Grey and Scott Summers; humanity and responsibility. Despite it's sci-fictious, X-men still capture many hearts of all ages. It's a really fantastic marvel creation of a lifetime!
Sunday, August 27, 2006
De one with Empty Sunday
Cloudy
Early morning Sweet called me when Sweet got home after having watched late night movie, Ghost Game with friends. After which we had a short chat before I fell back alseep again.
The next thing which woke me up again I think 4 hours later was my nephew Fabian crying louding because he was looking for his "mama" who was off to work.
I woke up around 10am. Feeling kinda unwell and lazy, I messaged Chin Yu that we'll have to postpone our agreed meeting this afternoon. He was kind enough to reply me that we'll arrange for another time.
After which I did nothing but eat, eat and eat. Sigh. Early morning Jasmine bought Nasi Lemak. Of course I couldn't finish the whole box of rice. However, I ate some fried chicken bits, 2 slices of fish cake and long beans. After which I think I ate the remaining few pieces of "Famous Amos cookies".
I managed to watch a movie on VCD today. Final Destination 3. The storyline's much of the same as the two movies before. It's about this girl who had premonitions of how her high schoolmates died ever since they sat on the Devil's roller-coaster ride during a high school circus. In the end, I guess they didn't escape Death.
I slept alot. Tried studying and sorting out my lecture notes. However, the birds' ear-piercing chips just keeps distracting me out of focus.
Nothing much happened today. Except Sweet's call in the afternoon was the only thing to cheer me up abit. Yup.. Otherwise, it's just an empty Sunday.
Early morning Sweet called me when Sweet got home after having watched late night movie, Ghost Game with friends. After which we had a short chat before I fell back alseep again.
The next thing which woke me up again I think 4 hours later was my nephew Fabian crying louding because he was looking for his "mama" who was off to work.
I woke up around 10am. Feeling kinda unwell and lazy, I messaged Chin Yu that we'll have to postpone our agreed meeting this afternoon. He was kind enough to reply me that we'll arrange for another time.
After which I did nothing but eat, eat and eat. Sigh. Early morning Jasmine bought Nasi Lemak. Of course I couldn't finish the whole box of rice. However, I ate some fried chicken bits, 2 slices of fish cake and long beans. After which I think I ate the remaining few pieces of "Famous Amos cookies".
I managed to watch a movie on VCD today. Final Destination 3. The storyline's much of the same as the two movies before. It's about this girl who had premonitions of how her high schoolmates died ever since they sat on the Devil's roller-coaster ride during a high school circus. In the end, I guess they didn't escape Death.
I slept alot. Tried studying and sorting out my lecture notes. However, the birds' ear-piercing chips just keeps distracting me out of focus.
Nothing much happened today. Except Sweet's call in the afternoon was the only thing to cheer me up abit. Yup.. Otherwise, it's just an empty Sunday.
Saturday, August 26, 2006
De one with Clara
CHRONICLES Of CHUM
Oolala... Clara Kwek.. Recently, a new nickname Dale-lala.. These are the various nicknames I've used to addressed my close friend whom I've known for almost 5 years.
Our first meeting...
(omg, this expression's machum like what they used in love movies or stories)
Of course we meet each other during our first week at SRJC, sometime in March 2002. Then, I wasn't really close with her because she was with her newly found click of girl-friends and me buddy-ing with Loo Wan. Apparantly, I've only got to know her existance in 1S28 (my class) during our first maths C tutorial. Erm.. our maths teacher Mrs Kwek, a passionate teacher who cares alot for her students, arrowed us questions. Haha. Not being arrogent but I supposed Clara and I were the "better or hardworking ones" in maths from the very beginning. well, later part, I lagged behind.
The first time we knew each other as friends...
To much of what I recalled, the first time I talked to Clara was outside a tutorial room when I saw her standing outside alone and looking rather sad or troubled. What was identical between us was that both of us have an ego or strong self-pride. We don't get "heated-up" with strangers fast enough. When I asked about her, she kinda gave me a turn-down kinda reply. Well..
We didn't evelop our close friendship until towards the end of Jc years...
Our friendship develops
I remembered towards the end of Jc2, I finally shared my problems with no one else but Clara in our "jc gang". We conversed over the phone. For the very first time, I bear it all out..about what's troubling me during my drastic change in JC2. Most importantly, my brokenheart and sadness caused by my very first ex, A.
After A levels, we met up. I was really appreciative that Clara actually accompanied me in due the fact that I couldn't get my mind off my breakup. She taught me how to swim, better..even though I've learnt it when I was in secondary 1.
During my initial enlistment years, both of us develop the habit of going for supper. I'd travel all the way to Boon Keng where Clara's house is in. We'll eat roti prata and chat over ice-milo instead of coffee. Hehe. Supper ends at 1pm and I'll walk her back to her block. Occassionally when the time's not so late, she will insist on going home alone. Nice of her to walk me to the nearest bus-stop and wait until I've board the bus home.
Other than swimming and supper, we'll go out for SHOPPING! She accompanying me to shop instead of the other way round. Hehe. Her mum commented before, why I always like to go shopping all the time. Hehehe. We'll always end up laughing at each other's embarrassing moments. Bricker alot too for the fun of it.
Being a close friend...
Clara has always been independent. Well, she has a different family background from mine. So we'll tend to talk and provide a listening ear to each other. I usually rely on her whenever I experience relationship problems. She rely on me when she has family problem. In between, I supposed we share a common understanding and provide each other with the comfort, console we need. It's pretty special for me because she's a girl yet we are able to develop a close friendship. To a stage where both of us are beyond the point of being lovers. Just pure extreme good friends of opposite sex. She always comment that I'm a very sexist MCP. hehe.
I admire Clara's determination and out-frankness. Perhaps it's her out-spokeness that made her my true friend. She knows how when to hold back, if not, reprimand me to my senses. I did likewise for her too, sarcastically. Oops.
Despite her experiencing finacial problems, she spend on my birthday presents every year. Awww... I'm so touched because she works every semester break just to make ends meet.. pay for her own handphone bills, school fees..
