Cloudy
Early morning around 5am, I message Sweet my apologise for yesterday. I even attempt to make things better, sending Sweet a 20 sms-long message to Sweet, telling Sweet about nearly all the things I've realised, known and learnt about Sweet. From our first date, till stuff Sweet loves and Sweet's personal nitty gritty. It's to prove my sincerity and integrity as a bf. Show how much Sweet matters and have integrated significance into my life...
Today Business computing lecture was more interesting! The part about how "bytes" comes about. And the fascinating "base 2" and admirable fact about how the computer reads hexadecimals to produce "texts". It's really amazing how the computer hardware works. Simply complicated and brilliant!
After lecture when to meet Clara at Chinese Garden mrt. Sigh. On my bus ride from school. I boarded a rather crowded bus 52 at SIM busstop. Apparantly, not long after, I realised there was this available green seat. Upon the stopping of the bus at a busstop, I was about to take off my sling bag, preparing to seat when I saw two old ladies coming up. Abit of embarassment upon realising why people left the green seats empty. I was so paiseh. I sling back my bag again. Omg.
Upon reaching Clementi. There was this "barrier" of crowd taking their own sweet time to walk to the control station. Omg. I saw on the electronic train-arrival board, the train to Boon Lay was like arriving in 1 mins' time. I made my way through the annoyingly slow crowd, rushed up the flight of steps and managed to board the departing train before the doors closed behind me a couple of seconds later. Phew!!
We finally made our way to Jurong East Swimming Complex. Hehe.. my very first time there. After all that have been only described to me by the friends. It's really big. And more expensive than other complexes (50 cents more!) Then, the very 2nd embarrassing thing occur. I mistaken the changing room for boys as men's. Omg. I happily vocal out my bid goodbye to Clara so openly. Omg. It was a really embarrassing moment! We were both laughing like lunatics!
We swam at the competition pool, before going to the "round-about". It's actually a circle lane which has currents to propel you, best if you sit in a rented floats. We waited quite awhile for the most awaited man-made"sea waves". Nothing fun at the beginning. But one thing we observed was once the sea tides started, the pool start to draw alot of users to it. People were screaming and exclaiming. Some at the edges, trying to grab to the wall to climb stupidly, with aid of the tide. Others just sit on floats and get toppled by the tides and struggle to get back on again (Lame~). There are specially two persons. Me and Clara. Hehe, standing in th middle and trying to seek our share of fun. So I started to imitate the sound effects. I did a very silly funny action of going up and down with the tides and sound out "wuuuuuaooooooo". So lame but it made Clara laughing till her teeth nearly dropped! HAHA! I even act like i'm drowning, screaming like those little girls were, and the "escaping act" like we were chased by an approaching shark. Really lunatic!
After which I stayed with Clara till her boyfriend Shawn, came over to find her. I left and took a train to Bukit Batok. From there, I took bus 852 back. On the way, my eyes were irritated with the pool's chlorine, I fell asleep on the bus. It wasn't until Sweet called me the 2nd time to wake me up.
Sweet and I had dinner at Sumo AMK in the evening. Both of us order Udon. Kinda disappointing. Well.. thank god we had Nachos and "mixed nuts" to compensate our unsatisfied taste-buds! We sat all the way to the end of the cinema where both of us could have our private space. It was abit eerie in the beginning because we feel so alienated from the majority crowd, who were sitting in the middle cache. Fortunately, it didn't take long before we get used to and comfortable with our seatings. Sweet and I have a really "great" experience, watching "The AntZ Bully".
The Antz Bully is generally an animated movie, depicting the story about a young boy named Marcus who was always bullied by this neighbourhood bully, bigger in size and more popular than him. As a result, he starts to venge his angry on the ants which were having their nest in his front yard. Under the potion of a Wizard Ant, Marcus became as miniture as an ant. He realises and appreciates the value and situations of the ants, vulnerable to attacks by Warps and humans. In the end, Marcus tries to save his ant-friends and the colony of insects which were in distress with the Exterminator hired by Marcus himself right from the beginning of the story.
It was a rather enjoyable movie. Being with Sweet made it more worthwhile. hehe. But Sweet mentioned something which is true. The movie isn't just pure entertainment but bears the underlying morale. To teach us to value the lives of living things even to a tiny creature like an ant.
I feel there's alot more than that. Sweet agrees too. Antz Bully is also about learning the importance of true loyal friendship and team-ship. Both of us are seeing more things in common. I am really happy for us!!!
Friday, August 11, 2006
Thursday, August 10, 2006
De one with Nearly-disaster
Winds in Hot sun
Today was a really slow day. Met Sweet for dinner today. Travelled all the way to Westmall to have dinner. However, the valuable 2 hrs meeting end up turning into a disaster. I was being really worried. Sweet just keeps misinterpreting. Me on the other hand, being un-understandable, eccentric and negative. Thus, pissing Sweet off.
Most of the time, I feel very caught up of what's best to be done. It leads to a disappointing outcome. Sweet advised me not to be stressed. If i don't change myself considerably, how to fulfill all that's required or demanded of me as a bf? If I'd just be myself, I'll be all quiet and introvert. I really feel very strangled. I'm striving my best but most the time, the odds are too overwhelming.
Everytime this undesirable and unexpected situation or outcome arises, I try my best to coax Sweet, try to make things back the loving way as before but sometimes, I just feel so lost.. no answers pops in my mind... as though all my determination and comfort skills are drained out. Sometimes, I really feel like a slave-of-love to Sweet. But seeing Sweet, being with Sweet just melts me down, telling me it's all worthwhile.
I treasure this relationship alot. Rather, my full willingness and unconditional have proven myself to make me love this person wholehearted. Definately, this is not enough or helpful because i'm unable to make Sweet feel this way. There are still events and adversities which I can't control. However, I still pledge my love, cross thy heart..and gurantee I'll ensure something thou have thy love for eternal.
I must mention too.. I'm really apologetic.. I get too stressed easily..like what Sweet said, it only prevents me from performing. And I'm too pessismistic. Resulting in causing Sweet to feel insecure. How foolish I am. Well..i must change.. just give me time please?
Today was a really slow day. Met Sweet for dinner today. Travelled all the way to Westmall to have dinner. However, the valuable 2 hrs meeting end up turning into a disaster. I was being really worried. Sweet just keeps misinterpreting. Me on the other hand, being un-understandable, eccentric and negative. Thus, pissing Sweet off.
Most of the time, I feel very caught up of what's best to be done. It leads to a disappointing outcome. Sweet advised me not to be stressed. If i don't change myself considerably, how to fulfill all that's required or demanded of me as a bf? If I'd just be myself, I'll be all quiet and introvert. I really feel very strangled. I'm striving my best but most the time, the odds are too overwhelming.
Everytime this undesirable and unexpected situation or outcome arises, I try my best to coax Sweet, try to make things back the loving way as before but sometimes, I just feel so lost.. no answers pops in my mind... as though all my determination and comfort skills are drained out. Sometimes, I really feel like a slave-of-love to Sweet. But seeing Sweet, being with Sweet just melts me down, telling me it's all worthwhile.
I treasure this relationship alot. Rather, my full willingness and unconditional have proven myself to make me love this person wholehearted. Definately, this is not enough or helpful because i'm unable to make Sweet feel this way. There are still events and adversities which I can't control. However, I still pledge my love, cross thy heart..and gurantee I'll ensure something thou have thy love for eternal.
I must mention too.. I'm really apologetic.. I get too stressed easily..like what Sweet said, it only prevents me from performing. And I'm too pessismistic. Resulting in causing Sweet to feel insecure. How foolish I am. Well..i must change.. just give me time please?
De one with Relationship
Windy and sunny
After a 3hr lecture at campus and I was on the bus which takes me home. I suddenly come to realise more about what Vance told me before. That couples should do things which benefits the relationship, rather than for their individual selves.
Sweet was messaging me, proposing to make some changes in Sweet's life. Well, my natural reaction was being to feel inferior. That if Sweet underwent the changes, Sweet would become more attractive and that Sweet might just realise one day that I'm not good enough and might end up leaving me. That arouses my inferiority. Of course, I think about it. Partly, it's because I wanna stop all these "break-up" prophecy which is a form of pessismism (gets Sweet on the nerves). So I replied Sweet: "well, if it doesn't change much of you then go ahead".
In less than a minute after I replied, it occur to me to review what I've sent.
I did what I do best, focus, listen and think in an unprejudice, open-mind way. I came to realise I was being very selfish. And unsupportive towards Sweet. Simply because I'm afraid of losing Sweet, i've created a sort of restriction which might made Sweet happier and being able to achieve something.
I sent another message to Sweet : "nah, if it doesn't jeopardise anything, i should and i will support you in whatever you wish to do". In hope that it's strong enough to encourage Sweet. I did this because I want the greater good for the relationship which we share. Being supportive and encouraging are little ways to maintain a relationship. So it will last forever.
It's about putting aside what we want for ourselves or how and what we decided for our partners to be, and considering the benefits for the relationship itself which will eventually, most of the time, make both parties happy.
Of course, this is not the only way to make a successful relationship. There are other factors like compromises and sacrifices to make a wonderful relationship. Even though, definately this has a percentage which MAY contribute to a long-term lovely relationship. (Omg! Why are I writing in academic style!?! It's my blog! It's supposed to be MY PERSPECTIVE!) hehe
After a 3hr lecture at campus and I was on the bus which takes me home. I suddenly come to realise more about what Vance told me before. That couples should do things which benefits the relationship, rather than for their individual selves.
Sweet was messaging me, proposing to make some changes in Sweet's life. Well, my natural reaction was being to feel inferior. That if Sweet underwent the changes, Sweet would become more attractive and that Sweet might just realise one day that I'm not good enough and might end up leaving me. That arouses my inferiority. Of course, I think about it. Partly, it's because I wanna stop all these "break-up" prophecy which is a form of pessismism (gets Sweet on the nerves). So I replied Sweet: "well, if it doesn't change much of you then go ahead".
In less than a minute after I replied, it occur to me to review what I've sent.
I did what I do best, focus, listen and think in an unprejudice, open-mind way. I came to realise I was being very selfish. And unsupportive towards Sweet. Simply because I'm afraid of losing Sweet, i've created a sort of restriction which might made Sweet happier and being able to achieve something.
I sent another message to Sweet : "nah, if it doesn't jeopardise anything, i should and i will support you in whatever you wish to do". In hope that it's strong enough to encourage Sweet. I did this because I want the greater good for the relationship which we share. Being supportive and encouraging are little ways to maintain a relationship. So it will last forever.
It's about putting aside what we want for ourselves or how and what we decided for our partners to be, and considering the benefits for the relationship itself which will eventually, most of the time, make both parties happy.
Of course, this is not the only way to make a successful relationship. There are other factors like compromises and sacrifices to make a wonderful relationship. Even though, definately this has a percentage which MAY contribute to a long-term lovely relationship. (Omg! Why are I writing in academic style!?! It's my blog! It's supposed to be MY PERSPECTIVE!) hehe
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
De one with Eau de Toilettes
Hot, hot, hot!
My very first encounter with Cologne or Eau de Toilettes, was after I've smell the nice smell coming from my primary 5 form teacher, Mr Chew. He will come into class, smelling the same as normal deodorant.
I don't really recall when I actually had my very first cologne. However luckily, I do remember the very first brand of cologne I got and where I got it from. My parents bought it for me at the duty free shop, on one of the trips back from Australia (our frequent vocation destination). Tommy Hilfiger's Tommy. My very first cologne. It has a very estatic peircing musky smell. It was the best and closest to the odour as the one in my first impression of colognes. Although it made me sneeze initially, I put on where ever I go. Thankfully, I got used to it.
