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Sunday, August 20, 2006

De one with Unforgettable Certainties

Windy; falling leaves

A very long time ago, I listened to Love stories by 93.3FM. There was a phrase which imprinted deeply in my mind...

" There's no event that's unforgettable...
only unforgettable feelings...
"

The night before, I was fretting, struggling with my attempt at a Problem 5.7 of my accounting textbook. I got my first taste of the bitterness of Accountancy when the left side (Assets) and right side (Liabilities + Equity) of my worksheet just couldn't balance. Wasted 4 sheets of fullscape papers.. then I thought how wonderful if my late-mummy was still alive. She would have known how to teach me since she was an accountant. Of course, this selfishness wasn't what matters more... since I knew I'll have my way to get through this.

Rather, my rememberance of her unpressence triggered a stir of intense feeling... a pure yet harsh longing for her to be around.. I miss her.. the bitter unforgettable certainty that she's not longer around. It hurts inside-out. Very brutally heart-shattering. Causes every pores of my skin to become overly freezing with fear. Fear of facing up to the certainty that a loved one is gone forever. Fear of facing up to the fact that these held back tears are gonna fall again...

Yesterday, when I returned back from my outing with fellow specs. Ah-ma told me that she woke up around mid-night last night and recognised the sight of the side-view of a lady with short-curled hair. My beloved late-mummy was sitting in the living room's coffee table, facing the television.

Of course, I was shakened by ah-ma's account. Is it because it was a pity I didn't manage to see wat ah-ma saw? Or because I miss her so dearly? Of course, I didn't cry on the instant. I hardly cry in front of others. However, my heart was flooded with soaring tears.

:: Mummy, I hope you're coping well and peaceful in wherever you are now in your better after-life.

*sobs* =' )

De one with Mohan

CHRONICLES Of CHUM

Weekend during my army stint, always reminded me of Mohan. Mohan Gopalan, is one of my closest friend (other than Chin Yu) during my time at 23SA. Before that, we've already knew each other from ASC since both of us were from the same detachment.

I believe both of us were started our friendship solely because we were both the same type of people, who perfers to share within a small companionship rather than the opposite. I remembered I saw him before in SISPEC, Foxtrot company when we were both literally suffering under the instructors of our detestable OC, WO Oh Cheng Kah, as both of us were struggling with our SOC. (damn xiong!)

Hehe.. miraculously, both of us graduated from SISPEC (perserverance and garang-iness ok.. :D) and made it into the same vocation. Recalled our frist time going out was we booked out and met up at Thompson Plaza to have late-night coffee at Starbucks. (He was the person who introduced me to Starbucks). Our friendship developed from then ever since. Met up and started going out every now and then. Example, going out during our nights out. Even after being posted to 23sA, we went out for shopping, eat, movies more often.

Mohan and I share the same interest. During shopping, we would look at books, music. Mohan provided me the companionship to booast my confident to try things I've never done before like shopping. It's always better to walk into a shop to look around when a friend is with you, offering you suggestions and feedback whenever you can't decide.

We're very simple person. Whenever anyone of us asked if each other is free, immediately, we just agreed the time and venue on the spot, almost instantaneously! As time passes, we grew to become more understanding, in terms of our fashion taste, each other's characters as if we were old friends even though our friendship was merely a few months old.

It was because of him that I volunteered to join to represent the battalion for cross country run. End up, he didn't run, omg. Though, I always pursuade him to try his best, especially Army Half-Marathon.

Both of us love to argue. Since both of us are from different batteries, we like to voice our individual opinions, sharing each other's experience and frustration in army. It was in the milst of this that he taught me to stop being a push-over and being able to voice my views instead of following people by the nose. Why? Simply because Mohan is a lawyer-to-be. He's a former RI and RJC student. He's really one of the super few RI people who I feel comfortable being with. Though he comes from a wealthy family where both his parents are lawyers and his elder brother too, he's humble and independent.

One funny thing is we are very open in our chat topics. I can make racist jokes and he doesn't feel offended. When I'm down, he will always support me (like Chin Yu does). He's knowledgable.. perfect person to go to when ever I face language or knowledge difficulties or inadequacy.

We're very good friends indeed.

Saturday, August 19, 2006

De one with Halfway thru Weekend

Little drizzle, hot Sun

Phew..another week just passed by again. Before I know it, i've already became a 3 month old uni-student~

Today I met my fellow specs, Zhen Ze, Eric, Bojun, Jonathan and Sek Yeong. Although I was late, we had an enjoyable session at K-box in Parazzi Centre (somewhere near Cathay cinema). Omg. I was so bad in my vocals today. Couldn't get my tunes right. What an embarassing.

Bojun had Japanese-language class, so he left early before we ended our entertainment at 2+pm and headed towards Plaza Singapura to walk around. We called Jeffers to join us. While waiting, Eric left for home. The remaining walked towards Far East to meet Jeffers. Heeding suggestion from Jonathan, we had the "nice" chicken rice on level 4. Jeffers came to join us in time. We had a chatty conversation over dinner.

After which Jonathan and Sek Yeong left. Thus, Jeffers and me accompanied Zhen Ze who wanted to shop for scandals. In the end, he got a pair from Wisma's Beattle Bug. Nice!

Jeffers passed me a birthday present he got for me. It was a frame with a photo of our bunkmates, taken in NZ ex.Thunderwarrior in the beginning of the year! (Thank you alot Jeffers!) And I've got a new long-awaited Braun Buffel hard leather wallet!! Can you believe it, Sweet's favourite brand was Braun Buffel (YEAH!!). But she now pocess my favourite brand, Pierre Cardin. What a lovely part of each other in our belongings!

Talking about Sweet whom I miss terribly. It feels like my heart nearly got breathless. We haven't met each other for 2 days liao. Yesterday was because I had to meet Mohan and later, supposedly supper with Clara. Unexpectedly, Clara had to rest due to some post blood-donation condition. So we end up cancelling the supper. Today, Sweet had to do some job to teach. In between, messaged Clara today. Glad to hear that she has recovered.

Friday...

We had our very first lecture with our local accounting lecturer. He started the lesson with an impact opening. Emphasising that he is not here to teach but educate us. A little background info about Lecture Daniel. He's a civil engineer convert Accountant. Besides his CPA, he has MBA too. The funny reason he gave why he didn't achieve a doctorine degree, was that his brain isn't burnt or bonkers. Haha. He describes himself as a very radical accountant (hmm..a man of character). He doesn't like conducting lectures with useless and meaningless Powerpoint slides. Instead, he likes educating on whiteboard. He's lectures are fun (to rebuke the commonly thought that Accountancy's boring) and informally conducted. He loves us to respond "yes" to him. It makes him feels very appreciated. Overall, he's really a very down-to-earth and easily likeable educator. I feel so blessed that I have adaptable and educating-friendly lecturers! What a new pleasant learning experience which I think I'll not get at other local universities!