We have alot to envy about each other.. she envies me better-off family and spending habits (though she nags at me about my extravagant spending). Me, on the other hand, envies her street-smart and all she has which I don't pocess.
Our friendship has grown and is developing even closer... I promise, we'll be good friends till old. During one of our la-teh (milo-drinking) session, we even discussed about how our current chats about life, stress from education and relationship, will transform into future chats about work, family, children and retirement plans. Come to think about it, it's really comical!
Oolala... Clara Kwek.. Recently, a new nickname Dale-lala.. These are the various nicknames I've used to addressed my close friend whom I've known for almost 5 years.
Our first meeting...
(omg, this expression's machum like what they used in love movies or stories)
Of course we meet each other during our first week at SRJC, sometime in March 2002. Then, I wasn't really close with her because she was with her newly found click of girl-friends and me buddy-ing with Loo Wan. Apparantly, I've only got to know her existance in 1S28 (my class) during our first maths C tutorial. Erm.. our maths teacher Mrs Kwek, a passionate teacher who cares alot for her students, arrowed us questions. Haha. Not being arrogent but I supposed Clara and I were the "better or hardworking ones" in maths from the very beginning. well, later part, I lagged behind.
The first time we knew each other as friends...
To much of what I recalled, the first time I talked to Clara was outside a tutorial room when I saw her standing outside alone and looking rather sad or troubled. What was identical between us was that both of us have an ego or strong self-pride. We don't get "heated-up" with strangers fast enough. When I asked about her, she kinda gave me a turn-down kinda reply. Well..
We didn't evelop our close friendship until towards the end of Jc years...
Our friendship develops
I remembered towards the end of Jc2, I finally shared my problems with no one else but Clara in our "jc gang". We conversed over the phone. For the very first time, I bear it all out..about what's troubling me during my drastic change in JC2. Most importantly, my brokenheart and sadness caused by my very first ex, A.
After A levels, we met up. I was really appreciative that Clara actually accompanied me in due the fact that I couldn't get my mind off my breakup. She taught me how to swim, better..even though I've learnt it when I was in secondary 1.
During my initial enlistment years, both of us develop the habit of going for supper. I'd travel all the way to Boon Keng where Clara's house is in. We'll eat roti prata and chat over ice-milo instead of coffee. Hehe. Supper ends at 1pm and I'll walk her back to her block. Occassionally when the time's not so late, she will insist on going home alone. Nice of her to walk me to the nearest bus-stop and wait until I've board the bus home.
Other than swimming and supper, we'll go out for SHOPPING! She accompanying me to shop instead of the other way round. Hehe. Her mum commented before, why I always like to go shopping all the time. Hehehe. We'll always end up laughing at each other's embarrassing moments. Bricker alot too for the fun of it.
Being a close friend...
Clara has always been independent. Well, she has a different family background from mine. So we'll tend to talk and provide a listening ear to each other. I usually rely on her whenever I experience relationship problems. She rely on me when she has family problem. In between, I supposed we share a common understanding and provide each other with the comfort, console we need. It's pretty special for me because she's a girl yet we are able to develop a close friendship. To a stage where both of us are beyond the point of being lovers. Just pure extreme good friends of opposite sex. She always comment that I'm a very sexist MCP. hehe.
I admire Clara's determination and out-frankness. Perhaps it's her out-spokeness that made her my true friend. She knows how when to hold back, if not, reprimand me to my senses. I did likewise for her too, sarcastically. Oops.
Despite her experiencing finacial problems, she spend on my birthday presents every year. Awww... I'm so touched because she works every semester break just to make ends meet.. pay for her own handphone bills, school fees..
We have alot to envy about each other.. she envies me better-off family and spending habits (though she nags at me about my extravagant spending). Me, on the other hand, envies her street-smart and all she has which I don't pocess.
Our friendship has grown and is developing even closer... I promise, we'll be good friends till old. During one of our la-teh (milo-drinking) session, we even discussed about how our current chats about life, stress from education and relationship, will transform into future chats about work, family, children and retirement plans. Come to think about it, it's really comical!
De one with Me being "mang zang"
Sun kissed, hot day
Haven't been blogging the past few days because I've been so busy. Been doing research for my MKTG 1199 assignment. Just had a formal long discussion yesterday. Well... it started very fine. Except mere digression now and then. Err.. the good discussion turned into a big commotion nearing the end. I guessed we were the only group making the most noise in the quiet corridor outside the LTs.
Met Sweet for I think a couple of consecutive days. I don't really know why but I've been overly-sensitive and mang zang (being fussy, agitated and annoyed easily in hokkien) nowadays. Every nitty gritty I've been over-reacting towards it. Of course, Sweet doesn't know how to react to my foul attitute and unstable temper. End up, we'll always land ourselves into sulky faces. Omg.
Sometimes, I'll take a deep breath and try to reconcile. However, Sweet just doesn't know how to respond. Our commotion didn't get resolved. Hehe. Sometimes, I will lose myself into my thoughts again. (Without, keeping quiet because Sweet will scold me) I thought, am I really good for Sweet.. or how long are we going to be together until Sweet just can't tolerate or worst, Sweet saying "I really think you're not my cup of tea anymore". BUT! I calm down and recall what Sweet have told me before. About advising me not to think too much and being pessimistic.
Seriously if anyone were to ask me whether I'll give up? I really won't. I can't. And I will never let go. This relationship with Sweet. As I've told Sweet, I really want this to be the last relationship in my entire life.
What should I do? well.. I wanna stop thinking so much. Just love Sweet and make life.. our lives happiest in the whole world. I do.
Oki.. enough of "everytime relationship". Let me talk about..UNIVERSITY!!
It's already over a month at SIM. Well, finally adapting to the studies. However, one problem exist is.. ask me whether I've done any understanding of whatever module I'm currently studying? I will cover my face in my hands and say I really have no clue. Omg. I met Clara yesterday night to pass her her advanced 21st Birthday present (which was a Winne the Pooh 900+puzzle. Took 3 continuous nights to rush it) and sms her recently about this. She suggest I should know my priorities and not regret... letting my miserable Jc results to repeat itself. Not forgetting, what Sweet said.. never to let what happened during my JC years to occur again too.