After this, I start to develop a liking for colognes. Started to buy more on future overseas vocation. I started to find out more about which kinda cologne I like through Kris-shop magazine (the first thing I read onboard the plane everytime). The next one I set my eyes on was the newly-introduced Hugo Boss' Dark Blue cologne. I like the concentrated sandalwood smell. Very man lor! I remembered I sprayed it on everytime I went. On one very unfortunate event. My younger brother, Jimson, was vomitting on the plane. He's clothing was stenched and smelly. My mummy was finding a solution. So I suggested using my Hugo cologne. Wah-la! It worked perfectly well!
My next target was Polo Ralph's Polo Sport. I still remember the advertisement on magazine. Showing a black basketballer. Erm.. well, it's not him that made me buy Polo Sport. Rather, it's the genuine soothing mild smell it has. Recently, I have got another product by Polo : Romance Silver. It always creates an impression of True romance in a classy atmosphere.
Since I keep applying Hugo and Tommy so commonly. I started to crave for one unique brand for special occassion. That was when I purchase Armani for he. Hehe.. It is a refreshing yet still retaining the essense of a musky smell. It's long-lasting. I love it alot. Till today I still apply it whenever I wear formal clothings to attend important functions or performance. Recently, I got Armani's Black code (oops. Haven't open yet).
The most memorable cologne I've used for entirely 2 years (which was the longest period which I've ever stick to a cologne) was Hugo Boss in Motion. I must admit, in Jc I was growing to become sporty, Motion really appeal alot to me. The packaging of Motion captured me alot. Advertisement of models running. It bears alot of something I wanted and was recognised to. Plus it has my favourite fruit: Orange smell. My daddy bought alot of bottles of it. I figured I used up around 6 bottles of it. Putting it on everytime I went to Jc. Omg. It even represented me. My bandmate and close friend, Shuqing, used to say everytime before I was nearby. The smell of my cologne gave my pressence away!
I love Hugo Boss during early 2000. As I think Hugo's strong and thus, very lasting. It was worth buying. Till date, I have got 6 different products. Namely Boss dark Blue, Boss in Motion (normal, silver-blue and Christmas edition), Soul (same taste as Chin Yu) and Energise (my closest substitude to CK Crave).
Next is CK products. I've always though CK's were very expensive. It wasn't until I got my very first attraction to CK Eternity. It was the best substitude to Armani he. Apparantly, hearsay that it's the best product ever by CK for Men. Well, my opinion differs. I prefer CK Crave. It's sporty appeal attracted me. Plus, it's stylish translucent packaging made me like it even better. It produces a very awakening fresh, sporty smell. Unfortunately, it's no longer in production. Sigh. Not to worry. I have Contradiction, Be (which my 2nd ex influenced me to get it) and recently, CK One and Eternity Summer edition. Both of the summer edition made me discover my liking for fruity-smelling cologne. Otherwise, I guess it's due to Sweet too.
I love mild smelling colognes nowadays. Despite possible disadvantage that such colognes ain't last long time period. That's when I favour Kenzo Air and L'eau Par. Kenzo Air gives me a very boyish appeal and it makes me very energise at all time. On the other hand, L'eau Par bears a fruitty smell. Lemon. Simply lovely.
Talking about fruitty smell. No other cologne can match DKNY's Be Delicious. It has an apple smell. Hmm... always creating a very strong "healthy in style" kinda impression.
Haha..sorry but i'm not going to carry on introducing all types of colognes. If not the cows would have come home. What am i talking?!? I have a collection of 26 different colognes. Other than those I've mention above. My collection includes Tommy True Star, Burberry's Touch & Weekend, FCUK him and Higer Energy by Dior (bought by my cousin all the way from the US during her attachment).
Omg. Look forward to buying more but well.. Jason's financial department depleting of resources. Hehe..
My very first encounter with Cologne or Eau de Toilettes, was after I've smell the nice smell coming from my primary 5 form teacher, Mr Chew. He will come into class, smelling the same as normal deodorant.
I don't really recall when I actually had my very first cologne. However luckily, I do remember the very first brand of cologne I got and where I got it from. My parents bought it for me at the duty free shop, on one of the trips back from Australia (our frequent vocation destination). Tommy Hilfiger's Tommy. My very first cologne. It has a very estatic peircing musky smell. It was the best and closest to the odour as the one in my first impression of colognes. Although it made me sneeze initially, I put on where ever I go. Thankfully, I got used to it.
After this, I start to develop a liking for colognes. Started to buy more on future overseas vocation. I started to find out more about which kinda cologne I like through Kris-shop magazine (the first thing I read onboard the plane everytime). The next one I set my eyes on was the newly-introduced Hugo Boss' Dark Blue cologne. I like the concentrated sandalwood smell. Very man lor! I remembered I sprayed it on everytime I went. On one very unfortunate event. My younger brother, Jimson, was vomitting on the plane. He's clothing was stenched and smelly. My mummy was finding a solution. So I suggested using my Hugo cologne. Wah-la! It worked perfectly well!
My next target was Polo Ralph's Polo Sport. I still remember the advertisement on magazine. Showing a black basketballer. Erm.. well, it's not him that made me buy Polo Sport. Rather, it's the genuine soothing mild smell it has. Recently, I have got another product by Polo : Romance Silver. It always creates an impression of True romance in a classy atmosphere.
Since I keep applying Hugo and Tommy so commonly. I started to crave for one unique brand for special occassion. That was when I purchase Armani for he. Hehe.. It is a refreshing yet still retaining the essense of a musky smell. It's long-lasting. I love it alot. Till today I still apply it whenever I wear formal clothings to attend important functions or performance. Recently, I got Armani's Black code (oops. Haven't open yet).
The most memorable cologne I've used for entirely 2 years (which was the longest period which I've ever stick to a cologne) was Hugo Boss in Motion. I must admit, in Jc I was growing to become sporty, Motion really appeal alot to me. The packaging of Motion captured me alot. Advertisement of models running. It bears alot of something I wanted and was recognised to. Plus it has my favourite fruit: Orange smell. My daddy bought alot of bottles of it. I figured I used up around 6 bottles of it. Putting it on everytime I went to Jc. Omg. It even represented me. My bandmate and close friend, Shuqing, used to say everytime before I was nearby. The smell of my cologne gave my pressence away!
I love Hugo Boss during early 2000. As I think Hugo's strong and thus, very lasting. It was worth buying. Till date, I have got 6 different products. Namely Boss dark Blue, Boss in Motion (normal, silver-blue and Christmas edition), Soul (same taste as Chin Yu) and Energise (my closest substitude to CK Crave).
Next is CK products. I've always though CK's were very expensive. It wasn't until I got my very first attraction to CK Eternity. It was the best substitude to Armani he. Apparantly, hearsay that it's the best product ever by CK for Men. Well, my opinion differs. I prefer CK Crave. It's sporty appeal attracted me. Plus, it's stylish translucent packaging made me like it even better. It produces a very awakening fresh, sporty smell. Unfortunately, it's no longer in production. Sigh. Not to worry. I have Contradiction, Be (which my 2nd ex influenced me to get it) and recently, CK One and Eternity Summer edition. Both of the summer edition made me discover my liking for fruity-smelling cologne. Otherwise, I guess it's due to Sweet too.
I love mild smelling colognes nowadays. Despite possible disadvantage that such colognes ain't last long time period. That's when I favour Kenzo Air and L'eau Par. Kenzo Air gives me a very boyish appeal and it makes me very energise at all time. On the other hand, L'eau Par bears a fruitty smell. Lemon. Simply lovely.
Talking about fruitty smell. No other cologne can match DKNY's Be Delicious. It has an apple smell. Hmm... always creating a very strong "healthy in style" kinda impression.
Haha..sorry but i'm not going to carry on introducing all types of colognes. If not the cows would have come home. What am i talking?!? I have a collection of 26 different colognes. Other than those I've mention above. My collection includes Tommy True Star, Burberry's Touch & Weekend, FCUK him and Higer Energy by Dior (bought by my cousin all the way from the US during her attachment).
Omg. Look forward to buying more but well.. Jason's financial department depleting of resources. Hehe..
De one with National Day
Hot, hot, hot!
Everyone gets very excite over NDP. Previously, people will queue overnight at National Stadium, desperately hopeful of getting their NDP tickets and of course, a "fong fu" goodie bag.. for others, to be a part of the grand celebration!
However, times have changed, so does administration and organisation changes. For example, to address the disappointment of people who spent overnight end up getting not even one ticket. The idea of balloting for NDP through AXS, was introduced. They said.. in this way, it allows every Singaporean to get a chance in lifetime to be able to participate in NDP. Yes, it does solve the trouble of preventing vain efforts and disappointment of people who queued overnight. However, seriously I think the idea about creating a fair-play is not really that effective bah. Oops. Maybe it hasn't been happening to me and people I've known.
Anyway, what doesn't change is the anticipation of the most spectacular Fireworks display. As all of us would know, it's only during NDP that Singaporeans get to see beautiful fireworks locally. It's really romantic. Imagine watching it with your loved one, along the river-side walkway. Keeping quiet, just enjoying the amazing sight of fireworks display. More than ever, enjoying the accompany of your lover. Ooo... simply overly passionately romantic.
Other than that, I guess what most people won't wanna miss will be the respectful Marching Contigent formation. Parade, definately isn't what most public get to see. Especially if one is not even involved in NS. What most people don't really realise is the actual pain of having to stand at "serdiya" (attention) position for such a long time. Omg. Personally, I experienced this during my SYF while we wait for our results. Sigh. The pain is having to stand at attention, "stomach in, chest out", "chin up".. and not being able to figid as the beads of prespiration tickle down your nose-bridge and eye corner. Hehe.. You fear that if you move, you might ruin the uniformed formation and worst, draw someone's attention and get criticised.
Well.. I guess every Singaporean have had their chance of being not just the majority role of being an audience but also, a performer in NDP sometime in their life. For me, I remembered I was in Secondary 2 when my military band combined with Deyi band to perform an pre-parade item. It was a great deal. We started practising months before the actual parade. Still recall the days of long-hour practice under the hot sun, rain and drizzle, at Khatib Camp. Haha.. I been to my camp, even before I've enlisted and got posted there after SISPEC. What an unexpected coincidence!
Well, I don't really like performing at National Stadium. Mainly because of the undesirable echos you get, disrupting your ability to get which is the correct original music. It really demands you to concentrate and be alert enough to recognise which is the true music from the abyss of tempo-varied sounds.
Everything have a good and bad part. Now I shall share a down-side. I recalled during NDP during my jc1. Since my parents were off to watch NDP live. I was at home. I had a quarrel with my 1st ex until we were on the verge of break up. Silly enough, I got overly depressed, I love my 1st ex so much, i attempted suicide. Shameful but I lost my rationality and popped 20 Anti-fast panadols pills with E-30 Alcohol. The next morning, I didn't die. However, I got really into a worse condition of vomitting continuously and suffered from severe dehydration. I recalled my parents sent me to visit the neighbourhood clinic. The doctor asked me why. I was thinking, I should tell him what I consumed in order for him to prescribed the right medication for me. I remembered I just act blur when he asked why I did such a foolish thing.
What really hurt me and shattered my heart was... my ex didn't care much.
*sob*
Nah.. I shouldn't cry. Well.. it's just one of those really foolish and stupid things I do in the past.
Well well, I guess that's enough. It's National Day! HAPPY NATIONAL DAY to all (especially Sweet, the one who matters most to me now) and Singapore!
Everyone gets very excite over NDP. Previously, people will queue overnight at National Stadium, desperately hopeful of getting their NDP tickets and of course, a "fong fu" goodie bag.. for others, to be a part of the grand celebration!
However, times have changed, so does administration and organisation changes. For example, to address the disappointment of people who spent overnight end up getting not even one ticket. The idea of balloting for NDP through AXS, was introduced. They said.. in this way, it allows every Singaporean to get a chance in lifetime to be able to participate in NDP. Yes, it does solve the trouble of preventing vain efforts and disappointment of people who queued overnight. However, seriously I think the idea about creating a fair-play is not really that effective bah. Oops. Maybe it hasn't been happening to me and people I've known.