Nope, I'm not saying this because I'm tasting sour-grapes. I really mean it. I've experienced t myself.

De one with Art

ASPIRATION

From a very young age, my mummy have sent me to the nearby community centre for art class since art (basis drawing and coloring) appealled more to me to music (piano). Why? By right piano should be interesting and "investable". Unfortunately, i'm a very introvert and shy boy. I always didn't dare to be sent for piano lessons, thinking that lessons were always conducted in large classes.

I remembered during art class, there was this senior who always drew different things from us. He draws manga drawing and the teacher was lenient and encouraging towards him. Sigh. Well, used to be inquistive why he was in the same class as us. To a small extent, I was a little envious and jealous over him.

Anyway, I was was doing fine with my art lessons until one which let me had a taste of disappointment. It was a drawing and painting of frogs! You see my drawing was good. However, my undried paint smeared and everything turned out dripping down like a "blood flowing-down effect" when I held it up before the paint dried up. It was disastrous! The teacher gave me a very low grade for that. Omg! Ever since then, I started to hate using paint.

I recalled in my childhood days, my older cousin, Jasmine used to cry when she fret over her art homework. I remember there was this Chinese New Year project where she had to draw a picture of a Rooster since it was that Zodiac animal for the year. She cried pitifully because she just couldn't get the drawing right. My relatives asked me to help. Until then, she stopped crying. Haha.

My drawing craze had evolved alot over the years. I remember I love seeing things and drawing them ("mimicking-drawing") I used to draw my favourite childhood characters from Street Fighters. After which when I grew older, I was crazy over X-men. I recalled drawing every character, cut out their outline and play them like 2-D figurines. Hehe..silly right?

One amazing thing about then was I had the ability to memorise images in my mind. After which I would draw them out on paper. For example, I was watching an X-men episode where Phoenix was introduced. After the show, I drew a new character, the Phoenix, to be added to my new character collection.

Teachers used to love me for my art works. So much so that they always pin my art works up around in school. During primary school years, I was pushed for art competition (where I draw Beauty and the Beast with memory and lost because the other elder competitors were too strong)*embarrased* and inter-school mirror competition. In addition, my primary 5 form-teacher even asked me to design a logo for our out-camp. My most favourite thing to draw was MRT and orchids!

Closer at home, once, I draw a picture of the Eight Beauties of the World. It was divided into eight segments. In each, I draw character. My mummy love it so much, she pin it onto her table in office. I supposed she wanted to appreciate her son's art and show off to her colleagues bah!

Secondary school was much more happening. It was a major transformation as I had to start colouring with pastels and wet-paint, instead of colour-pencils which I was more comfortable with. Also, started learn and develop interest in drawing still-live and portraits. I recalled my classmate always exclaimed about how relaxed I was during our art examination. I used to do "Jay Chou's pose in Initial D", resting my head on one arm and drawing with the other. Secondary 2, there was this China guy who came to join the competition between me and another guy, Eugene Fu, who was very good in art too. End up, in a particular exam, the China guy, Zheng Peng, got first in class. Me second and Eugene, third. Sigh~

I realised too, that eggs and apples were the hardest to draw in still-live drawings.

Secondary 3 was fun. My home economics assignment to design a T-shirt was being show-cased in the Economics Room. My technical project, a toy train handcrafted out of wood, was displayed too! My literature teacher, Miss Tan was appreciative towards my talent for art. I recalled there was this project on Romeo and Juliet, with referrence to our text, I managed to draw Friar Lawrence with "PAINT" on computer with my right hand on the mouse. Since I was left handed, everyone were amazed! A1 for Art all the way! Those were the glory years for me.

I never stopped drawing art even after I got streamed to Science class during Secondary 3 and 4. Now and then I'll still draw. Started designing art ever since. I discovered the ability to resource around with what I see, improvise and integrating everything into designing. I was crazy over designing my name, Jason, so much during then! oops.

Ever since, I've grown more interested in other drawing technics like integrating calligraphic skills into multi-coloured design, stain glass drawings, mosaic and recently, impressionist drawing and experimenting colour-scheme of different cultures and nationalities.
Pictures really tells a million words. It is also a way for me to express myself.

It was until recently, I gave up Art due to -A-. It was a willing yet painful stupid decision. Well... hopefully I'll have the courage to pick up that pencil to draw again..

Friday, August 18, 2006

De one with The Other Side [Emolings]

Under light in shadows

Everytime I go for jogging recently, I feel disappointed and abit frustrated because I discover that I'm losing my stamina.

Why? I believe it's because my body is gainning mass due to my obligation to eat as Sweet wants me to. Sweet thinks I should eat regularly to grow and substain my lifestyle. However, I beg to be different at times. Especially, or should i say only when I go jogging and be conscious about my inability to perform.

I start to ponder am I really prepared to give up what I've worked so hard to achieve in the past 6 years.

However, what's undeniable is that I know my body. I've always worked in an unique way. And I know I will never gain back my running ability if I continue to indulge myself to my current diet.

Sweet suggest that it's all pyschological. Although I understand this however that thinking only works for the norm. I'm different. I'm able to run even if i didn't eat a day..or when i'm shagged after guard-duty the day before.

Sweet suggests the "to have energy, you must eat" theory. I feel this kinda diet is for people who want to gain muscle. You eat, because you need the carbohydrates and protein to gain mass so that your muscles can develop out of those mass. So that the muscle grows bigger overtime. Yes, my current diet will definately benefit if I'm working out.

However, running is another thing. No doubt it needs energy but it's one which requires way less the amount of carbohydrates you need for body-building. My body has experience superior condition before. And it's true, my past diet works best for me.

Sigh. Here's the dilemma. Presently, I think and i'm very sure, relationship is the more important and prioritised in my life. Life stages changes. I supposed my running talent is over and it's time to work on my relationship and adopt a less athletic kinda life.

But... come to think about it..it's my fault.. perhaps it's because i'm getting lazy..and eating alot, growing fat.. What a foolish person I am..

*bang my head against the wall*

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

De one with A Short One

Calm skies

Today morning I went for a 5km run. After which I prepared for school. Spend some time deciding what to wear. End up, wore an attire which I thought was abit "mismatched".

Macroeconomics took a big 360 degrees turn. Our local lecture, Mr Saminathan, made the lecture interesting and good with his informal and hilarious way of conducting the lesson. None of us fell alseep!

Left campus and took the first bus I saw, Bus 61. Intended to journey down Westmall to buy Sweet Vitamin C (with B-Complex) since Sweet looked kinda disappointed not being able to get it yesterday coz Sweet had financial difficulty.

However, I got down at Bukit Batok and took Bus 852 down Mac Ritchie. Transferred to Bus 165. Got down to OUB then to Thompson Plaza to deposit money from my birthday.

Met Sweet at AMK. IT was really very nice of Sweet to travel down. Ate bah chor mee at hawker. Got a pair of Parker Pen (meant for me from Sweet, as my birthday present. Muacks) and my birthday card for Alan (my good friend cum band-mate from secondary school years).
Got David Tao's lastest album (nice).