:: Thank you very much Clara and Sweet. And Chin Yu, who encouraged me not to give up when I told him I wasn't sure of my choice with accountancy.
Other than that, I've been mixing good with Zhen Ze and Guan Hui (a joker). Really feel abit bad, everytime after school I'll have to meet Sweet. As a result, unable to fulfil them jio-ing me for lunch. Oops!
As for my running? As much as I've been feeling pretty frustrated with it.. and giving up, saying I should move on for my relationship. I'm doing quite fine. Just needs some adjustments. Take running as a form of distress bah~
Well well.. I'm kinda excited.. Jay Chou's new album's releasing soon in September. Sigh. Gotta wait for it. Much of what I've heard, Jay's singing a song with Fei YuQing. Omg. Hmm... let's see.. looking much forwrd to it!
:: Ey! Everyone must go buy it when it's release on the shelves ah!
Before I end, I really think perhaps my short-fused temper might have been due to the warming weather. Think I need to consume more liang teh!!
Haven't been blogging the past few days because I've been so busy. Been doing research for my MKTG 1199 assignment. Just had a formal long discussion yesterday. Well... it started very fine. Except mere digression now and then. Err.. the good discussion turned into a big commotion nearing the end. I guessed we were the only group making the most noise in the quiet corridor outside the LTs.
Met Sweet for I think a couple of consecutive days. I don't really know why but I've been overly-sensitive and mang zang (being fussy, agitated and annoyed easily in hokkien) nowadays. Every nitty gritty I've been over-reacting towards it. Of course, Sweet doesn't know how to react to my foul attitute and unstable temper. End up, we'll always land ourselves into sulky faces. Omg.
Sometimes, I'll take a deep breath and try to reconcile. However, Sweet just doesn't know how to respond. Our commotion didn't get resolved. Hehe. Sometimes, I will lose myself into my thoughts again. (Without, keeping quiet because Sweet will scold me) I thought, am I really good for Sweet.. or how long are we going to be together until Sweet just can't tolerate or worst, Sweet saying "I really think you're not my cup of tea anymore". BUT! I calm down and recall what Sweet have told me before. About advising me not to think too much and being pessimistic.
Seriously if anyone were to ask me whether I'll give up? I really won't. I can't. And I will never let go. This relationship with Sweet. As I've told Sweet, I really want this to be the last relationship in my entire life.
What should I do? well.. I wanna stop thinking so much. Just love Sweet and make life.. our lives happiest in the whole world. I do.
Oki.. enough of "everytime relationship". Let me talk about..UNIVERSITY!!
It's already over a month at SIM. Well, finally adapting to the studies. However, one problem exist is.. ask me whether I've done any understanding of whatever module I'm currently studying? I will cover my face in my hands and say I really have no clue. Omg. I met Clara yesterday night to pass her her advanced 21st Birthday present (which was a Winne the Pooh 900+puzzle. Took 3 continuous nights to rush it) and sms her recently about this. She suggest I should know my priorities and not regret... letting my miserable Jc results to repeat itself. Not forgetting, what Sweet said.. never to let what happened during my JC years to occur again too.
:: Thank you very much Clara and Sweet. And Chin Yu, who encouraged me not to give up when I told him I wasn't sure of my choice with accountancy.
Other than that, I've been mixing good with Zhen Ze and Guan Hui (a joker). Really feel abit bad, everytime after school I'll have to meet Sweet. As a result, unable to fulfil them jio-ing me for lunch. Oops!
As for my running? As much as I've been feeling pretty frustrated with it.. and giving up, saying I should move on for my relationship. I'm doing quite fine. Just needs some adjustments. Take running as a form of distress bah~
Well well.. I'm kinda excited.. Jay Chou's new album's releasing soon in September. Sigh. Gotta wait for it. Much of what I've heard, Jay's singing a song with Fei YuQing. Omg. Hmm... let's see.. looking much forwrd to it!
:: Ey! Everyone must go buy it when it's release on the shelves ah!
Before I end, I really think perhaps my short-fused temper might have been due to the warming weather. Think I need to consume more liang teh!!
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
De one with You Being like this makes Me Downhearted [Emolings]
A plant deprived of water
Downhearted: [adj.] in low spirits
* blue, dejected, depressed, despondent, dispirited, gloomy, glum, miserable, sad,
unhappy.
Disclaimer: I'm voicing out only. After which I would forget about what's been troubling me...
Somehow or rather, I feel you've started to give up. Yes, you did confess and keep telling how much you have affects for me. However, i just feel something's wrong which bothers me because I care too much for this relationship.
1: It's like my preseence beside you doesn't matter anymore. Like what occured at MPH.
:: It's really different from the previous whenever I just disappear from you for a few seconds, you will get so worried until your heart nearly skipped. Even for normal friends, as a manner of social politeness, we will look for our companions and be around them. To me, it's an act of mutual respect. In between lovers, a form of affectionate concern and the message of "I wanna be with you always because you're so indispensible to me".
2: You said you're tired of all these "games" in a relationship and your "Do as you want" attitude which followed.
:: Firstly, from that, I keep feeling one message you're implying. You're getting tired of this relationship. So much so that you only recongise the comparision between me and your previous encounters with your exes. It's like all these are discrediting all that you've said that i matter so much to you. It's causing me to be so loss.
3: Your attitude have really changed alot to less loving. You even asked me to re-consider whether you're the right person for me.
:: This only tell me you are implying for a "letting go" situation. It really affects me so much I didn't manage to sleep but weep the whole night. You keep saying certain stages have to be changed while we move on. However, I feel it's like mathematics or simple language. You need to substain the fundermentals as you progess to higher levels.
4: You said you're like this. You have different ways of showing your affections.
:: I do appreciate you trying hard. Especially the ways you express your passions verbally and intiative ways. However, recently I'm lossing the trance of actions from you. It's like even I leave a gap between us, you won't close it up like how you always do. Sigh. You are beginning to make it obvious that I'm not special enough to make you change and compromise for me, your bf.