Anyway, what doesn't change is the anticipation of the most spectacular Fireworks display. As all of us would know, it's only during NDP that Singaporeans get to see beautiful fireworks locally. It's really romantic. Imagine watching it with your loved one, along the river-side walkway. Keeping quiet, just enjoying the amazing sight of fireworks display. More than ever, enjoying the accompany of your lover. Ooo... simply overly passionately romantic.
Other than that, I guess what most people won't wanna miss will be the respectful Marching Contigent formation. Parade, definately isn't what most public get to see. Especially if one is not even involved in NS. What most people don't really realise is the actual pain of having to stand at "serdiya" (attention) position for such a long time. Omg. Personally, I experienced this during my SYF while we wait for our results. Sigh. The pain is having to stand at attention, "stomach in, chest out", "chin up".. and not being able to figid as the beads of prespiration tickle down your nose-bridge and eye corner. Hehe.. You fear that if you move, you might ruin the uniformed formation and worst, draw someone's attention and get criticised.
Well.. I guess every Singaporean have had their chance of being not just the majority role of being an audience but also, a performer in NDP sometime in their life. For me, I remembered I was in Secondary 2 when my military band combined with Deyi band to perform an pre-parade item. It was a great deal. We started practising months before the actual parade. Still recall the days of long-hour practice under the hot sun, rain and drizzle, at Khatib Camp. Haha.. I been to my camp, even before I've enlisted and got posted there after SISPEC. What an unexpected coincidence!
Well, I don't really like performing at National Stadium. Mainly because of the undesirable echos you get, disrupting your ability to get which is the correct original music. It really demands you to concentrate and be alert enough to recognise which is the true music from the abyss of tempo-varied sounds.
Everything have a good and bad part. Now I shall share a down-side. I recalled during NDP during my jc1. Since my parents were off to watch NDP live. I was at home. I had a quarrel with my 1st ex until we were on the verge of break up. Silly enough, I got overly depressed, I love my 1st ex so much, i attempted suicide. Shameful but I lost my rationality and popped 20 Anti-fast panadols pills with E-30 Alcohol. The next morning, I didn't die. However, I got really into a worse condition of vomitting continuously and suffered from severe dehydration. I recalled my parents sent me to visit the neighbourhood clinic. The doctor asked me why. I was thinking, I should tell him what I consumed in order for him to prescribed the right medication for me. I remembered I just act blur when he asked why I did such a foolish thing.
What really hurt me and shattered my heart was... my ex didn't care much.
*sob*
Nah.. I shouldn't cry. Well.. it's just one of those really foolish and stupid things I do in the past.
Well well, I guess that's enough. It's National Day! HAPPY NATIONAL DAY to all (especially Sweet, the one who matters most to me now) and Singapore!
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
De one with Love-r-ly
Bright Sunny day
Today is a reeeaally significant day! Sweet and I finally exchanged our vows and couple rings today! Initially, we planned to do this special ocassion on our Monthiversay next week. However, both of us lover-birds just couldn't wait! It was a really really extremely fun, informal way of doing it. Yet, we followed the normal procedure like those couples dawn their rings on a formal wedding.
I feel so blessed. With soaring joy, so much my heart was singing. Mind went floating. Oops! hehe
As i've told Sweet earlier, we stepped on another stage of relationship. Binding us closer, cementing our deep love. It's been very successful, from our very first kiss, first fun time till now. Both of us were really happy over today.
Oh, a continual for yesterday's blog. We did manage to have our engravement hiccup resovlved. All was Sweet's brilliant idea. In the end, everything was even made easier since we bummed into the same female assistant who served us yesterday at different brunch (which we went to).
What a fortunate event, we didn't have to pay for another ring.
We ate claypot dishes with rice at AMK ave 10 hawker this evening. Sweet ordered Asiam Fish while I ordered Sesame Flavoured Chicken. Hehe.. the fish was was stingray fish. Since the chicken were those chopped chicken which i find it pretty hard to eat. I drank most of the sauce. Ate a mouthful of fish of Sweet's. It's so delicious, we even wanted to try again sometime soon!
Not forgetting to mention, afternoon Sweet and I lunched at Gela`re. Had the famous large waffle with maple syrup and two scoops of ice-cream (Vanilla Chocolate and Raspberry). Mmmh.. Yummy!
Today morning was my first marketing lecture with our local lecturer, Patricia Chia. Abit of embarrassing moment. You see, early morning before the lecture started, we were collecting our fresh lecture notes. She was behind me, requesting for a copy. Out of pure goodwill, I gave her one. Unexpectedly, when she went through the lecture notes with the class, she realised hers was not-completed. Omg. Zhen Ze was making fun of me, reminding that I was the person who passed her the lecture notes. Omg. Oops.
Hehe, after lecture, when I board bus 61 to meet Sweet, there's this guy who board the bus from the same stop. However his EZ link card was missing. Sigh. I was thinking, why am i witnessing so many other people's unlucky happening.
What a jinx I felt in the beginning of the day. (Erm.. Hope my closest friend Clara is feeling better now). Thankfully, it changed for the way-better after I met Sweet! Perpetual "Love 4Eve". Cross thy heart.
Today is a reeeaally significant day! Sweet and I finally exchanged our vows and couple rings today! Initially, we planned to do this special ocassion on our Monthiversay next week. However, both of us lover-birds just couldn't wait! It was a really really extremely fun, informal way of doing it. Yet, we followed the normal procedure like those couples dawn their rings on a formal wedding.
I feel so blessed. With soaring joy, so much my heart was singing. Mind went floating. Oops! hehe
As i've told Sweet earlier, we stepped on another stage of relationship. Binding us closer, cementing our deep love. It's been very successful, from our very first kiss, first fun time till now. Both of us were really happy over today.
Oh, a continual for yesterday's blog. We did manage to have our engravement hiccup resovlved. All was Sweet's brilliant idea. In the end, everything was even made easier since we bummed into the same female assistant who served us yesterday at different brunch (which we went to).
What a fortunate event, we didn't have to pay for another ring.
We ate claypot dishes with rice at AMK ave 10 hawker this evening. Sweet ordered Asiam Fish while I ordered Sesame Flavoured Chicken. Hehe.. the fish was was stingray fish. Since the chicken were those chopped chicken which i find it pretty hard to eat. I drank most of the sauce. Ate a mouthful of fish of Sweet's. It's so delicious, we even wanted to try again sometime soon!
Not forgetting to mention, afternoon Sweet and I lunched at Gela`re. Had the famous large waffle with maple syrup and two scoops of ice-cream (Vanilla Chocolate and Raspberry). Mmmh.. Yummy!
Today morning was my first marketing lecture with our local lecturer, Patricia Chia. Abit of embarrassing moment. You see, early morning before the lecture started, we were collecting our fresh lecture notes. She was behind me, requesting for a copy. Out of pure goodwill, I gave her one. Unexpectedly, when she went through the lecture notes with the class, she realised hers was not-completed. Omg. Zhen Ze was making fun of me, reminding that I was the person who passed her the lecture notes. Omg. Oops.
Hehe, after lecture, when I board bus 61 to meet Sweet, there's this guy who board the bus from the same stop. However his EZ link card was missing. Sigh. I was thinking, why am i witnessing so many other people's unlucky happening.
What a jinx I felt in the beginning of the day. (Erm.. Hope my closest friend Clara is feeling better now). Thankfully, it changed for the way-better after I met Sweet! Perpetual "Love 4Eve". Cross thy heart.
Monday, August 07, 2006
De one with "Care for present, not worry about Future"
Humid day
Today's Monday. Thankfully my 4-day school week is beginning. Thus, I didn't have to go to school today since I don't have computing class which falls on every Thursday.
Sweet went to see 911 Family Clinic at Sweet's house nearby. And I mean really nearby. Just come down from Sweet's block and walked up a sheltered walkway and wahla! There's the clinic. Really very sorry about meeting Sweet late. Despite pressing time-constrains concerns faced by Sweet, I still went jogging, blogged and did my time-table. End up, I arrived late at Sweet's place.
:: Really sorry!
Apparantly, the day didn't start off very well. First of all, Sweet was trying best to talk to me nice and soft but I was pretty harsh in my tone of speaking. Sigh. Then what could be worse when I messaged Sweet, trying to explain why I was late, why I did all those activities despite the time contraints and cautious assurance to Sweet how much Sweet matters to me. Only to lead to a misunderstanding of my implication (which I swear I didn't mean it) of me wanting to have more personal space. Sweet even start to feel that i'm giving up.
:: Sweet, I really shouldn't have said that. I can assure you that I'll never give up on you.
I suggested the both of us have Pepper Lunch at Ngee Ann City. Ooh.. Sweet was on a "no meat diet today". Therefore, Sweet ordered a Salmon Pepper Rice. While I order my usual Chicken Steak Combo. While enjoying, we kinda patched things up. Actually, it was Sweet who initiated. I feel so blissed. We communicate by writing on our soveits.
We bought our couple rings today. However there was a disappointing turn of events when we realised the engravement was wrong on our way back in the bus. Sweet was so deeply sorry. Kept saying it's Sweet's fault and apologising. I just try to lighten up the atmosphere. Keep laughing and taking it easy-going in attempt to make Sweet feel less self-blaming.
No doubt sometimes I don't deny that I feel very scared of Sweet being angry. However, everytime I feel Sweet's genuine care and true love towards me, it make me feel assured that I'm going to stick with Sweet and bear whatever Sweet scold, used harsh words on me.. Sometimes I do become unconfident (which puts Sweet off everytime) but I know it's unquestionable, that our feelings for each other is deep and honest.
I'll always bear in mind what my best friend Mohan said to me before. Don't worry about what's not there or the future. But rather, enjoy and appreciate the current wonderfuls I have in present.
Today's Monday. Thankfully my 4-day school week is beginning. Thus, I didn't have to go to school today since I don't have computing class which falls on every Thursday.
Sweet went to see 911 Family Clinic at Sweet's house nearby. And I mean really nearby. Just come down from Sweet's block and walked up a sheltered walkway and wahla! There's the clinic. Really very sorry about meeting Sweet late. Despite pressing time-constrains concerns faced by Sweet, I still went jogging, blogged and did my time-table. End up, I arrived late at Sweet's place.
:: Really sorry!
Apparantly, the day didn't start off very well. First of all, Sweet was trying best to talk to me nice and soft but I was pretty harsh in my tone of speaking. Sigh. Then what could be worse when I messaged Sweet, trying to explain why I was late, why I did all those activities despite the time contraints and cautious assurance to Sweet how much Sweet matters to me. Only to lead to a misunderstanding of my implication (which I swear I didn't mean it) of me wanting to have more personal space. Sweet even start to feel that i'm giving up.
:: Sweet, I really shouldn't have said that. I can assure you that I'll never give up on you.
I suggested the both of us have Pepper Lunch at Ngee Ann City. Ooh.. Sweet was on a "no meat diet today". Therefore, Sweet ordered a Salmon Pepper Rice. While I order my usual Chicken Steak Combo. While enjoying, we kinda patched things up. Actually, it was Sweet who initiated. I feel so blissed. We communicate by writing on our soveits.
We bought our couple rings today. However there was a disappointing turn of events when we realised the engravement was wrong on our way back in the bus. Sweet was so deeply sorry. Kept saying it's Sweet's fault and apologising. I just try to lighten up the atmosphere. Keep laughing and taking it easy-going in attempt to make Sweet feel less self-blaming.
No doubt sometimes I don't deny that I feel very scared of Sweet being angry. However, everytime I feel Sweet's genuine care and true love towards me, it make me feel assured that I'm going to stick with Sweet and bear whatever Sweet scold, used harsh words on me.. Sometimes I do become unconfident (which puts Sweet off everytime) but I know it's unquestionable, that our feelings for each other is deep and honest.
I'll always bear in mind what my best friend Mohan said to me before. Don't worry about what's not there or the future. But rather, enjoy and appreciate the current wonderfuls I have in present.