Sweet and I went to patron the pasah malum. Brought lots of food like Goreng Pisang, fermented dofu, Shark Fin's soup, Takopachi. I bought fishballs back home for Jasmine since she was yearning for some. We sat at a void deck to feast. What a day to grow fat!

Day ended when I send Sweet to the busstop like usual. Could see that Sweet was really tried from work. Heart aches abit.

Sweet even mention Sweet ate alot and grew to become more compassionate and benevolent even since Sweet knew me. Muacks.

De one with 32th day

Afternoon showers

Early morning, I had a delightful marketing lectures. Something unique occurred in lecture today. The lecturer finished her lesson for the day early. In view of this, she asked for a tutorial lesson in a discussion form. She gave us around 10 minutes of discussion. After which, she explained the way of how she was going to conduct the dicussion: "This is how I'll do it. I'll walk around and stop in front of you. And I'm gonna pass the mic to you. And I'll not leave until you've speaked something." Everybody was like so tensed up!

Heng heng, never kana me! phew! But this Bryan guy got the mic and he kinda talked too much in answering the question. Sigh. The lecturer made it a "bryan's benchmark". Initially, most of us (relieved not being choosen) were thankful to him for answering the question. However, when the lecturer took his answering style as a benchmark, all of us flown. I even heard people sitting behind me, commenting wanting to bash him up. Hehehe!

After marketing lecture I had to stay for a short dicussion with my assignment group. Just for nailing down on the specific product which our project's gonna be based on. We brainstormed..and finally decided on doing "Qoo" beverage. Cool. Now we've gotta do research before proceeding on.

During break time during half way through lecture, it was already rainning. Why? Perhaps it's as what Sweet had said. Everytime Sweet wanted to pray at a temple. It will always rain. I joked with Sweet, telling Sweet that Sweet must be a "hor sin" (it means rain-god or house-fly in hokkien). Apparantly Sweet must be a rain-god, causing rain just because of Sweet's praying at a temple. Anyway, too much diversion. I rushed through the rain, to the busstop. Waited for awhile till bus 61 came. By the time I alighted from the bus, my newly bought white Giodano berms was stained with dirt spluttered from the damp ground.

I went up to Sweet's house for awhile. While I waited for Sweet to get ready. At the same time, allowing more duration in hope that the rain would crease or reduce. We then set off for Bugis. Along the way, we stopped at Meridien Hotel to grab a bite from Old Chang Kee. We had hot curry puff in what-I-thought to be a cold day. What's nice was Sweet paid for it.

We prayed at Guan Yin Miao at Si ma lu. Then jalan at the OG nearby. Due to being unable to buy a decent Skinwear underwear, we decided to head towards Parco, I bought Sweet to Wet and Surf to get a new pair of brown Billabong slippers. I managed to get my underwear from Seiyu. We walked through other places like OP (which was rather disappointed we couldn't buy the slippers which i had an eye for upon seeing it) and the Edge for simple window shopping.

Having got tired of the place, we strolled down towards Raffles City. In between, we took a Strawberry sundae, Fries and fish dippers' break at Mac. In vain, we decided to mrt down to Lavender. Had a mistakenably unfinished claypot chicken rice. All thanks to Sweet! Hehe..ordered a $8 claypot rice instead of what we should have ordered: $4's.

Anyway, Sweet wanted to get Green tea, so we went to Golden Mile Complex's Thai Supermarket. Lovely. We then took a cab down Mustafa, just to get my 21st Century Anti-Acne tablets. Don't really know how or what it works...well..just feeding to try. Hehe. I was grateful and really proud of Sweet, for being so knowledgeable and street-smart. Indeed an informed economic consumer! hehehe Love you Sweet!

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

De one with Je t`aime [Emolings]

"A water pipe with occassional air bubbles stoppages"

Although attached for a month, somehow at times, I feel I still have a distance between you and me, Sweet.. Sweet get irritated because it's hard to make out what happen to me when I become blur or totally lost in a trance sometimes. Or I'll just simply lose myself in a "world of my own".

I'd love to tell you why, Sweet. However, I really don't know how to provide a satisfying answer. I mean, it's a habit like whaat everyones else have in themselves. Of course, not as weird and eccentric like mine.

Perhaps the appropriate reason is because I feel fatigue, I'll just let loose of my focus or concentration. A personal Hiatus. I do have a reason how i come about to have developed this habit. It's because I've faced absolute loneliness before during my secondary school days. That's why sometimes I can just wait for time to pass, staring blankly and lose myself.

I know I'm bounded by finacial limit. However, when i'm with Sweet. I just can't control myself, I just wanna provide for you.. be loving to you, giving you anything you desire. It's maybe a good way to compensate my inability to make you happy with my words or facial expressions.

I'm really striving alot to make conversation with you. Be more expressive. Yes, if i'm so comfortable with you, I should be able to talk like nobody's business. However, i'm sorry i'm really not that kinda overly-chatty person. Even when I'm with close friend like Clara or Chin Yu or even Mohan, I don't keep talking to them every now and then. Especially towards the last part of us (me with my close friends) going out, we hardly chat because both of us are tired and exhausted of topics to talk about.

I want to tell you everything I feel. However, there are times certain things I phrase it in a different way, bearing in mind to be sensitive. I really care too much for my partners' and friends' feelings. I don't wish to say things to offend or demoralise them. With you, I feel even more responsible over my words because of all people, I don't wish to hurt you in any way...

Nowadays, I really don't know why but I realised two changes in me. I'd like to specify first, it's not because of you who have caused this.

I've discovered firstly, I'm very offensive in my speech. I keep using the wrong expression phrases or words or incorrect statements. Secondly, I tend to lose my "stamina" for a conversation pretty fast. Sigh. I am really frustrated at myself for having these "disabilities"!

Well, inevitably, I'm worried that one day you'll just reach your limit of patience and start embarking on a new, better journey. I'm not habouring negative thoughts again. I just feel so. Don't I have the right to have freedom in how I feel? Sigh. It also strictly doesn't mean that all your assurance are disregarded. I appreciate it alot. But as what -A- told me before. Nobody is able to predict what will happen tomorrow or in the future.

In addition, I'm not saying I'm not going to follow what I've agreed with you, Sweet. I'll treasure my present with you and improve so that the relationship will continue.

This is another thing which demoralises me. I need my lover to be supportive and really pocess me. When I'm trying my best to make things back to the way they were, reconcile or when I do something wrong in your opinion, please don't "hack-care" me. Assure me of your constant attention, agreement, appreciation and compromise. I'll feel right in what I do.

Sometimes, I do feel jealous when I see you messaging your friends.. my doubts will never be cleared unless you tell me. Sigh. Perhaps I'm pocessive? or I'm really too afraid of getting hurt?
Anyway, I'll still respect your privacy if that's the way you define "transparency" until. I mean, I trust you because I love you dearly. However, I just don't want to be in a situation where you start getting to know another person and keep me in the dark. But then again, I wanna emphasise that I trust you still.