I do admit, I'm imperfect. One of which is my inability to express myself out and make alot of noise like an empty vessel. I have tried depicting and illustrating my genuine love for you by torlerating, be sensitive and in my bolding actions and buying things for you to make you happy. I just need you to be back the same old sweet, funny and loving Sweet.. it'd really habours assurance, above everything, to make feel secure and on-going for this love that both of us share.
Please don' bring everything up to me. Neither should you misinterpret whatever I typed here to discredit whatever you've done. For example, when I said "more secure", it doesn't mean previously I still do not feel secure. I just want to feel more comfortably secured.
Full-stop.
Downhearted: [adj.] in low spirits
* blue, dejected, depressed, despondent, dispirited, gloomy, glum, miserable, sad,
unhappy.
Disclaimer: I'm voicing out only. After which I would forget about what's been troubling me...
Somehow or rather, I feel you've started to give up. Yes, you did confess and keep telling how much you have affects for me. However, i just feel something's wrong which bothers me because I care too much for this relationship.
1: It's like my preseence beside you doesn't matter anymore. Like what occured at MPH.
:: It's really different from the previous whenever I just disappear from you for a few seconds, you will get so worried until your heart nearly skipped. Even for normal friends, as a manner of social politeness, we will look for our companions and be around them. To me, it's an act of mutual respect. In between lovers, a form of affectionate concern and the message of "I wanna be with you always because you're so indispensible to me".
2: You said you're tired of all these "games" in a relationship and your "Do as you want" attitude which followed.
:: Firstly, from that, I keep feeling one message you're implying. You're getting tired of this relationship. So much so that you only recongise the comparision between me and your previous encounters with your exes. It's like all these are discrediting all that you've said that i matter so much to you. It's causing me to be so loss.
3: Your attitude have really changed alot to less loving. You even asked me to re-consider whether you're the right person for me.
:: This only tell me you are implying for a "letting go" situation. It really affects me so much I didn't manage to sleep but weep the whole night. You keep saying certain stages have to be changed while we move on. However, I feel it's like mathematics or simple language. You need to substain the fundermentals as you progess to higher levels.
4: You said you're like this. You have different ways of showing your affections.
:: I do appreciate you trying hard. Especially the ways you express your passions verbally and intiative ways. However, recently I'm lossing the trance of actions from you. It's like even I leave a gap between us, you won't close it up like how you always do. Sigh. You are beginning to make it obvious that I'm not special enough to make you change and compromise for me, your bf.
I do admit, I'm imperfect. One of which is my inability to express myself out and make alot of noise like an empty vessel. I have tried depicting and illustrating my genuine love for you by torlerating, be sensitive and in my bolding actions and buying things for you to make you happy. I just need you to be back the same old sweet, funny and loving Sweet.. it'd really habours assurance, above everything, to make feel secure and on-going for this love that both of us share.
Please don' bring everything up to me. Neither should you misinterpret whatever I typed here to discredit whatever you've done. For example, when I said "more secure", it doesn't mean previously I still do not feel secure. I just want to feel more comfortably secured.
Full-stop.
De one with a Dull Tuesday
Moody Day
Today I really feel very moody, I feel as if i'm drenched in despire. Nothing uplifting. Nothing evident of happiness. Woke up early as 0715am. Planned to go for a light jog. Unfortunately, I was really down emotionally and low spirited. So much so I forego the jog and did a compensation set of 50 bench-press, 50 sit-ups and a few half-squats.
For the entire day, I didn't know what I was doing. Everything seems so slow, meaningless and senseless to a certain extent. It resulted in me dressing shabby today. Wore a white Ripcurl Tee-shirt, a greyish blue OP boardshorts, dark chocolate brown Quiksilver slippers and a black folder to school.
Marketing lecture almost made me slept today. Talking a whole chuck on "Product", substantiated with video clip about VolksWagen cars.
My heart sunk when Sweet wasn't really free to meet me today. Well.. perhaps I'm still affected by what occurred yesterday night.
Sigh. I spent money at Thompson Plaza. Bought four folders for my modules' notes: Green for ACCT2060, Grey for MKTG1199, Orange for ECON1016, Blue for ISYS2059. Sigh. After purchase then I start to realise it's kinda childish for such a differentiation of colours for my folders when I'm a unistudent. But sigh..whatever... My environment puts me off today..really sick of those ugly people (with their inconsiderate actions and behaviour) around me.
Went home, planned to have bread (Ham and cheese bun and some CHOCOLATE twists which I bought from Four seasons bakery) for lunch over movie: The wild. However, halfway I lost my interest and went to label my folders. Next thing I knew, I dozed off.
I woke up after 2hrs of slumber before sorting out the different notes into the various folders. Went for a short 3.3 km run at Bishan Park. Really sian...very sian.. sian..sian..
Today I really feel very moody, I feel as if i'm drenched in despire. Nothing uplifting. Nothing evident of happiness. Woke up early as 0715am. Planned to go for a light jog. Unfortunately, I was really down emotionally and low spirited. So much so I forego the jog and did a compensation set of 50 bench-press, 50 sit-ups and a few half-squats.
For the entire day, I didn't know what I was doing. Everything seems so slow, meaningless and senseless to a certain extent. It resulted in me dressing shabby today. Wore a white Ripcurl Tee-shirt, a greyish blue OP boardshorts, dark chocolate brown Quiksilver slippers and a black folder to school.
Marketing lecture almost made me slept today. Talking a whole chuck on "Product", substantiated with video clip about VolksWagen cars.
My heart sunk when Sweet wasn't really free to meet me today. Well.. perhaps I'm still affected by what occurred yesterday night.
Sigh. I spent money at Thompson Plaza. Bought four folders for my modules' notes: Green for ACCT2060, Grey for MKTG1199, Orange for ECON1016, Blue for ISYS2059. Sigh. After purchase then I start to realise it's kinda childish for such a differentiation of colours for my folders when I'm a unistudent. But sigh..whatever... My environment puts me off today..really sick of those ugly people (with their inconsiderate actions and behaviour) around me.
Went home, planned to have bread (Ham and cheese bun and some CHOCOLATE twists which I bought from Four seasons bakery) for lunch over movie: The wild. However, halfway I lost my interest and went to label my folders. Next thing I knew, I dozed off.