De one with "It's finally Weekend!" [Part 2]
So-so weather
Saturday. I attempted my very first time, skippin 1/3 of my Macroeconomics class. Omg. Guessed I must have had inadequate sleep the yesterday night, resulting in me nearly dozing off in class. Anyway, Sweet messaged me to ask if I was feeling guilty. I didn't feel so. Simply because I really didn't understand what the lecturer was talking about. It wasn't constructive. Hmmm.. his lecture was like a lullaby. But part of the reason was because I'm eager to meet Sweet!
I met Sweet at Sweet's house void deck since Sweet didn't like the idea of coming down to my school's busstop. Well, give it to Sweet. Soon enough, we met up and took a bus down to Orchard Road to get my facial moisturiser from Isetan Wisma. After which we grab some bite at Takashimaya's Crystal Jade Cakery and a donut store respectively. This was when we first had our first minor argument of the day. Sweet was worked up over me not telling earlier that I wanted to grab a bit at the Taka's shopping centre's "food corner". Otherwise, Sweet won't have brought at Crystal Jade's. Partly I guess was because I was really blocking other customers' way in the bakery. So I went outside to wait. Leaving Sweet alone in there, deprived of my accompany.
Talking about the most "intensive" event of the day. Sweet and I had a dispute. Sweet was super-dopper PISSED with something super offensive, demoralising and sensitive. You see, I was afraid when I didn't say things which I've said. That's why I said it. To Sweet, it was a real insult and Sweet took it as me having to speak without channelling through my brain. Sigh. Well, that wasn't the main reason why Sweet was super PISSED. IT was mainly due to me not consoling or dealing with the post-situation. In my perspective, I was just dealing the situation as what Sweet have told me before everytime there's a dispute. Which was to leave Sweet alone to calm down. Sigh. Obviously it didn't work. Sweet was pissed. We remained like this until we were in the cinema, watching "Click". I purposely brought Sweet's favourite Nacho's combo. And different from all the other days when we watched movies. I ordered Diet Coke despite it's against my habit of not drinking gassy-drinks. Sweet pushed the Nachos to me, saying "I didn't order this". The mild frustration took me over, I ruined the Nachos, causing the Nachos to mix with the cheese. Well, I apologised, through sms, that I was sorry over my non-chalantic attitude. Patched up by the end of the movie.
Oh. "Click". The movie was generally enjoyable. All in all, morale of the story was about remiinding us not to be too caught up with our ambition, desires and work but taking time and effort to appreciate and treasure beautiful aspects in life like family and taking things slow. The movie depicts a architect who recieved this remote control from "the angel of death" during his visit to a unsatisfying departmental store. He realised the wonders of the remote control, amazed by the fast-forward time events, ability to get whatever he wants and desires in life, all in the "click" of the remote control. However, the cons of this ability to control and get whatever he wants, started to come in. There was a loss of control over the remote, landing the lead-actor into the later years of his life in different varietion. It was all like revolving around the idea of someone being given a view into the future kinda story line.
Sweet and I had our 2nd indulgence into "crazy food" at MacPherson eating house. We tried new stuff, erm.. except the "nong hiam" retained. We ate a delicious $5-"Hokkien Mee" (our common favourite food), "popiah" and fruit juices to compensate some healthiness into sinful indulgence. Hehe.
Sweet and I went for a very late brunch at Ang Mo Kio. Had the famous curry puff and a disappointing bak chor mee at the S11 near MacDonalds. We ordered our usual: Waffle from Prima Deli bakery. Then.. when Sweet went for toilet at MacDonalds, we quarrelled again. It was a real miscommunication. Sweet just "detonated" in front of me. I appreciate Sweet's genuine care with 9 missed calls. However, I was like "what the fark". I didn't know a single thing, all I did was sat in MacDonalds and waited. Failing to even see you coming out of the toilet, whihc resulted you finding everywhere for me. Here you are, pouring your frustrated anger on me.
:: Sigh. I'm getting kinda worried. Will all these "short-fused" quarrels, disagreement and argument deteriorate our relationship as the years go by?
Saturday. I attempted my very first time, skippin 1/3 of my Macroeconomics class. Omg. Guessed I must have had inadequate sleep the yesterday night, resulting in me nearly dozing off in class. Anyway, Sweet messaged me to ask if I was feeling guilty. I didn't feel so. Simply because I really didn't understand what the lecturer was talking about. It wasn't constructive. Hmmm.. his lecture was like a lullaby. But part of the reason was because I'm eager to meet Sweet!
I met Sweet at Sweet's house void deck since Sweet didn't like the idea of coming down to my school's busstop. Well, give it to Sweet. Soon enough, we met up and took a bus down to Orchard Road to get my facial moisturiser from Isetan Wisma. After which we grab some bite at Takashimaya's Crystal Jade Cakery and a donut store respectively. This was when we first had our first minor argument of the day. Sweet was worked up over me not telling earlier that I wanted to grab a bit at the Taka's shopping centre's "food corner". Otherwise, Sweet won't have brought at Crystal Jade's. Partly I guess was because I was really blocking other customers' way in the bakery. So I went outside to wait. Leaving Sweet alone in there, deprived of my accompany.
Talking about the most "intensive" event of the day. Sweet and I had a dispute. Sweet was super-dopper PISSED with something super offensive, demoralising and sensitive. You see, I was afraid when I didn't say things which I've said. That's why I said it. To Sweet, it was a real insult and Sweet took it as me having to speak without channelling through my brain. Sigh. Well, that wasn't the main reason why Sweet was super PISSED. IT was mainly due to me not consoling or dealing with the post-situation. In my perspective, I was just dealing the situation as what Sweet have told me before everytime there's a dispute. Which was to leave Sweet alone to calm down. Sigh. Obviously it didn't work. Sweet was pissed. We remained like this until we were in the cinema, watching "Click". I purposely brought Sweet's favourite Nacho's combo. And different from all the other days when we watched movies. I ordered Diet Coke despite it's against my habit of not drinking gassy-drinks. Sweet pushed the Nachos to me, saying "I didn't order this". The mild frustration took me over, I ruined the Nachos, causing the Nachos to mix with the cheese. Well, I apologised, through sms, that I was sorry over my non-chalantic attitude. Patched up by the end of the movie.
Oh. "Click". The movie was generally enjoyable. All in all, morale of the story was about remiinding us not to be too caught up with our ambition, desires and work but taking time and effort to appreciate and treasure beautiful aspects in life like family and taking things slow. The movie depicts a architect who recieved this remote control from "the angel of death" during his visit to a unsatisfying departmental store. He realised the wonders of the remote control, amazed by the fast-forward time events, ability to get whatever he wants and desires in life, all in the "click" of the remote control. However, the cons of this ability to control and get whatever he wants, started to come in. There was a loss of control over the remote, landing the lead-actor into the later years of his life in different varietion. It was all like revolving around the idea of someone being given a view into the future kinda story line.
Sweet and I had our 2nd indulgence into "crazy food" at MacPherson eating house. We tried new stuff, erm.. except the "nong hiam" retained. We ate a delicious $5-"Hokkien Mee" (our common favourite food), "popiah" and fruit juices to compensate some healthiness into sinful indulgence. Hehe.
Sweet and I went for a very late brunch at Ang Mo Kio. Had the famous curry puff and a disappointing bak chor mee at the S11 near MacDonalds. We ordered our usual: Waffle from Prima Deli bakery. Then.. when Sweet went for toilet at MacDonalds, we quarrelled again. It was a real miscommunication. Sweet just "detonated" in front of me. I appreciate Sweet's genuine care with 9 missed calls. However, I was like "what the fark". I didn't know a single thing, all I did was sat in MacDonalds and waited. Failing to even see you coming out of the toilet, whihc resulted you finding everywhere for me. Here you are, pouring your frustrated anger on me.
:: Sigh. I'm getting kinda worried. Will all these "short-fused" quarrels, disagreement and argument deteriorate our relationship as the years go by?
Saturday, August 05, 2006
De one with "It's finally Weekend!"
Windy
You know what? It's finally week end! Thank goodness. After a week at school and i must admit, i'm really looking forward to this week end because it's a real get-away from all those intensive 3-hr lectures i have per day. Omg. Hmm.. it's been awhile since my last blog. *Oops*
Well well, life's going good but abit stressful than ever. Yesterday, I attended Kok Sin's birthday chalet at Downtown East. Phew! He over-ordered his BBQ stuff. We were like eating our fill and more than that, understanding and empathising his difficulty (of surplus leftovers) and efforts.
I must admit this was the BBQ session in which i was most hardworking *pat pat*
I peng hung for quite a long time. What an achievement. In addition that those food i cooked is not only edible but tasty..heh Kidding. It's ok-tasting lah. Or maybe it's just the quality of the catered food.
Anyway, went home very late yesterday. Didn't have much time to read up before my lecture today. Plus I had to do research for my marketing assignment project, which i only remembered when i got back.
Well.. Marketing assignment project... We're getting to start. For now, not much of discussion. Just a few during our in-between lecture breaks. So so.. got lots to be done.
Can you believe it! Saturday still have to attend lectures at school. Sigh. Hmm... next weekend too. Lessons for the whole day somemore. Sigh. Intended to skip but Sweet was pretty strict over my ill-thoughts about this. Thanks Sweet for your concern. I love you.
Hmm.. the rest? hehe.. catch up on my next blog. Oops..getting late for school!
You know what? It's finally week end! Thank goodness. After a week at school and i must admit, i'm really looking forward to this week end because it's a real get-away from all those intensive 3-hr lectures i have per day. Omg. Hmm.. it's been awhile since my last blog. *Oops*
Well well, life's going good but abit stressful than ever. Yesterday, I attended Kok Sin's birthday chalet at Downtown East. Phew! He over-ordered his BBQ stuff. We were like eating our fill and more than that, understanding and empathising his difficulty (of surplus leftovers) and efforts.
I must admit this was the BBQ session in which i was most hardworking *pat pat*
I peng hung for quite a long time. What an achievement. In addition that those food i cooked is not only edible but tasty..heh Kidding. It's ok-tasting lah. Or maybe it's just the quality of the catered food.
Anyway, went home very late yesterday. Didn't have much time to read up before my lecture today. Plus I had to do research for my marketing assignment project, which i only remembered when i got back.
Well.. Marketing assignment project... We're getting to start. For now, not much of discussion. Just a few during our in-between lecture breaks. So so.. got lots to be done.
Can you believe it! Saturday still have to attend lectures at school. Sigh. Hmm... next weekend too. Lessons for the whole day somemore. Sigh. Intended to skip but Sweet was pretty strict over my ill-thoughts about this. Thanks Sweet for your concern. I love you.
Hmm.. the rest? hehe.. catch up on my next blog. Oops..getting late for school!
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
De one with Sweet [Emolings]
No words can describe how much I love you
Sweet, I just want very much to tell you the following too. Partly it's because of my guilt, for saying this out-front and my undeniable inability to express myself openly. Since I tend to keep most matters in my heart.
I'm really Sorry for those which I have yet and what I can't provide and achieve for you. However, i'm willing to try my ulmost best to strive, just to see that smile on your radient face... create that drip of eternal happiness glowing from within the bottom of your caring and benevolent heart.
I'm a Leo. However, sadly, my birthday falls very near to Virgo. Perhaps it's because of this, that I'm also very in need of constant assurance, protection and understanding. I can be pretty overly-sensitive at times. Thus, whatever you mentioned about your nature as a Capricorn, I'm able to understand those faint side of the soul.
I, Jason Lek, really love you. I can promise to compensate my facial and verbal inexpressionism with my sincere actions of affection. 2ndly, you deserve more than anyone (besides my immediate family members) my undying eternal love, passion and affection. I'll promise that it will never cease or deteriorate but only improve, from the very first day till the never-coming and unforseenable end. 3rdly, please accept my obstinate need I feel within, as a bf, to care and support you, be it emotionally, physically, mentally or financially.