Hmm.. that's all for now... before I end, I still love you as much. The above won't affect my feelings for you. Cross thy heart.

Monday, August 14, 2006

De one with Our first Monthiversary

Sunny

Today marks an memoriable day. A day too special to be unforgettable. It's the one-month anniversary between me and Sweet!

Sweet took a half-day off today. So earlier I went to Mandai Columbarium to pay my visit to mummy (i really misses her alot). Something I've been doing on a monthly basis, revolving around the 13th. By the time I took bus 138 then subsequently, bus 13. Sweet was arriving in a cab. Sweet was so nice to buy me You Mian from the new eating outlet around my house area. Although Sweet called me earlier to ask me to go straight home to rest and wait for Sweet's arrival. I decided to go opposite to get Sweet's favour Waffle with Kaya from Prima Deli cakeshop. Thankfully, I managed to give a surprise to Sweet upon Sweet's done with buying the noodles.

We went back to have lunch as we watch channel 5 on tv. Then we enjoyed some private, loving time together. Until it was a quarter before 5pm did we leave from AMK central to change the white Gold ring ah-ma got for me for my birthday present, which was too small. Changed from size 15-16 after a short moment of confusion between the male assistant who make it so complicated because he measured my white gold ring and my couple ring to determine the size of my finger.

Sweet and I dined at Siam Kitchen at Suntec. Had a filling buffet. Even though Sweet wasn't fully satisfied with a few dishes. We ate our fill at our anniversay dinner. After which we patronise Giodano. Just simply amazed by their white-collection. We end up buying our first common clothing which was a pair of white casual berms. At first, I was worried that the white and thin fabric might enable a translucent reveal of the color of our undergarment. After trying, I realised it's not that visible. It's opaque actually. Thankfully!

We spent alot despite the both of us supposedly to be broke. Hehe. Earlier Sweet every bought a $33 key cum coin pouch. It was really a nice one.

I really appreciate Sweet coming down all the way because I wasn't travelling on concession. Overjoyed we spent some genuine loving time together. Cheers! Here's to our very first one month of relationship towards eternity! =D

Sunday, August 13, 2006

De one with Sapping Sunday

Slow Sunday

Today Sweet had to work over time. It's Sunday but Sweet still works for the benefit of getting more incentives for work. Thus, we could only meet up with each other during late afternoon.

Since so, I went jogging to cover a distance of about 4km in the morning, after having watched two episodes of Naturo Volume 11. Sigh. Just when it reaches the exciting part, the volume's finished. Sigh. Gotta wait until the next episode from Volume 12. As usual, I didn't have much stamina to run. Think me stamina and endurance are deteriorating.

Well, meet Sweet at the house area. After which we set off to Orchard to dine at Sakae Sushi at Wheelock Place. It was a $51 dinner lor. Boy we sure ate alot! Bloated, we walked to Heeren to shop at HMV, and the trendy shops upstairs. That was when Sweet started to feel I didn't talk much. Reason me being quiet was because I was concerned over Sweet, who told me Sweet was tired from work and waking up early. So I didn't want to engage Sweet into any conversation. Then I suggested going NUM but Sweet didn't wanna go in, so I changed my mind. What I replied when Sweet asked me why, about I'm able to come again with Chin Yu, made Sweet thrown temper at me again. Sweet was jealous, thinking why I enjoy shopping with Chin Yu. And always being gloomy when I shop with Sweet. And Sweet kept emphasing that because of Sweet's financial constrains, it made me shopping trip disappointing.

We had a short quarrelling. Sweet just walked off towards cineleisure. I really didn't know how to coax the situation. I lost my temper and suffered from a mere migraine instantaneously. We cooled down abit before going up Takashimaya and me guiding Sweet through how I shop usually.

We had an understanding chat in the library. That was when I realise the reason why Sweet never mention much about going for shopping much. It's because of finacial problems. Sweet's like me, we like to buy things everytime we see something we like. However when we shop but find it unaffordable, we feel depressed. I understand this. We had a chill-out and kissed each other to reconcile.

Sweet did a very loving thing: Brought a package of my favourite Famous Amos cookies for me. To my surprise, Sweet recognise my favourite Macadamia and Choc Chips cookies without me ever telling before. I was super touched by Sweet's sweet act. My heart really melt...

We spent an amount of time at Body Shop. In which I purchased a Lavender Body deodorant (to help Sweet relax due to quick-temper and stress), one Energising deodorant and Teatree mask for myself. Sweet, on the other hand, bought a facial wash, body scrub (which I choose the flavor for Sweet) and also renewed the membership. Spare the moment of embarrassment when Sweet presented an expired card initially. Omg.

I sent Sweet home. Sweet sent me and waited for my bus at the busstop. So loving...

I sense Sweet's starting to give up during this afternoon's quarrel. I can't help feeling in times like this, I ever question myself till when will I put up with this quick temper of Sweet's until I reached my limit. However, everytime I think of giving up, I just can't. Because my heart has already been so deeply love with Sweet. Parting with Sweet is like depriving myself of water, suffocating myself of air and I know life will crumple again.

Sweet, I really want you to know this, I will never leave you. Sigh.. my heart is sounding this devotion in banshee. Will you ever know of this?

Saturday, August 12, 2006

De one with Sweet & Steamboat celebration

Sunny day

Today, I did a very bad thing. I conveniently skipped my lecture and went to meet Sweet to swim cum sun-tan at Bukit Batok Swimming Complex. As what Sweet said, the place was indeed peaceful. In my opinion, it's likely due to the big area in which the benches are spreaded apart from one another, allowing for larger personal space. Sigh. End up, Sweet got tanner than me. Before showering, I wanted to swim longer at the medium pool. "Thank you and muacks" #1: Sweet was so lovingly patient, waited in the pool edge for me.

After that, we took a bus down to Westmall where we had a sumptuous meal at Malim (oops, can't recall what's the English name). We ordered standard and familiar dim sum: Xiu mai, Xiao long bao, Ling long bao glutinous rice, Fried carrot cake. Being adventurous, we tried other dishes like Fried Beancurd skin with You Tiao (You Tiao reminds me of Chin Yu, cause there was a moment I used this nickname on him, for pure teasing), Fried Prawn Fritters, Crumple Prok Bun and Pey Dan Congee. Last but not least, an anticipating Red bean pancake which turned out to be disappointing. Omg. "Thank you and muacks" #2: Sweet was adapting my eating habit of adding pepper with congee (when Sweet normally like congee with chili only).
"Thank you and muacks" #3: Sweet treat me. Not forgetting, we had a fun moment, serving each other tea. hehe. The food taste good. Especially the sample of spicy and sour cabbage. Plus the CUTLERIES (Sweet kept laughing when I said it wrongly as Utensilies) and eating plate were all different and varied in shapes.