I woke up after 2hrs of slumber before sorting out the different notes into the various folders. Went for a short 3.3 km run at Bishan Park. Really sian...very sian.. sian..sian..
Monday, August 21, 2006
De one with My 21st Birthday!
Sunny hot
Today's 21 August 2005. It marks an extremely special day as I've turned 21, the legal age. And to most of us, a very important day in our entire life.
Although the actual day occurs 12 past midnight. Yesterday night, greetings have already came in via MSN and sms (from Clara, who messaged me twice. Once in the night and once in the morning).
Yesterday evening, Sweet came down to AMK. After which we went to Toa Payoh to dine at SAKURA buffet. Paid $52 bucks for it lah! Of course we ate alot: Sushi, Shark fin's soup (not really "up-to-expectation"), Mushroom soup ("yummy"!), Seafood paper-steamboat (which Sweet thought wasn't heated enough), vegetable salad, sashimu, Tepanyaki Beef (which Sweet find it too hard) and Tepanyaki Fish (which I find it too soft), Unagi (taste abit raw) and chicken satay, fried nuggets, fried "pregnant fish", Tempura, Oyster, Mussels, Chicken Sausage, chicken Siew Mai (delicious!), Thai Chili tofu, steam fish wrap, steam cod fish. And end with dessert: Lime Cheese cake, NY cheese cake, Chocolate mousse, ice-cream..and fruits.
The food wasn't really appealing to me. But it's an experience since Sweet introduced me there. After that, Sweet and I walked around, patronising stores to entertain ourselves. Sweet got a polo Tee from Baleno, a toothbrush (for my house) and learnt about negative ions- producing "salt crystals" and all kinds of medications we've never seen before at a chinese medical store.
We went home shortly and have a wonderful night together.
When the time stuck 12 mid-night, Sweet was so lovely to be the very first person to wish me Happy 21st Birthday on the official day! (of course, I'll never forget those who wished me the night before). It was really very sweet of Sweet. The next best thing which occur on this wonderful occassion was to open my eyes in the morning and the first person I saw was Sweet with a morning kiss. My heart was overjoyed with blessed happiness. It soared when the both of us had a shower together! *face burning*
We went to have a light breakfast at the coffeeshop opposite my house. Then the both of us lover birds set off for Changi Airport (Sweet kept joking exaggeratingly along our way there, about us having to catch a flight to Australia) to eat lunch at Swensons. Sweet had Chicken thighs while I had my favourite Fish and Chips as our main course. It was accompanied by a full set meal which included a mousse cake for dessert and complimentary warm lipton tea. Of course, the highlight of the meal was the delightful Firehouse Birthday ice-cream!! I even dared Sweet to sing me a birthday song aloud. End up, Sweet only sang it softly...well.. it was smittening nonetheless! Love you, Sweet! And thanks for giving me your opinion at the perfume and cosmetic store where I got my 2nd bottle of CK summer One.
Bloated, we decided to stroll around the Budget Terminal. It was nothing but very plain terminal like any train station. You had to take a free bus shutter to and frown from Terminal 1.
After which we got bored of Airport, we took a long and drowsing bus 63 trip to Orchard. Stopped at the busstop in front of Park Mall and took a walk down to Cathay to catch "An American Huanting" at 1630hrs. Having 40 mins to spare, we went to Plaza Singapura to waste our time there.
American Huanting was a hard-to-understand movie. However, the effects were horrifying and heart-gasping. It was about this girl, Betsy, who was raped by her father, John, whom the family and he himself thought they were huanted by a ghost due to a curse put by a lady. Apparantly, the ghost was actually Betsy herself. What was the basic cause for the spirit Betsy to appear wasn't clear for us to depict. However Sweet opinioned that the spirit huanted Betsy so as to prevent any chance for the cruel father to continue his despicable act on the daughter. In the end, everything turned normal after John died under the hands of his wife, who got enlightened of the truth. The story started and ended with the modern surviving Betsy, whose daughter was also huanted by the same ghost.
We had our third indulgence at Mac Pherson's hawker again. Had Sweet's favourite Nong Hiam, fried Hokkien prawn mee and pieces of fried carrot cake. Fattening and acne-causing but well...both of us just love eating with each other around.
Our day ended, spare the negligible momentary friction, with a loving birthday French kiss from Sweet.
:: To all my friends, thank you very much for taking the effort to remember my birthday and sent me a sincere sms. I'm really grateful to you all. Pardon me if I didn't take the same effort to message you guys earlier on your special days.
:: To Jeffers, "lao da" for your meaningful present. I really love it alot!
:: To Clara, my closest friend. Thank you for your unexpectedly beautiful Chip and Dale puzzle. You've always spent money on my birthday present even though you have financial limits. For that, I'm really grateful. Thanks for the new nickname you bestowed me! Thanks for being around me and all your support, attention and most of all, our friendship!
:: To Chin Yu, thank you for calling me just to wish me a very happy birthday! Thanks for keeping in touch with me always. I'll remember you for life.
:: To Sweet, you're one of the special someone in this whole wide world whom i'm thankful for your time and efforts to make me enjoy my day so romantically and joyous. I love you. Muacks.
:: To my family, I really appreciate inexpressionably gratefully to all you folks have done for me. I love you all with all my heart.
:: To my late-mother. Mummy, whenever you are, you're always alive in my heart. I think of you from time to time. You, I must thank for without you, there will not be Jason today. Thank you so much Mummy. I guess you'll be so proud of me, having grown up. I really miss you. The family too.
Today's 21 August 2005. It marks an extremely special day as I've turned 21, the legal age. And to most of us, a very important day in our entire life.
Although the actual day occurs 12 past midnight. Yesterday night, greetings have already came in via MSN and sms (from Clara, who messaged me twice. Once in the night and once in the morning).