I wouldn't deny that I'm unable to pluck the stars, climb the highest mountain, swim the deepest sea or practically travel till the ends of world with you. However, I'll be more than willing to make whatever possible, within my means, to make the impossible possible to the best of my capability. And most importantly, I can die for you. Sounds cheesy, mushy, exaggerating or unbelievable.. but I will..serious.
No words can describe how much I love you, adore you, genuinely care for you.
No "I love you" in the countless internationally translation or the kisses we share every dusk and dawn can measure up to the limitless, undivided and pure wholehearted love Jason Lek has for you, Sweet heart. You matter a great deal to me.
Simply because I really love you. Now and forever.
Sweet, I just want very much to tell you the following too. Partly it's because of my guilt, for saying this out-front and my undeniable inability to express myself openly. Since I tend to keep most matters in my heart.
I'm really Sorry for those which I have yet and what I can't provide and achieve for you. However, i'm willing to try my ulmost best to strive, just to see that smile on your radient face... create that drip of eternal happiness glowing from within the bottom of your caring and benevolent heart.
I'm a Leo. However, sadly, my birthday falls very near to Virgo. Perhaps it's because of this, that I'm also very in need of constant assurance, protection and understanding. I can be pretty overly-sensitive at times. Thus, whatever you mentioned about your nature as a Capricorn, I'm able to understand those faint side of the soul.
I, Jason Lek, really love you. I can promise to compensate my facial and verbal inexpressionism with my sincere actions of affection. 2ndly, you deserve more than anyone (besides my immediate family members) my undying eternal love, passion and affection. I'll promise that it will never cease or deteriorate but only improve, from the very first day till the never-coming and unforseenable end. 3rdly, please accept my obstinate need I feel within, as a bf, to care and support you, be it emotionally, physically, mentally or financially.
I wouldn't deny that I'm unable to pluck the stars, climb the highest mountain, swim the deepest sea or practically travel till the ends of world with you. However, I'll be more than willing to make whatever possible, within my means, to make the impossible possible to the best of my capability. And most importantly, I can die for you. Sounds cheesy, mushy, exaggerating or unbelievable.. but I will..serious.
No words can describe how much I love you, adore you, genuinely care for you.
No "I love you" in the countless internationally translation or the kisses we share every dusk and dawn can measure up to the limitless, undivided and pure wholehearted love Jason Lek has for you, Sweet heart. You matter a great deal to me.
Simply because I really love you. Now and forever.
De one with 2nd Day at SIM
Rising temperatures
Today was a rather short but kinda miserable day at school. Although early in the morning I was super early to arrive at SIM around 0930hrs. 15 mins earlier than i was supposed to meet Zhen Ze. This was due to my very first time making my trip to SIM on bus 74. I left house before 9am. By 0902 am i was already at the neighbourhood busstop. It didn't start to panick me until the time was 0905am and bus 74 was no where to be seen. Plus the long jam of traffic along Marymount road which bus 74 was travelling along, it only made me more worry that I was going to arrive late at school. Thank goodness! The bus came sooner. I was so relieved lah when i finally board the bus. Well.. one worry off came another one dropping on my shoulders. THERE WAS NO SEAT when i climbed up the upper deck of the bus even the "seats available" indicator shown 55 available. OMG, what the... !!! Had no choice but to turn around and walked down the steps and settle for the lower deck. Fortunate enough, I managed to find a seat somewhere in between two gentlemen at the back of the bus. Hmmm... what a eventful morning to start the 2nd school day. Of course, I must not forget to credit the voodoo doll which Sweet and me have. Somehow must be the lucky charm brought by the "traveller" voodoo (plus a pinch of love power) which made everything (the bus coming in time, seat available)!
=P
Oki.. let's talk about what happened in school. Only had marketing lecture in the morning (damn shiok because it's half-day in school. However, prone side was I travelled so far and spent on transportation just to be in school for short duration of 3hrs.) Thankfully, it's greatly compensated because i get to see and spend time with Sweet after school! hmm...
(tian mi mi~)
Well.. better not digress.. Oh.. as i was saying.. Today, unknowingly, I couldn't comprehen whatever Dr Con, the lecturer (who came late for lecture by the way) was teaching. Sigh. Next bad experience was my inferiority complex set in today. Depressing me a gret deal. You see, i had a minor group discussion (thankfully we had a group of 6 by the end of lecture yesterday). However, when the others asked for my opinion, I was tongue-tight. Obviously I was worried that the group may think that I'm not participating. After lecture resumed, everything got worst! Dr Con talked about how to deal with people who the group feels is not contributing to the project. Omg. That moment, I got so lost and shakened. Will my group members think badly of me.. that my inability to express myself verbally, might be misunderstood as my unwillingness to contribute or participate? Then again.. other bothering troubles start to flood my lost mind. It was about what Sweet mentioned about in blog.
Yesterday, I got worried and lost after having read Sweet's blog. In the blog, it was mentioned that Sweet was finding it very difficult to know about my thoughts and feelings. We had a solemn chat over the phone, discussing about the challenges (which i know it's all about me) which both of us are facing. I really fear losing Sweet. Whether Sweet will find other better bf than me and dump me there-after. I fear Sweet might get tired. Tired of trying to know me inside-out. Fear that Sweet will leave me due to reasons like "we can't click", "no common shared interest".. Fear that one day, Sweet might just give up on me. All these pessimistic and demoralising inferiorities rushed continunously and unstoppably into my head, as though currents were gushing out upon the triggered opening of dam-gates.
It didn't take very long before I start mis-reading Sweet's message. I got over-sensitive over simply phrase like "I don't want to disturb you anymore". Then came the depressing trama which was too overwhelming which landed me to break down and cry. I just couldn't help it. My heart was overflowing with tears... to a degree near how i felt when I lost the one I loved to God.
Apparantly, we cleared our doubts and insecurity on our perspective of opposites' love for each other. Today, Sweet and I spent a light outing together. Had lunch at the other Bukit Timah East neighbourhood coffee-shop (the "rivalling" coffee shop). It was so sweet that Sweet paid for my lunch.
Yeserday night, something pissed me off. In additon, today's inferiority complex made me day worse. Miraculously, my worries and troubles simply fade away upon the sight of Sweet. I felt so happy I called Sweet the moment I left the boring lecture theatre and walked eagerly, waiting and praying hard for the bus to come faster so that I could meet Sweet.
Went to Causeway Point to have our identical E900's screen protection film to be done. There was an awkening moment whereby it couldn't be more obvious that Sweet and I are unmistakably love-birds, judging from our identical E900 hp, hp strapes and voodoo dolls attached. *blushes*
It wasn't long after a loving time spent at Bishan before we dined at Toa Payoh's Pasta Mania. I must apologise.. to Sweet. Cause every now and then I ordered my usual Ice Lemon Tea which Sweet doesn't like drinking due to the high sugar content. Sincere apologies Sweet.
:: Thank you Sweet.. for all your console and cheering me up. Not forgetting that treat today. Thank you very much.
Tomorrow's half day at school again. And SEEING Sweet again. Yippee! Tomorrow will definately be BETTER!
Today was a rather short but kinda miserable day at school. Although early in the morning I was super early to arrive at SIM around 0930hrs. 15 mins earlier than i was supposed to meet Zhen Ze. This was due to my very first time making my trip to SIM on bus 74. I left house before 9am. By 0902 am i was already at the neighbourhood busstop. It didn't start to panick me until the time was 0905am and bus 74 was no where to be seen. Plus the long jam of traffic along Marymount road which bus 74 was travelling along, it only made me more worry that I was going to arrive late at school. Thank goodness! The bus came sooner. I was so relieved lah when i finally board the bus. Well.. one worry off came another one dropping on my shoulders. THERE WAS NO SEAT when i climbed up the upper deck of the bus even the "seats available" indicator shown 55 available. OMG, what the... !!! Had no choice but to turn around and walked down the steps and settle for the lower deck. Fortunate enough, I managed to find a seat somewhere in between two gentlemen at the back of the bus. Hmmm... what a eventful morning to start the 2nd school day. Of course, I must not forget to credit the voodoo doll which Sweet and me have. Somehow must be the lucky charm brought by the "traveller" voodoo (plus a pinch of love power) which made everything (the bus coming in time, seat available)!
=P
Oki.. let's talk about what happened in school. Only had marketing lecture in the morning (damn shiok because it's half-day in school. However, prone side was I travelled so far and spent on transportation just to be in school for short duration of 3hrs.) Thankfully, it's greatly compensated because i get to see and spend time with Sweet after school! hmm...
(tian mi mi~)
Well.. better not digress.. Oh.. as i was saying.. Today, unknowingly, I couldn't comprehen whatever Dr Con, the lecturer (who came late for lecture by the way) was teaching. Sigh. Next bad experience was my inferiority complex set in today. Depressing me a gret deal. You see, i had a minor group discussion (thankfully we had a group of 6 by the end of lecture yesterday). However, when the others asked for my opinion, I was tongue-tight. Obviously I was worried that the group may think that I'm not participating. After lecture resumed, everything got worst! Dr Con talked about how to deal with people who the group feels is not contributing to the project. Omg. That moment, I got so lost and shakened. Will my group members think badly of me.. that my inability to express myself verbally, might be misunderstood as my unwillingness to contribute or participate? Then again.. other bothering troubles start to flood my lost mind. It was about what Sweet mentioned about in blog.
Yesterday, I got worried and lost after having read Sweet's blog. In the blog, it was mentioned that Sweet was finding it very difficult to know about my thoughts and feelings. We had a solemn chat over the phone, discussing about the challenges (which i know it's all about me) which both of us are facing. I really fear losing Sweet. Whether Sweet will find other better bf than me and dump me there-after. I fear Sweet might get tired. Tired of trying to know me inside-out. Fear that Sweet will leave me due to reasons like "we can't click", "no common shared interest".. Fear that one day, Sweet might just give up on me. All these pessimistic and demoralising inferiorities rushed continunously and unstoppably into my head, as though currents were gushing out upon the triggered opening of dam-gates.
It didn't take very long before I start mis-reading Sweet's message. I got over-sensitive over simply phrase like "I don't want to disturb you anymore". Then came the depressing trama which was too overwhelming which landed me to break down and cry. I just couldn't help it. My heart was overflowing with tears... to a degree near how i felt when I lost the one I loved to God.
Apparantly, we cleared our doubts and insecurity on our perspective of opposites' love for each other. Today, Sweet and I spent a light outing together. Had lunch at the other Bukit Timah East neighbourhood coffee-shop (the "rivalling" coffee shop). It was so sweet that Sweet paid for my lunch.
Yeserday night, something pissed me off. In additon, today's inferiority complex made me day worse. Miraculously, my worries and troubles simply fade away upon the sight of Sweet. I felt so happy I called Sweet the moment I left the boring lecture theatre and walked eagerly, waiting and praying hard for the bus to come faster so that I could meet Sweet.
Went to Causeway Point to have our identical E900's screen protection film to be done. There was an awkening moment whereby it couldn't be more obvious that Sweet and I are unmistakably love-birds, judging from our identical E900 hp, hp strapes and voodoo dolls attached. *blushes*
It wasn't long after a loving time spent at Bishan before we dined at Toa Payoh's Pasta Mania. I must apologise.. to Sweet. Cause every now and then I ordered my usual Ice Lemon Tea which Sweet doesn't like drinking due to the high sugar content. Sincere apologies Sweet.
:: Thank you Sweet.. for all your console and cheering me up. Not forgetting that treat today. Thank you very much.
Tomorrow's half day at school again. And SEEING Sweet again. Yippee! Tomorrow will definately be BETTER!
Monday, July 31, 2006
De one with 1st day @ Uni!!
Hot day
Today's blog entry will be another really long one simply because it includes yesterday and today!
Omg. Lame.. Here goes..