After that, I said I wanna eat Mr Softee and Sweet brought me to the neighbourhood's 7-Elevens. I love Mr Softee alot! Ever since young, I used to go to a market place with my granny in the morning over every weekend. Without fail, she will buy me Mr Softee. Because I hate walking and the ice-cream was to cool me down and coax me into walking. Hehe. Pretty spolit kid right?

Sweet could sense I didn't wanna go back so early. So Sweet brought me to this Church of St Mary of the Angels, wanting me to meet someone.. who turned out to be the malaysian pastor there, Friar John. erm.. well, it's a highly modernised church with cool design and simple yet stylish architectured building. It's patron-Saint was St Francis of Assisi. A saint who loved nature and ever-kind to animals. That's part of what determine the simple design of the Church. Hehe.. Sweet asked me to close my eyes and guided me up to a columbrium. At the end of this stagment was Stain glass picture which caught my liking. It depicts the three scenes, namely the Baptise of Christ, St Anthony and St Francis Union of Hands and Lady Mary's visit from Saint Gabriel. I enjoyed depicting the whole picture and implications by Sweet and Friar John. Art never fails to tell a million words.

Back at home, Mama and Jasmine prepared steamboat celebration for an advanced 21st Birthday gala for me. When I just got home, ah-ma presented me with the presents they bought for me. It was a really beautiful and expensive white gold Ring and a bracelet! Super nice!! I adore and appreciate it alot!

Thanks everyone for everything. Love my family! and definately, I'll never forget my late-mummy. I think you will be happy for me in wherever you are. I feel it in my heart. Forever...

Friday, August 11, 2006

De one with Special movie

Cloudy

Early morning around 5am, I message Sweet my apologise for yesterday. I even attempt to make things better, sending Sweet a 20 sms-long message to Sweet, telling Sweet about nearly all the things I've realised, known and learnt about Sweet. From our first date, till stuff Sweet loves and Sweet's personal nitty gritty. It's to prove my sincerity and integrity as a bf. Show how much Sweet matters and have integrated significance into my life...

Today Business computing lecture was more interesting! The part about how "bytes" comes about. And the fascinating "base 2" and admirable fact about how the computer reads hexadecimals to produce "texts". It's really amazing how the computer hardware works. Simply complicated and brilliant!

After lecture when to meet Clara at Chinese Garden mrt. Sigh. On my bus ride from school. I boarded a rather crowded bus 52 at SIM busstop. Apparantly, not long after, I realised there was this available green seat. Upon the stopping of the bus at a busstop, I was about to take off my sling bag, preparing to seat when I saw two old ladies coming up. Abit of embarassment upon realising why people left the green seats empty. I was so paiseh. I sling back my bag again. Omg.

Upon reaching Clementi. There was this "barrier" of crowd taking their own sweet time to walk to the control station. Omg. I saw on the electronic train-arrival board, the train to Boon Lay was like arriving in 1 mins' time. I made my way through the annoyingly slow crowd, rushed up the flight of steps and managed to board the departing train before the doors closed behind me a couple of seconds later. Phew!!

We finally made our way to Jurong East Swimming Complex. Hehe.. my very first time there. After all that have been only described to me by the friends. It's really big. And more expensive than other complexes (50 cents more!) Then, the very 2nd embarrassing thing occur. I mistaken the changing room for boys as men's. Omg. I happily vocal out my bid goodbye to Clara so openly. Omg. It was a really embarrassing moment! We were both laughing like lunatics!

We swam at the competition pool, before going to the "round-about". It's actually a circle lane which has currents to propel you, best if you sit in a rented floats. We waited quite awhile for the most awaited man-made"sea waves". Nothing fun at the beginning. But one thing we observed was once the sea tides started, the pool start to draw alot of users to it. People were screaming and exclaiming. Some at the edges, trying to grab to the wall to climb stupidly, with aid of the tide. Others just sit on floats and get toppled by the tides and struggle to get back on again (Lame~). There are specially two persons. Me and Clara. Hehe, standing in th middle and trying to seek our share of fun. So I started to imitate the sound effects. I did a very silly funny action of going up and down with the tides and sound out "wuuuuuaooooooo". So lame but it made Clara laughing till her teeth nearly dropped! HAHA! I even act like i'm drowning, screaming like those little girls were, and the "escaping act" like we were chased by an approaching shark. Really lunatic!

After which I stayed with Clara till her boyfriend Shawn, came over to find her. I left and took a train to Bukit Batok. From there, I took bus 852 back. On the way, my eyes were irritated with the pool's chlorine, I fell asleep on the bus. It wasn't until Sweet called me the 2nd time to wake me up.

Sweet and I had dinner at Sumo AMK in the evening. Both of us order Udon. Kinda disappointing. Well.. thank god we had Nachos and "mixed nuts" to compensate our unsatisfied taste-buds! We sat all the way to the end of the cinema where both of us could have our private space. It was abit eerie in the beginning because we feel so alienated from the majority crowd, who were sitting in the middle cache. Fortunately, it didn't take long before we get used to and comfortable with our seatings. Sweet and I have a really "great" experience, watching "The AntZ Bully".

The Antz Bully is generally an animated movie, depicting the story about a young boy named Marcus who was always bullied by this neighbourhood bully, bigger in size and more popular than him. As a result, he starts to venge his angry on the ants which were having their nest in his front yard. Under the potion of a Wizard Ant, Marcus became as miniture as an ant. He realises and appreciates the value and situations of the ants, vulnerable to attacks by Warps and humans. In the end, Marcus tries to save his ant-friends and the colony of insects which were in distress with the Exterminator hired by Marcus himself right from the beginning of the story.

It was a rather enjoyable movie. Being with Sweet made it more worthwhile. hehe. But Sweet mentioned something which is true. The movie isn't just pure entertainment but bears the underlying morale. To teach us to value the lives of living things even to a tiny creature like an ant.

I feel there's alot more than that. Sweet agrees too. Antz Bully is also about learning the importance of true loyal friendship and team-ship. Both of us are seeing more things in common. I am really happy for us!!!

Thursday, August 10, 2006

De one with Nearly-disaster

Winds in Hot sun

Today was a really slow day. Met Sweet for dinner today. Travelled all the way to Westmall to have dinner. However, the valuable 2 hrs meeting end up turning into a disaster. I was being really worried. Sweet just keeps misinterpreting. Me on the other hand, being un-understandable, eccentric and negative. Thus, pissing Sweet off.

Most of the time, I feel very caught up of what's best to be done. It leads to a disappointing outcome. Sweet advised me not to be stressed. If i don't change myself considerably, how to fulfill all that's required or demanded of me as a bf? If I'd just be myself, I'll be all quiet and introvert. I really feel very strangled. I'm striving my best but most the time, the odds are too overwhelming.