Yesterday evening, Sweet came down to AMK. After which we went to Toa Payoh to dine at SAKURA buffet. Paid $52 bucks for it lah! Of course we ate alot: Sushi, Shark fin's soup (not really "up-to-expectation"), Mushroom soup ("yummy"!), Seafood paper-steamboat (which Sweet thought wasn't heated enough), vegetable salad, sashimu, Tepanyaki Beef (which Sweet find it too hard) and Tepanyaki Fish (which I find it too soft), Unagi (taste abit raw) and chicken satay, fried nuggets, fried "pregnant fish", Tempura, Oyster, Mussels, Chicken Sausage, chicken Siew Mai (delicious!), Thai Chili tofu, steam fish wrap, steam cod fish. And end with dessert: Lime Cheese cake, NY cheese cake, Chocolate mousse, ice-cream..and fruits.
The food wasn't really appealing to me. But it's an experience since Sweet introduced me there. After that, Sweet and I walked around, patronising stores to entertain ourselves. Sweet got a polo Tee from Baleno, a toothbrush (for my house) and learnt about negative ions- producing "salt crystals" and all kinds of medications we've never seen before at a chinese medical store.
We went home shortly and have a wonderful night together.
When the time stuck 12 mid-night, Sweet was so lovely to be the very first person to wish me Happy 21st Birthday on the official day! (of course, I'll never forget those who wished me the night before). It was really very sweet of Sweet. The next best thing which occur on this wonderful occassion was to open my eyes in the morning and the first person I saw was Sweet with a morning kiss. My heart was overjoyed with blessed happiness. It soared when the both of us had a shower together! *face burning*
We went to have a light breakfast at the coffeeshop opposite my house. Then the both of us lover birds set off for Changi Airport (Sweet kept joking exaggeratingly along our way there, about us having to catch a flight to Australia) to eat lunch at Swensons. Sweet had Chicken thighs while I had my favourite Fish and Chips as our main course. It was accompanied by a full set meal which included a mousse cake for dessert and complimentary warm lipton tea. Of course, the highlight of the meal was the delightful Firehouse Birthday ice-cream!! I even dared Sweet to sing me a birthday song aloud. End up, Sweet only sang it softly...well.. it was smittening nonetheless! Love you, Sweet! And thanks for giving me your opinion at the perfume and cosmetic store where I got my 2nd bottle of CK summer One.
Bloated, we decided to stroll around the Budget Terminal. It was nothing but very plain terminal like any train station. You had to take a free bus shutter to and frown from Terminal 1.
After which we got bored of Airport, we took a long and drowsing bus 63 trip to Orchard. Stopped at the busstop in front of Park Mall and took a walk down to Cathay to catch "An American Huanting" at 1630hrs. Having 40 mins to spare, we went to Plaza Singapura to waste our time there.
American Huanting was a hard-to-understand movie. However, the effects were horrifying and heart-gasping. It was about this girl, Betsy, who was raped by her father, John, whom the family and he himself thought they were huanted by a ghost due to a curse put by a lady. Apparantly, the ghost was actually Betsy herself. What was the basic cause for the spirit Betsy to appear wasn't clear for us to depict. However Sweet opinioned that the spirit huanted Betsy so as to prevent any chance for the cruel father to continue his despicable act on the daughter. In the end, everything turned normal after John died under the hands of his wife, who got enlightened of the truth. The story started and ended with the modern surviving Betsy, whose daughter was also huanted by the same ghost.
We had our third indulgence at Mac Pherson's hawker again. Had Sweet's favourite Nong Hiam, fried Hokkien prawn mee and pieces of fried carrot cake. Fattening and acne-causing but well...both of us just love eating with each other around.
Our day ended, spare the negligible momentary friction, with a loving birthday French kiss from Sweet.
:: To all my friends, thank you very much for taking the effort to remember my birthday and sent me a sincere sms. I'm really grateful to you all. Pardon me if I didn't take the same effort to message you guys earlier on your special days.
:: To Jeffers, "lao da" for your meaningful present. I really love it alot!
:: To Clara, my closest friend. Thank you for your unexpectedly beautiful Chip and Dale puzzle. You've always spent money on my birthday present even though you have financial limits. For that, I'm really grateful. Thanks for the new nickname you bestowed me! Thanks for being around me and all your support, attention and most of all, our friendship!
:: To Chin Yu, thank you for calling me just to wish me a very happy birthday! Thanks for keeping in touch with me always. I'll remember you for life.
:: To Sweet, you're one of the special someone in this whole wide world whom i'm thankful for your time and efforts to make me enjoy my day so romantically and joyous. I love you. Muacks.
:: To my family, I really appreciate inexpressionably gratefully to all you folks have done for me. I love you all with all my heart.
:: To my late-mother. Mummy, whenever you are, you're always alive in my heart. I think of you from time to time. You, I must thank for without you, there will not be Jason today. Thank you so much Mummy. I guess you'll be so proud of me, having grown up. I really miss you. The family too.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
De one with Unforgettable Certainties
Windy; falling leaves
A very long time ago, I listened to Love stories by 93.3FM. There was a phrase which imprinted deeply in my mind...
" There's no event that's unforgettable...
only unforgettable feelings..."
The night before, I was fretting, struggling with my attempt at a Problem 5.7 of my accounting textbook. I got my first taste of the bitterness of Accountancy when the left side (Assets) and right side (Liabilities + Equity) of my worksheet just couldn't balance. Wasted 4 sheets of fullscape papers.. then I thought how wonderful if my late-mummy was still alive. She would have known how to teach me since she was an accountant. Of course, this selfishness wasn't what matters more... since I knew I'll have my way to get through this.
Rather, my rememberance of her unpressence triggered a stir of intense feeling... a pure yet harsh longing for her to be around.. I miss her.. the bitter unforgettable certainty that she's not longer around. It hurts inside-out. Very brutally heart-shattering. Causes every pores of my skin to become overly freezing with fear. Fear of facing up to the certainty that a loved one is gone forever. Fear of facing up to the fact that these held back tears are gonna fall again...
Yesterday, when I returned back from my outing with fellow specs. Ah-ma told me that she woke up around mid-night last night and recognised the sight of the side-view of a lady with short-curled hair. My beloved late-mummy was sitting in the living room's coffee table, facing the television.
Of course, I was shakened by ah-ma's account. Is it because it was a pity I didn't manage to see wat ah-ma saw? Or because I miss her so dearly? Of course, I didn't cry on the instant. I hardly cry in front of others. However, my heart was flooded with soaring tears.