Met Sweet yesterday around late morning. Apparantly i woke up later as planned. We went to the nearby Bukit Batok East neighbourhood distinct to eat. The most funny thing is there were 2 coffee shops which bears the same name. However, they were seperated. According to Sweet, the amazingly suprise is that these two different coffee shops are like "rivals" where food can't be bought over. Omg. What the... Anyway, we ordered some dim sum: hak kaow, xiu mai (the usual), dumpling, scallop and lotus gratinous rice. Omg.
The weather wasn't really desirable as it turned grey and started to rain heavily. We decided to postpone our plans of going out straight and went back to Sweet's house. We intended to go back to book movie tickets online as Sweet wanted to watch Fast and Furious, Tokyo Drift. But eventually, we scraped the idea as it was too expensive and rather inappropriate.
Being kind enough, the rainning ceased gradually. Enabling us to set out for Orchard. We walked around for awhile at Wisma Atria as Sweet said it was too early to be going down Great World City for the anticipating collection of our newly bought handphones. I was like sneezing. Oops, i forgot to mention Sweet was so caring to make me Lemsip, the flu-reliever drink. Miraculously, the short shopping trip at Wisma kinda provided a temporary cure for my flu. Hehehe.
We arrived at Great World City around 3+pm. Collected our hp from a different assistant. For the benefit of the condition of our new paid products, Sweet was firm in ensuring and demanding that the hps are new. Apparantly, Sweet was like so "fierce" until the assistant was frightened of Sweet. Omg. Indeed, the seal for the hp boxes were broken. However I believe there was a reason for the breakage due to them having the need to check for the supposedly-existing SD card, which was missing from the package. Both of us were overjoyed, having our new Samsung E900!!! Sama sama hps.. omg.. so loving right? wee-oy-wii~~
After that, we went back to Orchard again via a free shutter bus from GWC. In attempt to look for appropriate hp pouch. In vain, we proceeded to Bugis Street. Landing us with a final decision to get a side-zip, 2-toned brown hp pouch! 12 bucks for both! Worth it lor!
I had the best, healthiest fast-food eating experience with Sweet (i'm so proud of it!) at SUBWAY! We ordered an upsized Oak wheat bread with Turkey breast sandwich..with 2 different sauces (Southwest & Red wine dinederette) and stuffed with the whole range of vegetables available! Mmmh.. Yummy!! We also nibbled on the delicious cookies, namely Macademia, Raisin Oak and Chocholate.. simply scrumptious and filling!
It was a really hot sun-blazin evening.. we decided to take a bus down to Marina Square. Just because we wanted to find MiniToons outlet to fulfil our decision to change our commonly-own voodoo dolls. After a hard decision on which to change to and purchase, we went to AMK since Sweet had to get the medication for Sweet's cold sore. After which i sent Sweet to the bus-stop. Both of us were as tired from all the day's travelling. However, we were very glad that we've got our hps!
.....
5am in the morning, i woked up to close the windows since a thunderstorm occured. Decided to deliver a sweet good morning message to Sweet before falling back into sleep again. By accident, Sweet's hp called me. We chatted for awhile. Within 24 hours later and we were already complainning about our new E900. Omg. Apparantly we were not used to the hp and the sensitive touch pad feature. There were other arising undesirable "flaws" about not being able to use the text message dictionary. Hehe..
I woke up again around 0730am. By the irritating high pitched voice of Jasmine! Omg! Despite my effort to leave house as early as 9am. Mrting down to Clementi mrt station took longer than speculated. I only managed to meet Zhen Ze (who was in the same RMIT accountancy course as me) at 1105 hrs, 20 minutes later than our agreed time-to-meet. The bus to SIM was packed with students. To the extent we had to stand on the steps for boarding.
First day of school. A total refreshed experience at a new school. Omg. It brings back the memories of us on our first day in primary school. Adapting to the new study environment and having to undergo the bothering attempt to meet and know new teachers and fellow schoolmates! Sigh. It feels so alienated! Not forgetting, today marks the end of my relaxing and carefree post-ORD holidays! Omg.
We started off with an intensive but relaxing introduction to our course. BBAC. And of course, the "enriching" tour around the campus. Nothing much. Well...maybe the enjoyable thing can be the catered-for lunch bah... Not being gean bpeg.. but well.. it's something at least that was welcoming. Haha. Not forgetting, I met up with familiar faces like Jonathan Chua, Andrew.. BMT mate, Hao Xiang.. and Jc mate, Hui Hua.
Followed up was the 3 hours long lecture. The first lecture of my spent at SIM: Introductory to Marketing. Conducted by the coordinator himself, Dr Con Stevron, a lecturer from RMIT Melbourne. What did i learn? Erm.. what Marketing really means.. It's not selling or advertising but rather, Planning.. which brings to achieve selling of a product. Well.. what a day. First day in lecture and we're instructed of our assignment: the group project. Sigh. IT really puts us demoralised as we barely know each other and we've to like what? fight hard to form into groups of 6. Omg.
Thank goodness, we managed to form one by the end of the lecture.
Met Sweet for dinner. We even went to places like IMM and Jurong East to look for the protective screen for our E900 as it is really proned to scratches. Sadly, we didn't manage to find it.
Apparantly, Sweet didn't have a good day. Sweet worked so hard at work but unfortunately, didn't get promoted even having underwent a tiring course.
I accoyed Sweet to visit the family doctor. Sweet had inflammation in the right eye. Diagnosis was that Sweet's eye was already suffering from initial inflammation.. the dry eye lenses caused
abrasion..making the inflammation worse.. Thankfully, it's ok now..
:: *huggies and kisses* Sweet.. it's not about the promos but it's more of the leadership and qualities you have as a personnel. I love you always. We're progessing really well... really..
Today's blog entry will be another really long one simply because it includes yesterday and today!
Omg. Lame.. Here goes..
Met Sweet yesterday around late morning. Apparantly i woke up later as planned. We went to the nearby Bukit Batok East neighbourhood distinct to eat. The most funny thing is there were 2 coffee shops which bears the same name. However, they were seperated. According to Sweet, the amazingly suprise is that these two different coffee shops are like "rivals" where food can't be bought over. Omg. What the... Anyway, we ordered some dim sum: hak kaow, xiu mai (the usual), dumpling, scallop and lotus gratinous rice. Omg.
The weather wasn't really desirable as it turned grey and started to rain heavily. We decided to postpone our plans of going out straight and went back to Sweet's house. We intended to go back to book movie tickets online as Sweet wanted to watch Fast and Furious, Tokyo Drift. But eventually, we scraped the idea as it was too expensive and rather inappropriate.
Being kind enough, the rainning ceased gradually. Enabling us to set out for Orchard. We walked around for awhile at Wisma Atria as Sweet said it was too early to be going down Great World City for the anticipating collection of our newly bought handphones. I was like sneezing. Oops, i forgot to mention Sweet was so caring to make me Lemsip, the flu-reliever drink. Miraculously, the short shopping trip at Wisma kinda provided a temporary cure for my flu. Hehehe.
We arrived at Great World City around 3+pm. Collected our hp from a different assistant. For the benefit of the condition of our new paid products, Sweet was firm in ensuring and demanding that the hps are new. Apparantly, Sweet was like so "fierce" until the assistant was frightened of Sweet. Omg. Indeed, the seal for the hp boxes were broken. However I believe there was a reason for the breakage due to them having the need to check for the supposedly-existing SD card, which was missing from the package. Both of us were overjoyed, having our new Samsung E900!!! Sama sama hps.. omg.. so loving right? wee-oy-wii~~
After that, we went back to Orchard again via a free shutter bus from GWC. In attempt to look for appropriate hp pouch. In vain, we proceeded to Bugis Street. Landing us with a final decision to get a side-zip, 2-toned brown hp pouch! 12 bucks for both! Worth it lor!
I had the best, healthiest fast-food eating experience with Sweet (i'm so proud of it!) at SUBWAY! We ordered an upsized Oak wheat bread with Turkey breast sandwich..with 2 different sauces (Southwest & Red wine dinederette) and stuffed with the whole range of vegetables available! Mmmh.. Yummy!! We also nibbled on the delicious cookies, namely Macademia, Raisin Oak and Chocholate.. simply scrumptious and filling!
It was a really hot sun-blazin evening.. we decided to take a bus down to Marina Square. Just because we wanted to find MiniToons outlet to fulfil our decision to change our commonly-own voodoo dolls. After a hard decision on which to change to and purchase, we went to AMK since Sweet had to get the medication for Sweet's cold sore. After which i sent Sweet to the bus-stop. Both of us were as tired from all the day's travelling. However, we were very glad that we've got our hps!
.....
5am in the morning, i woked up to close the windows since a thunderstorm occured. Decided to deliver a sweet good morning message to Sweet before falling back into sleep again. By accident, Sweet's hp called me. We chatted for awhile. Within 24 hours later and we were already complainning about our new E900. Omg. Apparantly we were not used to the hp and the sensitive touch pad feature. There were other arising undesirable "flaws" about not being able to use the text message dictionary. Hehe..
I woke up again around 0730am. By the irritating high pitched voice of Jasmine! Omg! Despite my effort to leave house as early as 9am. Mrting down to Clementi mrt station took longer than speculated. I only managed to meet Zhen Ze (who was in the same RMIT accountancy course as me) at 1105 hrs, 20 minutes later than our agreed time-to-meet. The bus to SIM was packed with students. To the extent we had to stand on the steps for boarding.
First day of school. A total refreshed experience at a new school. Omg. It brings back the memories of us on our first day in primary school. Adapting to the new study environment and having to undergo the bothering attempt to meet and know new teachers and fellow schoolmates! Sigh. It feels so alienated! Not forgetting, today marks the end of my relaxing and carefree post-ORD holidays! Omg.
We started off with an intensive but relaxing introduction to our course. BBAC. And of course, the "enriching" tour around the campus. Nothing much. Well...maybe the enjoyable thing can be the catered-for lunch bah... Not being gean bpeg.. but well.. it's something at least that was welcoming. Haha. Not forgetting, I met up with familiar faces like Jonathan Chua, Andrew.. BMT mate, Hao Xiang.. and Jc mate, Hui Hua.
Followed up was the 3 hours long lecture. The first lecture of my spent at SIM: Introductory to Marketing. Conducted by the coordinator himself, Dr Con Stevron, a lecturer from RMIT Melbourne. What did i learn? Erm.. what Marketing really means.. It's not selling or advertising but rather, Planning.. which brings to achieve selling of a product. Well.. what a day. First day in lecture and we're instructed of our assignment: the group project. Sigh. IT really puts us demoralised as we barely know each other and we've to like what? fight hard to form into groups of 6. Omg.
Thank goodness, we managed to form one by the end of the lecture.
Met Sweet for dinner. We even went to places like IMM and Jurong East to look for the protective screen for our E900 as it is really proned to scratches. Sadly, we didn't manage to find it.
Apparantly, Sweet didn't have a good day. Sweet worked so hard at work but unfortunately, didn't get promoted even having underwent a tiring course.
I accoyed Sweet to visit the family doctor. Sweet had inflammation in the right eye. Diagnosis was that Sweet's eye was already suffering from initial inflammation.. the dry eye lenses caused
abrasion..making the inflammation worse.. Thankfully, it's ok now..
:: *huggies and kisses* Sweet.. it's not about the promos but it's more of the leadership and qualities you have as a personnel. I love you always. We're progessing really well... really..
Saturday, July 29, 2006
De one with Friday & Saturday before sch opens
Drizzles and Clouds
Friday evening went to meet Sweet for dinner-supper at Balestier. Sweet had a bad day at work and in the evening, something about me which made the day even "shocking" for Sweet. You see, Sweet called, expecting me to pick up the call. However, my hp was far within reach since i left it on the computer's table for charging. And I was napping. Judy picked up the call. So ya, Sweet got a shock.