Everytime this undesirable and unexpected situation or outcome arises, I try my best to coax Sweet, try to make things back the loving way as before but sometimes, I just feel so lost.. no answers pops in my mind... as though all my determination and comfort skills are drained out. Sometimes, I really feel like a slave-of-love to Sweet. But seeing Sweet, being with Sweet just melts me down, telling me it's all worthwhile.

I treasure this relationship alot. Rather, my full willingness and unconditional have proven myself to make me love this person wholehearted. Definately, this is not enough or helpful because i'm unable to make Sweet feel this way. There are still events and adversities which I can't control. However, I still pledge my love, cross thy heart..and gurantee I'll ensure something thou have thy love for eternal.

I must mention too.. I'm really apologetic.. I get too stressed easily..like what Sweet said, it only prevents me from performing. And I'm too pessismistic. Resulting in causing Sweet to feel insecure. How foolish I am. Well..i must change.. just give me time please?

De one with Relationship

Windy and sunny

After a 3hr lecture at campus and I was on the bus which takes me home. I suddenly come to realise more about what Vance told me before. That couples should do things which benefits the relationship, rather than for their individual selves.

Sweet was messaging me, proposing to make some changes in Sweet's life. Well, my natural reaction was being to feel inferior. That if Sweet underwent the changes, Sweet would become more attractive and that Sweet might just realise one day that I'm not good enough and might end up leaving me. That arouses my inferiority. Of course, I think about it. Partly, it's because I wanna stop all these "break-up" prophecy which is a form of pessismism (gets Sweet on the nerves). So I replied Sweet: "well, if it doesn't change much of you then go ahead".

In less than a minute after I replied, it occur to me to review what I've sent.
I did what I do best, focus, listen and think in an unprejudice, open-mind way. I came to realise I was being very selfish. And unsupportive towards Sweet. Simply because I'm afraid of losing Sweet, i've created a sort of restriction which might made Sweet happier and being able to achieve something.

I sent another message to Sweet : "nah, if it doesn't jeopardise anything, i should and i will support you in whatever you wish to do". In hope that it's strong enough to encourage Sweet. I did this because I want the greater good for the relationship which we share. Being supportive and encouraging are little ways to maintain a relationship. So it will last forever.

It's about putting aside what we want for ourselves or how and what we decided for our partners to be, and considering the benefits for the relationship itself which will eventually, most of the time, make both parties happy.

Of course, this is not the only way to make a successful relationship. There are other factors like compromises and sacrifices to make a wonderful relationship. Even though, definately this has a percentage which MAY contribute to a long-term lovely relationship. (Omg! Why are I writing in academic style!?! It's my blog! It's supposed to be MY PERSPECTIVE!) hehe

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

De one with Eau de Toilettes

Hot, hot, hot!

My very first encounter with Cologne or Eau de Toilettes, was after I've smell the nice smell coming from my primary 5 form teacher, Mr Chew. He will come into class, smelling the same as normal deodorant.

I don't really recall when I actually had my very first cologne. However luckily, I do remember the very first brand of cologne I got and where I got it from. My parents bought it for me at the duty free shop, on one of the trips back from Australia (our frequent vocation destination). Tommy Hilfiger's Tommy. My very first cologne. It has a very estatic peircing musky smell. It was the best and closest to the odour as the one in my first impression of colognes. Although it made me sneeze initially, I put on where ever I go. Thankfully, I got used to it.

After this, I start to develop a liking for colognes. Started to buy more on future overseas vocation. I started to find out more about which kinda cologne I like through Kris-shop magazine (the first thing I read onboard the plane everytime). The next one I set my eyes on was the newly-introduced Hugo Boss' Dark Blue cologne. I like the concentrated sandalwood smell. Very man lor! I remembered I sprayed it on everytime I went. On one very unfortunate event. My younger brother, Jimson, was vomitting on the plane. He's clothing was stenched and smelly. My mummy was finding a solution. So I suggested using my Hugo cologne. Wah-la! It worked perfectly well!

My next target was Polo Ralph's Polo Sport. I still remember the advertisement on magazine. Showing a black basketballer. Erm.. well, it's not him that made me buy Polo Sport. Rather, it's the genuine soothing mild smell it has. Recently, I have got another product by Polo : Romance Silver. It always creates an impression of True romance in a classy atmosphere.

Since I keep applying Hugo and Tommy so commonly. I started to crave for one unique brand for special occassion. That was when I purchase Armani for he. Hehe.. It is a refreshing yet still retaining the essense of a musky smell. It's long-lasting. I love it alot. Till today I still apply it whenever I wear formal clothings to attend important functions or performance. Recently, I got Armani's Black code (oops. Haven't open yet).

The most memorable cologne I've used for entirely 2 years (which was the longest period which I've ever stick to a cologne) was Hugo Boss in Motion. I must admit, in Jc I was growing to become sporty, Motion really appeal alot to me. The packaging of Motion captured me alot. Advertisement of models running. It bears alot of something I wanted and was recognised to. Plus it has my favourite fruit: Orange smell. My daddy bought alot of bottles of it. I figured I used up around 6 bottles of it. Putting it on everytime I went to Jc. Omg. It even represented me. My bandmate and close friend, Shuqing, used to say everytime before I was nearby. The smell of my cologne gave my pressence away!

I love Hugo Boss during early 2000. As I think Hugo's strong and thus, very lasting. It was worth buying. Till date, I have got 6 different products. Namely Boss dark Blue, Boss in Motion (normal, silver-blue and Christmas edition), Soul (same taste as Chin Yu) and Energise (my closest substitude to CK Crave).

Next is CK products. I've always though CK's were very expensive. It wasn't until I got my very first attraction to CK Eternity. It was the best substitude to Armani he. Apparantly, hearsay that it's the best product ever by CK for Men. Well, my opinion differs. I prefer CK Crave. It's sporty appeal attracted me. Plus, it's stylish translucent packaging made me like it even better. It produces a very awakening fresh, sporty smell. Unfortunately, it's no longer in production. Sigh. Not to worry. I have Contradiction, Be (which my 2nd ex influenced me to get it) and recently, CK One and Eternity Summer edition. Both of the summer edition made me discover my liking for fruity-smelling cologne. Otherwise, I guess it's due to Sweet too.

I love mild smelling colognes nowadays. Despite possible disadvantage that such colognes ain't last long time period. That's when I favour Kenzo Air and L'eau Par. Kenzo Air gives me a very boyish appeal and it makes me very energise at all time. On the other hand, L'eau Par bears a fruitty smell. Lemon. Simply lovely.

Talking about fruitty smell. No other cologne can match DKNY's Be Delicious. It has an apple smell. Hmm... always creating a very strong "healthy in style" kinda impression.

Haha..sorry but i'm not going to carry on introducing all types of colognes. If not the cows would have come home. What am i talking?!? I have a collection of 26 different colognes. Other than those I've mention above. My collection includes Tommy True Star, Burberry's Touch & Weekend, FCUK him and Higer Energy by Dior (bought by my cousin all the way from the US during her attachment).