:: Mummy, I hope you're coping well and peaceful in wherever you are now in your better after-life.
*sobs* =' )
A very long time ago, I listened to Love stories by 93.3FM. There was a phrase which imprinted deeply in my mind...
" There's no event that's unforgettable...
only unforgettable feelings..."
The night before, I was fretting, struggling with my attempt at a Problem 5.7 of my accounting textbook. I got my first taste of the bitterness of Accountancy when the left side (Assets) and right side (Liabilities + Equity) of my worksheet just couldn't balance. Wasted 4 sheets of fullscape papers.. then I thought how wonderful if my late-mummy was still alive. She would have known how to teach me since she was an accountant. Of course, this selfishness wasn't what matters more... since I knew I'll have my way to get through this.
Rather, my rememberance of her unpressence triggered a stir of intense feeling... a pure yet harsh longing for her to be around.. I miss her.. the bitter unforgettable certainty that she's not longer around. It hurts inside-out. Very brutally heart-shattering. Causes every pores of my skin to become overly freezing with fear. Fear of facing up to the certainty that a loved one is gone forever. Fear of facing up to the fact that these held back tears are gonna fall again...
Yesterday, when I returned back from my outing with fellow specs. Ah-ma told me that she woke up around mid-night last night and recognised the sight of the side-view of a lady with short-curled hair. My beloved late-mummy was sitting in the living room's coffee table, facing the television.
Of course, I was shakened by ah-ma's account. Is it because it was a pity I didn't manage to see wat ah-ma saw? Or because I miss her so dearly? Of course, I didn't cry on the instant. I hardly cry in front of others. However, my heart was flooded with soaring tears.
:: Mummy, I hope you're coping well and peaceful in wherever you are now in your better after-life.
*sobs* =' )
De one with Mohan
CHRONICLES Of CHUM
Weekend during my army stint, always reminded me of Mohan. Mohan Gopalan, is one of my closest friend (other than Chin Yu) during my time at 23SA. Before that, we've already knew each other from ASC since both of us were from the same detachment.
I believe both of us were started our friendship solely because we were both the same type of people, who perfers to share within a small companionship rather than the opposite. I remembered I saw him before in SISPEC, Foxtrot company when we were both literally suffering under the instructors of our detestable OC, WO Oh Cheng Kah, as both of us were struggling with our SOC. (damn xiong!)
Hehe.. miraculously, both of us graduated from SISPEC (perserverance and garang-iness ok.. :D) and made it into the same vocation. Recalled our frist time going out was we booked out and met up at Thompson Plaza to have late-night coffee at Starbucks. (He was the person who introduced me to Starbucks). Our friendship developed from then ever since. Met up and started going out every now and then. Example, going out during our nights out. Even after being posted to 23sA, we went out for shopping, eat, movies more often.
Mohan and I share the same interest. During shopping, we would look at books, music. Mohan provided me the companionship to booast my confident to try things I've never done before like shopping. It's always better to walk into a shop to look around when a friend is with you, offering you suggestions and feedback whenever you can't decide.
We're very simple person. Whenever anyone of us asked if each other is free, immediately, we just agreed the time and venue on the spot, almost instantaneously! As time passes, we grew to become more understanding, in terms of our fashion taste, each other's characters as if we were old friends even though our friendship was merely a few months old.
It was because of him that I volunteered to join to represent the battalion for cross country run. End up, he didn't run, omg. Though, I always pursuade him to try his best, especially Army Half-Marathon.
Both of us love to argue. Since both of us are from different batteries, we like to voice our individual opinions, sharing each other's experience and frustration in army. It was in the milst of this that he taught me to stop being a push-over and being able to voice my views instead of following people by the nose. Why? Simply because Mohan is a lawyer-to-be. He's a former RI and RJC student. He's really one of the super few RI people who I feel comfortable being with. Though he comes from a wealthy family where both his parents are lawyers and his elder brother too, he's humble and independent.
One funny thing is we are very open in our chat topics. I can make racist jokes and he doesn't feel offended. When I'm down, he will always support me (like Chin Yu does). He's knowledgable.. perfect person to go to when ever I face language or knowledge difficulties or inadequacy.
We're very good friends indeed.
Weekend during my army stint, always reminded me of Mohan. Mohan Gopalan, is one of my closest friend (other than Chin Yu) during my time at 23SA. Before that, we've already knew each other from ASC since both of us were from the same detachment.
I believe both of us were started our friendship solely because we were both the same type of people, who perfers to share within a small companionship rather than the opposite. I remembered I saw him before in SISPEC, Foxtrot company when we were both literally suffering under the instructors of our detestable OC, WO Oh Cheng Kah, as both of us were struggling with our SOC. (damn xiong!)
Hehe.. miraculously, both of us graduated from SISPEC (perserverance and garang-iness ok.. :D) and made it into the same vocation. Recalled our frist time going out was we booked out and met up at Thompson Plaza to have late-night coffee at Starbucks. (He was the person who introduced me to Starbucks). Our friendship developed from then ever since. Met up and started going out every now and then. Example, going out during our nights out. Even after being posted to 23sA, we went out for shopping, eat, movies more often.
Mohan and I share the same interest. During shopping, we would look at books, music. Mohan provided me the companionship to booast my confident to try things I've never done before like shopping. It's always better to walk into a shop to look around when a friend is with you, offering you suggestions and feedback whenever you can't decide.
We're very simple person. Whenever anyone of us asked if each other is free, immediately, we just agreed the time and venue on the spot, almost instantaneously! As time passes, we grew to become more understanding, in terms of our fashion taste, each other's characters as if we were old friends even though our friendship was merely a few months old.
It was because of him that I volunteered to join to represent the battalion for cross country run. End up, he didn't run, omg. Though, I always pursuade him to try his best, especially Army Half-Marathon.
Both of us love to argue. Since both of us are from different batteries, we like to voice our individual opinions, sharing each other's experience and frustration in army. It was in the milst of this that he taught me to stop being a push-over and being able to voice my views instead of following people by the nose. Why? Simply because Mohan is a lawyer-to-be. He's a former RI and RJC student. He's really one of the super few RI people who I feel comfortable being with. Though he comes from a wealthy family where both his parents are lawyers and his elder brother too, he's humble and independent.