Anyway, we had a superb and delicious prata. After which we dragged time since our late-night movie at Bishan J8 wouldn't start until 2355hrs. Went to watch The LakeHouse. It's a very usual love story about two people, who lived in different time, actually got to communicate their "long-distant relationship" through a mailbox outside a common place which they both stayed at, which was a simple glassed Lake house. The ending was really unbelievably thrilling. You see, Alex, an architect, was trying his best to meet up with the doctor, Kate, who lived two years ahead of him at the time of their communication. They planned to meet up in 2006 Valentine's Day at a restaurant (best in town) upon Alex's reservation in 2004. However, in 2006, when Alex saw Kate who was having lunch with her mother across the road, Alex met with a traffic accident. End up, missing the appointment with Kate. In 2008, Kate happened to leart about Alex's accident two years ago, through her acquitance upon an architecture client meet at Alex's brother's firm. Kate rushed to the lakehouse's mailbox and post a letter, telling Alex (who was living in 2006) to wait for her two years later and meet him at the lake house in year 2008. Thus, helping Alex to escape meeting with the accident. In the end, did Alex manage to read Kate's letter and the lovers met up in year 2008? Watch the movie yourself lah!
Hehe..You're going to kill me.. Oki. They did met up. It was so touching!
Sweet was like, unable to figure out what the whole show was about after watching it. I had to explain. After that, we spent a wonderful night and morning. Lovely.
Sweet finally decided and was supportive over the purchase of Samsung E900. Hehe. Before that, on Thursday, the both of us were already shopping for the same hp strapes and voodoo dolls, as if we were shopping for clothings in anticipation of our new born baby. Omg. However, sadly, even we've paid, the hp wasn't in our reach. This is because, the E900 is supposed to come with a SD card. However, the package didn't include the SD card. Thus, the dealer would get the SD card for our hps and request that we collect the hps tomorrow.
Sweet and I had a quarrel today. I was really sorry that I said stuff which were indirectly hurtful. But..well, we managed to reconcile. Assured each other that our love will be unshakened. :)
Friday evening went to meet Sweet for dinner-supper at Balestier. Sweet had a bad day at work and in the evening, something about me which made the day even "shocking" for Sweet. You see, Sweet called, expecting me to pick up the call. However, my hp was far within reach since i left it on the computer's table for charging. And I was napping. Judy picked up the call. So ya, Sweet got a shock.
Anyway, we had a superb and delicious prata. After which we dragged time since our late-night movie at Bishan J8 wouldn't start until 2355hrs. Went to watch The LakeHouse. It's a very usual love story about two people, who lived in different time, actually got to communicate their "long-distant relationship" through a mailbox outside a common place which they both stayed at, which was a simple glassed Lake house. The ending was really unbelievably thrilling. You see, Alex, an architect, was trying his best to meet up with the doctor, Kate, who lived two years ahead of him at the time of their communication. They planned to meet up in 2006 Valentine's Day at a restaurant (best in town) upon Alex's reservation in 2004. However, in 2006, when Alex saw Kate who was having lunch with her mother across the road, Alex met with a traffic accident. End up, missing the appointment with Kate. In 2008, Kate happened to leart about Alex's accident two years ago, through her acquitance upon an architecture client meet at Alex's brother's firm. Kate rushed to the lakehouse's mailbox and post a letter, telling Alex (who was living in 2006) to wait for her two years later and meet him at the lake house in year 2008. Thus, helping Alex to escape meeting with the accident. In the end, did Alex manage to read Kate's letter and the lovers met up in year 2008? Watch the movie yourself lah!
Hehe..You're going to kill me.. Oki. They did met up. It was so touching!
Sweet was like, unable to figure out what the whole show was about after watching it. I had to explain. After that, we spent a wonderful night and morning. Lovely.
Sweet finally decided and was supportive over the purchase of Samsung E900. Hehe. Before that, on Thursday, the both of us were already shopping for the same hp strapes and voodoo dolls, as if we were shopping for clothings in anticipation of our new born baby. Omg. However, sadly, even we've paid, the hp wasn't in our reach. This is because, the E900 is supposed to come with a SD card. However, the package didn't include the SD card. Thus, the dealer would get the SD card for our hps and request that we collect the hps tomorrow.
Sweet and I had a quarrel today. I was really sorry that I said stuff which were indirectly hurtful. But..well, we managed to reconcile. Assured each other that our love will be unshakened. :)
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
De One with Chin Yu
CHRONICLES Of CHUM
This late morning, Chin Yu messaged me about him stumbling upon my blog. The first thing he mentioned was ask whether I have a gf. Sigh. Obviously i didn't want anyone (who haven't got access to my blog) to know about my new found relationship. Well, it was later discovered that he had nothing better to do, end up discovering my blog by accident. Well, here's one to you, bestest friend!
Tan Chin Yu. My bestest friend. We only started to know each other better after we were posted to the battalion upon graduation from ASC. Though we were formerly from the same detachment during ASC. However, we weren't close because I was more of my Det 5 click and Mohan (who i'll mention in another entry). While Chin Yu was more familiar with Guo Xian, a good friend who took care of me when we went up to the first Ex. BattleKing in Thailand.
Formerly from TPJC. Joined choir but he's super ah-beng alike. Haha. Loves ice-hockey. Plays in a team which is even better than our Singapore national team. He was the BEST PT during our ASC course. Great runner who always kana all the participation in x-ctry representation and all that. Even though he didn't like running at all. Haha.
Ever since..erm.. I think after once when we started going out together during one of the holiday, i think. We got to enjoy each other's accompany and started finding each other out for shopping during nights off. It's really funny. Now that you ask me how we started to get to know each other and how the hell did our friendship developed, I'm clueless. Omg.
I guess it's the common understanding bah. Of course, we've been through thick and thin together. All the participation in numberless x-ctry, running events... and our favourite hangout places for eating and movies: Orchard.
The thing with Chin Yu is, he's an easy going person. Sometimes, he's self-responsible and upright leadership really impress me. Motivates me too. He knows what he wants and is sure about stuff. Things he doesn't understand, he'll ask and find out. That's part of which make me feel comfortable being friends with him.
Of course, not forgetting the great help in Thailand when my mummy passed away. It really made me very grateful for having a caring friend like him. Thanks man, bestest friend.
After ORD, we continued going out now and then. We even went for our driving theories together at Yio Chu Kang's SDCC.
Sicne Chin Yu will be going NTU for material engineering and a few months back, I was really wanting to get into NTU. We even decided to wanna apply halls together. Sadly, I didn't get admitted. He was like waiting all along for the results of my application, then again, my appeal outcome. Sigh. What a friend...
Omg, I've got tears.. hehe.. Just KIDDING!!
Yup, hopefully, our friendship will last and we'll still go out even after we're studying in different school.
This late morning, Chin Yu messaged me about him stumbling upon my blog. The first thing he mentioned was ask whether I have a gf. Sigh. Obviously i didn't want anyone (who haven't got access to my blog) to know about my new found relationship. Well, it was later discovered that he had nothing better to do, end up discovering my blog by accident. Well, here's one to you, bestest friend!
Tan Chin Yu. My bestest friend. We only started to know each other better after we were posted to the battalion upon graduation from ASC. Though we were formerly from the same detachment during ASC. However, we weren't close because I was more of my Det 5 click and Mohan (who i'll mention in another entry). While Chin Yu was more familiar with Guo Xian, a good friend who took care of me when we went up to the first Ex. BattleKing in Thailand.
Formerly from TPJC. Joined choir but he's super ah-beng alike. Haha. Loves ice-hockey. Plays in a team which is even better than our Singapore national team. He was the BEST PT during our ASC course. Great runner who always kana all the participation in x-ctry representation and all that. Even though he didn't like running at all. Haha.
Ever since..erm.. I think after once when we started going out together during one of the holiday, i think. We got to enjoy each other's accompany and started finding each other out for shopping during nights off. It's really funny. Now that you ask me how we started to get to know each other and how the hell did our friendship developed, I'm clueless. Omg.
I guess it's the common understanding bah. Of course, we've been through thick and thin together. All the participation in numberless x-ctry, running events... and our favourite hangout places for eating and movies: Orchard.
The thing with Chin Yu is, he's an easy going person. Sometimes, he's self-responsible and upright leadership really impress me. Motivates me too. He knows what he wants and is sure about stuff. Things he doesn't understand, he'll ask and find out. That's part of which make me feel comfortable being friends with him.
Of course, not forgetting the great help in Thailand when my mummy passed away. It really made me very grateful for having a caring friend like him. Thanks man, bestest friend.
After ORD, we continued going out now and then. We even went for our driving theories together at Yio Chu Kang's SDCC.
Sicne Chin Yu will be going NTU for material engineering and a few months back, I was really wanting to get into NTU. We even decided to wanna apply halls together. Sadly, I didn't get admitted. He was like waiting all along for the results of my application, then again, my appeal outcome. Sigh. What a friend...
Omg, I've got tears.. hehe.. Just KIDDING!!
Yup, hopefully, our friendship will last and we'll still go out even after we're studying in different school.
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
De one with Our 1st Argument
Windy
It didn't occur to me that Sweet and I will ever have to go through this: Our very first argument.
Met Sweet at Causeway Point today. Supposedly went there to dine at Pasta Mania. However, I really have no idea why is it everytime i meet Sweet, no doubt earlier I'd be so loving and saying all that I miss Sweet. However, unexplainably, when i meet Sweet, there's nothing on my expression and of course, making it worse, my inability to speak out.
We were mrting down Toa Payoh when Sweet suddenly flared up. It was so unexpected. Sigh. I didn't know how to coax the situation. We just wondered around the neighbourhood, both sulked-faced. With occassional harsh discussion over our problem.
Thankfully, after dinner, I suggest taking a stroll in the park before sending Sweet to the bus-stop. We talked about our current problem and all that happened today. Simply because i didn't want anything to affect our relationship. We had a short and improper chat. Sweet said it wasn't a problem but rather something both of us should learn. And that I should learn to be open and expressive. There were some sweet talk too.
Well... quarrels are undesirable.. however, it surely brings two even closer once resolved.
It didn't occur to me that Sweet and I will ever have to go through this: Our very first argument.
Met Sweet at Causeway Point today. Supposedly went there to dine at Pasta Mania. However, I really have no idea why is it everytime i meet Sweet, no doubt earlier I'd be so loving and saying all that I miss Sweet. However, unexplainably, when i meet Sweet, there's nothing on my expression and of course, making it worse, my inability to speak out.
We were mrting down Toa Payoh when Sweet suddenly flared up. It was so unexpected. Sigh. I didn't know how to coax the situation. We just wondered around the neighbourhood, both sulked-faced. With occassional harsh discussion over our problem.
Thankfully, after dinner, I suggest taking a stroll in the park before sending Sweet to the bus-stop. We talked about our current problem and all that happened today. Simply because i didn't want anything to affect our relationship. We had a short and improper chat. Sweet said it wasn't a problem but rather something both of us should learn. And that I should learn to be open and expressive. There were some sweet talk too.
Well... quarrels are undesirable.. however, it surely brings two even closer once resolved.
Monday, July 24, 2006
De one with Last day of lunar 6th month
Sunny with rain in the afternoon
Today marks the last day of the 6th month in the Chinese lunar calendar. Well..which means tonight, lots of people might be burning incense paper to welcome the traditional 7th Chinese Month which is the Hungry Ghost Festival.
Well, alot of people said it's the most inauspicious month of the year. Wonder if it's just pure coincedence, everytime it will be a rainning season. Otherwise, strong winds will occur. Recalling back those nights i helped my granny pray and burn incences paper at our void decks. I used to imagine that such winds are brought about by ghosts who are roaming so fast, sweeping away and snatching their share of wealth from the burning incences. Of course, there's no scientific explaination. haha. Me and my own imagination again!