Omg. Look forward to buying more but well.. Jason's financial department depleting of resources. Hehe..

De one with National Day

Hot, hot, hot!

Everyone gets very excite over NDP. Previously, people will queue overnight at National Stadium, desperately hopeful of getting their NDP tickets and of course, a "fong fu" goodie bag.. for others, to be a part of the grand celebration!

However, times have changed, so does administration and organisation changes. For example, to address the disappointment of people who spent overnight end up getting not even one ticket. The idea of balloting for NDP through AXS, was introduced. They said.. in this way, it allows every Singaporean to get a chance in lifetime to be able to participate in NDP. Yes, it does solve the trouble of preventing vain efforts and disappointment of people who queued overnight. However, seriously I think the idea about creating a fair-play is not really that effective bah. Oops. Maybe it hasn't been happening to me and people I've known.

Anyway, what doesn't change is the anticipation of the most spectacular Fireworks display. As all of us would know, it's only during NDP that Singaporeans get to see beautiful fireworks locally. It's really romantic. Imagine watching it with your loved one, along the river-side walkway. Keeping quiet, just enjoying the amazing sight of fireworks display. More than ever, enjoying the accompany of your lover. Ooo... simply overly passionately romantic.

Other than that, I guess what most people won't wanna miss will be the respectful Marching Contigent formation. Parade, definately isn't what most public get to see. Especially if one is not even involved in NS. What most people don't really realise is the actual pain of having to stand at "serdiya" (attention) position for such a long time. Omg. Personally, I experienced this during my SYF while we wait for our results. Sigh. The pain is having to stand at attention, "stomach in, chest out", "chin up".. and not being able to figid as the beads of prespiration tickle down your nose-bridge and eye corner. Hehe.. You fear that if you move, you might ruin the uniformed formation and worst, draw someone's attention and get criticised.

Well.. I guess every Singaporean have had their chance of being not just the majority role of being an audience but also, a performer in NDP sometime in their life. For me, I remembered I was in Secondary 2 when my military band combined with Deyi band to perform an pre-parade item. It was a great deal. We started practising months before the actual parade. Still recall the days of long-hour practice under the hot sun, rain and drizzle, at Khatib Camp. Haha.. I been to my camp, even before I've enlisted and got posted there after SISPEC. What an unexpected coincidence!

Well, I don't really like performing at National Stadium. Mainly because of the undesirable echos you get, disrupting your ability to get which is the correct original music. It really demands you to concentrate and be alert enough to recognise which is the true music from the abyss of tempo-varied sounds.

Everything have a good and bad part. Now I shall share a down-side. I recalled during NDP during my jc1. Since my parents were off to watch NDP live. I was at home. I had a quarrel with my 1st ex until we were on the verge of break up. Silly enough, I got overly depressed, I love my 1st ex so much, i attempted suicide. Shameful but I lost my rationality and popped 20 Anti-fast panadols pills with E-30 Alcohol. The next morning, I didn't die. However, I got really into a worse condition of vomitting continuously and suffered from severe dehydration. I recalled my parents sent me to visit the neighbourhood clinic. The doctor asked me why. I was thinking, I should tell him what I consumed in order for him to prescribed the right medication for me. I remembered I just act blur when he asked why I did such a foolish thing.

What really hurt me and shattered my heart was... my ex didn't care much.
*sob*

Nah.. I shouldn't cry. Well.. it's just one of those really foolish and stupid things I do in the past.

Well well, I guess that's enough. It's National Day! HAPPY NATIONAL DAY to all (especially Sweet, the one who matters most to me now) and Singapore!

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

De one with Love-r-ly

Bright Sunny day

Today is a reeeaally significant day! Sweet and I finally exchanged our vows and couple rings today! Initially, we planned to do this special ocassion on our Monthiversay next week. However, both of us lover-birds just couldn't wait! It was a really really extremely fun, informal way of doing it. Yet, we followed the normal procedure like those couples dawn their rings on a formal wedding.

I feel so blessed. With soaring joy, so much my heart was singing. Mind went floating. Oops! hehe
As i've told Sweet earlier, we stepped on another stage of relationship. Binding us closer, cementing our deep love. It's been very successful, from our very first kiss, first fun time till now. Both of us were really happy over today.

Oh, a continual for yesterday's blog. We did manage to have our engravement hiccup resovlved. All was Sweet's brilliant idea. In the end, everything was even made easier since we bummed into the same female assistant who served us yesterday at different brunch (which we went to).
What a fortunate event, we didn't have to pay for another ring.

We ate claypot dishes with rice at AMK ave 10 hawker this evening. Sweet ordered Asiam Fish while I ordered Sesame Flavoured Chicken. Hehe.. the fish was was stingray fish. Since the chicken were those chopped chicken which i find it pretty hard to eat. I drank most of the sauce. Ate a mouthful of fish of Sweet's. It's so delicious, we even wanted to try again sometime soon!

Not forgetting to mention, afternoon Sweet and I lunched at Gela`re. Had the famous large waffle with maple syrup and two scoops of ice-cream (Vanilla Chocolate and Raspberry). Mmmh.. Yummy!

Today morning was my first marketing lecture with our local lecturer, Patricia Chia. Abit of embarrassing moment. You see, early morning before the lecture started, we were collecting our fresh lecture notes. She was behind me, requesting for a copy. Out of pure goodwill, I gave her one. Unexpectedly, when she went through the lecture notes with the class, she realised hers was not-completed. Omg. Zhen Ze was making fun of me, reminding that I was the person who passed her the lecture notes. Omg. Oops.

Hehe, after lecture, when I board bus 61 to meet Sweet, there's this guy who board the bus from the same stop. However his EZ link card was missing. Sigh. I was thinking, why am i witnessing so many other people's unlucky happening.

What a jinx I felt in the beginning of the day. (Erm.. Hope my closest friend Clara is feeling better now). Thankfully, it changed for the way-better after I met Sweet! Perpetual "Love 4Eve". Cross thy heart.

Monday, August 07, 2006

De one with "Care for present, not worry about Future"

Humid day

Today's Monday. Thankfully my 4-day school week is beginning. Thus, I didn't have to go to school today since I don't have computing class which falls on every Thursday.

Sweet went to see 911 Family Clinic at Sweet's house nearby. And I mean really nearby. Just come down from Sweet's block and walked up a sheltered walkway and wahla! There's the clinic. Really very sorry about meeting Sweet late. Despite pressing time-constrains concerns faced by Sweet, I still went jogging, blogged and did my time-table. End up, I arrived late at Sweet's place.

:: Really sorry!

Apparantly, the day didn't start off very well. First of all, Sweet was trying best to talk to me nice and soft but I was pretty harsh in my tone of speaking. Sigh. Then what could be worse when I messaged Sweet, trying to explain why I was late, why I did all those activities despite the time contraints and cautious assurance to Sweet how much Sweet matters to me. Only to lead to a misunderstanding of my implication (which I swear I didn't mean it) of me wanting to have more personal space. Sweet even start to feel that i'm giving up.