One funny thing is we are very open in our chat topics. I can make racist jokes and he doesn't feel offended. When I'm down, he will always support me (like Chin Yu does). He's knowledgable.. perfect person to go to when ever I face language or knowledge difficulties or inadequacy.
We're very good friends indeed.
Saturday, August 19, 2006
De one with Halfway thru Weekend
Little drizzle, hot Sun
Phew..another week just passed by again. Before I know it, i've already became a 3 month old uni-student~
Today I met my fellow specs, Zhen Ze, Eric, Bojun, Jonathan and Sek Yeong. Although I was late, we had an enjoyable session at K-box in Parazzi Centre (somewhere near Cathay cinema). Omg. I was so bad in my vocals today. Couldn't get my tunes right. What an embarassing.
Bojun had Japanese-language class, so he left early before we ended our entertainment at 2+pm and headed towards Plaza Singapura to walk around. We called Jeffers to join us. While waiting, Eric left for home. The remaining walked towards Far East to meet Jeffers. Heeding suggestion from Jonathan, we had the "nice" chicken rice on level 4. Jeffers came to join us in time. We had a chatty conversation over dinner.
After which Jonathan and Sek Yeong left. Thus, Jeffers and me accompanied Zhen Ze who wanted to shop for scandals. In the end, he got a pair from Wisma's Beattle Bug. Nice!
Jeffers passed me a birthday present he got for me. It was a frame with a photo of our bunkmates, taken in NZ ex.Thunderwarrior in the beginning of the year! (Thank you alot Jeffers!) And I've got a new long-awaited Braun Buffel hard leather wallet!! Can you believe it, Sweet's favourite brand was Braun Buffel (YEAH!!). But she now pocess my favourite brand, Pierre Cardin. What a lovely part of each other in our belongings!
Talking about Sweet whom I miss terribly. It feels like my heart nearly got breathless. We haven't met each other for 2 days liao. Yesterday was because I had to meet Mohan and later, supposedly supper with Clara. Unexpectedly, Clara had to rest due to some post blood-donation condition. So we end up cancelling the supper. Today, Sweet had to do some job to teach. In between, messaged Clara today. Glad to hear that she has recovered.
Friday...
We had our very first lecture with our local accounting lecturer. He started the lesson with an impact opening. Emphasising that he is not here to teach but educate us. A little background info about Lecture Daniel. He's a civil engineer convert Accountant. Besides his CPA, he has MBA too. The funny reason he gave why he didn't achieve a doctorine degree, was that his brain isn't burnt or bonkers. Haha. He describes himself as a very radical accountant (hmm..a man of character). He doesn't like conducting lectures with useless and meaningless Powerpoint slides. Instead, he likes educating on whiteboard. He's lectures are fun (to rebuke the commonly thought that Accountancy's boring) and informally conducted. He loves us to respond "yes" to him. It makes him feels very appreciated. Overall, he's really a very down-to-earth and easily likeable educator. I feel so blessed that I have adaptable and educating-friendly lecturers! What a new pleasant learning experience which I think I'll not get at other local universities!
Nope, I'm not saying this because I'm tasting sour-grapes. I really mean it. I've experienced t myself.
Phew..another week just passed by again. Before I know it, i've already became a 3 month old uni-student~
Today I met my fellow specs, Zhen Ze, Eric, Bojun, Jonathan and Sek Yeong. Although I was late, we had an enjoyable session at K-box in Parazzi Centre (somewhere near Cathay cinema). Omg. I was so bad in my vocals today. Couldn't get my tunes right. What an embarassing.
Bojun had Japanese-language class, so he left early before we ended our entertainment at 2+pm and headed towards Plaza Singapura to walk around. We called Jeffers to join us. While waiting, Eric left for home. The remaining walked towards Far East to meet Jeffers. Heeding suggestion from Jonathan, we had the "nice" chicken rice on level 4. Jeffers came to join us in time. We had a chatty conversation over dinner.
After which Jonathan and Sek Yeong left. Thus, Jeffers and me accompanied Zhen Ze who wanted to shop for scandals. In the end, he got a pair from Wisma's Beattle Bug. Nice!
Jeffers passed me a birthday present he got for me. It was a frame with a photo of our bunkmates, taken in NZ ex.Thunderwarrior in the beginning of the year! (Thank you alot Jeffers!) And I've got a new long-awaited Braun Buffel hard leather wallet!! Can you believe it, Sweet's favourite brand was Braun Buffel (YEAH!!). But she now pocess my favourite brand, Pierre Cardin. What a lovely part of each other in our belongings!
Talking about Sweet whom I miss terribly. It feels like my heart nearly got breathless. We haven't met each other for 2 days liao. Yesterday was because I had to meet Mohan and later, supposedly supper with Clara. Unexpectedly, Clara had to rest due to some post blood-donation condition. So we end up cancelling the supper. Today, Sweet had to do some job to teach. In between, messaged Clara today. Glad to hear that she has recovered.
Friday...
We had our very first lecture with our local accounting lecturer. He started the lesson with an impact opening. Emphasising that he is not here to teach but educate us. A little background info about Lecture Daniel. He's a civil engineer convert Accountant. Besides his CPA, he has MBA too. The funny reason he gave why he didn't achieve a doctorine degree, was that his brain isn't burnt or bonkers. Haha. He describes himself as a very radical accountant (hmm..a man of character). He doesn't like conducting lectures with useless and meaningless Powerpoint slides. Instead, he likes educating on whiteboard. He's lectures are fun (to rebuke the commonly thought that Accountancy's boring) and informally conducted. He loves us to respond "yes" to him. It makes him feels very appreciated. Overall, he's really a very down-to-earth and easily likeable educator. I feel so blessed that I have adaptable and educating-friendly lecturers! What a new pleasant learning experience which I think I'll not get at other local universities!
Nope, I'm not saying this because I'm tasting sour-grapes. I really mean it. I've experienced t myself.
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