Recall last time of this year, i was so damn sway to be put as COS (Company Orderly Sergeant) on the eve of 7th month. It so happened everyone was on off that day. Sigh. It was so damn scary to stay in the office all alone. On the very next day, Chin Yu and I went to watch the release of "The Maid". Omg. Boy..it was a thrilling 7th Month 2005. haha. A year earlier, during 7th month, i was also down for guard duty. Had to prowl the camp at night. It's damn terrifying because you'll never know what you might bum into. Especially in unlit areas like the famous toilet which is believed to be huanted by a boy who will cause the chair inside to topple off ground, making the chair stand only on one leg. Omg.
All our grandparents and older generations would always have their part of tales to share. Some examples like forbidding us to visit the swimming pool. And running in the park in the evening.
Well.. come to think of it. It's really amazing such tales still so appealing to us despite without any prove, just pure heard-say.
Well... I hereby hope nobody would experience any bad or unlucky situation. Sigh. School's starting soon for me! I can't believe it that my post-ord holiday's gonna end so soon.
Today marks the last day of the 6th month in the Chinese lunar calendar. Well..which means tonight, lots of people might be burning incense paper to welcome the traditional 7th Chinese Month which is the Hungry Ghost Festival.
Well, alot of people said it's the most inauspicious month of the year. Wonder if it's just pure coincedence, everytime it will be a rainning season. Otherwise, strong winds will occur. Recalling back those nights i helped my granny pray and burn incences paper at our void decks. I used to imagine that such winds are brought about by ghosts who are roaming so fast, sweeping away and snatching their share of wealth from the burning incences. Of course, there's no scientific explaination. haha. Me and my own imagination again!
Recall last time of this year, i was so damn sway to be put as COS (Company Orderly Sergeant) on the eve of 7th month. It so happened everyone was on off that day. Sigh. It was so damn scary to stay in the office all alone. On the very next day, Chin Yu and I went to watch the release of "The Maid". Omg. Boy..it was a thrilling 7th Month 2005. haha. A year earlier, during 7th month, i was also down for guard duty. Had to prowl the camp at night. It's damn terrifying because you'll never know what you might bum into. Especially in unlit areas like the famous toilet which is believed to be huanted by a boy who will cause the chair inside to topple off ground, making the chair stand only on one leg. Omg.
All our grandparents and older generations would always have their part of tales to share. Some examples like forbidding us to visit the swimming pool. And running in the park in the evening.
Well.. come to think of it. It's really amazing such tales still so appealing to us despite without any prove, just pure heard-say.
Well... I hereby hope nobody would experience any bad or unlucky situation. Sigh. School's starting soon for me! I can't believe it that my post-ord holiday's gonna end so soon.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
De one with Superb Saturday!
Cloudy and warm
It's only half way through the weekend and i already feel pretty worn out. Haha. Have been running to lots of places and getting fat lah, eating so much stuff.
Friday morning met Sweet. So lovely of Sweet to come all the way to my granny's place to find me. I brought Sweet to have lunch at this famous bak kuh teh. After that, stayed at home and watched VCD. Since Daddy was coming home, we decided to go out to "walk walk" around town. Look around and stopped at Marks and Spencers' to purchase a few items before proceeding to have a delicious Thai crusine at this simple restuarant in Golden Mile Complex.
We ordered pineapple rice which tasted too sweet and could have been better. Pat Thai (kway tiao), prawn-cakes (which is similar like breaded fish), hotplate black pepper Beef which wasn't served sizzling hot and too starchy.. erm.. one more dish but i couldn't remember what was it (or maybe no more..haha). Anyway, our stomachs were like damn filled!
Night time went to have supper with "bro" and Andrew. Since both Sweet and me had our full in dinner, end up meeting them just to watch them eat. Sigh.
Saturday morning was beautiful. My heart just sang out when i woke up and see Sweet around.
We lazed abit and went out to Sweet's house and lunch nearby, before our visit to a Thai temple at Bukit Merah for prayers.
The next place we went to was the most fun part. We went Arab Street to browse at Essential oil. Heard from Sweet that such essential oils are non-alcohol, organic and concentrated, therefore it last very long just after putting a bit. They even mixed to the smell which you want, from the wide variety of samplers which a varied range of esters. Most of it are even used for scent in oils for body massage. Otherwise, for aroma-therapy purposes.
We had a chill out at Bugis TCC, followed by walking at Suntec before stopping at Novena for a famous traditional chicken rice.
It was a pretty tiring yet worthy and wonderful period of time spent together with Sweet.
Life's beautiful all over again this summer-spring!!
It's only half way through the weekend and i already feel pretty worn out. Haha. Have been running to lots of places and getting fat lah, eating so much stuff.
Friday morning met Sweet. So lovely of Sweet to come all the way to my granny's place to find me. I brought Sweet to have lunch at this famous bak kuh teh. After that, stayed at home and watched VCD. Since Daddy was coming home, we decided to go out to "walk walk" around town. Look around and stopped at Marks and Spencers' to purchase a few items before proceeding to have a delicious Thai crusine at this simple restuarant in Golden Mile Complex.
We ordered pineapple rice which tasted too sweet and could have been better. Pat Thai (kway tiao), prawn-cakes (which is similar like breaded fish), hotplate black pepper Beef which wasn't served sizzling hot and too starchy.. erm.. one more dish but i couldn't remember what was it (or maybe no more..haha). Anyway, our stomachs were like damn filled!
Night time went to have supper with "bro" and Andrew. Since both Sweet and me had our full in dinner, end up meeting them just to watch them eat. Sigh.
Saturday morning was beautiful. My heart just sang out when i woke up and see Sweet around.
We lazed abit and went out to Sweet's house and lunch nearby, before our visit to a Thai temple at Bukit Merah for prayers.
The next place we went to was the most fun part. We went Arab Street to browse at Essential oil. Heard from Sweet that such essential oils are non-alcohol, organic and concentrated, therefore it last very long just after putting a bit. They even mixed to the smell which you want, from the wide variety of samplers which a varied range of esters. Most of it are even used for scent in oils for body massage. Otherwise, for aroma-therapy purposes.
We had a chill out at Bugis TCC, followed by walking at Suntec before stopping at Novena for a famous traditional chicken rice.
It was a pretty tiring yet worthy and wonderful period of time spent together with Sweet.
Life's beautiful all over again this summer-spring!!
Thursday, July 20, 2006
De one with Getting Better
Sunny
Phew.. after 2days, i'm finally getting better and recovering from that detestable flu which brought along it's friends fever and cough. Nevermind.. i'm just talking crap. I supposed my brain's overheated. haha.
Well, Sweet and I were progressing very well..until yesterday night. You see, Sweet was tired and wasn't chatting much on the phone. ME, being partially sick and normally quiet, didn't talk much too. That was when Sweet ask if i'm always like this. Sigh. That instant, my heart slowed down. Something's not right. Well..the reason to breakup is building up. No matter how much i kept repeating in my blank mind, nothing just pop out for my to converse about. Sigh.
What's comforting is that we're getting closer. Even to the stage when we're sorta telepathically connected..mind and soul. I'm sick. Sweet's down with fever too.
Well.. not a very good form of connection but well... at least we're feeling as one.
Nothing much happening. Sleep eat, take medicine. Can't jog. Can't do any form of cardio. Sigh. It's really killing me. Omg.
Well, tomorrow's the big day! Sweet and I are really going to spend the whole day together! Jiayou Jason!
Phew.. after 2days, i'm finally getting better and recovering from that detestable flu which brought along it's friends fever and cough. Nevermind.. i'm just talking crap. I supposed my brain's overheated. haha.
Well, Sweet and I were progressing very well..until yesterday night. You see, Sweet was tired and wasn't chatting much on the phone. ME, being partially sick and normally quiet, didn't talk much too. That was when Sweet ask if i'm always like this. Sigh. That instant, my heart slowed down. Something's not right. Well..the reason to breakup is building up. No matter how much i kept repeating in my blank mind, nothing just pop out for my to converse about. Sigh.
What's comforting is that we're getting closer. Even to the stage when we're sorta telepathically connected..mind and soul. I'm sick. Sweet's down with fever too.
Well.. not a very good form of connection but well... at least we're feeling as one.
Nothing much happening. Sleep eat, take medicine. Can't jog. Can't do any form of cardio. Sigh. It's really killing me. Omg.
Well, tomorrow's the big day! Sweet and I are really going to spend the whole day together! Jiayou Jason!
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
De one with Flu
Cloudy
Ever since yesterday night, the detestable flu virus caught me. Sigh. Have feed on countless panadol for cold and anti-hysthamine but sadly, results weren't as desired. Sigh.
I got so pissed with this nose, machum like a loose tap water hose. Sigh.
This afternoon went Suntec with Mohan. Surprisingly, though we've not met for quite a while, we hardly had anything to chat about. Hmm.. partly it's because i was having flu bah. Thus, experiencing some problem having a smooth conversation. Glad we had the basic coffee, chat and chilling out like past time. He had cheese cake and Java Frap. I had my chicken ugly puff and Tazo Earl Grey tea (instead of my normal Caramel Frap since Sweet advise me to refrain from Frap).
Nothing much except having made a trip to Candy Empire and Citylink.
Sigh. I really HATE to be sick! x'(
Ever since yesterday night, the detestable flu virus caught me. Sigh. Have feed on countless panadol for cold and anti-hysthamine but sadly, results weren't as desired. Sigh.
I got so pissed with this nose, machum like a loose tap water hose. Sigh.
This afternoon went Suntec with Mohan. Surprisingly, though we've not met for quite a while, we hardly had anything to chat about. Hmm.. partly it's because i was having flu bah. Thus, experiencing some problem having a smooth conversation. Glad we had the basic coffee, chat and chilling out like past time. He had cheese cake and Java Frap. I had my chicken ugly puff and Tazo Earl Grey tea (instead of my normal Caramel Frap since Sweet advise me to refrain from Frap).
Nothing much except having made a trip to Candy Empire and Citylink.
Sigh. I really HATE to be sick! x'(
Sunday, July 16, 2006
De one with Sweet Sunday
Rain and sunshine
It didn't rain in the morning so went for a light jog. Met Sweet to lunch and jalan jalan. Omg. Sweet is such a sweet person. I just mentioned that i wanted to eat Thoisay and *snap of the finger*, here we are, eating a filling Thoisay Masala. (pardon me for my mis-spelling of the Indian delicacy)
We went to Bugis to pray at Kwan Yin temple. Super crowded. Due to some ceremonial event there. Remember i was in the mist of the crowd, Liang Jin Ru's Yong Qi chorus kept playing over and over again. Reminding me of the phrase: (translated: Even in a crowd abyss, I can still feel your pressence. Put your heart at hands) That was the exact moment i felt when Sweet and I got caught in the crowd. I guess i'm truly in love.
Finale of the day ended at Westmall. After dinning at a long-queue "battered" at Swensons, we walked around and do our necessary agenda. Subconsciously, i was rather worried. I guess I didn't change as much. The sad fact is that i'm still as non-outspoken. I'm trying my best to change.
For you, my knowledgeable and compassioned Sweetheart.
It didn't rain in the morning so went for a light jog. Met Sweet to lunch and jalan jalan. Omg. Sweet is such a sweet person. I just mentioned that i wanted to eat Thoisay and *snap of the finger*, here we are, eating a filling Thoisay Masala. (pardon me for my mis-spelling of the Indian delicacy)
We went to Bugis to pray at Kwan Yin temple. Super crowded. Due to some ceremonial event there. Remember i was in the mist of the crowd, Liang Jin Ru's Yong Qi chorus kept playing over and over again. Reminding me of the phrase: (translated: Even in a crowd abyss, I can still feel your pressence. Put your heart at hands) That was the exact moment i felt when Sweet and I got caught in the crowd. I guess i'm truly in love.
Finale of the day ended at Westmall. After dinning at a long-queue "battered" at Swensons, we walked around and do our necessary agenda. Subconsciously, i was rather worried. I guess I didn't change as much. The sad fact is that i'm still as non-outspoken. I'm trying my best to change.
For you, my knowledgeable and compassioned Sweetheart.
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