:: Sweet, I really shouldn't have said that. I can assure you that I'll never give up on you.

I suggested the both of us have Pepper Lunch at Ngee Ann City. Ooh.. Sweet was on a "no meat diet today". Therefore, Sweet ordered a Salmon Pepper Rice. While I order my usual Chicken Steak Combo. While enjoying, we kinda patched things up. Actually, it was Sweet who initiated. I feel so blissed. We communicate by writing on our soveits.

We bought our couple rings today. However there was a disappointing turn of events when we realised the engravement was wrong on our way back in the bus. Sweet was so deeply sorry. Kept saying it's Sweet's fault and apologising. I just try to lighten up the atmosphere. Keep laughing and taking it easy-going in attempt to make Sweet feel less self-blaming.

No doubt sometimes I don't deny that I feel very scared of Sweet being angry. However, everytime I feel Sweet's genuine care and true love towards me, it make me feel assured that I'm going to stick with Sweet and bear whatever Sweet scold, used harsh words on me.. Sometimes I do become unconfident (which puts Sweet off everytime) but I know it's unquestionable, that our feelings for each other is deep and honest.

I'll always bear in mind what my best friend Mohan said to me before. Don't worry about what's not there or the future. But rather, enjoy and appreciate the current wonderfuls I have in present.

De one with "It's finally Weekend!" [Part 2]

So-so weather

Saturday. I attempted my very first time, skippin 1/3 of my Macroeconomics class. Omg. Guessed I must have had inadequate sleep the yesterday night, resulting in me nearly dozing off in class. Anyway, Sweet messaged me to ask if I was feeling guilty. I didn't feel so. Simply because I really didn't understand what the lecturer was talking about. It wasn't constructive. Hmmm.. his lecture was like a lullaby. But part of the reason was because I'm eager to meet Sweet!

I met Sweet at Sweet's house void deck since Sweet didn't like the idea of coming down to my school's busstop. Well, give it to Sweet. Soon enough, we met up and took a bus down to Orchard Road to get my facial moisturiser from Isetan Wisma. After which we grab some bite at Takashimaya's Crystal Jade Cakery and a donut store respectively. This was when we first had our first minor argument of the day. Sweet was worked up over me not telling earlier that I wanted to grab a bit at the Taka's shopping centre's "food corner". Otherwise, Sweet won't have brought at Crystal Jade's. Partly I guess was because I was really blocking other customers' way in the bakery. So I went outside to wait. Leaving Sweet alone in there, deprived of my accompany.

Talking about the most "intensive" event of the day. Sweet and I had a dispute. Sweet was super-dopper PISSED with something super offensive, demoralising and sensitive. You see, I was afraid when I didn't say things which I've said. That's why I said it. To Sweet, it was a real insult and Sweet took it as me having to speak without channelling through my brain. Sigh. Well, that wasn't the main reason why Sweet was super PISSED. IT was mainly due to me not consoling or dealing with the post-situation. In my perspective, I was just dealing the situation as what Sweet have told me before everytime there's a dispute. Which was to leave Sweet alone to calm down. Sigh. Obviously it didn't work. Sweet was pissed. We remained like this until we were in the cinema, watching "Click". I purposely brought Sweet's favourite Nacho's combo. And different from all the other days when we watched movies. I ordered Diet Coke despite it's against my habit of not drinking gassy-drinks. Sweet pushed the Nachos to me, saying "I didn't order this". The mild frustration took me over, I ruined the Nachos, causing the Nachos to mix with the cheese. Well, I apologised, through sms, that I was sorry over my non-chalantic attitude. Patched up by the end of the movie.

Oh. "Click". The movie was generally enjoyable. All in all, morale of the story was about remiinding us not to be too caught up with our ambition, desires and work but taking time and effort to appreciate and treasure beautiful aspects in life like family and taking things slow. The movie depicts a architect who recieved this remote control from "the angel of death" during his visit to a unsatisfying departmental store. He realised the wonders of the remote control, amazed by the fast-forward time events, ability to get whatever he wants and desires in life, all in the "click" of the remote control. However, the cons of this ability to control and get whatever he wants, started to come in. There was a loss of control over the remote, landing the lead-actor into the later years of his life in different varietion. It was all like revolving around the idea of someone being given a view into the future kinda story line.

Sweet and I had our 2nd indulgence into "crazy food" at MacPherson eating house. We tried new stuff, erm.. except the "nong hiam" retained. We ate a delicious $5-"Hokkien Mee" (our common favourite food), "popiah" and fruit juices to compensate some healthiness into sinful indulgence. Hehe.

Sweet and I went for a very late brunch at Ang Mo Kio. Had the famous curry puff and a disappointing bak chor mee at the S11 near MacDonalds. We ordered our usual: Waffle from Prima Deli bakery. Then.. when Sweet went for toilet at MacDonalds, we quarrelled again. It was a real miscommunication. Sweet just "detonated" in front of me. I appreciate Sweet's genuine care with 9 missed calls. However, I was like "what the fark". I didn't know a single thing, all I did was sat in MacDonalds and waited. Failing to even see you coming out of the toilet, whihc resulted you finding everywhere for me. Here you are, pouring your frustrated anger on me.

:: Sigh. I'm getting kinda worried. Will all these "short-fused" quarrels, disagreement and argument deteriorate our relationship as the years go by?

Saturday, August 05, 2006

De one with "It's finally Weekend!"

Windy

You know what? It's finally week end! Thank goodness. After a week at school and i must admit, i'm really looking forward to this week end because it's a real get-away from all those intensive 3-hr lectures i have per day. Omg. Hmm.. it's been awhile since my last blog. *Oops*

Well well, life's going good but abit stressful than ever. Yesterday, I attended Kok Sin's birthday chalet at Downtown East. Phew! He over-ordered his BBQ stuff. We were like eating our fill and more than that, understanding and empathising his difficulty (of surplus leftovers) and efforts.
I must admit this was the BBQ session in which i was most hardworking *pat pat*
I peng hung for quite a long time. What an achievement. In addition that those food i cooked is not only edible but tasty..heh Kidding. It's ok-tasting lah. Or maybe it's just the quality of the catered food.

Anyway, went home very late yesterday. Didn't have much time to read up before my lecture today. Plus I had to do research for my marketing assignment project, which i only remembered when i got back.

Well.. Marketing assignment project... We're getting to start. For now, not much of discussion. Just a few during our in-between lecture breaks. So so.. got lots to be done.

Can you believe it! Saturday still have to attend lectures at school. Sigh. Hmm... next weekend too. Lessons for the whole day somemore. Sigh. Intended to skip but Sweet was pretty strict over my ill-thoughts about this. Thanks Sweet for your concern. I love you.

Hmm.. the rest? hehe.. catch up on my next blog. Oops..getting late for school!